Ch 19
Ben
I had followed the path for what felt like an eternity. There wasn't much to look at really, anything past the bushes and trees lining the path was just dark.
I would take breaks every couple of hours or so. I could hear some forms of life scurrying through the bushes, every now and then the call of a bird.
I was surprised to hear things other than people be part of the in between, but everything was a part of the Force and the Force was a part of everything.
After a while I noticed it started to get quieter and quieter, eventually the only sound I could hear was the sound of my feet on the ground.
The silence was very unnerving, it sent chills down my spine and made the hair on the back of my neck stand.
Ben Solo...
I stopped dead in my tracks and turned around.
There was no one around at all.
I had no way to defend myself, sure I could do hand to hand combat, but in a dangerous situation that could only get me so far.
I kept walking but I opened myself up to the Force around me and kept my guard up. It wasn't long before I felt it. The Darkness was near, I could feel it like a cold slime covering every part of my soul.
Ben... don't you miss us? The power... the strength... don't you miss knowing you mattered?
The words kept repeating over and over in my head. I grabbed at my temples in frustration, I couldn't take how overwhelming the call of the darkness was.
And then suddenly it stopped.
The darkness was gone.
I looked up and there was something that looked like a screen.
It was like seeing through a fogged window, but there were people on the other side of it.
A young girl with soft brown wavy hair was sitting on what looked to be a huge canopy bed.
She wrapped her arms around her knees and I could see her shaking.
After a few moments I could hear some sound, but everything was muffled.
She was crying.
Ben... I miss you...
Said the girl. It was Rey.
I ran towards the screen and pounded against it but it was no use, she couldn't see or hear me.
The image cleared up and she looked beautiful.
Her hair was completely down, it wasn't pulled back or in her usual three buns. She was wearing a light blue, long nightgown with a thin white silk chiffon robe over it. The gown hugged her curves beautiful and gave a beautiful contrast against her dark hair.
She looked like a princess... like an angel.
I fell to my knees at the vision of her in front of me. Even crying she looked like a vision from heaven, one I would do anything to be able to hold again.
Suddenly her head snapped up and her eyes bore straight into mine. Her face switched from sadness to... fear? Shock? I couldn't place the feeling exactly, but I could see she seemed confused.
Ben...?She said and began to get up, and that's when the screen disappeared. It was like it had never been there, I was left in silence once again. I was already on the ground, and having her so close and to not be able to go to her and comfort her had shattered what was left of my heart.
What was the point of this stupid journey? How was I ever going to go back to her?
Nothing was clear.
I lay on the ground for an eternity and felt my body shake with deep sobs.
Never in my life had I experienced such a hopeless circumstance. Never had I loved someone unconditionally and then had them taken away so abruptly.
I became furious and felt the darkness around me one again.
I wanted to call it, I wanted to give in...
I was already dead, what would be the worst that could happen?
