Chapter 13 || Am I a Joke?▲

I couldn't find it anywhere, and I had looked for it everywhere. I was looking for my pink bracelet that I had lost a couple days ago and now I can't seem to find it. I even went back to Natsume's house and it wasn't there either. I went around school looking for like checking in the hallways, classrooms, even the music room and the gym I even asked the principal if someone brought a pink bracelet to him but unfortunately no one had. I had also asked if Sumire and Hotaru had seen it, but they haven't. they told me that they will help me look for it which I was grateful for. I feel so bad, it my last gift that I had got from her before she died.

Lately I haven't received any calls from my parents after my dad called, and I prefer to keep it that way. I had too much on my plate right now and I don't need anymore. My main concern is how am I going to get the money I need, I know that I can ask my parents but with this hug amount, questions will be asked which I don't want to answer. And today is the final day either I give in the money I must sign a document saying ' I take full responsibility to what is going on with my health, and no one will be at false if anything happens.'

It was now lunchtime and I was on my to mu locker to get my food when I heard some voices.

"What hell man!? I only invited that stupid girl because you told me to, otherwise I wouldn't have even bothered with that little shit!" said a voice, and I realized that it was Rei. Who was he talking about? I thought. I stay hidden behind the wall and keep listening.

"Just calm down, will ya? I know I said to invite her she will be no fun. I pick someone else." Said another voice and without a doubt I knew it was Natsume.

Who are they talking about? What girl?

"What the Fuck man! You said to invite that tramp Mikan to tonight's party so we could prank her using fake spiders and putting in her hair and drinks. Then you told me that when everyone was side-tracked by laughter I could go and use her." Says Rei. What? They were gonna use me? It was Natsume's idea to use me?

"Rei, no one would care if we use that goody-two shoes a prank target. Besides she is so stupid to even blindly accept your invite, not to even think twice that she could a set up. Dude she is stupid and nobody. Nobody would care so forget about it. I'll find someone else." Natsume replies. So they both were playing me the whole time? Natsume step me up? He was part of it?

I didn't even know I was crying till my vision got really blurry. I know I was crying now, hard. I couldn't believe it, I knew Natsume hated but never to this extent.

"Fine, but this time I will get to pick the girl." With that I hear someone walk way.

"You said to invite that tramp Mikan to tonight's party so we could prank her using fake spiders and putting in her hair and drinks"

"she is stupid and nobody"

"not to even think twice that she could a set up"

Those lines were repeating in my head like an endless tape recorder. Why do people hate me so much? What did I even do to earn this? I come out of my hiding and look up to see someone's back. I can feel hot tears draining down my like a waterfall and wouldn't stop. WHY DOES EVERYONE HATE ME!? I question myself everyday. Why does life want to bring me down?

I see the person turn around and saw Natsume, knowing Rei was the one to leave. He saw me and was shocked. I couldn't read his expressions but he knew that now I knew everything. My tears still haven't stopped. He was looking at me and was about to say something but closed his mouth since no words came out.

I took a step towards me and I looked down and took three huge steps back. I didn't want to be anywhere near him anymore. I couldn't believe this, so hard and painful. I felt so alone and so unsafe.

"Mikan, listen I—

I didn't listen to him because I ran out of the hallways and out he school doors. I could faintly hear his voice but I didn't care. I kept as fast as my legs could take me.

Natsume POV:

I was in the hallways because I needed to find Rei and tell him something about tonight's party. I planned on getting Rei to invite Mikan to tonight's party a few days back, and she accepted. I knew that Mikan had a huge crush on Rei for a while so thought it would make since if he had done it than me. The days she lived at my place I got to know a little. One main thing I noticed is that she is deeply afraid of spiders.

When she was living at my place Mikan was in the kitchen getting some water. When she came back out she screamed bloody murder, and my mom and I ran into the kitchen to see what was up. I still remembered that idiot's terrified face, it looked she had seen a ghost that was about to take her life away. So I thought we could play a little joke on her by putting fake spiders and on her hair and in her drink.

But I don't think I wanna do that anymore. Not that I care, I hate her. She is a goody two shoes, I may get chances on being suspended or worse expelled. Figured I could probably replace her by another girl.

I saw Rei making out furiously with a girl, by making her lean against the lockers. The girl looked like another one of our school sluts, which were stated by her clothes. Short and revealing.

"Yo Rei, I need to talk to you man."

They both jump at the sound of my voice. The girls face was red, and Rei was annoyed.

"What do you want Natsume. Can't you see that I was busy." He looks down at the girl. "That we were busy." I just roll my eyes at him.

I was gonna tell Rei about the change of plans at the tonight's party, but before I could say anything I told the girl to go. She didn't budge.

"Get lost bitch, now" I say in a dark icy tone that no one can refuse to. She rushes down the hall and disappears. I look back at him.

"What" he says.

"There is gonna be a change in plans at he tonight's party."

"Why?" Rei questions.

"Cause we don't need the clumsy idiot as a target tonight."

