It began as a typical morning; all was well on the ship. Ezra was done with his lessons with both Kanan and Sabine. Sabine had to work on some explosives so she told Ezra to go have lunch without her. Ezra didn't argue and with an empty belly headed to the kitchen, that was when everything went wrong.

As the door opened, Ezra's heart skipped a beat. All he saw was an electrical charge attacking Zeb. The discharge shrouded his vison in bright painful lighting, and soon he saw who was at the end of the torture droid in the kitchen; the sociopath that was the Inquisitor.

Ezra began trembling, how had the Inquisitor found them? Ezra tried to turn around but all he saw the gray walls of his prison.

"How did I get back here!" Ezra muttered to himself. He couldn't breathe. He saw Zeb starring at him terrified. Why was Zeb so scared? Slowly the torture droid came closer to him. He was against the wall cornered. Ezra just tried to close his eyes to avoid seeing the inevitable pain coming. The poor distraught boy could feel his heart beating against his chest in stress. Ezra slowly slide down the wall to curl into himself to avoid the pain. Pure panic rose in him as the menacing silhouette of the Inquisitor approached him with the droid.

Ezra screamed as he stretched his arms in front of him in desperation to push the droid and the Inquisitor away.


Kanan and Hera were going over schematic of the lower part of the town of Wothal to pick up supplies from an imperial carrier. That was when Kanan sensed a sudden surge of panic.

"Kanan, what's up?" Hera asked worried as she saw the concern on his face.

"Somethings wrong. Where's Ezra?" Kanan asked with worry lacing his voice

Hera remembered the last time Kanan had a "bad feeling".

"Kanan, fool me once-," Hera was about to mock when they heard the screams of their boy followed by a loud pang of metal and a gruff hit more metal.

The human and twi'lek looked at each other in a panic. They followed the noise to the common room and saw what appeared to be the aftermath of a shootout.

They saw a distraught and bruised Lasat and droid at one end of the room; regaining their composure after apparently being thrown half way across the room into the wall. Who slammed them into the wall was on the other side of the doorway; a terrified Ezra curled up into himself crying.

Kanan and Hera just stared at each other. With pained expressions on their faces; they knew Ezra unintentionally used the force against Zeb and Chopper. Hera went to check on the two at one end of the room and Kanan tried to comfort Ezra, or at the very least understand what happened.

"Ezra?" Kanan asked cautiously as he approached the terrified youngling.

Ezra though didn't seem to hear Kanan as he only curled up into himself even more. The kid had yet to even open his eyes.

Hera was helping Zeb get up from the rubble.

"Zeb, what happened? Are you hurt?" Hera asked with a concern in the tone of her voice.

Zeb was straightening up when he explained. "I'm fine. Damn droid shocked me for a kick, the kid walked in, saw and freaked out. I tried to calm him down but…this happened." Zeb sadly pointed to the terrified child, still oblivious to his own surroundings.

Kanan was at a lost. This wasn't a nightmare he could wake Ezra from, and no matter how many times he said his name, he would only seem to get more scared. It was as if he thought Kanan wasn't really there.

Ezra only seemed to yelp even more when the door opened again, this time revealing the crews Mandalorian, looking at what had happened in shock.

Sabine just stared around in bewilderment of Zeb and Hera helping Chopper up, the overturned mess of the table, and Kanan with concern on his face trying to reach out to the trembling Ezra on the ground.

Sabine went over to Kanan.

"What did you do?" Sabine asked with both anger and alarm.

Kanan turned to Sabine, "It wasn't me. Ezra saw them fighting and now it's like he can't even hear me."

Sabine gave Zeb and Chopper a stern look, this caused the two look away guiltily.

Sabine just rolled her eyes and approached the kid.

"Sabine." Kanan whispered as to not scare the kid. But his warning fell on deaf ears.

Sabine knelt down in front of Ezra and gently placed her hand on his cheeks.

Before Ezra could react, Sabine began to calmly speak to him.

"Ezra, it's Sabine. You're not in that base and the Inquisitor is nowhere near you. You're on the Ghost and you are safe. When you open your eyes you'll be in the common room of the Ghost. I will be facing you, Kanan will be next to you, and Hera, Zeb, and Chopper are right behind me. On the count of three open your eyes. One, two three."

Slowly Ezra opened his tear stained eyes. The boys breathing slowed down as he saw the crew smiling at him; they knew Ezra was back in reality

Ezra though did not smile with the others. He looked down before he muttered sadly, "I did something bad. I'm sorry." His voice

Kanan took over, "No kid, what happened was an accident, you didn't-,"

Kanan couldn't finish explaining; Ezra, in shame, ended up bolting from the room. This left the others looking at one another with deep concern.

