The dinner is lovely. Peeta has always been amazing in the kitchen. I talked as usual. That's me. Silence is unbearable so I filled the dead air with comments about the constructions all over Panem. Plutarch has been filling me in news about the districts so this is me relaying the information to all of them. Peeta is very keen on listening to me. Katniss pays attention as well but Haymitch is bored. I don't know what his deal is. He told me to not be a stranger but he's the one being like that.

"So, they are going to put on this party this weekend. I am not sure what to wear yet but they said to abide with the new fashion trend which is no more colorful wigs and makeup. They want to keep it monochromatic but bright color is encouraged", I said when I heard him laughed.

I decided to ignore him and continue but he kept on laughing.

"What?" I asked trying my best not to lose my temper.

"Of course only you will worry about clothes and fashion trends while the rest of the world is worried about food and water but great thoughts, princess", he answered.

He is drunk again.

"I know that. I am only trying to make conversation", I explained.

"Well, no one cares, sweetheart. No one cares what you'll be wearing or the party or you", he snapped.

As much as I want to let it slide, I can't. I can't because it hurts too much. I know no one cares but hearing that from him, it felt like a slap on the face.

"Thank you for making that clear. The people in the Capitol already informed me of that and it's great that the people from District 12 feel the same way about me too", I muttered while looking on my plate trying hard to hold back my tears.

"Effie", Peeta called but I flashed him a smile.

"The dinner is lovely, Peeta. If you'll excuse me, I just need some fresh air", I said and got up and left the house as quickly as I can.

I lit my cigarette in less than five seconds and inhaled deeply. No more crying. I am done of crying. I inhaled some more until I finished the stick. I lit one more and resumed smoking.

Tell us what you know about the rebellion!

I don't know anything! I already told you that!

Well, then…I am sure you will have a great time here with Oleg.

Not that again…not that memory. I hated that one. I breathed deeply. I can feel my heart pounding really hard and it's making it difficult to breathe.

"Get back inside the house", Haymitch commanded.

It wasn't a request at all. Only Haymitch can have the audacity to insult you, tell you no one cares about you and command you to get back inside the house.

"You can tell Peeta that I refused to go back. He won't hold that against you", I said.

I know it's Peeta that sent him out here to get me. That kid has a big heart. I am glad Snow didn't take that away from him.

"I never knew you smoke", he muttered as he walks closer to me.

"It's a habit I picked up along the way", I explained and it's not much of an explanation.

"You shouldn't have come here", he said.

"So you keep telling me", I snapped.

"We moved on, Eff. It was hard at first and we missed you but we moved on. We managed to make a life, have a routine, and that life doesn't include anyone whose part of the games. It doesn't include anything that will remind us of those horrible times", he explained.

"It doesn't include me. You can say it. It's okay. I know you moved on. Plutarch is giving me updates about the three of you since he knows you never write me back. He's the one who asked me to come here to see you. I told him it's a bad idea but he said you would want to see me. Guess he's wrong this time", I said.

He didn't say anything. I expected him to say something rude but nothing.

"I missed the train about half an hour ago. The next one is tomorrow morning. I'll take that one and be out of your hair, I promise. I will not bother you anymore and you will not hear anything from me again. I promise", I added.

"Eff…"

"Don't say anything. It will only make it worse. At least I held on my end of that phrase. I didn't become a stranger", I cut him off with a fake smile. "You should go back inside. I'll finish up here. Tomorrow, things will go back to normal for you and Peeta and Katniss", I added.

He didn't protest. He went back inside to Katniss and Peeta. I wished he insisted. I wished he fought more, forced me to go back inside with him like what the old Haymitch will do but I guess he has changed, all of them have. So I lit up another cigarette and smoked the pain away.

The morning come and Haymitch is sleeping soundly on the sofa. Peeta and Katniss went home last night after saying goodnight to me. I didn't tell them I am leaving today. Peeta will only be upset. I am glad that I packed light considering it will be a long walk to the station. I am not needed and wanted here in District 12. I am not wanted too in the Capitol but where else can I go? I grabbed my suitcase and went towards the door. I didn't bother waking up Haymitch. He will only be upset. I turned back just to get a glimpse of his house before closing the door behind me.

"Capitol?" the man asked.

"Unfortunately", I answered and he only gave me a smirk.

I took out my cigarette and lit one up. There is no place left for me. I know that now. No one cares anymore. Haymitch told me that himself. If any other people tell me that, I will totally ignore it but he's the only that matter and if he thinks that, then it must be true. No one cares.