Chapter 48
Fire and Thirst
"He said it was only fitting since he created a human you. You're lucky your friend can't be harmed…well too badly." She hissed in my ear and tossed me to the ground.
I couldn't respond except to scream. Thrashing around and clawing at my clothes, I felt the need to tear out my heart. That's how bad the pain was.
Loud snarling appeared from my side and I saw a large wolf jump at her. Unfortunately, my shitty sight prevented me from getting any detail. So, I had to rely on my hearing. Or so I would, but the loud thumping of my heart caused blood to rush through me.
The fire in my body changed to what I would imagine what lava feels like. Suddenly I felt parched. Dry. I was still burning inside, but I was also thirsty. For the amount of pain, I was in, I wouldn't be surprised if I combusted into flames.
I noticed another thing, while crawling and thrashing around on the ground. My heart was beating what had to be ten times the normal beat. Noticing it, I started to panic more. I couldn't breathe.
"Help!" I screamed out.
Really anymore could help me for all I care. I just wanted it to stop.
I felt so weak suddenly. Like my body used all the energy it had. My body was still burning, but my heart was where the volcano erupted.
Tears fell down my face and I started to crawl more. I wanted the pain to stop. My instincts told me to find water and drown out the fire. My brain told me that everything will stop eventually. This is what you wanted Lori.
I felt the fire slowly leave my hands and feet. It was happening. I was changing. No. Please no. This isn't the right time.
If I became a newborn with only Esme and Seth around to tame me, I'll end up killing someone. I know it. I don't want to become a killer.
As the thought of blood came to my mind, the dryness worsened. This is it. This is where my time ends, and I lose myself. Then the Cullen's or wolves will have to put me down. I'm scared.
My arms felt cooler and my eye sight became more clearer as time went on. I could see things now like my glasses were on, but better. Particles in the air became very visible and I could see a hint of a color I didn't know existed.
Bringing me out of my thoughts was a voice shouting.
"Lori! Where- fuck!" Jasper's voice. It was a little different.
A loud growl and a huge paw appeared in front of me. Chocolate fur of a large wolf bristled, and I looked up to see the face.
"Jake…" I croaked out. I was so parched, and the fire was still in my throat.
Cold hands grabbed me, and I was being carried away from Jake. I knew who was carrying me by the smell. Jasper. He still smelled the same but stronger. I could also smell me on him and Bella.
"We need to hurry. She doesn't have long and it's already too late to extract the venom." Carlisle said in a panicked voice.
He was running next to Jasper. I heard the running of many feet. Some were lighter than others and I pictured it was Alice that was the lightest pair.
"She has about three minutes and twenty-six seconds left." Alice said behind Jasper.
Their voices were steady as they ran. Usually when you run, your voice goes with you and isn't steady.
"We are being followed. The wolves and I will deal with them." Emmett said, and I heard him taking off another way along with the padding noise of paws.
I felt my strength return in a rush. My shoulder made a large popping noise as it fixed itself. I was healing. The lava was gone but the fire was there still along with the thirst. Everything was cooled besides my heart. It was still beating fast but slower than what it was. Now it's going as fast as it would beat if I went for a run.
The wind felt so nice against my skin. The trees weren't a huge blur as we ran by them. I could see every tree that went by.
I look ahead of me as he ran with me in his arms. For a moment, nothing bothered me. Everything was so clear and beautiful. Now I understand what they meant when they said it's very easy for vampires to become distracted.
I gasped as I felt my heart skip a beat. Then more after. My heart was stopping. I felt the burning feeling in my heart pulsate with each beat. It wasn't as painful as it once was. I felt so much cooler.
"It's almost over." Alice spoke.
"I know!" Jasper growled out.
The house appeared in my view. Lights shimmered and danced along the house. It's as if someone threw glitter all over it. It was stunning.
I was placed on the ground in an open area in the yard. I couldn't help myself. I laid there taking in the sky. I saw so many details in it. The clouds were fluffier than what I thought they were.
Soon y heart sputtered. I closed my eyes as I took in the beauty, trying not to overthink. I wanted to remember my last heartbeat. So, I listened carefully.
Ba…dum…ba…ba-dum…dum…
It was so slow now. One beat every 10 seconds or more. Finally, the last beat happened, and I felt heart broken at that moment. My heart was dead wasn't it? Isn't that how it works? Would I still feel my chest clench every time I saw Jasper?
