Hope this soothes a few ragged edges...
"What's this?" Kim shoved a book in his hands. Surely he'd read every pregnancy related book known to man already? She tapped the section angrily. Kim had showered after dinner while Adam did the dishes and he'd finally just sat down. They had been on their feet all day and he'd chased three offenders down laneways and up and down fire stairs. He was shot to bits but they were in this routine and no matter how tired he was they always had dinner on Sunday nights after spending the day together. He had worked today but rather than go home and crash he still stopped by.
"Read it."
He did as he was told and had no idea what to think. Surprisingly there were no red markings on this page. Perhaps she didn't think it was necessary.
"That's where I am at."
He smirked. "And?"
"Adam I need this, I need you to like…." She had no qualms at all while he was freaking out a little. "…take care of me."
"I thought I was."
"No you idiot."
"Like, what?" He narrowed his eyes suggestively. "Sex?"
"Yes, I want to have sex, no I need to have sex, I'm dying here and well, you said you'd support me, whatever I needed and I need to have sex like right now." Kim did not even look slightly embarrassed by this conversation. "I've like tried to you know…" she cocked her head to the side and he was pretty sure he knew what she meant. "…it's not the same."
Even the vision that popped into his head triggered the required reaction in his brain and body. "I'm suddenly feeling a little uncomfortable. Could this be considered sexual harassment?"
"You've wanted me to sexually harass you for years. Stop being a smart ass and you know…" she fluttered her eyes and smiled. "…harass me."
"Is this a good idea? You are…." He didn't get to finish. If one more word had come out of his mouth it was likely he was never having sex again….ever.
It was a roller coaster, how she swung from begging for sex to crying uncontrollably in seconds was a stunning development and one he wasn't expecting. He was worried, he wasn't quite sure if half way through she'd change her mind. Once he was that far down this road it would be hard to turn back.
"You don't want to have sex? You hate that I am pregnant, it repulses you. Because I am fat, my boobs are veiny? What? What is it?" Then came the anger and she reefed the book out of his hands. "What? What is your problem? You've never said no before."
It was like trying to wade through shark infested waters with a slab of raw meat strapped to his limbs.
"I've always wanted to have sex with you. I mean look at me." By glancing down he liked that her eyes followed the direction of his. "Are you sure though?"
"Yes, please. Please?"
"I would've have tried to knock you up a long time ago if I thought it was going to be like this."
"Funny. So?" Without waiting for an answer she climbed into his lap and his body went from mildly excited to ready for action whether he wanted it to or not. "It's just sex Adam."
There was no way he could stop this and he didn't want to either. He missed her, he always enjoyed her. It was hardly romantic though. Kim leapt off his lap and pulled the dress she was wearing over her head. He just watched, her breast were incredible right now, they always had been but now they were something else and then there was the bump. It looked more like a permanent beer belly and now that he had seen the baby for the first time at a recent scan he adored that little bump.
It was amazing, he thought it looked a little weird but the fact it was a real live baby wriggling around in there blew his mind. He'd talked about it for days, explaining to Kevin and Trudy in minute detail about every little thing it was doing. It made Kim feel a little wistful, she could see the joy on his face and at one time this is what she wanted with him. Perhaps she still did and for just a moment she imagined that this was his baby. It was bittersweet when he thanked her for letting him be part of it.
"Come on Adam. What are you doing?"
"Watching you."
"Can you like, do something?" She inclined her head towards his groin.
"I want you to do it." He smiled. "Humour me. I need some foreplay."
"Bullshit. We're done with foreplay." Kim scoffed as she leant forward and unbuckled his belt, taking very little care that she was rubbing her hand against him. Not that it mattered, he was already reacting to her. He started reacting the moment she first asked for sex. No way this genie was going back in the bottle now.
"How do you figure that?"
"I told you I wanted to have sex, that always worked in the past."
"I think you are incredible; you amaze me and I'm so proud of you."
"See now you are full mast…so?" She kissed him hard while she struggled to get his jeans down over his hips. He was holding her steady. Hooking his thumbs under the waist band of her panties and pushed them down and Kim stepped out of them before she climbed back into his lap, her knees either side of his hips and she didn't waste any time.
His eyes closed for a moment as he let the sensation wash through him. He felt calm. Kim rocked against him. "Are you okay? I'm not hurting you?" He whispered in her ear.
"No, god no….Adam." she moaned. "Adam."
"Do what you've gotta do."
She eventually rested her head on his shoulder when she stopped shaking and enjoyed the gentle pressure of his hands running up and down her back. "Just so you know." He brushed the hair that had fallen over her shoulder back and kissed her cheek. "It's never been just sex with you."
Feeling her shiver he grabbed a blanket off the back of her couch and wrapped her up in it and for a few moments they stayed in silence. "Why don't you go get into bed. You're getting cold."
"Are you leaving?"
"Not until you are asleep." The warm trickle of tears on his neck gutted him. "Please don't cry Kim."
"I don't want you to go."
"I know, but you know I can't stay."
"Why?"
"Because if I stay tonight I will never leave."
"Okay, then stay."
"Hey." He gently pushed on her shoulders so that she had to look at him. "Thank you."
"For what?"
"Giving me a moment of peace." That's what it felt like for him, he felt peaceful and at ease with himself and it had been a long time since he'd felt like that. His life had been in turmoil for so long, with Al dying, Antonio and his issues, his own issues with an ill-thought out fling and now with trying to be the best person he could be for someone he loved who was going through the biggest thing she had ever faced had taken its toll on him and this brief moment had made all that fade a little bit.
"Can you please stay a while? Please?"
"Only if you get into bed. You need to sleep and I need to watch you sleep."
"That's a bit creepy." Kim climbed off his lap and hunted around for her underwear.
"Calms my mind." Adam reached for her hand once she was partially dressed again. "Hey come here a minute." She stepped closer to him and he rested his hand on her swollen belly. "Sorry about all that little Bean." He leant forward and kissed it softly. "You are one lucky little Bean, you've got the best Momma in the world looking out for you and FYI, Uncle Adam, he's awesome too. Let's get Momma to bed."
Laying down next to Kim he pulled the covers up and draped one arm over her. "Thank you Adam."
"My pleasure." He smiled. "Just one request? Next time you get the urge or surge or whatever that was can you make sure it's not when Kev is here."
"Don't be stupid."
"Please call me….anytime, day or night."
"I will."
"So you think you'll get the urge again anytime soon?"
"Hmmm, perhaps." Kim rolled over to face him and despite her being under the covers and him being on top of them she managed to get close and snuggle into him. It felt nice to be in someone's arms again, or more specifically his arms. This was always her home, despite them being so far apart for so long. "Is there a code word you want me to use?"
"Donut."
"You and bloody donuts." He'd eat them for breakfast lunch and dinner given the chance.
Adam chuckled. "Yep."
"Hey Adam?" Kim smiled in the dark. "I have an urge for a Donut."
He stayed until the sun came up and it was the best night's sleep he'd had a long, long time.
