Andromeda, Day 208
-Blew it, how was I supposed to know that apparently adamantly disagreeing with someone's religious views, and strongly insisting that any god would be a monster isn't how humans communicate? It was straight, to the point, and, you know what, whatever, I never need to see Suvi Anwar again.
Andromeda, Day 210
-Actually, I don't need to see anyone again.
-To do: throw self into work, eventually find a farm for me and Sid.
Andromeda, Day 249
-I swear, I will kill that Ark alert program. Everyone's stopped responding, and it's just annoying. No ark is here, dumb computer.
-To do: research programing, kill program.
-Andromeda, Day 277
-Sid, I don't know if you'll ever read this. I hope not because that'd mean I'm dead or you'll be, when I find you. But I need you to know, I can't tell you how we have a space to our own, how we're getting rations, how you were woken up, or any of it, when you're just a kid. I need to keep you safe, and that means I have to lie sometimes. My work isn't pretty, but I need to do it. I won't let you die. And I'm sorry.
-Also, Sid, happy birthday, I got you that novel written by that one author you like. On paper. Hope that Tethris guy can make a story as good as you say.
-To do: kill little sister.
Andromeda, Day 300
-Fuck Heleus.
-I keep playing the same games, securing rations for me and Sid, securing power, little comforts for her, and for what? No arks are coming. We only have so much food and power, even with these harsh rations. We're going to die out here. She's going to die. I have to make peace with that. But I can't tell her. Have to keep playing the game to the end. Keep her safe. That's what a good sister would do.
-To do: somehow make peace with that.
Andromeda, Day 350
-I don't think I can make peace with death. I guess this is what giving up feels like.
-I hope someday some sapient species finds us.
-I hope they know we existed.
-I'm sorry, Sid, I thought we could run away from my problems, the people who wanted us dead. I thought we could make a fresh start. Finally have that farm you always wanted. Instead we're just going to end up dead.
To do: nothing.
Andromeda Day 357
-Holy shit, an Ark, the humans made it. They actually made it.
-Are we not going to die?
-To do: get info on the human Ark.
Andromeda, Day 358
-Alright, what I know so far: the human pathfinder, Alec Rider, was killed on Habitat-7, which, surprise, was uninhabitable. His daughter, Sara Rider, has been named Pathfinder. Kesh told me, after I called in a few favors, that Addison, Tann and Kandros are going to give her the Tempest. They're trusting her to go to Eos, and maybe elsewhere, hoping she can find something to keep us alive. It's desperate, but so are we, the human ark may be keeping the lights on but its temporary. We will still starve out here if nothing changes.
-Alright, so, here's my thoughts. I want to be on that Tempest. But I also want to keep Sid safe and stay here. I'm divided and I have to make up my mind fast.
-Pros of going: make a difference, change the math, make contact with the Exiles, the Krogan, whatever else is out there, turn my skills to good use, ensure the survival of all Milky Way species, but, more importantly, Sid. Finally get off this thing. Over fourteen kilometers long and still in the past year its felt so claustrophobic.
-Cons of going: I'll miss Sid, what if she's not safe?
-Pros of staying: keep Sid safe, don't miss her.
-Cons of staying: claustrophobia, can't change the math, and what if we all starve here? If the Kett attack I can't keep Sid safe, and if we starve ditto.
-To do: figure out a way onto the Tempest, explain to Sid why I have to go, get off the Nexus.
Andromeda, Day 359
-Alright, Sid, that was almost insultingly easy to get you to go along with this plan. I mention a Pathfinder, and suddenly you go, oh yeah, leave me behind, big sister, or better yet, let me come with you, and I say no, and suddenly I'm the bad guy again.
-Right, so I'm onboard the Tempest, and I want to record this deal that went down, because it was a good piece of work. So, I do some digging, find around when the Pathfinder is going to be trying to take off. I trade away that piece of human cow to get myself onto the dock when it's going to go down. She shows up, little thing, reddish-yellowish hair, a little bit of a smart-ass, a little bit sarcastic, and I'm thinking, oh, yeah, I've met humans like this. I can be sarcastic too. So I put on my swagger, tell her, yeah, you aren't leaving this dock without me, and then out of nowhere this guy I barely know shows up and tries to shut us down, and then it actually becomes true, she can't leave without me. But it worked, I am onboard, away from the Nexus, and on my way to Eos.
