Ch 39

Rey

"So, what's in Thyferra?" I asked as we made our way through hyperspace to this strange new place.

"Well it's a very humid planet, it's where the galaxy gets most, if not all of its bacta. There's one major human city called Xucphra, it's not very big, maybe 10,000 humans at most, but it's conspicuous enough that we can lay low for a few days. There's an old outpost from the days of the rebellion that I think we'd be able to stay in."

I nodded, clearly, he'd been able to come up with a plan much faster than I ever could, no doubt his knowledge from being Supreme Leader was coming in handy right about now.

I yawned, suddenly realizing how tired I was becoming.

Ben noticed and took his restraints off and then removing mine.

"What are you doing?!" I asked as he picked me up, I didn't mind, but I was very capable of walking myself to a cot or something if I needed to sleep.

"You are most definitely not able to walk, your leg, remember? We'll fix it up in a second" he said very matter of fact.

What did he have in mind?

He took me to a small cabin on the ship, it had a bed just big enough that we would have to lay very close together and Ben's feet might dangle off the edge.

I wasn't worried about being close, since he'd come back we couldn't sleep if we were far away physically. It felt… unnatural, lonely and cold.

He lay me down with my head resting on the pillows. I looked down at the dress and saw the giant tear the blaster had made. The beautiful white fabric was brown where it had been burnt by the shot.

"Tragic… I actually loved this dress, it's like wearing a cloud" I said as I lifted the skirt up to expose my wound. Ben chuckled, but it wasn't a normal laugh, I could sense something was off.

"Ben what is it? What's bothering you?" I motioned with my hand for him to come sit next to me. Instead he sat next to the leg that was injured, the slight movement of him sitting made my leg bounce a little and I felt the pain course through my leg. I winced, he noticed.

"That Rey… I can't believe I let you go out there alone, now look at what they've done to you! As your husband I should be doing a better job of protecting you and I failed… I swear if I ever lay eyes on either one of those bastards I swear…." He trailed off

"Ben… this wasn't your fault… this wasn't anyone's fault. We both knew this was bound to happen sooner or later, we knew that once you came back, people might recognize you… but now we have to do what we need to do and take care of us… Ben look at me!" I shouted, I took a few deep breaths and let myself calm down "You have to let the past go… I don't want to spend the rest of my life worrying about what happened or what you did. That wasn't you!"

"Yes, it was Rey… I may have been fully submerged in the darkness but to a certain extent it was me. And you have to live with both parts me of until you die now." He said and the tone he gave me was one that implied nothing else would be discussed… for now. I sighed and started to take out the bun in my hair and I kicked off the heels. My feet had gotten calloused over the years from scavenging, climbing, fighting…nothing had prepared me for the pain that heels would bring.

Ben sighed too and grabbed my leg.

"What are you doing?" I protested, but he closed his eyes and seemed to be concentrating as he put his hand over the gash in my leg. It had catharized, as blaster wounds do, but it still hurt like seven hells. In a fraction of a second, it was like there had never been a wound in my leg in the first place.

"Thank you… we should uh… be careful when using that particular power… last time you used it you died…" I said choking on the last word.

"You're right, emergency's only, until we can figure out more about this connection." His tone was very businesslike, and he got up and walked towards the door "You should get some rest, I'll be in the cockpit if you need anything"

I was left in the room with my thoughts, not very good ones.

Is this what my marriage would be like until I died? Had we already gone through the honeymoon period before we had actually gotten married?

I sighed and got up, stretching and testing my leg. It felt a little stiff, but it was fine outside of that. I walked into the fresher and looked at myself in the mirror. I was a little disheveled, there were bags under my eyes and my hair was a tangled mess.

I wasn't in the mood for a shower, so I just splashed water on my face and combed my fingers through my hair as best as I could. I wondered if Ben had been able to somehow get our clothes on board, the dress was beginning to get uncomfortable.

I looked around the cabin but was unable to find anything that looked like the bag I had packed.

I did notice there was what looked like a closet door next to the main door. I opened it and lo and behold, there were some very old tunics. Some looked like old Jedi Robes, some were definitely feminine. I grabbed a feminine one, it was a teal color with gold stitching. I put it on and it fell just past my knees. The fabric was very silky and satin like, on the hanger was a gold sash that I tied around my waist.

I braided my hair, I had nothing to tie the end with, so I left it lose, it would have to do for now. I sighed and went and laid back down on the bed. I had so many thoughts, but I was also exhausted.

And so, I eventually succumbed to it, in between thoughts of how to help Ben, what to do with Finn and Poe, and if I had made the right decision in getting married.