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Summary - Ambivalence: The coexistence of opposing attitudes or feelings, such as love and hate, towards a person, object or idea. "You do realise you don't scare me right?" "That's because I don't try." She was a sarcastic teenager who probably should have stayed off limits and he was a rough biker who probably shouldn't have let his curiosity get the better of him.


The next morning Lena woke up late in the day a little before noon. Getting out of bed she found that someone had brought all her stuff in from her car and dumped it on the floor. Not neatly either which means it was TJ not Ally. Going into her suitcase she pulled out fresh clothes and headed off to find the bathroom. It didn't take her long, the second door she looked in. The first being a linen closet. After having a long shower and feeling clean she dressed in the jean shorts and singlet she grabbed before putting on eyeliner and mascara. Not bothering to do much with her hair she brush through it and left it out to air dry. Coming out of the bathroom she went back in the direction of the front of the house in search of the kitchen. As she walked into the kitchen, from the back window she could see TJ and Bobby out the back but no Ally. Deciding she wanted to eat before talking to anyone she poured herself a coffee and turned towards the pantry in search of food. Finding bread and a toaster she made herself some toast. Sipping on her coffee as she waited for her toast to pop she thought back on last night. She can't believe she kissed Happy. She knew it was only on the cheek and that made her feel like even more of an idiot. He already thought of her as a little girl and little girls kissed on cheeks so she was only reinforcing that idea in his head. She should of just full on kissed him. What's the worst he could have done? Not kissed her back. That would of been horrible. Hopefully he only thought of it as a friendly thing. It would be even better if he liked it and actually showed that to her. She highly doubted that though.

"What's got you thinking so hard?" Asked TJ as he and Bobby came in through the back door. Realising her toast was done she grabbed it out and put it on a plate.

"Nothing. Where's Ally?"

"Fixing stuff for her transfer to the hospital. Getting her ID and shit sorted. Then I think she's going to enrol you into the high school." Replied TJ as Lena buttered her toast and put jam on it.

"It's a Saturday it's not open."

"What's got you in such a lovely mood this morning?" TJ questioned as he watched Lena roll her eyes before sitting at the table. "Fine ignore me. At least say hi to Bobby instead of being rude."

"Morning Bobby. How are you?" Lena sarcastically asked with an even more sarcastic smile on her face.

"More like afternoon. I'm alright darlin'. How's charming treatin' you?" He chuckled.

"Only been one night. ask me again in a week." Feeling that he had enough of the sarcastic teenager TJ made his exit,

"Me and Bobby are heading out. Come by the clubhouse later if you get bored." TJ told her with a kiss to her cheek as he headed out the door.

"See," she told herself, "my future brother in law just kissed me on the cheek. It says friends not please notice me in a sexual way."

The more she thought on it the more she hated herself for last night. Maybe she's just overthinking it. Maybe Happy hasn't even given it a second thought. Hopefully he's just forgotten it and it's meant nothing. Finishing her breakfast, or lunch, and heading for her room, she decided that once she had finished unpacking she would go to the club house and see the whole kiss on the cheek thing was affecting Happy as much as it was affecting her.


Pulling her car into the parking lot at teller morrow she scanned the area for anyone familiar. Seeing a few members sitting at the tables outside the clubhouse she decided there would be a good place to start.

"Here's trouble." Called out Kozik as she headed in his direction.

"Seen my sister?" She questioned as she sat down next to Chibs.

"Her and TJ left here not long ago. Think their going to the grocery store." Kozik told her.

"Thanks for the fucking invite, leave me abandoned at home,"

"I see your mood has improved." Bobby told her as she pulled her smokes from her bag.

"Don't worry, you'll get used to grumpy here, can never be pleased." Kozik told her as he grabbed a smoke from her pack.

"Scab," she told him. As she lit her cigarette she watched from the corner of her eyes as Happy came out of the clubhouse. Seeing her he kept walking past the group and headed for the garage. Noticing Happy ignoring the girl, Kozik raised his eyes at Lena in question. She returned the gesture with a shrug of her shoulders.

"Don't worry doll, you'll find plenty of pleasure around here." Tig told her winking.

"I'm 90% sure your pushing 50 gramps and I'm 100% sure I'm not interested." She told him, sending the bikers into a fit of laughter.

"Suit yourself, just know the offer stands."

"Gemma here?" Lena asked Kozik. Getting a nod in response she left the men and made her way towards the office next to the garage. She watched as Happy spotted her from where he was talking to Clay in the garage and turned his back to her, literally giving her the cold shoulder. Fucking asshole. Can't even handle a kiss to the cheek. Lena almost wishes she had of punched him instead. Rolling her eyes at his behaviour she opened the door to the office.

"Alright to smoke in here?" She asked Gemma as she looked up to see who was interrupting her.

"Only if you've got one for me." Sitting down on the couch Lena tossed her packed to Gemma.

"Appreciate it. Haven't had a chance to run out and grab more."

"Ain't that a bitch. Feel free to grab a few. It's a Saturday, you know if there working you too hard you should try sleeping with your boss."

