Death without Fear
Chapter 19
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Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd sacrifice yourself just so they could live, even if that meant they would live a second longer than you? I made that choice. Never would I have ever believed in the phrase "your life flashes before your eyes before you die", but now I do. Now as I lay on the snow covered ground, bleeding and broken, all I could think about was my life. No, it's not the life I had when I was little and growing up. It was my life with Jasper Whitlock.
My eyesight went blurry as I felt my body giving in to the darkness. My heart was beating hard, trying to keep me alive.
In the distance I heard his voice calling for me, telling me to hold on. My eyes are so heavy though. Why not just let them relax? Slowly, my mind started to drift off to this year of school and how Jasper and I became closer than what we were, if that were even possible.
"You should just share a tray with me, instead of wasting food. I doubt it that anyone would even care." I mentioned to Jasper as we waited in line at the cafeteria.
Jasper's hand, already in the familiar spot on my back, rubbed me tenderly as he spoke. "You're right."
"Say that again?" I put my free hand to my ear, leaning closer to him. "I'm what?"
A chuckle escaped his throat and then he repeated himself. "You are right."
I let out a playful gasp. "Me? Holy shit!"
Jasper's smile was infectious and I leaned up and kissed his chin. We moved down the line and I grabbed an apple, some mac and cheese, a small slice of red velvet cake, and a bottle of water.
We walked to our table, where our friends were at. Jasper had the urge to drink from them, but he has more control now. It must be all the kissing we do. I just tell myself that, of course.
"Epic? It'll change lives!" Jessica said with a huge grin.
I sat down next to her and Jasper was next to Alice. He may have control over his urges, but he didn't like Jessica. He never told me the full reason why, but he did say it dealt with me.
"What are you talking about?" I asked.
"My valedictorian speech." Jess answered, taking a bite out of her food.
Alice bounced in her seat, like she was unable to keep in her excitement anymore. "I've decided to throw a party."
Jasper grinned at her and then looked at Edward, giving him a sarcastic smile. "After all, how many times are we gonna graduate high school?"
I spit up my water a bit, wiping at my mouth. Everyone was looking at me. Edward had a coy smile on his face. Oh, piss off. Great his smile grew more.
"A party? At your place?"
"I've never seen your house." Angela spoke out with an amazed tone.
"No one's ever seen their house." Eric started to scratch at the back of his head before pointing to Bella and I. "Besides four eyes and Swan."
I rolled my eyes. Really? Four eyes? I thought I looked good in my glasses.
"Another party, Alice?" Edward spoke.
"Yeah, it'll be fun." Alice replied back.
"That's what you said last time." Bella added.
I leaned closer to Jasper, knowing he must have felt bad. My hand cupped his and I gave it a squeeze.
He looked down at me with his golden eyes. My trick must have worked, because now he's smiling and it's a genuine smile.
"Alice?" I heard Angela call out.
I turned my attention to Alice and she was spacing off, seeing into the future. Deciding to be a distraction, I spoke to Ang.
"Sorry, Alice didn't get much sleep last night. I may have kept her up late. I introduced her to that one show you told me about. We can't stop watching it." I spoke very animated, like my lie was the truth.
"It is good! I told you it would be."
Alice snapped out of her daze and started to add her opinion into the conversation. "Sorry, I didn't mean to space off like that. I'll make sure to catch up on my sleep."
I patted her shoulder. "Knowing you, we'll get home and you'll practically beg me to watch it with you."
After my distraction worked, everyone seemed to have forgotten about Alice spacing off.
I walked out of school with Bella. Edward and Jasper were not waiting in the hall for us like usual. I wondered what happened.
"There they are." Bella pointed over towards Jazz, Alice, and Edward.
We walked over to our new family. I snaked my arm around Jasper's and looked up at him. He looked uneasy. His smile didn't reach his eyes.
