A/N: Hey guys! I'm back! Hope you all are well and thank you guys SO much for your reviews. Sorry if my last A/N seemed whiny. I was suffering from writers anxiety when I didn't get much feedback for part VII. I wasn't sure you guys liked my story anymore. I'm SO happy you still do :) Anyway I'm back from vacation and I've got GREAT news for you guys! While I was on vacation I was able to complete not one, not two, but THREE chapters of this story. So expect a weekly update the next few weeks. If I get a lot of feedback though I might post the next one sooner, so keep that in mind :). Take care and enjoy part IX. Love, Ellivia22
A/N: To the guest who reviewed me, yes I still plan to write my story "Best Day Ever". I sometimes write two stories at a time, but right now my sole focus is on "I'll Be". But don't worry, I haven't forgotten about that story :)
Disclaimer: If I owned Teen Titans I would know what Mas Y Menos is saying all the time. I'm terrible at Spanish lol
I'll Be
Part IX
Starfire
I observe sadly as Raven follows the doctor out of the waiting room. I wish that I can go too, but Raven deserves to see Beast Boy more than I. He is the one she loves. And I-I have let my friends down in so many ways. Slowly I sit down in a nearby chair. I cannot stop thinking about the angry words Raven said to me earlier. She has every right to be angry with me. I have not been a very good friend to her or Beast Boy.
When I close my eyes all I can see is the horrible events that have occurred today. I know that I will never forget what had happened for as long as I live.
Robin, Cyborg, and I did not waste any time following Raven. It was not difficult to discover where Raven was headed thanks to the coordinates on the communicator. I flew as fast as I could. I could not stop. I had to arrive in time to save Friend Beast Boy. If I did not, I would not be able to forgive myself. Already I was upset at myself for not listening to Raven the first time.
The location on the communicator led the three of us to a run down mansion. There was not another building close by. When we arrived we went straight in the surprisingly empty building to the basement. I let out a gasp of horror because of the terrible sight before my eyes.
Raven was in the middle of the basement, doing the best she could to fight off Slade's henchmen despite being outnumbered. Chained against the wall behind her was our green teammate. He was severely bloody and bruised. I watched as he struggled to free himself from the chain holding him up in the air. I could not stand the sight any longer. My eyes glowed green and I shot a starbolt at the chain. The chain broke instantly, sending Beast Boy to the ground with a thud. I wanted to approach him to provide further assistance, but Cyborg beat me to it.
"I wouldn't have done that if I was you," Slade said coldly from beside me. He aimed a punch for my head. I ducked and rose high up in the air. I could feel the starbolts in my hands. I was ready to fight for my friends, no matter what.
"Well you are not me and you are going to release my friends. NOW!"
Slade let out a cold laugh. He pulled out a weapon to use to attack me, but Robin collided into the villain before he could reach me. Since Robin was battling Slade and Cyborg was taking care of Beast Boy I decided to help Raven fight the increasing number of henchmen. She was standing in front of a large bookcase twice the size of her and fulled with heavy looking books. She was shooting aura with one hand, the other hand holding a shield of black aura to protect herself.
Feeling my alien power inside me I shot as many starbolts as I could at the henchmen surrounding my teammate. One by one, they began to fall to the ground. The battle was almost over. All we had to do was get Beast Boy out of here safely and everything would be all right. I noticed the bookcase that Raven was standing behind starting to wobble. It was going to fall any second.
Before I could warn Raven, a low growl filled the room. It sounded like a wild animal being let on the loose. Oh no! It was the Beast. We were all in danger. Perhaps I should stop him before he tried to attack Raven again. Before I could do anything, the green beast ran forward fast, grabbing Raven around the waist. Then he ran to the other side of the room-pulling her away from danger. The bookcase hit the ground.
CRASH!
I felt my heart racing. The Beast did not come out to harm Raven. He saved her. I immediately felt a great amount of guilt. Raven was right the entire time. The Beast was not dangerous. The antidote did cure Beast Boy.
"BEAST BOY!"
The green Titan was back in his human form and on the verge of collapse. I watched in slow motion as he fell. Luckily Raven caught him just in time. He needed medical assistance at once. Since there were no more henchmen to fight I hurried over to Cyborg. The half robot was still standing by the wall where Beast Boy was chained against. Cyborg was staring at the sad scene in front of us in horror.
"We must help Beast Boy," I told him urgently. "But how can we do this? The medical room is destroyed."
"I already called the hospital," Cyborg informed me. His tone was higher than usual. I noticed that his dark face was unnaturally pale. "They should be here in fifteen minutes." Then without another word he ran off. I assume he went to assist Robin in fighting Slade. Where Robin and Slade were I did not know.
