AN: The characters belong to J.K. Rowling

Lily read the letter again before putting the letter under the loose brick on the fountain, praying to God that Prongs receives that letter. James Potter watched Lily Evans place the letter, pulling his invisibility cloak on he quickly crossed the courtyard and reached the fountain.

Dear Prongs,

I know you wanted to end all communication. I know you probably won't reply to this letter, maybe you won't even check under the brick for this letter but I would still give it a shot. Petunia is getting married to that whale. Mum wrote to me telling me that I had to attend the wedding and be the maid of honour. Petunia wrote to me and asked me to stay away from her wedding because I ruin things.

I think I would have not gone to the wedding under different circumstances but Petunia is pregnant. I am going to be an aunt! You know how exciting it is. You have your brothers too. But she doesn't want me near her child. I don't know why her hatred hurts so much more now.

Somehow, I always believed that our children would be able to bridge the gap between us. It looks like I was wrong after all. Why won't she let me love her child? Why won't she let me dote on her child? I have only heard about her pregnancy and I am planning all those delightful little gifts I would charm for the child or wizarding sweets I would get him/her. His/her little finger wrapping around an enchanted crystal, giggling at the figures zooming inside. His/her expression as he/she pops Bertie Bott's Every Flavoured Beans. Being the cool, awesome Aunt Lily. Aunt Lily. Look even that sounds so intimate and full of love.

She asked me not go to her wedding. How will I do that, Prongs? What should I tell my parents? She is getting married during the Easter Break. I can't just stay here for no apparent reason. I don't know what to do. I want to be there for her child, make amends before the child is born but she wouldn't let me.

I hope you do answer this time. I know how the girls will react, Marlene would want to attend the wedding with me and punch her nose. Alice would offer me her home for the holidays. Mary well she would come up with a good excuse for me to stay back. But all three of them will have harsh words for Petunia. Severus would only sneer, be baffled that she managed to get pregnant with Vermin's child; tell me I am better off without her and then proceed to the next question for his essay. Somehow, none of them understands this conflict of interests.

Strangely, someone else does. He offered me a helping hand but I think I have lost my chance with him. I think I upset him greatly. Should I try and talk to him again? I am sorry I am burdening you with all my problems. You probably don't really want to know about all of this.

Waiting for your letter,

Lily

P.S.- You are right. Writing about it does help a bit. Bye.

James read the letter again, his insides burned. How he wished he could just go and hide Lily and protect her from all this pain. He wished he could kiss her tears away, be there for her and yet he couldn't, not as James Potter at least.

"Hey James, Peter thinks he found a new passage out of Hogwarts, we are planning on checking it out tonight. You in?" Sirius asked as he fell back on his bed. James didn't reply, his mind was still with Lily and how upset she looked the other night. The night when Sirius had a talk with Regulus and had come back in a foul mood, James had seen him talk to Lily in the common room but Sirius never said what they talked about. James read the last part of the letter again before looking at Sirius who had half risen from his bed, eyeing him curiously.

"You knew?" He said.

Sirius' brows furrowed. "I know a lot of things but what are you talking about?"

"About Lily. You knew about her sister's wedding. That's what you were talking about the other night, weren't you?"

"Yes, I knew. But I didn't think it would be right of me to tell you about it. You are my best mate Prongs. But I accidentally read the letter her sister sent and it didn't feel right to talk about it with anyone other than Evans herself." Sirius said, climbing out of his bed and sitting across from James in James' bed. "How did you know by the way?"

James mutely showed him the letter. Sirius didn't take it from James; he just looked at the letter and nodded. The two sat in comfortable silence. "She talks about you in this letter." James said after a long pause.

"Who?" Sirius asked distractedly as he tried to loosen the knot he had made on his shoelaces.

"Lily. She thinks it's strange that you understand her situation. She says you offered her some help." James said, carefully looking at Sirius who nodded thoughtfully. "But she fears that you might not want to talk to her again."

"What?" Sirius yelped. "Why won't I talk to her again? She needs someone who understands what she is going through. No offence James. I know you meant well but you never really understood what it is like. But then I have Aunt Dorie and Andromeda and they know exactly what it feels like and talking to them about it helps a lot."

James nodded in understanding as he watched Sirius thoughtfully. "You should go talk to her. Tell her you are there for her."

"I can't do that. I haven't talked to her since that night." Sirius said looking at James as if he had gone crazy.

"Why not? You said you don't hate her or anything." James asked frustrated, didn't the stupid mutt understand? It was James' way of ensuring that someone was there for Lily apart from a pen friend.

"And what will I tell her? Don't you think it would be a little weird that she sends Prongs the letter today and suddenly I want to talk to her again. She is not stupid Prongs. She will put two and two together."

James let his head hit the headboard. He hadn't thought about that. "But she needs someone. I can't be there for her. I can only write stupid letters to her as Prongs."

"Are you still continuing with the letter idea?" Remus asked as he entered the room followed by Peter.

"Evans wrote a letter to Prongs. Apparently she is upset about something." Sirius said before James could reply.

Remus sat up straighter in his chair, something that the two dark haired marauders did not miss. "You know, don't you?" James asked quietly.

Remus looked at them before nodding, "I also know about your late night chat with her."He said looking at Sirius. "She thinks she has lost her chance to talk to you. According to her you just left abruptly, she thinks she ended up offending you."

James smacked Sirius on the back of his head. "Hey!" Sirius protested. "I did not leave because I was offended. I was just reminded of the chat I had with Regulus earlier that evening. I was just angry at him because he is an idiot."

"We know that, Sirius." Peter said dodging Remus' shoe as he broke off some chocolate from Remus' chocolate bar. "She doesn't. Honestly, had I been in her position I would have thought the same. Maybe you should go talk to her. Tell her Moony knocked some sense into you."

"You have your moments of absolute brilliance, don't you?" James said grinning at Peter. Peter shrugged as he bit into the chocolate ducking to avoid Remus' other shoe.

"Go get your own chocolate, you rat." Remus huffed crossing the room and snatching the bar from Peter's hand. "But Moony, this is compensation for last full moon when you tried to eat me." Peter whined. "Eat my chocolate again and I will really eat you next time." Remus threatened.

"Okay fine wolfie." Peter huffed. "I am going down for lunch. They make pies on Saturdays. And Jinxie told me today we are having Shepherd's pie on the menu. You coming?"

The boys nodded, getting up to go for lunch. James nudged Sirius who looked at him with confusedly. James nodded, Sirius smiled relieved and ran off to piggyback on Remus' back till the common room. James laughed, shaking his head at his brothers. He looked at the letter on his bed again and vowed to write back to Lily as soon as he got back from lunch.

AN: I know it is not much. But I am trying really hard. You will get a new chapter soon. I promise. Please do read and review. Happy reading.

I would like to thank Brandon, bekinsb20, Supergoddad, lycheelover and krishna-kalki for their love and support.
A special thanks to Tharros for taking such an interest in the fic and being critical about it. I am trying to slow it down a bit. But I might not incorporate the "mudblood" incident as such and focus on the parts after the "mudblood" incident. Its makes no sense in repeating what all of us already know.
Will post another chapter soon. Till then please check out my other fics. They are not so bad, honestly! I will be updating all of them soon.
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