Chapter 16|| It's all his fault

"Keep the ice pack on your head to numb the pain, and don't involve yourself into anymore physical strenuous, I have wiped the blood off your stomach although there is a bruise but it should heel within a week or so, other than that you should be fine." says Hikari, the nurse with a smile towards me.

I smile back at her thankfully and press the ice pack against my head. I nod in approval of my state. Hikari leaves my room and I slump back against my bed and closed my eyes. After Reo and Natsume's fight I woke up to find myself in the nurse's office; Natsume, and Hikari, both hovering over me. My stomach and head were still hurting, however I wasn't too worried about my head than my stomach. But at least the pain was starting to get bearable. Hotaru and Sumire are sure to take me back to the Clinic again for check up.

Now that I thin about it, Hotaru has been distant lately. When she gets a phone call she excuses herself, doesn't walk back home with Sumire or me. Something is fishy and I am going to get her to spill.

"How are you doing?" Natsume asks hesitantly as he walks into the room. I heard from the nurse that he had a phone call so he stepped outside.

"My stomach and head hurt a little, but I'll be fine." I smile at him in assurance. "How are you?"

Natsume let's out a breath of relief, "I thought you were going to be angry with me." When he notices my confused expression.

"I was the one who got in the way of a fight, which was stupid." I point out my stupidity. I blame no one but myself for what happened to me.

"Hn. For that you were an idiot." He says. Wow, real confidence there! He smirks when he sees my glare. "But most girls would overreact and never talk to that boy again and shit."

"Yeah" I reply. "so what happened after the fight?" I question sense the curiosity got the best of me.

"Well, sense that bastard hit you, he got expelled from this school, I have two days suspension, and detentions for the next week." Natsume says.

"That's it?"

"Hn. It would have been harsher, but you were the main focus." He smirks

"Glad to be at service." I say smiling.

After a while the nurse said that we could go home, and since it was getting dark outside Natsume gave me a ride home. Hotaru called earlier saying that she would have me checked up tomorrow morning at the doctors with Sumire. She said that she couldn't make due to family plans. We arrived at my home, and I gave Natsume his helmet back and said thanks.

I walked up to my house and open the door. As I was about to close Natsume was behind me.

"Aren't you going to invite me in?" he asks, smirking. What is it with this guy and his smirks.

"It's late, shouldn't you be home? Your parents say get worried."

"Hn. They won't worry tonight." He says, distastefully. Huh? What happened? They he have another fight with his parents?

"Why Natsume? Is everything okay? Did something happen?" I ask worried. I may not have lived with Natsume very long but his parents were amazing. The treated me like their own daughter and did many things together. Even when I visit, Kaoru taught me gardening, Shiku taught me some chess and other things.

"Here's the deal little girl. I stay here one night, and I answer all your questions." He says. Whoa there! Back up! Rewind! Did he just say, he wanted to spend the night here? I never had a guy sleep over at my place, other than my friends Hotaru and Sumire. But is proposition wasn't bad. I did want to now more about him, and his problem.

"Deal."

I was humming and making spaghetti for dinner while Natsume was upstairs taking a shower. It had been an hour and he still wasn't out yet. I thought boys take no longer than ten minutes, but Natsume is something else. Glad he wasn't down here yet. Everything was set, and so I just dumped the spaghetti in the sauces and beef that I cooked up. Now I was stirring and making sure looked good and tasty. I taste checked…. DELICIOUS! When it was done I started to set up the table for two. I placed the spaghetti into a big bowl place it in the center of the table. I also put the water jug as well as two coke cans, in case if Natsume wanted some.

I heard footsteps on the stairs so I am guessing he changed and is on his way down.

"Food ready?" Natsume says. I turn to look at him and my eyes are wide open. I gave him my brothers black pants and white shirt. The shirt was outlining his chest, muscles, abs, and his hair was wet and dripping.

"Done eye-raping yet little girl?" he smirks at me and I blush and turn away.

"I-I wasn't d-d-doing that." why did I stutter.

"Hn. Hope you don't poison me." He says and walks over to chair and sits down, and I do the same. We pour the food into our plates and starting eating.

"So what do you wanna ask me?" Natsume says, while eating.

"Now?"

"Got a better time?"

"Sigh. Ok, well why were you so horrible to me when we first meet?" I ask. He doesn't say anything at first but soon replies.

"I was quick t judge you. I assumed you were like all the other girls, and just pretended to be all innocent and good." He says, and I can sense the honesty in his voice.

"Why did you decide to let Reo use me at he party that I was going to attend to?"

"The ties with the answer I gave you, but I hated you because you were different. I knew you had a crush on Reo because I overhead you and seaweed girl. So I told him, and the idea came up. I decided to use you as bate. Reo being a player he was agreed to it and so the idea bumped from there."

"Her name is Sumire."

"Hn."

"What changed your mind?"

"When I saw you crying, it kind hit me in the face. I have seen girls cry and it is usually when I am done sleeping with them and or break it off, but never had seen a girl cry because I had hurt her the way I had hurt you. Seeing you being good and nice for the past few days I realized that you weren't pretending, you were being you, and that's when I decided to break if off. When said to Reo that you were worthless, and other shit…I lied." I look at him eye-wide, "its not true at all. The reason I said that was because I had to keep my reputation. I am player as well you. I can't show what I feel."