"Funny, but as I am the boss I don't really feel like fucking myself today. Too much shit too handle." Lena had decided within minutes of meeting Gemma the first time that she liked her. Intelligent, beautiful and bitch. What's not to love?

"Need a hand?"

"If you wouldn't mind going out to the garage and telling Clay I need the invoices from last month brought in from the club house that would be great."

"No worries. Cool if I leave my shit in here?"

"Go for it." Leaving her bag on the couch and her cigarette packet on the desk next to Gemma, she made her way into the garage. Hearing the door Clay looked up from what he was doing. Hearing the door too Happy looked up before turning around and walking further back in the garage.

"Thought I seen you, how are you?" Clay asked her as he cleaned his hands on the rag that was sitting on the bike he was working on.

"I'm alright, no one else feeling bothered to do the hard work?" She teased earning a chuckle from Clay.

"Never trust anyone to work on my bike but me."

"Smart, no one knows it like you I suppose. Gemma said she needs the invoices from last month."

"Alright I'll get one of the boys to grab them." He walked to the edge of the garage and called out to the members sitting outside the club house.

"Someone grab last months invoices for me."

"What?" Yelled back Kozik.

"Invoices. Last month." He yelled back.

"What?" Kozik yelled again.

"Ah forget it. Fucking idiot. Want something done, you gotta do it yourself. I'll be right back darl," Clay said to her before stalking off to the club house. Lena watched as he walked past Kozik and smacked him on the back of his head. Stifling a laugh she turned her attention to the man who was currently focusing very hard on a car magazine in his hand. Rolling her eyes she made her way towards him.

"If I had of know you would of reacted this way I would have made it worth it, felt you up or something."

"What the fuck are you talking about." Happy asked.

"The kiss on the cheek last night. Meant nothing, was just showing my appreciation. No need to go all cold shoulder on me." Forgetting the magazine in his hand he threw it on the bench and turned his attention to the teenager in front of him.

"Trust me little girl, it's barely been on my mind. Got more important shit to stress about. Your the least of my worries."

"Barely been on your mind means it has been on your mind."

"No it doesn't."

"Yes it does. If you meant it hadn't at all then you would have said you hadn't thought about it. Really Hap? A kiss on the cheek all it takes to get you all twisted inside and act like a little bitch."

"Watch what you fucking say to me." He growled, taking a step towards her.

"Tell me I'm wrong then."

"You are wrong. Wasn't anything and it didn't mean anything. Takes a lot more than that to leave a long lasting impression. Not even worth my time."

"That's what I'm trying to tell you, so stop being a dick. Trust me, if I wanted to make an impression I would."

"I fucking told you to watch what you say to me. If you were anyone else-"

"But I am just someone else. Not your girl or anyone else's. Why don't you show me what you do to people who don't listen? I'm just no one to the club."

"Fuck off. Your a members old lady's sister. Makes you family to the club. Stop trying to push me. Watch your fucking mouth around here. Not warning you again."

"No kiss this time?" Lena called out to him as he walked off. Shaking his head he continued away from the girl. Huffing, Lena turned her attention towards the office, catching the blinds being shut by Gemma who had been watching. Great. Stubbing out her cigarette in an ashtray she made her way back into the office.

"That seemed intense." Gemma queried.

"Owes me money." Leaning responded.

"Yeah right." Gemma snorted. "You fuckin the killer?"

"Wait, you guys actually call him that? That's hilarious." Lena laughed.

"It's not funny. You know what he does for this club, girl?" The amusing tone gone from Gemma's voice, replaced with a serious one.

"Somewhat of an idea. Don't matter though, I ain't fucking him. Too young for him."

"Not trying to get on your wrong side Lena so wipe that look off your face. I'm looking out for you. Your going to be around this a whole lot now. Time to get used to it. Your family now. You won't know all the ins and outs but you will probably see some shit. Keep clear of men like Happy if you have any long term motive. He fucks and moves on. Will throw you out like yesterday's news."

"I told you-"

"And I'm telling you. I ain't Ally, not gonna tell you what you can and can't do. Just saying be careful. And if you are fucking him, don't let your sister find out. We don't need that drama right now." Laughing at the older woman in front of her Lena made the decision, whether it be right or wrong, to trust her for the moment. God knows she could use some advice where Happy is concerned from someone other than fucking Kozik.

"Think I can ask you something?" Gesturing with her hands for Lena to continue, Gemma leant back in her chair and lit another cigarette.

"So I've kind of always had a thing for him. Started as a stupid little girl crush but now it just won't go away. And I don't know what to do. Kozik said-"

"You took advice from that dumb shit? You told him you have a thing for Happy?" Gemma asked in disbelief.

"No the nosy fucker read my diary."

"You have a fucking diary?"

"Jesus Gemma I was 14 when I first had a crush on him."

"three years is a long time for some bullshit crush. You love him?"

"Fuck no. I dont know what it is about him. I think its the whole wanting what you can't have. I dont know what to do." Leaning back against her chair Gemma couldn't help but smirk at the girl. "What? This isn't funny Gemma. I asked for advice not judgement."

