Going Through the Motions - A Sorrowful Face
She had cried for a long while. And he hadn't been able to do anything but stand there and listen, listen while she clung to him, fingers gripping into the soft material of his shirt, in a desperate attempt to keep herself afloat amid her devastating whirlwind of emotions.
Her sister...
He turned his head slightly, watching her from the corner of his eye. She didn't notice his examination though, her gaze was directed outside, eyes tracing the cars that speeded along with them on the highway. It was already getting dark, the headlights of opposite cars illuminating the interior of their car. The windscreen wipers cleared the windshield, wiping away the tiny droplets of rain.
He had chosen to sit in the backseat to keep an eye on her, instead of the front seat. Before getting into the small, yellow car they had wrapped her up into a blanket. She probably normally would not have allowed such a thing, but she had been shivering and was visibly exhausted, the heavy emotions had taken their toll on her.
At the moment, they were on their way to the professor's house. Haibara needed to eat and sleep. And he—he needed to think. The guilt sat like a heavy stone in his stomach. This was probably the first time since meeting her that she had shown genuine emotion and not an act. 'Acting, huh.' A voice whispered at the back of his mind. 'It's not like she's the only one, keeping up an appearance, deceiving others with a play.'
He was proof of that.
Shinichi swallowed, his throat felt dry. At the moment, he couldn't get that face full of sorrow out of his head, the image, it lingered and prodded, poking at him with one question;
Why?
Why? He asked himself that quite enough, already.
And it probably would stay that way for a long, long time.
It is my responsibility, my burden...
It's...
He shook his head and shifted his gaze away from the red-headed girl next to him huddled in the old blanket and turned to look outside through the rain stained window.
The rainclouds high up colored the sky dark.