I was silent since this was new to me. I did know what to say. I was speechless. The guy that despised me for the past few weeks, playing stupid ranks on me, teasing me, hurting me, bullying me every second of the day was now, actually feeling guilty and apologizing.

When we finished eating I picked up the plates and put them in the sink. I put the spaghetti away in the fridge, and started to wash the dishes. Natsume was in the living watching something on the T.V. when I finished washing the dishes I joined Natsume in the living room.

"Why did you want to stay the night at house?" I ask curiously and he looks over at me.

"You want me to go?"

"No!...I mean… I-I don't k-k-know. You could b-be staying a-at R-Ruka's or K-Koko or Y-Yuu's…" man that was such bading stuttering. I can feel my cheeks burn crimson red like his eye color. Natsume smirked

He smirked, Damn him! How dare he smirk at me!?

"My brother is home." He says with hated.

"You have a brother?"

"Hn."

"You say like it is a bad thing."

"To me it is, I hate him." he now says it with anger. I go over to him and sit next him, rubbing his arm to smoother him, in a comforting way.

"What happened between the two of you? If you don't mind me asking."

He takes a deep breath before releasing it. "His name is Tsubassa and he was my idol at one point in my life. We use to do everything together. We would tease mom together, be naughty with each other, fight, and he always used to protect me. He was a good brother, an fucking idiot too at times, but he was a good bloke." He laughs humorously.

"But that all changed when I was ten and he turned sixteen. Mom and dad were normally busy and away lot on business trips so they really hadn't noticed much what was going on in his life. When was in high school, Tsubassa joined the wrong crowd. He was popular, started doing drugs, drinking alcohol. He was almost never home, so they were unaware of what was happening. And when he was he would constantly fight with me and beat me. If mom and dad were home he would always fight with them as well. I knew that he was a good person deep down and never gave up on him. I could see that he was protective of his family and me. I admired him; he was so carefree the way he acted, let no one get in his way and never ever gave a shit…" Natsume says and my heart softens as I see he closed his eyes and could see that his tears were begging to come out. "I wanted to be just like him, cold and bitter." He opens his eyes and looks at me to continue. "A year later, his addiction worse, and got heroine, which I nearly died from." His voice wavered as he swallows. "It broke me Mikan. How my brothers way of life nearly ended mine."

"Natsume…"

"One day I came home from school, and I was hungry. I went into kitchen and saw the food already made and I thought that it was for me. I didn't know what was in or who made. I took it and sat on the couch and started to eat it. After a couple of bites I started to feel a bit dizzy, my vision became blurry and had hard time breathing. When I woke up I found myself on a hospital bed, and my mom and dad in the room with me. They told me I was out for two days because I had too much heroine my body and for kid it is like a deadly poison. When Tsubassa came in the room I saw his eyes here red and puffy. I knew that he had been crying but I didn't care at the time and I still don't. I told that he wasn't my brother anymore and I wanted nothing to do with.

Mom and dad sent him off to rehab for a couple of months and stayed at home with me. They kept a close eye on the both of us from then on especially Tsubassa. After he got better he was sent of to the US for his studies, and every weekend he phones, visits every holiday to see how we are but I never talk to him and keep my distance. He kept apologizing but I refuse to hear his sorry. He nearly killed me. That is something that cannot be forgiven. He can't be forgiven for what he did to me.

And now he is home and is staying till new years and the only things that are different now are that he has a girlfriend with him and doesn't plan on leaving any time until we made amends."

Thick silence settles upon us and I stare at him and then give him a tight hug. He seemed shocked, "I am so sorry you had to go through all that Natsume. "I can't image that happening to me. I would have had a breakdown. I am here for you Natsume and you are strong okay?"

He nods his head, not having any words to my statement. I felt my heart shatter when I realized he was concealing all hos sobs. I hugged him tighter.

"You can let it all out Natsume." I tell him "Please. You can't conceal your feeling forever. You can cry if you want to."

"That is a bit hypocritical." He snaps back. I break the hug with him and stare at him.

"I can tell when someone is hiding things from me. I am no idiot." He sighs before shaking his head out of his thoughts, "Just give me a minute."

I nod my head in reply as Natsume gathers his composure.

"I know my story doesn't justify the way I have been treating you, but is all I can say. I'm fucked up." he mutters after a while. "I'll stop being fucked up."

"Your not fucked up Natsume, just lost. You just need help finding your way back to your true self. You just dealt with a lot of stuff and I can understand why you are the way you are." I reply.

"Hn. Friends little girl?"

"Yes and don't call me little girl. Furthermore, I won't stand those snarky comments of yours no more, don't release your frustration on me talk to me about it and quit being mean to me." I command and he flicks my forehead.

"Mou~ that hurt Natsume!"

"Then don't tell me what to do Polka" he smirks. Wha-

"PERVERT!" he peeked at my underwear! How dare he!?

"Hn."

"Meanie."

"Next week I am taking you somewhere for the weekend. So have your stuff packed. Koko, Yuu, and Ruka are also gonna be there." He says lying down on the couch. Is e demanding or asking.

"is this a choice or order."

"Order, so be ready."

"Can we have Hotaru, Sumire as well please?" I ask. It would be weird me out with four guys.

"Hn." He says and I take that as a yes. I lay beside him watching T.V and soon we both fall asleep on the couch with a blanket over us.