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Chapter Nineteen

Rin woke in the middle of the night, laying there for a long while and trying to go back to sleep. Eventually, she rolled over to scan the room and found Sesshomaru in his usual perch. This time, he was leaned against the window, lost in his thoughts and oblivious to the fact she was awake. She crept out of bed and folded her arms around his shoulders.

"Are you alright?"

"No...I'm not alright. I haven't been."

"I know...care to tell me why? Are you scared to be a father? Is that it?"

"No...well yes...but not for the reasons you may think. I'm not worried that I will fuck the kid up or anything like that it's just...I didn't realize I loved my father until I sealed away his sword. What if...what if that is to be my fate with my own son? Hated, even in death, for centuries. We-we never made peace. Father and I-" his voice cracked and she put a finger to his lips.

"Shh," she soothed and ran her free hand down his cheek. "You can still make peace with your father...you know the lady mother has that power."

"Yes...I know it's just-"

"You feel guilty."

"Yes...what if my own son is like me? The polar opposite of his father with the will to hold a grudge against a dead man?"

"What if he is? Your father always knew you loved him...and you will know this baby's love from the moment it lands in your arms."

"How can you be sure?"

"I just know...I know you."

"How can I even begin to take care of a child?"

"You took care of me...didn't you?"

"Letting you roam free in the forest?," he gaped.

"Okay well...you met my needs...but that was different. Sesshomaru I was your ward, not your child." She shook her head to dispel the thoughts. "You did your job by meeting my needs and protecting me...and you will do your job with this baby by meeting it's needs, protecting it, and loving it."

"But...I didn't-"

"No of course you didn't love me then...but you showed me love and compassion when I needed it. Like I said, you provided my needs."

"So...you don't think our baby will despise me?," he looked at her sheepishly.

"No...not in the least," she kissed the tip of his shoulder.

"Rin..."

"Yes?," she batted her eyelashes at him.

"It's been three days." He turned and looked to the rising sun in the distance.

"Oh it has?," her excitement piqued.

"Yes...it has," he stated.

"Well then...I believe it's time for me to lock the door and have my way with you," she smirked and sauntered to the door, leaving him gaping behind her.

...

Rin's hands shook as she fumbled with the sash behind her back, Sesshomaru coming out of nowhere to assist her. She took a long look at herself in the mirror. Her features were sharper somehow, more defined. Her hair even softer than before and shiny just as Sesshomaru's was. She had two little fuzzy ears on the top of her head and her own mokomoko was draped over her shoulder, albeit it wasn't nearly as long as Sesshomaru's yet, but had grown considerably over night. Rin had picked a white silk kimono adorned with Sesshomaru's seal in red. Her sash was black and flowed well past her feet along the small train of her robes.

"Say...Sesshomaru? Do you think the kids will like how I look? It's not like I can really run and play with them in this," she squirmed.

"No...but it's only for today. Rin, you're coming out of laying in. So for today, please dress the part. This will be the first time anyone in the castle lays eyes on your transformers state. You want the respect of your newfound people...take it. Show them a serious and formidable ruler today. There will be plenty of time to play tomorrow."

"Yes...of course. I will act proper. And play the part. But please tell me supper will be private."

"Of course. Diaroku, Inuyasha, and I need to have a sit down. You had best take Kagome and the children on a tour of your gardens."

"Understood," she nodded, knowing the conversation was going to be difficult...and could possibly end with Sesshomaru breaking up a fight. He was right. It'd be best for everyone else to keep a distance. She pinned her hair back and turned to him expectantly.

"Alright. I'm ready. But first I want to see Kagome and the kids. I need to tell them first...so they don't hear from somewhere else."

"Of course...come. I'll show you the way," he put an arm around her waist and led her down the hallway a short distance before stopping to knock on a door. Within seconds, it flew open and Amari was standing on the other side.

"Good morning uncle Sesshu, good morning Rin. Uncle Sesshu, your castle is so cool. Like soo insanely cool. Dad let me go exploring last night and I love it here! Can I have my own room? Oh please please please!," she pleaded and Sesshomaru chuckled, putting his hands up in mock defense.

"We will discuss it. Don't worry. But remember this is also your birthright. As I inherited my title from my father, so did Inuyasha. Do not worry, you have just as much a right to these lands as my own children will have. As a descendent of my great father."

"Sooooooooo I can stay here sometimes yayyyyy!," she squealed and he stopped her.

"Though it may be your birthright, you are still a child so if you would like to keep chambers here in the castle, ask your father. There is room should he agree."

"Awesome! Dad! Momma! Uncle Sesshu and Rin are here!"

"We know," inuyasha countered as they walked through the door.

"Oh my god, Rin," Kagome gasped when she laid eyes on her. Rin grabbed Kagome by the wrist and slipped from the room before she had a chance to say a word to Sesshomaru.

"What happened to waiting? Thinking things through?," she scolded the moment they were out of earshot.

"Kagome...don't you understand? I'm tired of waiting. Think about it I've known Sesshomaru just as long as you have known Inuyasha."

"Not quite as long," she countered.

"Oh really? Because according to Sesshomaru, we met around a month after Inuyasha was unsealed from the tree. You have us beat by a month."

"You were a child."

"So were you," her voice rose as it never had before against Kagome. "Your argument is that I do not know my husband well enough to be bound to him. Yet we have known each other just as long as you have known your husband. So in belittling my marriage you have also belittled your own."