"Ezra?" Hera tried to call out after him, only for Kanan to place a hand on her shoulder.

"I've got this one." Kanan told her with a gentle smile.

Hera, Sabine, and Zeb, looked at one another. They knew Kanan could help Ezra accept what just happened, just as he did for each of them.


Kanan proceeded to where he knew his tiny padawan went. Kanan knew Ezra needed air after what just happened. Just like he would back when he had his own episodes.

Up on the roof sat Ezra, starring at the setting sun of Lothal, hugging his knees tightly as he buried his head into them.

"Ezra?" Kanan gently approached him. Kanan was going to put a hand on his shoulder but hesitated with what Ezra asked next.

"Is this the part where you ask me to leave?" Ezra voice was cracked, like his little hears was breaking as well.

Kanan face palmed himself, frustrated that Ezra would think such a thing. Kanan though couldn't let Ezra sense his frustration, so he calmed himself down before he sat himself down next to his padawan.

"Kid, you should know by now that we would never kick you out." Kanan assured Ezra, though the boy did not look to convinced.

"Maybe you should," Ezra admitted in despair, "It happened again; last time it was Kallus, but this time it was Zeb. I didn't know it was Zeb. All I saw the Inquisitor and that droid and I couldn't breathe, and-," Ezra was beginning to hyperventilate again in fear when Kanan interrupted him.

"Ezra!" Kanan raised his voice so his padawan could hear him. "Look I know exactly what happened. Kid what you experienced was a flashback."

"Like a past memory?" Ezra asked as he tried to wipe away his tears,

Kanan then turned serious. "Yes. Zeb told us that you saw Chopper zapping Zeb. That lead to you unintentionally reliving a painful time in your life."

Ezra seemed to hear Kanan, but then he mentioned something.

"But I did it before the flash backs."

Kanan was a little confused, "What do you mean?"

"The whole 'pushing things' without touching them," Ezra explained as he pushed his tiny arms forward, "I never hurt anyone before but things would break if I got mad or scared. My parents said I would grow out of it, but I haven't. Now I'm hurting people."

Even though his padawan said all this with gloom on his face, Kanan couldn't help but chuckle at what Ezra said.

"Kanan! It isn't funny." Ezra argued with a pout on his face.

Kanan managed to calm himself a bit, "Ezra, you're a lot stronger than I thought. Do you realize what was happening?"

Ezra shook his head before Kanan continued, "You were using the force."

Ezra looked up at Kanan shocked before looking at his own hands in surprise, "Really?"

Kanan nodded his head, "What was happening was the force, but in tiny burst. It is normally how Jedi could identify if a child was strong in the force. Even I broke a couple of vases before the Jedi council recognized my abilities.

Ezra smiled at what Kanan said, relieved that he was not alone in his struggles.

"One of the first lessons the younglings are taught is to learn to be able to control the force through focus and discipline. So that looks like we have our next focus for training sessions for a while." Kanan explained to Ezra. Kanan then got an idea.

"Come on," Kanan instructed Ezra as he and him slide down the side of the Ghost and onto the ground.

Kanan looked around a bit before he found what he was looking for; the disregarded trooper helmet the crew used for target practice

"Here, try moving it with the force." Kanan ordered as he put the helmet in front of Ezra.

Ezra just looked at him timidly. Kanan knew why too.

"I know your upset with what happened. But you have to learn that using the force is only dangerous if you let it be.

"But when I used it I didn't even know what I was doing," Ezra pointed out.

"That's how it always is for younglings. This time you will have something to focus the force on." Kanan could see Ezra was still nervous about it.

Kanan put a shoulder on the young boy's shoulder.

"I know you can do it." Kanan confirmed

With the boost of confidence Ezra smiled before turning to the helmet that was on the ground.

"Ok, focus on the force, just like when we meditate," Kanan instructed, "and once you have a hold of it, focus it on the helmet."

Ezra soon focused his breathing, just like when Kanan and him would meditate. After a few second, Ezra was able to feel the force around him. Ezra followed Kanan's instructions and with his arms stretched out tried to focus his energy on the helmet. He was beginning to move it, but just a bit.

"Come on kid, keep a clear mind and focus on lifting the helmet." Kanan barley spoke.

Ezra, again following Kanan's orders, focused on the helmet with the force. Suddenly the tattered helmet lifted up a couple of centimeters into the air. Ezra began smiling, and he caught Kanan smiling too. That was when he lost his train of thought as the helmet fell back down on the ground.

