Andromeda, Day 400

-Too tired. Tomorrow.

Andromeda, Day 401

-You know what, this isn't a history book. Ryder saved the day. The Archon tortured a bunch of Salarians. I don't have to say how. Ryder let some Krogan die, and Drack is pissed, but she saved tens of thousands of Salarians. I care about her. I need to talk to Drack about this. Fuck the Kett.

Andromeda, Day 402

-Okay, fine, what really happened was Sara died, and I hated that. And I...think I know why. Goddamn it. It's one thing to want a fling with a hot science chick, but something more? Maybe we can just have sex, keep it casual. 'Cause I learned a long time ago not to trust anyone. Right? Screw Jaal's advice.

-To do: screw Jaal's advice.

Andromeda, Day 404

-Always good to be back on the Nexus. I love you sis. Be safe. You and me against the world. No one else. Family. Only trust family.

Andromeda, Day 405

-Ughhh, Kosta, you screwed up. Yes, of course I'll come with you Sara.

-If you two could please stop joking that'd be great, alright?

-Yes, this is on you Kosta.

-Glad we had those colonists there, to help us save the day.

-Tomorrow I'm talking to Kosta.

-To do: talk to Liam.

Andromeda, Day 406

-Alright, Liam and I might not be friends, but I think he at least understands why I brought Sid with me to Andromeda

-And, I mean, not to do Lexi's job for her but I think he was projecting a bit. He had a family and a career back in the Milky Way. Left it all behind. He's got to feel bitter, and out of place after that. Maybe he's even of me, that I have family with me. Jealous. Maybe that's why he wants to have a movie night so badly. He wants to find some place to belong. He's desperately trying to find one, and had a bit of a meltdown, which got us in this mess. I'm glad Sara called him out on it.

-I don't think Drack and Sara have spoken since the Paarchero. I don't like this.

-To do: why am I so attached to these people?

Andromeda, Day 408

-Ughhh, Sid, why do you want to get involved in this? Listen, you have a point but...ugh. Why are you like this?

-Fine, I'll ask Sara, but you are going to have to stay on the line, and I'm not going to get her even if you have to wait hours, and if she shuts you down, that is the end of it, I am not getting involved.

-Listen you might have something, and of course Sara is going to get involved in this. She is nice, and wants to help everyone, right? Right? Ugh, this better not blow up in my face. Sid, you just stay there on the Nexus and be safe, even if this was pretty smart of you. I'll give you that much, okay. Alright?

-At least we're close to the Remav system.

-Shit, shit, shit, fuck Sid. I am going to drill your shin plates.

-Who is Meriweather? Who are these smugglers? Colonists? Whatever? Sara is like, oh you were helping people, because you're so altruistic. And she needs to get it through her head, I help family, which is me, and Sid. No one else. I am not altruistic, and I'm not helping people, and I have no clue who the fuck any of these people are, and she's banging around down there looking for a way out. Fuck!

-Of course it's you Sid. I can't fucking believe this. Sara's like, hey, she's smart, but she's not, she's dumb and she needs to get home, back to the Nexus where she will be safe, but we need her here and FUCK THIS DAY AND FUCK YOU SID.

-Sid's alive. I need some time to think.

Andromeda, Day 409

-Okay, here's what happened yesterday. We fought through a lot of Meriweather's guys, but they took Sid captive. I don't think I realized how that would feel, all my worst Milky Way nightmares come true in a new galaxy. And fucking Sara fucking Ryder shoots that fuck Meriweather, I run grab Sid and theres a shootout. We survived.

-Sid...apologized. I don't think she realized what my job was like. She knows now, though. I can't hide it from her anymore.

-It didn't end well. Sara said Sid did a good thing, but I don't know. She stormed off, back to the Citadel, but after it was all over, Ryder checked in on me, and asked me how I'm doing. Why did she do that?

-Well you know what, Sara Ryder? I'm not okay. I did all of this to give my sister a new start, so she doesn't have to do the things I had to do to survive, the things I still do to survive. The things I do with you. And she goes and does them anyway. A new galaxy and it didn't matter. I can't keep her safe. It's big and dangerous, and I just don't know if I can do this alone. I can't keep her safe? She'll get involved again, or the Kett will attack, or the food run out, despite all your colonies, and the angara, and it will all come crashing down. But what do you care about her?

-Why do you care? Were you trying to encourage her? Mentor her? Why by all the stars would you do that?

-Because you actually do want to encourage her?

-Because you care about her?

-Because you care about me?

-Oh.

-Fuck, here she comes, have to think of something fast.

-So Sara comes in, as I'm on the comms desperately trying to repair all of the damage Sid's done to my network and my contacts and my reputation, and I tell her about the cats, and Sara, being Sara, says cats are fun, is being all light, and jokey, but then she gets serious. She talks about helping people, like Sid, and she means it. And I start babbling my worries to her, like a kid. What if Sid gets into trouble again? Blah blah blah. And she just says that she cares for us both.

-Didn't really have much to say after that. I think I'm into Sara Ryder. More than just casual sex level into her.

-To do: Spirits, am I really going to do this to myself again? I already looked up how to sex humans. I need to take this slow. Need to look up how to romance humans. Also, is she into me? Need to confirm.