A/N: Hope you all enjoyed that last chapter with the fluff and everything. I hope this next installment answers some unanswered questions. Things are about to get complicated for our favorite pair. Please enjoy fave and follow. Dont forget to Review! I love seeing it plus they help motivate me. For those following A Good Day to Die Harder, I will be updating, I just don't know when just yet. But I have started working on it.

Chapter 8- Less then Endearment

Having been hooked to a machine, pumped what seemed to be a gallon of serum. Hel sat in the chair feeling paralyzed, the serum was slowly taking effort. She hadn't sat one of those chair since her own Initiation. Being inside the Erudite building was bad enough, feeling trapped in the same building she grew up in was worse.

Sean and Corrine hovered over monitors and computer screens, safely behind a observation window. Speaking to her through a PA system. The room was chilly and smelled of disinfectant. She was unsure what to expect, the serum wasn't like the fear serum, and she knew that one all to well. Feeling her eye lids grow heavier and heavier before fluttering shut. For a moment she could hear there voices, telling her to remain calm before they too faded away.

'She must have been seven or so. She thought the twins must have overshot landing her further back then she wanted. She was reliving part of her childhood. Taking a deep breath she watched herself like a ghost. Seeing and hearing everything just as it was. She watched younger self walk the halls unnoticed. Her little brown pig tails swaying behind her. Smiling at her younger self just long enough for the memory to change. Fading in and out, when it finally came into focus she could see herself barely keeping her head up in a water filled tank. She was older, maybe eleven or ten. The same from her dream. Turning she could see Jeanine, talking to an older man she didn't recognize. She couldn't believe her eyes when she seen Jeanine look over at her pint sized self, struggling to breathe in the tank. She either didn't notice or didn't care, she simply left. Placing her palms on the glass, as she watched herself struggle for the surface. Almost falling backwards when she seen herself being yanked unexpectedly from the water. Stepping back she could see a blonde boy around the same age with her in his arms. She watched him give her mouth to mouth. Sighing out loud when she heard herself start coughing. The boy handle her with care, brushing the hair from her face and help her up.

"Can you walk? We need to go."

"I think so..." She said before she nearly fell over.

"Come on, I got you."

Slinging her arm over his shoulder, he checked the hall, deeming it clear, they slipped out of the room.

Hel hurried after them as they went through a door. Before she could reach for it started to fade in and out again. Closing her eyes, she tried to think about the night of capture the flag.

Happy to see that concentrating had worked in her favor. As in slow motion she watched Eric storm off down a hall, then herself slowly walked out of the dark corner. Following herself to the training room, she lingered just outside the door. She knew she was their at least an hour before she even tried to leave, before she was attacked. Seeing the girl who was with Peter at the bar walk up to the door, she didn't go in, she watched her through the door's window. The door was far enough away from the punching bags that she never noticed her standing there.

Stepping back as she noticed herself about to leave, the girl doing the same, just out of sight. Watching the girl hit her in the back of the head, spinning to be hit in the face. Then watched as she watched her drag her limp body back into the training room. For almost forty-five minutes she watched the beating she had been mostly unconscious for. Now that she was watching it from the outside, she felt helpless again. More and more with each kick, each punch. Feeling like she was going to throw up, before the girl left, she pulled a serum syringe from her pocket. Watching the girl inject her with some kind of mystery serum. A color, she had never seen, bright orange...It wasn't a drug, her blood screen was clean. Screaming she was done, she couldn't watch anymore. She already knew what happened next. It would be a good while before she pulled herself off the floor and stumbled painfully to Eric's door...'

Still screaming she shot upright. She was no longer lying in the chair. Corrine was now next to it, preparing a syringe gun with what she guessed was some kind of sedative. She stopped screaming but she still struggled for a moment as she caught her breath.

"This should help calm you down."

"I'm good. I think I've been injected with enough crap to last me til I'm too old to piss by myself."

"We only injected you once?"

"I'm sorry, I wasn't referring to you guys. That bitch injected me with some bright orange shit."

"Bright orange?" Sean said coming over to stand next to his sister with his brow raised in concern and curiosity.

"Yeah, I know its not some kind of drug, my blood test was normal."

"Maybe we should do another one? Look for things that aren't drug related."

"So you guys are just as clueless as me about this?"

"For now. Can you take off your jacket?" Corrine replied as she swabbed the inside of Hel's elbow with alcohol.

