It has almost been a week since Damon and I had arrived in Mystic Falls and I have barely left the house since and have avoided going to town though Damon didn't exactly want anyone knowing that we were in town yet, especially Stefan and it was time for me to start school for the first time in my life and at first, he didn't want me attending.
He worried that Stefan may recognize me and see me as threat to his precious doppelganger though finally convinced him to allow me to attend school, making me promise to behave and had me registered for third grade and will be in the same building as Stefan, though wasn't using Alexandra as my name because he wasn't stupid and will know it was me.
So Damon had me signed under the name Alexa so that I could still safely be known as Ally without the worry that Stefan would be coming after me and it won't be so obvious to him though Damon said I could choose any name I wanted, but couldn't be anyone else when I was returning home for the first time in 145 years; besides, I was in the third grade and will only see him during lunch.
If I was actually being any honest with myself, I would admit that I was real nervous about starting school today as I have never attended school before as girls weren't allowed to attend school back then and Father had forbade me from ever going anyway, saying that girls have no business going being at school as according to him, we were all just incapable of learning and the only place where he considered us to actually be useful was in the kitchen.
Though that still didn't stop Damon from teaching me himself which caused our father to become quite angry and give him a beating, but also never did anything to put a stop to it either, not like it would of stopped Damon from teaching me anyway as he wanted more for me than our father marrying me off to some suitor and spending my life serving a man that didn't love me which would have been my life if I hadn't become a vampire.
Of course, even if Damon hadn't taught me, I would have found a way on my own as I do love art and wanted to learn as much as I can about it, but lately I have found a new interest in photography, and Damon bought me a new camera so that I can embrace it, wanting me to experience new things.
It was my first day of school, and I was having the jitters and Damon was still out hunting which was making my jitters even worse because he had promised me last night that he would drive me to school as it was my first day though I was actually real worried he was going to go back on his promise and would have to leave without him because I didn't want to be late on my first day even if I was just going to school to spy on Stefan.
Though I had gone to that art program right before Damon had gone missing, Damon was still having trouble letting me go even if having me attending school was his idea, saying he was worried about having me around all those boys, even if they were a bunch of eight year olds and didn't like the idea of having to rip off the heads of a couple of eight year olds.
So, Stefan has no idea what he is talking about when he says Damon has no humanity, he has more compassion than anyone, he just doesn't let it show too often which I blame on our father for bullying him about it, but it made me feel useful in doing something to help him as sometimes I felt that I had been turned too young and was a fardello to him and felt that he had to take care of me, not that he wanted to.
I was just about to give up on Damon showing up and just when I was about to start walking the human way as I couldn't risk anyone seeing me, Damon was standing there, ready to take me to school which made me smile as I had believed he stood me up and jumping in to his arms, wrapping my arms around his neck..
"Hey, I promised to take you, didn't I and besides there was no way I was going to miss out on taking you to your first day of school, like ever and I have always wanted my baby to attend school. Sorry I'm late, I was getting the scope of the area and besides as your legal guardian, I need to sign some paperwork," Damon whispered in my ear, shifting me up onto his hip and carrying me towards a car, feeling little, like I used to.
I was real nervous as Damon drove us to the school as I have never gone to school and because I have never gone to school before, I don't know how to really interact with kids that are my age as there aren't really many my age that I get much of a chance to interact with as the only friend I have that is even around my age is my close witch friend, Castria who was now thirteen, having met her when she had been my age.
I have come rather attached to her, seeing her as a sister though wish I could see her more than I do, but hoping that now that we were temporarily moving to Mystic Falls that I will get to see her as she only lives an hour from Mystic Falls as it feels like it has been forever since I last saw her and though she is one of my closest friends, it is hard that one day she is going to get older and there is nothing that I can do about it but enjoy the short time that we have with each other and wish that there was way that I could keep Castria with me forever.
"Don't you worry, my little cutie pie, there is nothing to be scared of, you are going to make plenty of friends and I'm going to be staying real close today so if at any time you want to come home, you just call me and I'll be outside the school quicker than you can even exit the building while still managing to avoid Stefan who doesn't even know that we are in town yet and for now, I want to keep it that way, especially with you and there is no need for anyone to know you are in town yet.
I also found out that the doppelganger's younger sister is eight and is going to be in the third grade with you, I believe her name is Jessica Gilbert and it would be nice to make friends with her," Damon told me though I didn't really want to make friends with anyone that was related to that doppelganger bitch and think he was a little more nervous of my first day than I was.
It was feeling like it was my first day of kindergarten while I was just anxious, but more because I remember the time I went to study for six months at a special art school and came home to find that Damon had gone missing and took me nearly five years to find him and why I was being extra clingy today, at least more than usual though Damon understands that my clinging comes from feeling abandoned by him for Katherine all those years ago.
"Dami, do I have to befriend the copycat's sister? I don't want anything to do with that doppelganger bitch, I told you that, she is probably just another Katherine copy cat and is just a manipulative bitch that thinks that the world always revolves around her and can get whatever she wants and that includes her younger sister who is going to be just the same as her and would rather make friends outside the doppelganger sisters as all they do is enjoy taking big brothers away from their little sisters," I said, letting my insecurities show though I doubt her sister was a doppelganger too.
