Chapter 40
A/N: Disclaimer- I only own my OC's.
You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are gone forever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it. Dare not say that man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you.
"Who wrote that?" Jasper asked as he walked into our room as I read aloud to myself.
I enjoy reading a loud such things to our baby. I have yet to announce it to Jasper. I'm afraid to do so. It's not that I think he'll rip it out of me. I just fear that he will worry for me. After all, wouldn't the child be half vampire and human? Or does it work differently? I have no clue.
I haven't been showing too much. There's a bump now, but it just looks like I'm gaining weight. Which I have been. Not too much though, just about five or so pounds since I have found out.
Sitting up on the bed, I placed the book I was reading down. Staring at my handsome love, I answered him. "Jane Austen."
"Ah, yes. You and your English literature." The blonde man said as he sat beside me, nuzzling into my neck.
The hair on my body stood up when I felt his breath whisper across my skin. His lips lightly touched my neck, giving it a small peck.
"You have been smelling differently lately." He muttered as he took his face away.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"I don't know. You just smell slightly off. You smell more…" He paused as he searched for words. "I can smell your pheromones more. It's like they doubled and frankly Lori, it's hard to keep myself off of you."
I felt some blood rush to my cheeks when I answered him. "Then don't"
Jasper showed off his crooked toothy grin. "Darlin', I don't mean to sound like a pig but I don't mean it in a romantic way."
"Care to demonstrate then?" I questioned as I blindly sat the book on the nightstand beside the bed.
He spoke in a low voice as he moved on top of me in a slow and predatorily motion. "Are you sure about that? Everyone will hear you."
"And no one wants that." I heard Bella's voice say from the opened doorway. "Alice wants Jasper for something. Also, if you're going to have hanky panky then I would suggest shutting the door."
I watched as she walked away and Jasper turned his head to face me. "What's the phrase now? We have been cockblocked?" Jasper said, making me laugh.
"Oh my god. I have never imagined you saying that." I laughed out.
My wedding with Jasper will be after Bella and Edward come back from their honeymoon. I didn't want to take the fun and excitement away from Bella and her big day by having it a could days after. Plus, she needs a honeymoon with Edward ASAP. Those two are so cute.
I took out my phone and decided to text Jasper, even though I had just saw him minutes ago. He had left to go help Alice with whatever it was.
Me: Jasper, what would you do if I said I'm getting nervous about the wedding? I'll be in heels and a dress! When do I ever wear that?! I'll fall…
Moments later I received a text back from him.
Jasper: Darlin', I know this is cheesy and cliché but I will catch you if you fall. You know this. Don't be so nervous. You will look even more beautiful than you already do. To be honest, I can't wait for you to finally have my last name.
His last name? Does he mean Whitlock?
Me: I'm taking the name Hale right?
Jasper: Yeah, but our papers will say Whitlock. Publicly you will be known as Lori Hale. Since I can't come out and say my last name is different than Rose's last name, we have to say Hale.
Me: Lori Hale isn't too bad, but I do adore Lori Whitlock better.
Jasper: Yes, it does.
Me: I have a question and you don't have to answer it if it makes you uncomfortable.
I placed my hand on my belly when I sent this. I want to know what he thinks about kids. Would he love to have one?
Deciding to get off my ass and stop being lazy, I walked out of the room and saw Jasper turning my way from coming up the stairs. He had dirt on his clothes and skin. It was a sight to see.
"Well, someone needs a shower and change of clothes." I teased and bit my lip when I felt a slight movement in my belly.
His face changed to curiosity. "Lori, what's wrong? Your emotions are…"
"It's nothing. I told you already. I'm nervous." I slightly lied, but it didn't seem to trigger an alarm.
"Right." He leaned onto the wall, crossing his arms. "You have a question?"
"I was hoping to ask you over text message…" I murmured out.
"Why?"
"Because it's a question that makes me realize that I don't know how you'll react."
Jasper let out a sigh. "Lori, we are getting married. Shyness and intimidation should be gone by now. What reason have I given you to make you feel nervous about asking me a question?"
I walked over to him and cupped his face. "Promise me you won't overthink? It's just a question."
He took both of my wrists and moved my hands away from him slightly. He placed a kiss on each palm and nodded. "I'll promise to try to not overthink."
Well, that's good enough.
"If you were to able to have a child with me, would you?" I asked once I brought up the courage.
He paused for a moment, but seemed to snap back. "Of course. If you'd like…we can adopt a child."
His answer was very unexpected to me. "You want to adopt?"
"I was thinking you would already want to. We've discussed children before and you have told me you don't want a child with another man. Which I approve."