"Deep breath." Said Sean as he inserted the butterfly needle into her arm, the little hose on it turning deep red immediately. Filling a handful of test tubes, before removing the needle. His sister quickly bandaging it.

"We'll let you know if we find anything." Sean wrote up labels for the tubes of blood and organizing them on a tray.

"Are you going to be okay getting back?"

"Yeah, what time is it?"

"Three thirty."

"Even though I may have more questions then answers then when I walked in. I did learn a few things, so for that I am thankful."

"Our pleasure, want me to want walk down with you?"

"Naw I can handle it. I still know my way around."

"Somethings are harder to forget." Sean said trying to give her a small smile. She waved to them as she reentered the hall. She had been there for hours. She picked up her pace, all but running for the elevator, the sooner she was on the train the better.

Rubbing her arms, fighting the chill she had grown to live without. Visibly shaken from the things she had long forgotten. What did Jeanine have to do with the torture she endured before she left? Half way down the elevator stopped, straightening her posture. Rolling her eyes before focusing on the button panel, when two girls stepped into the elevator car. One in a white blouse and navy blue pencil skirt, the other in a blue dress that was a little revealing. The one in the dress had her red hair pulled into a equally tight bun while the girl in the skirt's hair was short, black and pin straight. The pair seemed to notice her right away, giggling like children behind a tablet. Hel gripped the rail behind her as the they continued on. Her jaw tensed til it was painful when they finally stopped and decided to speak to her. The elevator seemed to be moving at a snails pace.

"Look who we have here, Rachel. Aren't you Helena Gavin?"

"Nope." Hel didn't bother to look at them. She knew who they were and was not in the mood for a second trip down memory lane.

"Hey Lydia, what is it we used to call her?"

"That list is way to long for me to recall."

"I wonder if shes as big a whore now as she used to be."

"Chloe and Xavier were only nice to her because they felt bad. No wonder they went to Amity."

"I'd like to think they left to get away from you." Tapping her nails against the metal rail behind her, a smirk on her lips.

"It is you, whoring it up good in Dauntless now it seems." Rachel tapped the small hickey above Hel's collarbone. Causing her to lose enough focus to finally look at them. Pulling her jacket tighter around her, she cursed herself again for not noticing the little love bite left behind from Eric.

"Wouldn't you love to know, but like my life and the life of my friends is none of your fucking business." Hel stated, much louder then she had anticipated.

"Are you going to cry like you used too? Please do we could use the entertainment." Lydia told her as she crossed her arms and leaned against the wall.

"Just as awful as ever, I guess some shit never changes. Are you still fucking half the teachers or did you get too old to be teacher's pet?" Hel looked between the two Erudite girl with what looked like sarcastic curiosity.

"Watch yourself, Helena." The girl's face turned almost as red as her hair, Hel's words hit a nerve. Hel laughed as she returned her attention back to the descending numbers on the control panel.

"I'm not scared of either of you or your empty threats, not anymore."

"Anymore?"

"Unlike you two, I grew up." The elevator came to a stop, allowing Hel to finally get off.

"Come off it, Helena. Why are you even here?"

"That's my business. Just like my boyfriend is my business."

"Don't you mean boyfriends?" The pair returned to giggling, Hel simply rolled her eyes.

"What are we five again? Are one of you going to piss yourself again like back in grade school?"

"Shut it." The sound of the red-head's grinding teeth seemed to echo in the tiny space.

The screeching from Hel's ear piece caused her to cuss and flinched through her teeth. A less then timid voice finally came through when the ear drum bursting sound ceased. Four's voice.

"Where are you?"

"I appear to be in this city's slowest elevator."

Ignoring the comments from the twitching pair of giggling idiots. She heard 'look she's talking to herself.' Flipping them off and glaring at them, continuing her conversation.

"I'm on my way back."

"Tris has been pacing a hole in the floor, she's worried."

"I'm sorry, there was just something I needed to do."

"Just get your ass back asap. I can't believe you went alone."

"Because big brother, I'm a big girl."

"One who was attacked not to long ago." She couldn't help the smile on her face, which grew wider when the doors finally opened.

"I know what happened, I have yet to forget about it."

"No stops along the way, got it."

"Yes sir."

"I'm serious."

"I won't make any stops, I swear. Getting on now."