"Hey now darlin', I'm the last person to judge. You want a mothers advice? Steer clear of men like him. move on, find a nice boy at school to distract yourself with."

"High school boys are so irritating. The last one i dated won't stop calling me." Lena complained.

"Then how about advice from a woman in the club who frequently deals with these men. Fuck him. Get him out of your system."

"Please. He doesn't even think of me like that. Gave him a kiss on the cheek and he's freaked the fuck out."

"All of that before was bout a kiss on the cheek? Trust me darlin', you're a young beautiful girl, He sees you in that way. If he didn't the cheek kiss wouldn't of been a big deal. You've shaken him, got him thinking things he shouldn't be thinking about a 17 year old."

"But thats exactly it. I'm 17. he wont come anywhere near me."

"Age is just a number and you're pretty much 18. You gotta make him not only want it, but need it."

"But how do I-"

"Here you go my Queen. The invoices you wanted." Clay said as he came through the door and dropped a box on the desk. "Think you can give me a minute with Gemma, Lena?"

"Yeah thats fine. I'm done here anyway. See you later Gem." Lena replied as she grabbed her bag and cigarettes before heading to the door.

"Hang on a sec hun, just going to walk Lena to her car." Gemma told Clay as she got up to follow the young girl out of the office.

"I'm sure she knows the way." Clay grumbled. Gemma rolled her eyes at her husband before responding with "You aint getting any here anyway. Ive got to much work to do and you wont hire anyone else."

"Offer Lena the job. Sure she can help you after school and weekends."

"Really?" Nodding at her in response, Gemma turned and walked towards Lena, who was now waiting besides her car for Gemma.

"Look we'll finish our chat later. But ignore him, let him come to you. trust me, you keep chasing him and he'll never give in."

"You sure that will work?"

"I'm positive. Do not talk to him first. Wait for him to come to you."

"This is so fucked up."

"What?" Asked Gemma, not understanding what the girl was talking about.

"You're essentially giving me advice on how to get him to fuck me."

"Thats what you want isnt it? Look sweetheart thats my advice. You want to stop thinking about him then get it out of your system. To get it out of your system you have to get him to show his interest and to do that you have to make him think your not interested, so when he comes and asks you why your ignoring him it means he will have noticed that you havent been talking to him. Make sense?"

"No."

"Either take my advice or don't. But stop whining about shit when I've told you how to fix it." Gemma scolded her as she opened the drivers door for Lena to get in her car. Huffing Lena got into the car and slammed the door behind her. Gemma not being finished with talking to her tapped on her window, indicating her to roll it down.

"Be here at 9 in the morning. Need a hand couple days a week and afternoons. Clay said we'll pay you but we can sort that shit out tomorrow."

"And if I don't want to?" Lena growled as she put on her sunglasses, clearly frustrated with the older woman.

"Trust me you do. You also shouldn't bite the hand who is trying to help you get fucked."

"Yeah yeah. I'll be here."

"Right now off you go and make sure to bring your smile tomorrow." Gemma told her as Lena reversed out of her parking spot. Gemma felt a sense of pride as she watched Lena drive out of the lot, not sparing Happy a glance as he tryed to discreatly watch her from where he was sitting outside the club house. Chuckling to herself Gemma headed back into the office to finish her work.

"What do you think of Allys sister? I've only met her once before they moved here." Clay questioned his wife as she sat at her desk.

"Smart girl. Funny too. Bit of a smart ass but comes with being a teenager."

"She going to cause me any grief with the boys?"

"Nah she shouldn't. I'll put her under my wing. Show her the ropes."

"Geez, she must have made an impression on you."

"What can I say, see alot of myself in her. Besides you know I have a soft spot for Ally, and shes asked me to keep an eye on Lena. Apparently miss LA is a bit of a wild child."

"Yeah not hard to pick that one. Kid seems alright though, got my tick of approval and if she can relieve you for a few hours a week and get you off my back then well, whats not to like." Clay teased.

"Get out of here asshole, I got work to do." Gemma told him as she threw a pen at him. Raising his hands in surrender he took off back into the garage. Lena did seem like a decent girl. She wasn't a crow eater. She wasn't a junkie and most importantly she wasn't sleeping with her son. Yeah, Lena O'mally would fit in alright around here. That will be made alot easier due to her being taken on by the queen of Charming herself. Gemmas thoughts about the new girl were interupted by the phone ringing.

"Teller-Morrow." She answered.

"Hey Gem its Ally." The voice said back.

"Hi sweetheart. What can I help you with?"

"Was just wondering if you wanted to come to dinner at ours tomorrow night. You can invite all the boys. Wanted to say thanks for welcoming me and Lena into the family."

"No need to say thanks but I'll be sure to let everyone know dinners at yours."

"So i was thinking of maybe getting TJ to do a BBQ." Ally started. The pair soon got lost in organising the next nights dinner that the work in front of Gemma was ignored and forgotten.