Chapter 3

I was walking with Bella in the green house. This field trip was so stupid and annoying.

An arm wrapped around mine and I thought it was Bella. Confused as to why she would be doing that, I turned and saw it was Alice.

"Hi!" She exclaimed with a bright smile on her face.

"Hi?" I responded and looked for Bella.

She was over with Edward talking. Well, thanks for abandoning me.

A hand snaked around my back and I immediately knew who that was. I turned my head and saw it was Jasper. I bit back a smile and ran my hand to touch his back. If he could do it then so could I.

"People are going to be thinking I'm in a weird relationship with you two." I said and Alice and Jasper laughed.

"We don't really care about what they think." Alice said. "I've heard rumors you wouldn't believe."

"I believe in a lot of things. Try me." I said, making it sound like I was meaning something else.

"Perhaps another time." She responded back and gave me a wink. "I'll see you two later. Behave yourselves." She skipped off without another word.

"You know, I never did get your number." I heard Jasper say in a soft voice.

"That's because you decided to take off before I could give it to you." I added and turned to look at him.

I gazed at his lips. They looked so soft. I wondered how they would feel on mine. Would they shape perfectly into mine?

I felt him grip my shirt and let out a small hiss. "Please stop looking at me like that. You don't understand how hard it is to not kiss you."

"Who said I didn't want you to kiss me?" I asked and put my arm around him more so we were closer. "I don't know what this is between us. It's confusing and it's just…I don't know." I sighed and looked down at the ground.

There was a moment of silence before he started to speak. "Just try to be patient. Everything will work out eventually. In the future I'll be able to tell you what's going on." We paused outside, off in our own little place. "Trust me?"

How can I trust him when he won't tell me what is going on? How can I trust anything anymore? It's hard for me to just trust anyone. If I can't trust my own father, how can I trust Jasper? Then again, why do I feel like I can show all of my flaws and doubts in things? Why do I feel like I can tell him anything and he would listen and never judge me? Why do I feel like I want to be with him? I don't know him.

"If I trust you, please promise me that you won't hurt me." I said and he furrowed his eyebrows. "I'm not saying you're going to hurt my physically. It's not that. It's emotionally and mentally. I'm scared to get attached."

Jasper realized what I was meaning and he leaned down so our foreheads were touching. "I can't promise you that you won't get hurt. In my life style and what I am, people get hurt. I can promise I will do anything to protect you. I will promise I will be there for you, even when you think I'm not."

His soothing voice and promise made me relax. Everything that bothered me before was gone.

"Okay, I trust you then." I said and closed my eyes, feeling the coldness from his body on mine.

His voice was just above a whisper. "You're so beautiful." Jasper turned his attention to somewhere else.

I opened my eyes and looked where he was looking. Bella and Edward seemed like they were fighting.

"Oh for fucks sake…" I muttered.

Jasper took my hand, making excitement burst in my throat. I didn't make a noise, but I wanted to.

"You're so easy to make happy." Jasper said as we walked towards Edward and Bella.

"All you have to do is touch me and I feel like Jell-O." I responded, making him chuckle.

Alice joined us when we got to Edward and Isabella. "Hi, are you going to be riding with us?"

"No. Our bus is full." Edward sneered out and got into the bus.

I looked at Jasper and tugged at his hand I was holding. "Do you want my number?" He nodded and took out his phone. I punched in my number and gave him his phone back. "I'll see you later." I smiled sweetly and walked with Bella to our bus.

I was looking out the window when I felt my phone buzz. I looked at it and it was an unknown number text.

Hey, it's Jasper. Glad I finally got your number. Sorry about Edward. He's complicated.

I smiled at the text and looked over to the bus. We haven't left yet and I could see golden eyes looking at me. His pale face was so beautiful in the cloudy weather.

I decided to text him back.

Hmm…there's a really cute guy looking at me from the other bus. What should I do? Wink at him? Make a funny face? Flip him off? :P I'm glad to have your number too. It's okay, I understand. Well, I don't but I do.

I looked over towards his buss and saw he was looking at his phone. A smile appeared on his face and he looked up at me, giving me a wink.

I bit my bottom lip and felt giddy inside. Finally I received his text.

I doubt you are brave enough to make a funny face or flip him off.

I scoffed and looked over at him. I shook my head and then decided to stick my tongue out at him while winking.

He chuckled and I wished I could have heard it.

I didn't want to offend the poor guy by flipping him off. So I decided on a wink and a funny face. :) He laughed and I wish I would have heard it. I enjoy his smile and laughter a lot…

His reply was instant.

I'm glad you enjoy that, but I'm sure he enjoys your smile and laughter so much more. Far more than what you could possibly know.

I received another text from him.

You're so beautiful. I love watching you read my text messages. The way you smile at them or your eyes brighten up. Just knowing that it's because of me makes everything worth it. All the waiting…all the pain…worth every second.

I looked up and saw he was staring at me again. I put my hand on the window. I wanted to be next to him. I wanted to never leave his side. Something in my throat wanted to come out. A scream? A sigh? Words? I don't know.

Our bus started moving and I watched as I rode ahead of him. He was out of my sight and I decided to message him.

This thing between us…I'm going to wait on deciding what it is after you tell me what you are. No, actually. I shouldn't call you a what. You're Jasper. Correction…my Jasper. I hope I'm not moving too fast. I hope I'm not upsetting you with these words. I just don't know what to do anymore. Maybe it's because you care for me. Maybe it's because you're there. Maybe it's because I really like you. When I'm not with you I feel lost. I wish I was with you right now. – x

My heart pounded hard in my chest. What if I went too far? Will he respond?

"Hey, you there Lori?" I heard Bella say.

I turned to look at her and she looked annoyed. "What?"

"I've been trying to get your attention. Who are you texting?"

I paused a moment before I replied. "Jasper…"

"You got his number?" She sounded shocked.

"I've been meaning to tell you. He and I are kind of a thing but not yet."

"How could you not tell me this?"

"Because you've been busy with Edward. I didn't want to bother you." I trialed off when I received a text from Jasper.

Do not apologize for expressing yourself to me. I want you to tell me anything and everything. I wish you were with me right now too. Edward is really annoying right now. He's brooding over Bella. I don't get why he can't just be with her already. Also, did you just send me a kiss Ma'am?

I smiled at his text and replied.

Bella is going on about Edward too. Yes, I did Mr. Hale. What are you going to do about it? – x

I got an instant reply back.

Well I'd like it to be real for starters, but I don't mind. Would you be alright with hanging out in a couple of days?

I replied back.

When you decide to be a good boy then yes it will be real. I'd love to hang out.

I laughed when I read his response.

I'm being bad? Damn, I thought I was being good. I guess you like bad boys in that case.

I rolled my eyes.

I just like blonde haired guys with pretty golden eyes and cold hands. :P Btw I like your muscles. Ahem…I may have felt them when I had your body close to mine…ahem. Wow, this text cough is bad. I need to see a doctor.

"I'm going to do some research on this stuff since they aren't spilling the beans." Bella said and I rolled my eyes.

"I take it you want me to help?" I asked. "My guess is that they are vampires, but guess what…they aren't real."

"They could be…" Bella trailed off.

I received a text.

Ahem…I may have felt your body too…ahem. Oh I think I caught your cough. Thanks a lot.

It has been awhile since I have felt this happy. I hope it never ends.