Chapter 14
The next day Jasper didn't come to my house before school. He wasn't even at school. Maybe it was a hunting day for the Cullen's, because neither of them showed up.
I came home that day. My family wasn't home, so I was alone. I walked up to my room and saw Jasper on my bed.
His face looked like he just committed the most horrible crime of all time. I wondered what happened.
"Hey, Jazz." I said and put my bag down and walked over to him.
"Lori…" He trailed off and put me on his lap. "I…" He looked like he was going to cry, but he couldn't.
"Jasper, what's wrong?" I asked, my heart started to beat fast. Did he give into the hunger and feed off of a human?
I examined his eyes. No, they were amber. What was wrong then?
"This is hard for me to say. I'm sorry, but I can't do this anymore." Jasper's voice was in monotone, like he practiced this over and over again.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean us. I don't-…" I interrupted him.
"What?" I stood up from his lap. Tears started to run down my cheeks as I felt my heart break. "No. You promised…you…you…" My breathing started to become ragged.
My sight started to blur as my pulse increased. My hands shook and my legs felt like they were going to give out.
Jasper got up and took me into his arms. "Lori…Lori. Shh…" He tried to coax me but I refused.
"You're leaving me, Jasper! How the fuck am I supposed to calm down?!" My voice rose and I felt words come out of my mouth. The brain to mouth filter was gone. "You promised you wouldn't leave. Wherever you go, I go. That was our thing. You told me we were meant for each other."
"I lied." He hissed out.
That was the final point where I lost it. I couldn't stop hyperventilating. Spots were showing in my vision as I felt my world crashing down.
"Don't, Lori." He said and held me tightly in his arms.
My breathing wouldn't stop. I clung to Jasper like he was my reason to live, which he was. There was a tug at my feelings, but I tried to push them away. It got stronger and stronger until I couldn't push it away anymore.
I started to calm down and my body went limp in his arms. I lost the only person who has cared for me. I lost the only one I have ever loved.
"I'm so sorry." He repeated over and over in my ear. "Lori, I'm so sorry."
"Stay…please." I begged softly once I found my voice. "You're lying to me." I looked up at him and he nodded slightly.
"Edward is breaking up with Bella. We have to leave to keep you and her safe. Around us, you and Bella are in danger." He finally admitted. "I thought if I told you I didn't love you that it would have been easier for you to let go. Seeing you like this, I couldn't lie to you anymore."
"Take me with you. Turn me into a vampire and take me with you." I shook my head. "I can't live without you."
Jasper closed his eyes, like he was holding back something. "Lori, I'll come back for you. You need to experience life as a human first. You wanted to graduate and live for a little while until you become one of us. Until then, we'll be out of your life."
"I can't live my life without you, Jasper." I clung to his arm. "You know how I feel."
"I do and because of that I feel even worse!" He gritted through his teeth. "You don't know how hard this is for me. You don't know how badly I want to change you. You don't know how badly I wish Edward would just change Bella. You don't know."
"Then change me!"
"I can't!" He placed his lips on mine, kissing me passionately.
Everything in my body light up. Finally my body was coming back to life. All too soon, he broke the kiss.
"I'll…stay in touch a little bit." He whispered softly. "Remember what I said before? I said I'm always there with you even when you don't know or think I am."
"My bed will be empty without you. I'll be lost. The void in my heart won't heal until the day you come back for me." A stray tear went down my cheek.
"Everything you said is how I feel…besides the bed. I won't need one now." Jasper tried to joke.
I took the bait, hoping I could feel that happiness again. "When are you leaving?"
"Tonight." He answered. "When Edward and I get home."
"I love you, Jasper." I whispered out, feeling nothing but sadness.
"I love you too." He said, kissing me on the forehead before blurring out of my sight and leaving me alone in my bedroom.
A/N: What about for her powers, she can control someone to tell the truth? I don't know. It seems close to what Jasper can do…I'm just going to do eeny, meeny, miny, moe. XD Also, I've just realized I'm going to hate writing this until New Moon is over. XD Can I skip this and go to the part where Jasper and Lori are back together? Please? Also, I've grown to love this pairing so much that when I reread the books and watch the movies…I don't see Lori and it makes me sad. XD
