"I called Blair's sister last night."

"Really? How'd that go?" Adam knew how stressed about it she was, she had gone back and forth on whether to tell them or not and at the end of the day he told her he couldn't make that decision for her and whatever she chose she had to live with.

"I can definitely say shocked. I'm not sure what's going to happen next. She says she's going to come to Chicago in a couple of weeks to see me."

"You nervous?"

"A little. Makes it real, ya know."

"I think it's pretty real." He patted her tiny belly. At night, at the end of the day it was starting to stick out a little. Adam had come for dinner, mainly to make sure she was eating. They'd had a busy day and he noted that two donuts, one cup of decaf and a handful of almonds was not enough to sustain one person, let alone one and a half.

She'd been on desk duty for two weeks now and it wasn't as bad as what she was expecting. Voight still did let her out of the District if it was filing paperwork with the courts or simple witness statements. He had gone back and forth on that, always wary that sometimes simple tasks blew up in their faces in a major way but Burgess had begged and both Adam and Kevin had promised to look after her.

It wasn't the most exciting work and she did miss the rough and tumble and got jealous when they came back in and were talking about what had just gone down. She always got to listen on the radio's and did also get to be a small part of it. Not great but better than she imagined.

Physically she was starting to feel better and Adam had noted a change in her attitude. She wasn't as tired and the emotional toll of worrying about her wellbeing, whether she wanted to admit it or not, had eased and that came through in her moods.

Although some days, they were way off. He rolled with it and was just learning when he was being a 'godsend' and when he was 'satan.' Sometimes it changed in the space of one sentence.

Adam had sat and listened to her one night as she went on an impassioned rant. "I don't want his baby but I can't not have this baby. It wasn't supposed to happen like this and I just couldn't make it go away because I couldn't live with myself. And what if this is the only chance I'd get, what if I am like 60 and sitting alone with cats and wondering why I threw away the only chance I ever got. At least I can raise this child how I want, I don't have to worry about custody, visits and all that drama, right? It's like a sperm donor thing, right?"

"Not quite, but it is your baby." Adam was desperate to tell her that this wouldn't be her only chance but couldn't. Nor could he tell her to abort the pregnancy, it wasn't his call. "You can do whatever you set your mind to, look at how single minded you were about Intelligence and you got there in the end. I have faith in you."

"Do you want me to have this baby?"

"Ahhh…." He didn't know how to answer but Kim forced him. "No, no I don't, but I'm just being selfish."

"Why?"

He cocked his head and gave her a withering look and she got it. "Oh, that."

"Yes that." Adam hated how tight in his chest it felt, he was jealous of a dead guy and that was just fucking stupid. "But, you are having this baby and I will be with you every single step of the way, if that's what you want. And probably even when you don't want me to be here, because I am annoying like that and this is what I want to do to prove to you….." he trailed off.

"Prove what?"

"That I wasn't the guy you decided I was."

"The non-commitment type of guy?"

"Yep that one. You were wrong. Just so you know."

"We fucked a lot of things up didn't we?"

"Yep."

Kim had called Kevin and asked him to come over the night she'd finished her last day in the field. "Let's meet at Molly's?"

"Nah, Kev, I need a night at home." When he rocked up with a six pack Kim just took it, pulling out one beer and handing it to him and placing the rest in the fridge. Kevin just filled the space around him and she suddenly felt claustrophobic and nervous.

"Not drinking?"

"Nope."

"Drying out after Christmas?"

Kim grabbed the bottle from his hand and turned it over to read the label. "According to the Surgeon General, women should not drink alcoholic beverages during pregnancy because of the risk of birth defects."

"Huh?" He looked a little blank.

"Do I need to repeat it?"

"No…actually Yes." Atwater gaped at her and then it dawned on him.

"I swear you are dumber than Ruzek some days, and that's saying something."

"So you and Ruzek are….?"

"Oh god no, no but I am pregnant…" She spoke slowly. It hadn't got any easier to say the word pregnant nor to say Blair's name. "Blair is the father… or was."

"The dead guy?"

"Yes Kevin, the dead guy. Thanks for pointing that out."

"Does Ruze know?"

"You are annoying me no end." Kim was exasperated. "Yes, he knows, he's been great."

"Ruzek, like our Ruzek?"

Kim threw up her hands, she was over Kevin already. Just because she invited him over and wanted to tell him before everyone else it didn't mean she was exactly bouncing off the walls with happiness either. Turning her back on him she fussed around in the kitchen but Kevin's arms wrapping around her broke her bad mood. "Hey Girl, we having a baby. Congratulations. You are gonna be a good little Momma Bear." He kissed her cheek. "Uncle Kev reporting for duty."