"So, if I were to somehow become pregnant with you…"
"It's impossible." He said without hesitation. "Lori, what is going on? You've been acting strange and you're asking be a weird question."
"Jasper, stop overthinking. I'm fine. You're fine. We are fine." I sighed and rolled my eyes. "It was just a question."
"No, it wasn't. You're hiding something from me. You barely let me see the front of your body now." He gripped my hips and brought me closer to himself. "You will tell me what is it."
"Jasper, stop." I said and pushed away from him. I'm not ready to tell him. I'm not ready for him to freak out. I know he will and he'll turn into The Major when he does.
He stopped leaning on the wall and stood very close to me. Looking down at me, his eyes went through me. I felt like he could see everything. I felt a wave and tug at my mood. I felt like I wanted to tell him everything. I needed to.
Suddenly, rage overtook me. He was making me tell him by using his powers. How dare he. "Jasper, do not make me." I warned him.
"Lori, you will tell me right now. I haven't felt the need to do this in a long time, but now you are leaving me no choice. I will use my powers until you tell me." He sounded dark and angry.
"I said no!" I gave him my I mean it face. "Jasper Whitlock, you will stop this at once."
The pull became stronger and I felt the anger deepen. He was angry too and that could be affecting me as well.
"Tell me."
I felt tears come to my eyes. "Know what? I'm leaving. We need a little break. We've been together every day and night and-…" I was walking to the stairs as I was speaking to him. I needed to go back to my mom's house. Time alone from Jasper will help us think rationally.
He interrupted me with his authority voice. "Lori, get into our room now."
I turned my head to look at him. Jasper was on the verge of changing into The Major. Was he this upset?
"Look, I'll see you tomorrow morning. After all, that when the wedding is." I shrugged and began to walk down the stairs.
Before Jasper could come to me, Alice got there first.
"Why not have a sleepover in my room?" She asked in her high pitched voice. "I promise to not bug you too much."
"Alice, I can't. He'll want to come in and I-…"
"Lori…" Alice said seriously as her voice lowered. "I know what will happen. Trust me, you'll wish you would have stayed."
The rage demon inside me grew ugly. It must be the hormones now. I didn't feel any tugging from Jasper.
"He was using his powers on me, Alice! I don't want to see him or hear him or speak to him right now."
"That's why you'll be in my room." She chimed out and took my hands. "Jasper, you'll behave if she stays in my room, right?" Alice asked as she leaned over to look at him.
I turned my head around and saw that his eyes were no longer yellow. They were black, which meant he was worried and angry. Whenever he got this way, it was like the hunger for blood quickened and his eyes would change faster.
"Jazz…" I said softly.
The rage demon subsided and I walked back up to him. I can't stay mad at him. I can't hate him. I can't be without him. I have become so dependent on this man and he has too on me. One cannot go on without the other. Besides, our thing has always been where ever one person goes, so does the other.
His jaw tightened as his hands turned into fists at his sides. I turned my head to speak to Alice, but she was already gone. Turning back to face Jasper, I lightly place my hand on his cheek.
"Relax. I'm not going to leave anymore." I saw his stance wasn't changing, so I took one fist into my hand.
We both knew he could easily not move when I wanted to move him, but he allowed me to move his fist. My lips met his smooth and pale skin, lightly leaving a kiss on it.
"Come back to me. Stop being angry and come back." I put his now relaxed hand on my cheek. "Touch me. Hold me."
As soon as those words came out, his arms wrapped around me. I couldn't breathe well, but it was fine. His strong arms trapped me to his torso.
"I didn't know that using my powers would make you so angry. I'm sorry." He muttered into the crook of my neck. "Never again."
"I'm sorry I got so angry. I felt angry from you and it made me even more angry. Plus, I know that the angrier I got, you did too." I said in a soothing voice. "I'm here, Jasper. You and I have things we need to work on and that's okay. It's what makes us normal."
There was a long pause and I thought he went back into his quiet state again.
"Now I know how you felt when I left." Jasper leaned his face away and looked at me. "Don't you ever say you're leaving to go somewhere without me again."
I leaned up on my tiptoes and kissed his lips. "I'll need to go for my last fitting in my dress in a couple of days. Alice won't want you to come and I really don't want to break tradition."
My trick worked and a ghost of a grin appeared on his lips. "You know what I meant."
"I do know." I leaned my lips closer to his and kissed him once more.
A/N: These two can't stay mad at each other. Aw! :) Leave me a review please! I want to know what is on your minds. Also, pregnancy questions will be answered in time. I do not want to spoil. However, I will say this. Yes, the child (I will not reveal the gender) will have some sort of healing/adapting ability. Hence why Lori healed quickly and isn't dying.
