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Beca shifted slightly as her body began to wake up. Bright light flooded into the bedroom through the blinds as the birds chirped away on a beautiful Sunday morning.

Opening her eyes and adjusting to her surroundings, Beca looked around. Alex was fast asleep, cradled against her chest, breathing in and out softly. Glancing over at the clock, it was 6:34AM.

Shit, she had fallen asleep.

Slowly and nervously, she peeled Alex off of her, careful not to wake her; it was still far too early for her to be awake. She kissed Alex on the forehead then slowly she made her way across the room, taking one last peek at her sleeping daughter before quietly closing the door.

When she entered their bedroom, Jesse was fast asleep and apparently hadn't missed her very much since he was sprawled out across the bed haphazardly. It was rare that they slept in separate beds but when they did Jesse always managed to take up the entire bed.

With the covers half over him, she watched as he slept in just a pair of boxer briefs. His bare back was exposed and she marveled at his defined muscles.

She slowly crawled from the foot of the bed to the center and straddled Jesse. She thought it would be enough to wake him, but no such luck. He sucked in a deep breath as Beca's hands rubbed his back. Slowly, his eyes fluttered and opened fully. He lifted his head and turned to look at her.

"I told you not to let her watch Beauty and the Beast." She reminded him as she placed light butterfly kisses on his back.

Jesse quickly flipped over and Beca lowered herself onto his stomach as they came to lay in the exact same position from the night before. Jesse gave her his signature Swanson smile, and then began running his hands up and down her legs.

"Okay, I can admit it, you were right."

Beca sighed happily. "Ahh, the three words every woman dreams of hearing from her man."

Jesse laughed, and adjusted more fullly to being awake, his thumbs rubbing circles on the tops of her thighs.

"I'm sorry I fell asleep last night." She apologized genuinely.

He shook his head. "It's okay, really."

Smiling, she took his hand and pulled him up out of the bed. "Come on, I need a shower, and I can make up for last night..."


Alex climbed out of bed and wandered sleepily to her bathroom to potty, brush her teeth, and wash her hands and face. "Mommy!" She called as she made her way down the hall, her feet pitter pattering against the hardwood floor. Pausing as she stood before Jesse and Beca's closed bedroom door, she heard her mother's phone ringing. Alex knew the rule about not being in her parent's bedroom by herself but debated the situation. She could hear the shower running, and decided that if she didn't answer the phone, no one would. Pushing the door open and walking in, she walked over to the nightstand on her mother's side of the bed and noticed her grandmother's face lighting up the screen.

"Hi Mimi!" She answered cheerfully. Julie paused for a moment, temporarily caught off guard when she had been expecting Beca to answer.

"Hi sweet girl! How are you this morning?" She asked, adjusting to having her granddaughter on the phone.

Alex made herself comfortable as she climbed up onto the bed and settled into the pillows. "I'm good, I miss you!"

"I miss you too angel. Listen, is mommy available? I just need to talk to her real quick." Julie asked. Alex looked around the room. Clothing was discarded on the floor, books were on the nightstand, and there were a pair of jeans laid out on the bed. But nope, no mommy. So, she made assumptions.

"No, she's in the shower."

"Oh, okay then, no worries. What about daddy? Is he around?"

Alex could hear what sounded like crying, or possibly laughter, coming from the bathroom, and both Mommy and Daddy talking. She shrugged her shoulders.

"I'm pretty sure he's in the shower with her." She answered simply, causing Julie to laugh.

"Okay then, that's fine. When one of them comes out, will you have them call me and Pop?" She asked. Alex agreed, she told her Mimi that she loved her, and hung up the phone, then climbed out of the bed. Walking over into Beca's walk in closet, Alex ran her tiny hand over the clothes she could reach. She was amazed at the sheer amount of clothes and shoes her mother owned. While she had yet to figure out exactly what her mother did for work, she looked up to her, and dreamed of being just like her when she grew up.