"No way man, I am looking forward to screw that tramp." He says and for some reason my blood starts to boil. I got even more mad when he called her a tramp.

"No I'll go and find someone that you can screw with."

"That wasn't the deal Natsume!"

"Hn. Like I care."

"What hell man!? I only invited that stupid girl because you told me to, otherwise I wouldn't have even bothered with that little shit!" he snaps at me and I just angry just don't show it, keeping my emotionless expression on. I just roll my eyes to play it off.

"Just calm down, will ya? I know I said to invite her she will be no fun. I pick someone else." I say but I could see that he wasn't buying it. Anger flared up in his eyes.

"What the Fuck man! You said to invite that tramp Mikan to tonight's party so we could prank her using fake spiders and putting in her hair and drinks. Then you told me that when everyone was side-tracked by laughter I could go and use her." He says angrily. It getting harder for me to listen him insults her. I took deep breath and replied calmly.

"Rei, no one would care if we use that goody-two shoes a prank target. Besides she is so stupid to even blindly accept your invite, not to even think twice that she could a set up. Dude she is stupid and nobody. Nobody would care so forget about it. I'll find someone else." I say and he looks at me. He didn't say anything for awhile but then broke the silence.

"Fine, but this time I get to pick the girl. I don't care weather you agree of disagree with it." He say, and I say fine and he walks off. I take a moment to calm myself. I turned around and what I see shocks me.

Mikan.

Crying.

Oh no. She was crying, and I know she heard everything or most of the conversation. Her were dripping her tears down her eyes. There was betrayal, pain, hurt and other expressions that I couldn't describe. My stomach dropped and I felt really guilty. I was trying to say something but no words would come out.

I take a step to her but she takes huge steps back, not wanting to be near me. As if she doesn't feel safe.

"Mikan, listen I—"

She doesn't listen and runs off out of the school doors. I ran after her and follow her. Calling her, but she doesn't respond and keeps running.

"Mikan! Mikan! Wait!" I call her but she is almost out of my site. Damn this girl can run fast. I was beginning to lose her. I run more but I can't see her anymore, knowing I lost her. I looking around to see where she could be hiding, but no such luck. I hurry back to school assuming she would come back on her own.

I arrive back at school and I see her friends looking for her. They seem pretty worried and axious. I just walk by, pretending not to care. I was nearly at class when I heard someone call me.

"Hey Natsume, have you seen Mikan?" Ruka asks. I turn to him with a blank expression. I nodded my head saying no. They all looked suspicious, especially the ice queen.

"That's weird. Where would he go? She said that she would be back in a couple minutes. I wonder where she went?" Sumire says. The icy lady looks at me.

"Do you know where she is Hyuuga?" she asks curiously.

"No, did I not mention it already before."

"You just nodded your head."

"Hn." She was about to say something else but the bell rang. She gave me a last look saying that this-isn't-over. I roll my eyes and head to class.

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No Ones POV:

School was over and Mikan was nowhere in site. Sumire and Hotaru got worried than before, even Ruka. Natsume was worried as well but didn't show it, but know it was getting difficult. He was afraid that she might do something stupid. Everyone looked where, but she was not in school. Koko and Yuu also helped but no luck.

"Maybe she is home." Sumire suggested. They all thought that it was reasonable. So they all went to Mikan's place. When they arrived, no one opened the door. They knocked and even called her home but no one answered.

"Maybe she is sleeping." Sumire says. Hotaru got out her home key and everyone looked at her confused.

"I kept a spare one in emergencies like this." she replies and opens the door. Natsume was the first one in by pushing others aside. Everyone searched whole house from top to bottom but nothing. Mikan was not home.

"Guys, I'm getting worried. Here could she have gone." Sumire says, nearly crying. She goes and sits on the couch and hugs herself. Koko goes and sits by her in a comforting manner and smooth her down. Hotaru kept calling her cell but she wasn't picking up.

"Let's wait a few more hours, if she still doesn't come than we will take action." Hotaru says and we all nod.

3 ½ hours later and now it is 7:00p pm.

"She still isn't here! Where the hell is she!?" Natsume shouts. Ruka was trying to calm him down, Sumire fell asleep on Koko's lap stressing out. Hotaru called the cops half an hour ago, but haven't heard from them yet.

"That's it! I'm going to look for her!" Natsume yells and heads to the main door. As soon as he opened the door, a figure stood in his way.

It was Mikan.

Her eyes her red and puffy, her hair is wet and since it is November and cold her skin was red since she did not take her jacket.

"Natsume what's wrong? Who is at the door?" Yuu says behind him and walks up. He follow Natsume glaze and see Mikan.

"Mikan!" he yells and everyone is at the door. Sumire was awoken by the noise. Mikan doesn't say anything just stands there looking at everyone.

"Mikan what's wrong? Where have you been?" Sumire asks through her tears.

Mikan said nothing and just stood there at the door. When Suddenly she looses her balance and collapses. But before her fragile body could hit the ground Natsume catches her.

"Mikan!"