Going Through the Motions - A Rainy Day


It had been raining for days, the sky staying covered in grey clouds, the wind howling through the trees. Usually he didn't mind the rain, but lately, the gloominess outside had been weighing down on him.

He stared through the with droplets stained glass; the drops, they reminded him of tears. Tears of his loved one which he couldn't prevent from falling. No matter how hard he tried, no matter what he did, he felt like he failed them, over and over and over again.

What if... what if... what if...

All his lies, all his bullshitting. All his excuses. They were piling up, and it was like there was no end to it; sometimes he was afraid he would never be able to get his body back— to be himself again.

These were the thoughts he didn't share with anyone, the feelings he buried deep within himself.

He heaved a sigh, his breath fogging up the cool glass, and he swiped a hand through his hair. Ahh, damn, it's no use, sulking around like this.

Still, his limbs would not obey him to move.

"If you have the time to sit there and mope, you better make yourself useful while you're here." Haibara's voice pulled him from his gloomy brooding. He turned his head and watched as she came forward. She pushed a cup in his hands. "Here, drink up, it's hot chocolate, you like that, don't you." He gave her a smile, although it felt a little strained. "Thanks, Haibara." Then he turned his gaze back to the grey outside world.

She sat down next to him and eyed him for a moment, warming her hands on her cup.

She sighed.

"So, what's got you looking so miserable?"