Edward and Alice were better at playing things off than Jasper was. Well to me anyways. Ever since Jasper lied to me about not loving me, he can't lie about anything to me anymore. It's like that one lie broke him from lying to me.
On the way home, I could tell Jasper was trying to hide something still. Why can't he just tell me?
"Jasper…" I began to say.
"Please, can I speak with you later? I'm trying hard to not lose my temper…" His voice was cold.
Did I do something?
I leaned over and put my hand on his leg. He slowly started to physically relax, like I was cooling off his temper.
"Can you stay the night at my place, or do you have to hunt tonight?" I asked.
"I can stay the night. I won't be hunting until the day after tomorrow." He answered me.
When we got to my house, my step dad was looking out the window. His arms were crossed and he looked unhappy.
"What?" I asked, more to myself.
I got out of the car, Jasper came with me too. He didn't trust my step dad. He never gave Jasper a reason to distrust him, it was just a gut feeling.
I walked in and my mom was waiting for me. My little brother, Brandon, ran up the stairs like a little kid with a secret.
"Honey, we need to have a talk." She looked over at Jasper. "You need to be in this discussion too."
"Ma'am." Jasper said with a nod.
We walked into the living room and sat down on the couch. My mom was on a chair and my step dad was pacing the floor.
"Did I do something?" I asked, breaking the awkward silence.
"No, well it's something we have been fearing for some time now. We need to make sure you're being safe." My mom answered.
Safe? What the hell does she mean?
My mom noticed my confused look and let out a sigh, like she was holding her breath. "Darling, I want to know if you two have been having safe sex."
My mouth dropped. No, please don't. At least have this discussion when he wasn't here.
I turned my attention to Jasper. He looked composed and very adult like. Was he not embarrassed by this? I'm dying!
"Mom…" I sighed out.
"Don't get irritated with your mother, Lori." My step dad pointed a finger at me. "We are only looking out for your future."
"I've decided to put you on the shot." My mother said.
"Mom…" I repeated. I didn't want to get the shot or take anything. I's not like him and I can have kids anyways.
"May I say something, Mrs. Taylor?" Jasper asked.
"Yes." Dean, my step father, replied.
"Your daughter and I are not doing anything like that. We aren't having sex." His smooth southern drawl came out of his mouth.
He's lying to them. We've had sex before. We've only done it a couple of times now and it's been awhile, but we've had sex. Did he know I didn't want a shot?
"Oh." My mom said with a surprised look on her face. "I'm sorry, I thought you two were."
"No, Mom." My brow furrowed. "I'm being careful and smart with my decisions. I'm not ready for that kind of stuff yet." I rubbed my arm awkwardly.
My mother let out another sigh of relief. "Okay, that's all Darling."
I said my "goodbye" to Jasper and watched out the window for him. His car drove by smoothly. Until I couldn't see him anymore, I turned away from the window.
"Mom, do you like Jasper?" I asked, curious to know.
"I do. He seems to respect you and love you dearly." She smiled at me. "I know that was awkward. I'm sorry. I just thought you two were serious, so I wanted to make sure you were being safe."
"I know, Mom. Don't worry." I waved off the conversation. "I'm going to go to my room. I have to study for finals."
A/N: I'm updating now so I can answer questions. I am doing the whole series. As for Jasper and Lori having a baby? You'll just have to find out about that. ;) Bella is still going to have Nessie. I've made the choice on Lori's powers when she becomes a vampire. I hope no one will be disappointed on what it is. I took everyone's vote, review or PM, and tallied the votes up. :) I have over 10k views. I am like…blown away. I'm grateful for every review, PM, favorite, follow, and view. Honestly, I don't know what to even say besides thank you. I don't think I am that great of a writer. To me I feel like I'm average. I have a lot of doubts in my writing, but I must be doing something right! Unless my mom is paying all of you to read my story and "like" it. Just kidding! XD I have been thinking about continuing this beyond the Twilight series. If you'd like that, please PM me or leave a review telling me if you would want it or not. :)