Kim squeezed his arms tighter around herself. "Thanks Kev."

"So you got a picture of my little Bub?"

Kim untangled herself from his bear hug and dug out the photo of her last ultrasound. Kevin had the same confused and bemused look that Ruzek had when she first showed him. "Are you sure, this looks like you swallowed a magic Bean?"

"I am sure. Anyway, I told Voight this morning so it's desk duty for me from tomorrow."

"What about Blair's family?"

"Give me a chance I'm still in shock."

"Me too Girl, me too." Kev swapped the ultrasound photo for his half-finished beer. "What you gonna do?"

"Have a baby Kev."

"Uncle Kev. I like the sound of that. Uncle Kev and Uncle Adam. Kid don't know how lucky he is."

Kim was sitting at her desk early. For some strange reason she had re-arranged her desk three times. If she was going to be stuck here for months on end it had to be just the way she liked it. "Morning Burgess." Ruzek was the first to arrive. They had shared a few texts last night so he knew Kev was clued in and everyone else would be bought in this morning. He dropped a blueberry bagel from her favourite bakery on her desk. "You didn't eat this morning right?"

If he didn't already know about Kev being informed of the big news the long stream of messages from Kev that started around six am was confirmation enough. They started with 'Fuuuuccckkkk' and went from there.

"I did, I had a banana."

He tapped the desk and headed to the breakroom to make a coffee. "Eat." Slowly the rest of the team straggled in. Upton headed to the breakroom and held out her cup for a coffee fill from Ruzek. "It's decaf."

She snorted "Why? You need caffeine to breathe."

"Cleaning up my act."

Hailey practically snorted her coffee all over the bench as she laughed. "I'd like to see that. I give you a week."

"Been on Decaf for a month." He gave a wry smile; they barely spoke to each other these days. Then again they didn't talk beforehand either so it was just a resumption of normal programming after a little deviation. "Glad you noticed."

"Okay." Voight came out to kick the day off, Ruzek strolled out of the breakroom and Upton followed shortly after. Kim's eyes quickly glanced at him and he just rolled his eyes, he fully understood that some days she still battled some lingering jealousy, despite his assertion that he told Hailey after their stupid drunken hook-up that he was still in love with Kim. Surprisingly he thought that would make things better but Kim was pissed. He wasn't sure if it was at him or Hailey and he was too scared to ask. They didn't talk about it again. "Need to shake things up a little. Ruzek and Atwater, Halstead and Rojas, Upton you are with me."

"What Sarge?" Upton started to protest. They'd been through this before, she worked best with Halstead and that was her preference and she didn't like change. Being with Voight would mean she'd be in here more than out doing real police work and that wasn't what she signed up for.

"I said you are with me."

"What about Burgess?" Kim sat quietly; she knew eventually it was going to come back to her. That's what this was all about after all. Adam didn't speak either, he was staying out of it. "Jay and I work best together."

"Burgess will be on desk duty for the foreseeable future."

"Why?"

"CPD's Pregnancy Protocol." He said very matter of fact and then wanted to move on, Kim didn't want to make a big deal out of it in front of everyone and even this was too much. "Right, now, where are we at?"

Kim leapt up from her desk and posted the photos of the two suspects they were hunting down. She was desperately keen to prove her worth to the team, she knew that Voight and Platt went out on a limb to ensure she stayed with Intelligence. They had removed the position when Nadia was murdered and had functioned well without it according to the brass, so it was trial to see whether it was a valid role. "LKA's are attached. The warrants will be signed off on shortly."

It also gave nobody the chance to say anything. Having gone through it with Voight, Kevin and Platt in the last twelve hours she had nothing more to give.

Platt had been interesting. She had headed downstairs after telling Voight and because she didn't want to watch him talking to Adam and wonder what they were talking about. It had taken her all day to get over it and Platt had caught her coming in this morning and given her a 'mom cop' mug and the weirdness of the previous day was forgotten.

"Hey Sarge, got a minute?" Kim breezed.

"Not really Burgess, you know these bright young Officers cannot organise a meat raffle let alone their day." Platt waved her away.

"Oh okay." She bounced on her feet. "But seriously I need a minute." Kim pointed to the spare office and didn't wait to see if Platt followed her. The heavy sigh told her that she was standing behind her though. Voight was going to talk to Platt once they'd got started on the case and she didn't want her to find out from him.

"This better be of monumental importance. Burgess."