Though I will probably do what Damon tells me to do anyway even if I was arguing with him about it now and for all I know, the relationship that she has for her sister could be just like the relationship I have with Stefan, but I doubt that as there is just no way that anyone could have a relationship as dysfunctional as the one that I have with Stefan.
I saw Damon's eyes soften at that as he pulled me close to him, "Ally honey, just do what I say, please? I really don't want to be fighting with you and besides you don't really have to be friends with her, I just need you to be on the inside and if you are supposedly friends with Jessica than she will invite you over to her house to play dolls or whatever it is that you girls do at your age and invite you in.
That way, I won't have to worry about you not being able to get into the Gilbert house and we need to get invited in, otherwise this trip would have been for nothing and don't forget what are plans are and remember not a word, especially to Stefan, that is if you decide that you want to see him, and will you watch your language," Damon told me though he really didn't need to warn me not to say anything, I would never breathe a word of Damon's plans to anyone, especially to Stefan and if he wants to see me, he is going to have to find me himself.
"Don't worry Dami, my lips have been sealed for the last 145 years, I can keep them sealed for another few more weeks and I wouldn't talk anyway and I have no reason to want to see Stefan, so if he wants to see me, he is just going to have to come find me himself because I have no intention of going to him, and I have no idea what girls actually do at my age as I was never allowed to be one; Father made sure of that," I told Damon with a little bitterness at the mention of my father.
I had always just wanted to be a child when we were growing up and be like any little girl that would play dolls and enjoy feeding the horses which was one of many things that my father never allowed me to do and one of the things that I just can't seem to get over and though I am forever nine, I don't really have time to just play dolls as I wouldn't know how and this is one of the few things that Damon can't help me in.
"Don't you worry about a thing my little torta cutie, I have faith that you will figure out what little girls do and maybe give you a chance to actually be one for once. I trust you to not say anything to Stefan, and I made a promise to you that you don't have to see him if you don't want to and that is a promise that I don't intend to break, baby, "Damon said as he pulled up to the school, where the elementary part of the school was going to be.
The school parking lot was mostly empty as no one was really here yet as Damon vampire sped around to my side and lifted me out of the car before I decided to change my mind, letting him carry me inside to the office, while I sucked my thumb, feeling nervous.
He put me down once we reached the office and slid my hand into his, feeling scared about having to be here all alone without Damon here, scared of running into Stefan without him even though I was in the elementary hall, there was still a chance we might run into each other because though it may have been 145 years, I don't think he has forgotten completely about me, he could still recognize me by chance.
"It's alright cutie pie, there is nothing to be afraid of here, and if anything or anyone hurts you, just let me know and I will rip their heads off for you, remember that Ally bug," Damon said, winking at me so knew he was joking and maybe a little serious as you could just never tell with Damon, but I love him anyway.
I hid behind him, holding tightly to his hand and watched as he compelled the scary looking secretary lady to let me into the school for third grade, watching as he signed the papers and letting me have the more advanced classes for a third grader and putting me in the same class as Jessica Gilbert, knowing that they really dumbed it down since Damon had taught me which was his way at making it up to me for forcing me to come back home when I never wanted to see this place again.
"See Ally bug, now you got all the classes you wanted and even got you into that special Junior Photography class I knew you wanted to take that had a six month waiting list. Why don't you head to first period, it's going to start soon.
I need to get out of here before Stefan sees me. Are you going to be alright or do you need me to walk you to class" he asked me with a concern look in his eyes and for the first time in what felt like years, I felt he was truly concerned for me and was actually putting me first for once instead of her which is what I want as I nodded my head at him.
I never did tell him how I felt constantly pushed aside with his desperation to attempt to get Katherine out of the tomb that I don't even believe she is in, but I had my opinion know and Damon knows that I don't believe she is in the tomb but continues to tell me that she is in the tomb where she has been for the last 145 years and if she actually is in the tomb, it is her own fault for being so reckless and getting herself and all her friends caught as only very few managed to escape that night.
I smiled up at my brother, knowing he was going to have to leave when that was the last thing I wanted from him right now, "Yeah Dami. Ti amo, grande fratello. Should I cry and make a seen like a regular third grader," I said to him as he leaned down to lift me up and kiss me before setting me back down.
"Come ti amo, piccolo sorellina. Io ti amo sempre, Alexandra" he told me back in Italian, making me smile back at him and hugging his leg as I was too small to reach his waist, having gotten the short genes in the family which I have always been constantly made fun of for by both my brothers though Damon always uses my shortness as an excuse to pick me up in my arms, but I think he really just enjoys picking me up which I don't mind.
He gave me one more kiss, followed by a playful swat to the bottom, "Have a good day and don't cause too much trouble and behave yourself. I don't want to be getting a call from the school. Ti amo," he said before hesitantly turning around and leaving before Stefan showed up and saw him though still didn't seem like he wanted to leave me.
I knew if I had asked, he would have stayed even if it meant exposing himself to Stefan earlier than planned which shows how much he loves me as I love him, turning around as the bell rang, meaning it was time to go and sit in my first class ever as last year didn't count as I went to find my way and not be nervous as there was only so much a bunch of eight year old humans could do.
Fardello: Burden
Torta Cutie: Cutie Pie
Ti Amo, Grande Fratello: I Love You, Big Brother
Come Ti Amo, Piccola Sorellina: As I Love You, Little Sister
Io Ti Amo Sempre, Alexandra: I Will Always Love You, Alexandra
Ti Amo: Love You