Nearly in a sprint, soon as the doors slid open. Not caring what the idiot pair had to say. She didn't need to justify herself now or ever again. Letting out a sigh of relief as she heard the train. Jumping on it just in time before it was out of reach. Sitting against the wall and enjoyed the moment of actual peace. Hugging her legs to her chest and tried to think of something other then what just happened. Dealing with those bitches was a plus. They no longer held some sort of sick power over her anymore.

Her ear piece long quiet since she got on. Something she wasn't sure bothered her, being reminded that she was alone was starting too. Closing her eyes as the sun came through the open door, its brightness blinding. Trying to piece together possible connections of the whys, the over bearing question was still who. Who was she? Certainly not some ex girlfriend of Eric's or someone from her past at least none that she could think of. What did she do to her? Little did she know she was about to get her answer.

As the train rounded a corner, the Dauntless compound was still a good ways away. She was unsure of what to expect, when a girl stepped through the door adjoining the cars. They circled one another, neither taking eyes off the other.

"YOU!?"

"I bet the words your trying to find are why and who."

"No."

"Oh come on, I can feel it, the curiosity is eating at you."

Her blonde hair was whipping around her face, the smug look on her face made Hel want nothing more then to punch her. Breaking that small pointed little nose.

"Your fucking delusional."

"Then what is it? Panic? Oh I know fear?"

"That's funny. Considering you had to knock me out before you could ever beat me."

"Hearing the sound of your ribs crack was exhilarating, by the way."

Tapping the ear piece she hoped Four was at least still listening, or any body to be listening.

"Why not fight fair? Afraid of me?"

"I had a job to do."

"What did I ever do to you? I don't even know you."

"Are you sure about that?"

"I'm pretty sure I'd remember a wacko like you."

"The moment he took an interest in you, she took him from me."

"Okay enough with all this cryptic bullshit." She balled her fists, keeping them at her side. The girl was toying with her and she had enough.

"What is so cryptic that your not getting?" The girl started twitching, like an itch crawled up back she couldn't scratch.

"Any of this, I still have no fucking clue who you are or what the fuck you want from me." This time getting within reach of the girl. She noticed now that the girl was slightly taller then her. It made no difference, Hel had fought bigger and badder bitches before.

"I never could figure out what they saw in you, why my Eric saved you when he should have just left you to drown."

"Wait...Left me to drown?"

"Yes. Don't you remember? Or was that lack of oxygen just to much for you." Giggling like it was the funniest shit she'd ever seen.

"You were there?"

"How do you think you got in there in the first place, I had a little help of course but holding your head under was just as exciting."

"Eric was the one who pulled me out? Why?"

"I'll never understand why, maybe it's why my foster mother chose him."

"Again the with cryptic shit...seriously."

"Then she sent that traitorous pride and joy off to play in Dauntless."

Then girl's lips turned into a sick twisted smile, backing up to the edge of the door, then she jumped. No hesitation, no fear. Leaving Hel dumbfounded, could she have been talking about Eric? It was way to much for her to handle all at once. What did Eric have to do with any of it... She would have make at least one stop, she needed a drink and the bottle in her office was calling out to her. Soon as she was back on Dauntless ground, she angrily tapped the earpiece.

"Hello? Hello? Are you there?" The static was terrible til she was well inside the compound.

"Yeah..."

"What the hell happened? We've been trying to get a hold of you since you got on the train."

"That's what I'd like to know."

"Where are you?"

"Back finally. I'm heading to my office now."

"We're leaving the control room. We can meet you there."

"Fine." Removing the ear piece and shoving it into her pocket.

She had just enough time to have a good long swig of the amber liquid. Its burn calming her more then ever, when the two most important men in her life walked in. She had her feet on her desk, babysitting the bottle in her lap, sitting up and returning the bottle to its place. Rubbing her temples, shaking her head when Eric went for her. Looking more disappointed then angry as he took the seat next to Four.

"So talk. What was so important you left alone."

"I went to Erudite."

"Tris told us that much, but why?" Four told her.

"Because I wanted to remember. I needed to know."

"Did you?" Eric's angry tone had returned, making Hel uneasy.

"Yeah, I did and got way more then I bargained for."

"More?" Four wasn't mad, just really concerned for someone he loved like family.

"Shit from a long long time ago, was sprinkled on top."

"You remember the girl or the attack?"

She nodded, staring at the bottle. "Both."

"We need to know if were going to catch her."

