A/N: Okay, okay... I couldn't' help it one more chapter just to give you a little more, but really this might be it for a while as I work about seven days a week. hopefully I will find the time this week to write something somewhere.


Prison


"Swan, your turn on the computers. How long do you need?" The guard asked as I went into the the computer lab.

"I have a paper to write and a test so four hours?" I asked hopefully. Officer Massey had a soft spot for studious inmates. I was almost always in for four to six hours every day. There wasn't much else for me to do. I was huge now. This kid would come any day now.

"Take as long as you want." She said. I smiled and headed for the computers. around the second hour I started to feel a little pain on my lower back. But I was just getting to the meat of my research paper and I didn't want to move so that I could stretch.

A few minutes later the pain moved from my back and crawled all the way around my stomach. I gasped, and took a deep breath. I looked around the lab and I was alone. I saved my paper and shot my professor an email stating that I needed a little bit more time as I was in labor.

Then I got up and headed toward the guard. "Massey? I need to go to the infirmary."

"What's going on?" she asked her eyes full of concern.

"My water just broke." I answered.

THe walk to the infirmary was long and painful not only because of the labor pains, but because I knew I was doing to my kid the same thing my parents did to me. I tried not to look. I didn't want to but I saw his head full of dark hair like Neil. I listened to his cry, I knew he was calling for me and the sound of that call was going to haunt me.

I almost had them bring him to me three times before he was taken out of the room. i almost changed my mind as I heard my baby boy call out to me. But I couldn't give him his best chance, just a world of embarrassment because his mother was convicted and he was born in a prison.

I listened until his cries became one more sound in the distance. I cried with him. "Good bye.." I said though my tears.


It was two weeks before I could even think about doing my school work. But I knew that I needed to get myself together and before I got out of those walls. I was going to make my son proud, even if I would never see him again.

I threw myself into the course work. I was already a sophomore in college by the time my year was up. I applied to Penn state for my Junior year as a transfer. It had been six month since I gave the baby up and I had doubled up on the workload so that I could transfer once I was out.

I kept my grades up and surprised even myself with my capacity to learn. I still didn't know what I wanted to do. All I knew was that I was still kind of undeclared, and as a Junior all the coursework I would be doing would be career driven. I needed to decide and fast.

"Why don't you go to Law school wera… then you can get my record espunged." Silvie said.

"I can't get your record Expunged, you stabbed your ex and left him for dead." I said. No I didn't want to be a lawyer. I didn't want anything to do with the law.

"Well… what do you like?" She asked.

I shrugged turning back to the Discovery MD channel where I watched these shows about unexplained diseases. "I don't know… That looks just like what happened with that other dude and the tapeworm… maybe it's a parasite."

She looked up then over to me. She was silent as we watched, and sure enough the person on the show had a brain parasite. "Damn, Wera! maybe you should go pre-med."

I looked at Silvie… "Yeah… maybe." I smiled and decided that was exactly what I was gonna do.


The prison gates opened up in front of me, and there on the lot waiting for me was the bug. I paused staring at the car. The car in which I had conceived my son. Yes, this I would keep. I climbed in and Drove. My acceptance letter to Penn State riding shotgun. I was going to start my new life there. Emma Allison Swan Pre med.


A/N: more? I know I haven't brought about anything new. But finally I am bringing Emma and Alison more into focus.