"Lori?" Alice spoke softly. "You can open your eyes now."
Her voice was more of a melody now.
"I'm scared to move." I whisper very slowly.
My voice? That was my voice? It was a pitch lower than Alice, but smoother.
"It'll make Jaz happier if you weren't so still…" Alice said in a convincing way.
That's all she had to say before I sat up. I guess too quickly, because they all, minus Alice, took a defensive stance. The instinct I had was to defend myself, so I took a stance as well without thinking.
It felt so normal and quick. It felt so easy to become primal.
Logic returned to me when I realized what I was doing. Getting out of the defensive stance, I looked at my surroundings. Still eating up the beauty in what I was seeing.
I started to walk towards a bird that was on a branch. Jasper and Carlisle stood in my way, stopping me from going further.
Offended by their actions towards me, I furrowed my eyebrows. Do they not trust me? Am I showing any signs of aggression? I just wanted to look at a damn bird.
Did they think I was trying to escape?
"We know this is disorienting. We know how things are running through your mind. You want to see everything at once. You want to experience everything at once." Carlisle said gently, warning me.
"Again, it's just like Bella. She won't do anything. I see her." She defended me.
I had a moment of thought, which I was about to ask it, but Alice spoke first.
"No, I had no idea you were going to be attacked. When I had my vision was when the moment they acted. They knew how to avoid my visions. That means someone was spying on us."
"The woman at the store..." I began to say.
"Ah, yes. That is weird, but not abnormal. She has a power. No scent. She can also leave no trace if she wants."
"That explains the smell or lack of…" I say, and my mind started to think of so many things at once.
Where is Noah? Why did my father do this? He's a vampire. Since when? Esme? There she is next to Jake. Bella and Edward? Shouldn't they be watching her?
Speaking of the devil. Not a moment later, I spotted Bella and Edward running. They stopped by the rest of them and I saw Edwards face as he read minds. Emmett was back along with Seth and his sister Leah.
"What's going on?" Bella asked a bit on the aggressive side.
I didn't like it and I felt my body tense up. It's like I didn't have control over primal things sometimes.
Edward took a step between Bella and me. Again, I felt offended.
"She's not in control like Bella is She needs to be watched." Edward said out loud to anyone that was listening.
"Well, if you guys keep acting like she's a wild animal then yeah she will get defensive." Alice spoke on my behalf.
"That…is true. Newborns are more primal that others. She has herself in control, but I can feel it weaken when we advance her." Jasper responded.
I looked at him while he spoke. I needed to take myself back. I needed to remain myself.
Closing my eyes, I took a breath in. There was no need to breathe, I could tell. The relief wasn't there, but I liked it. I could taste the air. The nature and everyone around me. The stress, panic, love, worry, and wonder. For some reason, the fear of me swelled up my pride. It was the wolves fear. I liked it.
Shaking that away, I spoke gently as I opened my eyes. "I am okay." I look around and then towards the house. "Noah is in there?" Knowing the answer, I nod to myself. "Good."
"You need to feed first." Jasper was slowly making his way to me and he gently touched my hand. "The thirst needs to be controlled before I can let you do anything else."
He was firm on his decision. I could hear it in his voice. I didn't want to. I felt too ashamed to feed. There was a thirst there, but it wasn't as bad as it once was then I was changing. I see my depression didn't go away. I was hoping it would when I changed. I guess vampires can have mental illnesses just like humans.
The welcoming tug that came from Jasper's powers grip that feeling. Letting it take over, I felt more alive and less ashamed of myself. I felt bad that I was a vampire now. They wanted it to be later when Bella wasn't a newborn anymore, but fate decided not to give the Cullen's a break.
"Okay. Let's go hunt." I say, turning to my Jasper.
He was more stunning in my new eyes. I could see all his scars, some weren't visible from the human eye. It made my vampire instincts activate. Anyone who would see this would think of running away. Danger is what the scars made my vampire think of. My heart, not beating, still had that clench feeling when I saw his eyes. They sparkled with ember light. My Jasper was everything I wanted and still is.
He chuckled a bit and smirked his little side smirk. "Darling, we need to get you fed…with animal blood. That hunger can wait."
I didn't notice, but I was needy for him. That ball in my stomach was there. I thought it took a while for that feeling to return to me. I thought I was going to be blood thirsty.
Nope. Just dick thirsty. Nice.
A/N: Happy Halloween!