"Rin...no don't take it that way. I know how much you love Sesshomaru. I know how much he loves you but it's just...I'm sorry. He's done some unforgivable things in the past and I should make peace with them. None of the things he has done matter in any way towards your relationship. I just worry."

"I know you do. But I promise that I know what I'm doing, and I know who I'm bound to spend the rest of my life with."

"Just...be careful. Sesshomaru is a very dangerous man."

"Yes I know. I've seen firsthand how dangerous Lord Sesshomaru is. Which is precisely why he is the only man I trust wholeheartedly with my safety."

"I can see why you'd feel that way but-"

"No you can't. You can't possibly understand why I feel this way, Kagome. Yes, you've had your fair share of time running and battling demons, roughing it as you call it in the woods, and facing incomprehensible terror. But remember when you faced those things you were sixteen. I was eight. I was six years old when my family was murdered by bandits. Human bandits. Beaten and starved for two years by the villagers who "took me in". Eight when I was killed by your friend Kogas wolves and brought back to life by Lord Sesshomaru. Who has shown me more love and compassion than any human ever has. And now, look at me. I stand before you his equal, and still you question our devotion." She let out a breathy laugh and ran her fingers through her hair as tears began to spill from her eyes.

"I mean fuck, what does the man have to do? He went to literal HELL and back for me, yet you still questioned his intentions. Now he's made me his equal in every way and you STILL question him. What do you think? I was forced into this?"

"No, Rin stop. Now I know what's going on, now that I see those two little dots on your neck. You're pregnant aren't you?," she beamed at her.

"Yes I am. But please don't try to change the subject and lighten the mood. No matter if the world sees a monster, I see an angel. MY angel. So I don't want to hear another word against him. If you love me as you say you do, respect my wishes."

"Alright...I'll give it some thought. I'm sorry. It's just that I'm so protective of you."

"As much as I love you for it, you can rest assured that Sesshomaru's protectiveness is rivaled by none."

"I know...I'm sorry. Really...now please let me be excited for you," Kagome took Rin's hands and she nodded.

"Alright, but no more of this nonsense. I've not said a word to Sesshomaru about your...reservations. But the next time you bring it up I will go straight to him. I'm lying to my mate for you and every time I have to do it makes me ill."

"Alright...that much I can do. I promise to keep my mouth shut."

"Thank you," she breathed a sigh of relief. "Come, we'll go find Sesshomaru and the others."

"Yeah...and you can tell me all about this," Kagome put a hand on her belly and winked, earning a laugh. They caught up to the men and children as Sesshomaru was leading them to the rest of their party.

"Aunt Rin, I love your ears...and your fur. I wish I could grow a fur like that, it's so soft and fluffy," Amari ran her fingers through Rin's fur in wonder, she'd always wished to be a full fledged demon, from the time she was old enough even form a wish.

"Well you have ears like hers, Amari," Sesshomaru interjected, sensing his brothers ire at the fast that his daughter so desperately wished to be something different. "Don't let its beauty fool you, the thing is quite an annoyance. Soon, Rin will grow tired of it, no matter how comfy it is to sleep on," he winked at her and she settled.

"Uncle Sesshu? Where are we going?," Izayoi interrupted.

"We'll take you to the monk and you may roam about freely. Rin and I have to make an appearance but, Inuyasha, I'll come and find you before supper. Diaroku has asked you and I join him for a run, he wishes to speak to you away from the castle."

"If it's so private, why do you gotta go?," he retorted.

"Because, Inuyasha, I have to prevent the situation from becoming violent. As he has some...confessing...to do."

"Alright. Fine."

"After lunch it is then," Sesshomaru said and Inuyasha let out a short "keh,".

...

As they were getting closer to the common area, Rin's stomach twisted into knots.

"Sesshomaru...let's not announce our pregnancy just yet...alright? It's just that there can be so many complications at the beginning. I just want to get out of the danger zone before making it public knowledge. Those close to us may know, of course but,"

"Yes, of course. Let you have your wish." He led her through the double doors where a few dozen of the castles habitants were mulling about. From across the room, Rin spotted Akiru, who took a deep breath and marched up to Rin.

"L-lady Rin, you look radiant this morning. Lord Sesshomaru, you look well. I hope your lying in period was restful," he attempted to be kind and Sesshomaru, thinking for a moment, took his outstretched hand.

"It was, thank you. Say, Akiru. Stop by and visit my uncle, Diaroku in the morning. So he may offer you a better position in the castle. It's only fitting as you and Rin are such good friends."

"Y-yes, my Lord. I don't know what to say. You are so generous. Thank you."

"The pleasure is mine," he nodded as Akiru scurried away excitedly. Everyone was looking at Rin. From looks of disdain and fear to looks of wonder and admiration. For whatever reason they were looking, she didn't care, it made her nervous all around. Diaroku was now speaking to Sesshomaru and Rin was trying her best to remain calm in a situation that made her want to scream. She hated all of the attention she was getting.

"Rin, come, I'll take you back to Kagome and the kids now," Sesshomaru announced, loud enough for the people surrounding them to hear hur not loud enough for the room to fall silent.

"Alright. Thank you,"

"Of course. Like I said, just an appearance. Now I have to deal with a few things but I'll catch up to you at supper, alright?"

"Alright, deal," she accepted a kiss with a warm smile, content in whatever life with him may hold.

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