I had to inform Raven that help was on the way. I was so afraid to approach her. She must still be so angry with me. I must be brave. Raven must know that there was help coming. Hope was still possible. Carefully I approached her. Tears were streaming down her face and her hands were blue. She was trying desperately to heal Beast Boy. I forced myself to not look at our injured teammate. If I do I knew that I would break out in tears.
"Raven," I said timidly. "Cyborg called the rescue people from the hospital. They will be here soon to provide assistance."
Raven did not look at me, nor did she respond. The next thing I knew she teleported out of the basement, taking Beast Boy with her.
I sighed sadly. She was still very angry with me. Not that I blamed her. I was wrong about everything. I had treated Beast Boy wrong and did not listen to Raven when I should have. I had to make it up to her somehow. Most importantly I had to make it up to Beast Boy if he pulled through.
I cover my face with my hands. They become soaked immediately in my tears. I have been so foolish. Raven will never forgive me, nor will Beast Boy. I do not deserve to be forgiven. I am...I am a clorbag. While I continue to sob I silently pray that Beast Boy will live.
When I am finally able to compose myself a great amount of time has passed. At least a couple of hours. The room is quiet. I am alone. Where is Raven? Is she still with Beast Boy? I was hoping that she would be out here so that I can take my turn. She must still be with him. I sigh sadly. I may not be able to visit Beast Boy after all.
No! I have to see him-even if it is against the rules. It may be my only chance to do so. Not even the anger of Raven is going to stop me this time. I must apologize to him, even if he is not awake to hear it. Swiftly I leave my chair and approach the large rectangular desk. The woman behind the desk is typing away at her computer, her black hair falling on her shoulder.
"Excuse me, please," I say softly. "I am sorry to disturb you."
The girl looks up from her work. She looks to be only a couple of years older than I. "What can I do for you," she asks kindly.
"I wish to visit my teammate. Will you please permit me to see him."
"I'm sorry. Your friend is still with him right now. I can't let you enter until she comes back."
"Please Leah," I say, taking note of the name on her blue buttoned shirt. "My friend is dying. If I do not apologize to him now, I will regret it for the rest of my life. I promise I will not take long."
The receptionist lets out a stressed sigh. I know that she wants to help me but is afraid of the consequences. As much as I do not wish to get her in trouble I give her a pleading look. "All right," she says reluctantly a few minutes later. "I'll have one of my nurses take you to the room. But five minutes only. Robynn?"
A pretty woman a couple of years older than I approaches me. She is wearing a light green hospital outfit. "Yes Leah?"
"Would you please take her to room 110. It will only be for five minutes."
The nurse hesitates for a moment, then smiles. "Sure I can take her." She motions me to follow her. "This way."
"Thank you," I say quietly.
"I have been so foolish," I whisper to no one in particular as we walk down the long hallway. "A bad friend. What if I am too late?"
"Don't lose hope," the nurse says from beside me. "I read over Beast Boy's chart. His condition is stable. That's a good sign."
Her words give me slight reassurance, but not enough to ease the guilt that I feel on the inside. "Even if he does recover I know that he will never forgive me. Neither will Raven. I do not deserve to be forgiven. I have hurt him so much and he did not deserve it."
Robynn puts a reassuring hand on my shoulder. "Everyone deserves to be forgiven. Just show him how sorry you are and that you want to make up for what you have done and he will forgive you in time."
"You think so?" I ask uncertainly.
"Yes." She stops in front of room 110. "You have five minutes."
I thank her quietly then enter the room. The lights are off and the room is silent except for the constant beeping of the machines surrounding the bed. I feel my heart melt because of the sight in front of me.
Raven is curled up on the bed nearly on top of Beast Boy. an arm draped across his stomach protectively. Beast Boy is lying motionless on the bed, but I notice that he is not as pale as he was when I saw him earlier. I feel sick to my stomach seeing all the injuries that he had received while he was with Slade. It is a lot worse than I thought. A horrible thought hits me. What if Robynn is wrong? What if his injuries are too much and he passes on? Whatever will I do?
I notice a thin white blanket folded at the edge of the bed. Silently I grab the blanket and place it over my friends. "I am so sorry, friends," I whisper sadly. "For everything."
With one last sad look at my friends I leave the room. It would be best if I make myself comfortable at the hospital. I am determined to not leave the hospital until Beast Boy is well again.
When I enter the waiting area a few minutes later I realize that it is no longer empty. Cyborg is sitting in one of the chairs closest to the door. His head is in his hands. When I get closer I can hear muffled sounds. Is he crying?
"Friend Cyborg?"
The half robot jumps to his feet when he sees me. I notice that his human eye is bloodshot. "Star! How is he?! Is he alive?!"
"Yes, but I fear he may die soon."