"Uhh, I've just informed Voight so wanted to tell you too. Anyway, I'm pregnant." Kim just blurted it out. She had done the same to Voight, although his response was a little more like she expected. He'd been shocked but had hugged her quickly.

"You are what?"

"Pregnant."

"Pregnant?" She shook her head like she'd heard wrong.

"Yes."

"Why?"

"Why, why what? Why am I pregnant? Why am I telling you?"

"Yes."

"Ummm…"

Kim was shocked when Platt turned and walked out without waiting for a response. She stood there for just a moment and watched her walk to her desk then turn around and come back closing the door behind her. "So pregnant….Ruzek?"

"No." Why did everyone just think it was Adam's? It was a little annoying to be honest. Every single person so far had asked the same question. Adam just shrugged it off even when Kim reminded him that it meant that he was a cheater. His argument was that he knew he hadn't and he didn't give a flying fuck what other people thought.

"Blair?"

"Yes."

"Oh, okay. Fine, fine. Wow, not what I was expecting. You know about condoms and things like that don't' you?"

"I do…. horse has bolted Sarge."

"So it seems." Platt smiled faintly. "Huh, Wow. Okay. Is that all Burgess?" She turned to leave, resting one hand on the doorknob and turned back slightly to look at Kim who was looking pale and like she was going to vomit. "I'd prefer Aunt Trudy, I'm not old enough to be a grandmother."

Along with the cup Platt told her she was coming over to talk to her after work and Kim knew better than to argue, although she did try to convince her to wait until the weekend to no avail.

"Hold on…..pregnant? As in a baby pregnant?" Halstead spoke first. "How pregnant are we talking?"

"Yes pregnant with a baby, not a cat or a dog, I am about three months pregnant with a human. It's fine, I'm excited, I feel good so let's focus on work." Kim sat back down at her desk and opened her emails. "Warrants are here." She sent them to the printer. Jumping up to grab them she wasn't surprised when Upton followed her.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Why would I?" That seriously perplexed her, they'd barely had two conversations in two years and one of them was about her dating her ex-fiancé for six months on the sly. She'd swallowed it that day because she wanted to be the adult in the room, but it hurt, like hell and she'd had it out with Ruzek. Surprisingly they didn't yell and scream, it was all very civil and they'd each made their points about how they had both treated each other poorly in the past. They were trying to 'get over it' but it was harder than it sounded, especially in her current highly emotional and hormonal condition.

"You shouldn't have to do this alone."

"I'm not alone."

"Is this because of Ruzek, the reason you kept it a secret?" Kim was surprised she went there straight away. "Is it Adam's?"

"No."

"But he knows? I guess that's why he's gone Decaf to help you hide it for a bit longer? Trying to be the good guy?" Kim wasn't sure if she was trying to be funny or not but it wasn't the time for it.

"He is a good guy." Kim clapped back. "He's always been a good guy and he's always been there for me."

"I know, I'm sorry." Hailey stuttered.

"Yet you were quick to assume he cheated on you. Is that how little you think of him and of me?" Kim snapped. It was just the straw that broke the camel's back.

"Sorry, I didn't think." Hailey was suitably chastised, it was a fault of hers, she spoke without thinking and it often got her into trouble. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you; it was just hard for me you know with…."

"I'm sorry Hailey, this isn't about you right now. Can we drop it? Thanks for the good wishes though, means a lot." Kim's really didn't want to talk about it and not once had she asked about her since Blair was murdered, so getting into a personal conversation felt uncomfortable and unnecessary. They moved in the same world but their own orbits never crossed. They were totally different people and that was okay, there was no point trying to force it. Kim didn't have the energy for it at the moment.

When she dropped the warrant for Halstead on his desk he reached for her hand and squeezed it. "Congrats Burgess. How you doing?" Without even asking he had a fair idea who the father was and that had to be a kick in the guts for her.

"I'm getting my head around it, it's exciting, terrifying but exciting."

"I can imagine, it sounds terrifying, all of it, especially the getting it out bit."

"No, the terrifying part is the threat of Uncle Adam and Kev."

"Count me in too. Uncle Jay is gonna rock."

"Great." She rolled her eyes dramatically but her eyes were smiling. "Can't wait."

It did feel better now that it was out of the way. The anticipation had been much worse than the reality and she suddenly felt less alone. Not only did she have Adam, but now her world included Kevin and Platt. They had made it very clear that they were in this for the long haul.

The next hurdle was her family and Blair's. One day at a time though, she just needed to go home, have a shower, get into some comfy clothes and prepare herself for the 'Platt chat'.