-Wow, looking at it from the outside makes it seem so small next to that gas giant. Sid's there. This is the first time I've been away from her in hundreds of years, actually.
-I miss you, kid, be safe.
-Everyone's kinda busy, getting ready for Eos, and whatever we'll find there, so taking one last moment to write in here. Pathfinder seems nice enough. Again, a little sarcastic, but not in a bad way. Maybe a little emotional. I can work with that. The other humans are okay. Or at least Harper is, and Gil. Gil says he's heard of me, and wants to know if I play something called poker. Kosta keeps shooting me strange glances, but I can be charming, win him around. Kallo's professional, Salarian, but not in a bad way. Lexi is bugging me about my last physical.
-Oh shit, Suvi Anwar is onboard. She hasn't said anything to me, and I'm definitely not saying anything to her. She can stay up near Kallo, and I'll stay back here by the engines. Maybe I made a mistake.
-Her voice isn't that special. It's as monotone to me as all other human voices. Well, relatively less tonal. Less emotional information in that voice. Why was it so into it?
-To do: fake physical records, research poker, run last checks on armor and guns. Look up that guy by the docks, and his son, and do something about that. Can't have a reputation for not honoring my deals. Be ready for anything on Eos.
Andromeda, Day 360
-It's taking longer to reach Eos than we thought, something about the Scourge.
-Pathfinder is busy. Kosta's standoffish. Kallo is busy. Gil's fun. Lexi bought the fake records, for now.
-Ugh, human days are going to mess me up. I'm sorry I'm from a planet with longer day than Earth, and never adjusted to any other day. Never spent long enough in one place to adjust.
-I was showering when Suvi walked in on me. I know the Hierarchy might remove boundaries, but I'm not Hierarchy, so I wrapped a towel around my waist, and expected it to be awkward. But I swear to all the spirits, she acted like this was our first meeting. Introduced herself. Made some small talk. What the fuck?
-We are in orbit around Eos, that computer in the Pathfinder's head is getting scans, trying to figure out the situation on the ground. I'm going to sleep.
-To do: what the fuck is up with Suvi? Get strapped into armor, and make sure you keep it on around humans.
Andromeda, Day 361
-So, we land, right, and me, the Pathfinder, Kosta, and Harper all bundle out into the first settlement site, armed to the teeth. Good thing too, when the Kett attacked. The Pathfinder is being all snarky, I'm just using so many clips, Kosta's doing whatever, Harper is doing her biotic things, and we drive them off, and then we find a Nomad. Lucky break, good news, love those things, they only have three seats.
-Side note: holy shit the Pathfinder is crazy. She's biotic, and uses a shotgun, and just...charges the Kett? Some sort of biotic thing, and then bam, blast to the face, hoping she kills them before her shields go. It's impressive honestly. First thing I've seen out of her to make me think that there's more at work here than simple nepotism.
-But anyway, she looks at the Nomad, and the big alien monolith thing on the horizon, and asks Kosta, and then me to go with her as she checks out the planet. Which I did not expect. Harper didn't either, but the Pathfinder says something about Harper needing to stay and protect the ship, and that I'm a good shot. Which, like, I don't understand. Sure I shoot a lot, and hopefully make up the difference, but I'm not really a good shot. Oh well, happy to go with them.
-I take that back, she drives like crazy, not happy to go.
-Wait, she's like, crazy good at driving, this is fun, I take that back.
-Wooooooh!
-So anyway, we get to the monolith, destroy some of the robots, when this Asari comes out of nowhere, and tackles the Pathfinder. No self control. Snuck out here and was trying to understand this thing? We needed people on the Nexus. She's sold the Pathfinder on activating these other monoliths though, so I guess that's what we're doing. Who's the old man?
-Drack! Drack is back. Love that grumpy old dude. See Pathfinder, you did need me along. Look forward to seeing you on the Tempest, ancient Krogan kook.
-Alright, third monolith up. Time to head to this vault thing. Hell, maybe this Pathfinder ain't bad.
-Gravity wells are fun.
-Holy shit look at the size of this place.
-Well, that was a close call. We made it out of there alive, and in one piece, and it seems like it did something to the planet. Maybe life here wouldn't be impossible? Is it really possible to hope after the previous two disasters here? Maybe Sid was right, and there is something to this Pathfinder thing. Congratulations, Ryder. I guess we'll Path-find out.
-Ugh, I can't believe I thought of that.
-To do: rest back on the Tempest, big day, more to do here on Eos tomorrow.