Cyborg shakes his head. "No you're wrong," he says in complete denial. "BB will pull through. He's strong." His confidence fades fast as he sees the anguished look on my face. "Oh man," he says sadly, dropping back in his chair. "This is all my fault. I hurt him so bad. If I hadn't...if I had treated BB like he deserved to be treated, we wouldn't be here."
I sit in the chair beside him. "It is not just you, Cyborg. I have been a bad friend as well. All this time I thought he was dangerous-that the Beast was dangerous. I was wrong. Raven was right all along. Why did I not listen to her before? I should have trusted my own instincts instead of just listening to Robin." I pause, thinking about my previous statement. Now that I think about it Robin has not arrived yet. Why? Is he still fighting Slade? "Were you able to capture Slade?" I ask.
Cyborg shakes his head. "He ran off once Robin and I cornered him. We'll have to keep a close eye on BB if Slade comes after him again. I wonder why Slade took BB in the first place."
I wonder that myself, but that is not nearly as important as the question I am thinking at this time. "But I do not understand. If Slade is on the loose then why is Robin not here with us?"
"I tried to get him to come with me to the hospital, but he said he had more important things to do. So he went back to the tower."
"WHAT?!" I sit up straight in my chair. "What could possibly be more important than being there for our friend?!"
Cyborg shrugs. "To look for Slade. You know how Robin is."
I stand up quickly. Anger is running fast through my veins. How can Robin be looking for Slade when his friend is dying in the hospital? How can he be so...cold. This is not right. I have to make him see reason. Immediately. I begin flying towards the exit.
Cyborg stands up in alarm. "Star, where are you going?"
I turn to face him, my eyes glowing green. "I am going to talk to Robin and I will not return until he finally sees reason!"
I enter the tower quickly. It does not take me long to locate Robin. He is sitting behind the large computer screen typing away quickly on the large keyboard. Normally the sight of him makes me feel warm on the inside, but not this time. Instead I am angry that he is here instead of at the hospital supporting our friend. "ROBIN!" I yell angrily. I throw a starbolt at his keyboard to get his attention. It crackles then the lights on the keyboard shut off.
Robin turns to look at me. He shrinks slightly from seeing me so angry. He stands up unsteadily. "Calm down, Star. I know that you are mad, but I promise you it's not what you think!"
I refuse to listen to what he has to say. After everything that has happened so far I am done listening to him. From now on I am going to trust my own instincts. "You coward! You clorbag! You-you...HOW DARE YOU!"
"Star, I know that it looks bad that I'm not with you guys at the hospital, but I swear I have a very good reason. I'm keeping an eye on Slade just in case he plans to strike again."
"But what about Beast Boy?" I ask as calmly as I can manage. "We can protect him more efficiently if you were at the hospital with us. If anything, you should be with us to say goodbye. I do not believe he is going to survive the night."
"Good," Robin mutters under his breath. "That's one less problem that I have to deal with."
I stare at him in shock. His voice is so cold, so uncaring. How did I not notice the disdain he's held for Beast Boy until now? Has he always felt this way about our green teammate? Why did I not notice? "How can you say such a thing?!" I demand shrilly. "What has Beast Boy done to cause you to hate him? The Beast is not as dangerous as you have been saying it is. I saw it with my own eyes. It rescued Raven from harm during the battle. Raven was being truthful the entire time."
Robin does not answer me immediately. His cold expression does not change. "I don't give a damn about the Beast. I knew it wasn't dangerous after his battle with Adonis. That's not the reason why I'm not at the hospital right now. That is not the reason why I hate Beast Boy. It's because he is the most annoying, immature, pathetic excuse of a superhero that I have ever met. If he wasn't on the team in the first place we would've caught Slade a long time ago. He's a worthless addition to the team, Starfire, and you know it."
It is as if Robin physically assaulted me. I never thought that the person I care about the most-the boy that I secretly love could be capable of so much hate. And for the most petty of reasons. Only now do I realize that I do not know Robin as well as I thought I did. "Yes, I admit Beast Boy can be immature and annoying at times. But he is not pathetic. You are pathetic for hating Beast Boy just because he is not perfect. He has done nothing to you to deserve the horrible way you have been treating him. I am going to the hospital now to support my friend and makes amends for how badly I have been treating him. If you do not do the same, then I shall never speak to you again!"
I storm past the kitchen and enter the waiting elevator. Before the doors can close I feel Robin grasp my hand. The simple touch sends chills up and down my spine in any normal circumstances. Now all I feel is nothing but disgust and anger. "Please Starfire, don't leave me. I love you and want to be with you. Always."
I stare at him longingly. Oh how I have longed to hear him say such sweet words, but now that I have seen him for the man he really is I want nothing to do with him. I do not respond. I just stare at him coldly as the elevator doors shut tightly. I am now even more angry at Robin. How can he be capable of love when there is so much hate in his heart? If Robin does not make amends I vow to never speak to him again.
To be continued...