"I'm sorry, I lost focus." Ezra apologized quickly

Kanan though wasn't only smiling he was beaming.

"Kid, that was amazing, especially on your first try."

"Really?" Ezra asked

"Yeah, no one gets using the force right away. I struggled a lot with it at first. But soon you will be able to lift the helmet, and boulders with the force, and be able to do so many things with the force in time." Kanan revealed to Ezra

For a moment Ezra lite up a bit at the idea of advancing his Jedi training, but only for gloom to return to his face.

Kanan picked up on it, "You're still upset about what just happened."

"What if it happens again?" Ezra asked in fear as he sat down on the ground, carrying his head in his hands. "What if I have one of those flashbacks again and hurt someone else like you, or Hera, or Sabine. Zeb probably already hates me now."

Before Kanan could tell Ezra how crazy he was for thinking such a thing, someone beat him to it.

"Kid, I could never hate you. Kind of the number one rule of being cabin mates," Zeb pointed out casually as he sat behind Ezra, as the two girls and droid came up onto the boy's other side.

"How long have you guys been listening?" Kanan asked, showing no surprise in his voice that the other crewmates were spying on them.

"Long enough," Hera smiled to him as she warped an arm around Ezra's shoulders.

"You want to know a secret about us kid?" Sabine asked rhetorically, "We all have been in your shoes. More than once too."

Ezra looked at each of them, like he didn't believe what Sabine just said. But they all nodded, each had a sad but assuring smiles on their faces.

"That's how I knew how to calm you down," Sabine revealed, "Because sometimes when I wake up, before I can even open my eyes, I have to assure myself 'I'm not in the imperial academy anymore, I am on the Ghost, and I am safe' So I won't have a flashback of waking up in that gray nightmare."

Hera gently put a hand on the young Mandalorians shoulder. Hera knew that for Sabine wouldn't have admitted this unless she knew it would help Ezra.

Hera took over comforting the kid,

"We all have had 'episodes' where we remember painful parts of our past. But we help each other with remembering where we are now and helping each other cope."

"How do you guys cope?" Ezra asked.

"Normally it involves a few quarts of nerf ice cream." Sabine pointed out.

"Oh, can we do that now?!" Ezra asked with excitement.

Kanan let out a content sigh before he responded, "Come on, let's go cope.

As the crew got back up to get inside the Ghost, Zeb picked Ezra up and put him on his shoulders.

Ezra hesitated a bit before he gathered enough courage to say, "I'm sorry I hurt you," Ezra apologized to the Lasat.

Zeb though just chuckled, "Seeing as we are getting some ice cream for it, I say we are even.

The two guys smiled at each other as they followed the rest of the crew onto the ship.


After a few weeks of Jedi training with Kanan, Ezra was soon able to use the force easily to lift and move things with the force.

Ezra was grabbing a cup for juice when Kanan spotted him doing just that.

"Kid, what have I told you about using the force?" Kanan asked with his arms crossed.

"'Don't use it unless you are in danger or helping someone,'" Ezra quoted Kanan from a few days ago when he was caught using the force to clean his cabin.

"But I am in danger." Ezra pointed out.

"Of what?" Kanan asked with a smirk on his face.

"I am in danger of being thirsty," Ezra pointed out with the smirk on his face as well.

Kanan, noticing the boys outstretched arms turned and saw that Ezra was using the force to pour himself a glass juice.

Kanan just chuckled a bit before he grabbed the floating glass.

"I think our next topic for Jedi training will be self-discipline."

"Before we start that, can you hand me my juice?" Ezra asked as Kanan was holding his glass.

Kanan smiled and handed Ezra his glass before rubbing his head, causing Ezra to smile.

Even though Kanan was smiling, a matter was weighing heavy on him. Ezra admitted his parents knew he would unintentionally break things.

'Could they of known?' Kanan thought to himself.

"So when are we going to learn self-discipline?" Ezra asked as he finished his juice.

Kanan, still smiling said, "We'll worry about that tomorrow. Today we will focus more on lifting larger objects."

"Cool," Ezra said as he put the glass and headed out with Kanan.

For the time being, Kanan need to focus on the present, and that was exactly what he was going to do.


A/N: okay, i do apologize for this being so late. I was going through some writers block and I could not get my thoughts down. But I am so happy with how this turned out. Ezra in terror and relapsing his pain was a must for the series. Will I do it again, perhaps. Anyways I hope everyone likes this. Hope you guys think this chapter was worth the long wait ;)