"She injected me with something, something orange."

"How is that possible, they did tests in medical."

"I don't know, but the twins are working to figure it out what it is or was. Hopefully they'll know soon."

"I'm still not happy you went alone. Next time one of us are coming with you." Eric's current tone meant there was no point in arguing, he was right, not that he needed to be reminded.

"Trust me I agree. Especially after that train ride back."

"What do you mean? We weren't able contact you." Four looked at her with raised brow, catching the small electronic when she tossed it to him.

"Maybe there is something on the train blocking it. She just showed up and was going on and on."

"Did she touch you?"

"No, but I was tempted to throat punch that bitch." Giving her two favorite men as reassuring smile.

"What was she saying?" Eric's anger was near raging at this point, the sound of his teeth grinding was now beyond noticeable.

"Kept saying that I knew her, that shes been watching me for a long time. Even way back then."

"So she was Erudite? Like you two?"

"She was gloating that she tried to kill me once."

"That orange shit she injected you with?" Eric crossed his arms now, trying to keep calm, calm enough for her to continue.

"I don't think so, she never revealed anything about that. But when I was eleven I..."

"How?"

"I almost drowned in a tank, hell I relived it. I just could never remember exactly why." Rubbing her arms now for some kind of warmth suddenly feeling really cold. She had never told anyone, not Four or even Rena about her past, much less something like that.

"But how did you get in there and how are you still here?"

"She claims to of had help and holding my head under was exciting." - Grabbing the bottle, taking a long drink from the bottle, slamming it down on the desk. Only to have Eric swipe the bottle, watching him take a drink. - "Then she said Eric was the one who saved me."

"Eric, you knew about this?"

"When I was in the simulation, I watched a blonde haired boy pull me out and before I could follow, the script flipped and I was arguing with Eric outside the pit."

"The last time I saw you before you showed up at my door." This time he sounded guilty for not sticking around that night.

"Said that when you did its why Jeanine chose you. That she took you from her."

"She never said a name but she said and I quote 'That traitorous pride and joy who went off to play in Dauntless'." She dropped her eyes, not sure how to look at him at this point.

"Eric?"

Eric's eyes were wide. Full of disbelief and confusion, nearly choking on his latest drink from the bottle. He didn't have a sister, he was an only child. His mother died giving birth to him, his father never remarried or even had a girlfriend. So who was this girl?

"I don't have a sister. I'm an only child."

"Then who else could she be talking about Eric?"

"I don't know. Maybe she's someone who Jeanine took interest in other then me."

"That would explain the traitorous part." Four trying his best to defuse the situation.

"Maybe, but all of this just because of Jeanine?" Hel tried to calm him.

"It was you in that tank?" Standing he left the bottle on the desk, back into Hel's waiting hands and started pacing.

"I was lured there, pushed in and held under. Watching it from the sidelines, was just as horrible."

"Then I pulled you out." His pacing stopped, now he was just staring at her.

"Why didn't you ever say anything?"

"Jeanine happened...and until now I didn't know it was you. How could I?"

"How could you not know? You two grew up together." It was Four's turn to be confused, raising his voice just enough to get his point across.

"We're not who we were then, we've changed, grown up. I didn't even know." Hel leaned back in the chair and sighed.

"What else did the girl say?"

"Some half cryptic ramble about Jeanine being her foster mother. Then she jumped off."

"Its a good thing you didn't go after her."

"How so?"

"It could have been a trap or something."

"But for what? If she wanted me dead, I wouldn't be sitting here."

"But why gloat?"

"We need to find out what that orange shit was."

"And we will, but right now you should eat and go home."

"Can you let Tris know?"

"You know she'll want to talk to you about it."

"Yeah I know, just seriously not in the mood for it tonight."

"Come on. I'll go with you." Giving Eric a faint smile when he offered her his hand. Helping her to her feet. Heading to the Pit, the smell of food heavy in the air. The growing sound of chatter not far behind it. Her mouth watering as soon as they were inside. Grabbing a plate, she loaded it with a huge piece of steak, potatoes and a piece of dauntless cake. Trying to forget the stress knotting up in her shoulders as she savored every bite. When she finally looked at him, he took his thumb and brushed off a few cake crumbs from her lip. Opting her to blush and hide her face til it subsided.

"I wish I could kiss you right now." He whispered. Watching her clean up, motioning with his eyes to the door.