Alex walked back out of the closet, closing the door behind her. Deciding that she was hungry, she made her way downstairs into the kitchen. She persued the contents of the pantry trying to decide what she wanted. Finally deciding on powdered donuts, she grabbed the bag and closed the pantry door before making her way to the fridge. Her favorite organic chocolate milk was conveniently located on the door.

Satisfied with her breakfast, she carefully made her way back upstairs to her parents room. Sitting on the center of the bed, she put her straw through the carton of milk and pointed the remote at the tv. She knew her favorite show, Sofia the First, was on Disney Jr at this time. Alex was all snuggled in with her breakfast when Beca came out of the bathroom wrapped in a towel with Jesse closely trailing behind her. Noting Alex in their bed, Beca was startled, and jumped, nearly dropping her towel to the floor.

"Alex!"

Alex's blue eyes looked up to meet Beca's, and she apologized for being in the room, explaining the phone call, causing Jesse to become visibly embarrassed. Beca looked at him.

"Does this mean were going to have to explain to your parents that Alex didn't get here through osmosis?" Beca deadpanned, causing Jesse to roll his eyes.

"Babe we've been married for four years, I'd be more concerned if they thought we weren't having sex." He answered.

Alex looked up. "What's sex?"

Jesse and Beca glanced at each other. "A conversation for another day." Beca replied. "Come on baby, get up, we gotta get dressed. By the way, donuts and chocolate milk is not a suitable breakfast, so be thinking of what you want mommy to make you."

"But...it's 'ganic!" Alex defended.


"Can we listen to the Fuck you up song?" Alex asked. Jesse nearly crashed the car as Beca began coughing heavily when her coffee unexpectedly went down the wrong way.

The trio was headed to Stacie and Scott's for a barbecue, and Beca was looking forward to spending the day relaxing with her closest friends.

"The what song?!" Jesse practically screamed.

Alex for the life of her couldn't understand why her question had caused such a commotion. "The Fuck you up song. You know, Uptown fuck you up, uptown fuck you up." She sang.

"Funk! Funk, baby girl, not Fuck. Funk." Beca immediately corrected.

"Oh, yeah, that one!"

Jesse adjusted the stereo as he glanced over to Beca. "She's four, shouldn't she be listening The Wiggles or something equally as irritating?"

Beca chuckled softly. "But then she wouldn't be our daughter."

Pulling into the driveway of Stacie's Stamford, Connecticut home, about a thirty minute drive from Jesse and Beca's, Alex was anxious to get out of the BMW. Truth be told, the Swanson family was not hurting financially by any stretch of the imagination. And though they made a point to not live an overly extravagant lifestyle, Beca's BMW CRV had been a gift to herself when she realized she had finally made it in her career; and that car, was her second baby. And while Jesse drove a Volvo, which was equally as nice and just as comfortable, they both preferred the BMW.

"Aunt CeeCee!" Alex yelled as she wiggled out of Beca's arms; running to Stacie the minute her tiny feet hit the ground.

"Hey baby girl!" Stacie called out as she kneeled down and opened her arms wide.

Alex quickly jumped into her loving aunt's waiting arms. She wrapped her arms and legs tightly around Stacie's neck and waist, causing her to choke a little. When she was finally able to peel the little spider monkey off her she realized what shirt Alex had on. It was the "My awesome Aunt and I got in trouble today." shirt that Chloe had bought for her.

Alex had far too many pseudo Aunts to have a single favorite, but Chloe was her Godmother, and Stacie and Beca worked together. Stacie was one of the best hair and makeup artists Columbia had. Alex simply loved and lived for the days when she got to go to work with Beca because it meant an afternoon of playing dress up with Aunt CeeCee. Alex had a tighter bond with the two aforementioned women if for no other reason than she saw them more than the rest, but each of her Aunts had an impact on her upbringing. While Jesse and Beca were responsible for her care and well being, their friends were extremely close and involved.

Chloe taught Alex all about fashion and shopping. She loved to spoil her with shopping trips in the City, mani/pedi's and all the things her parents told her she couldn't have. Stacie's love and passion was hair and makeup, even if Beca and Jesse said Alex was too young for it. Still, Alex loved sleepovers with Aunt CeeCee because she would allow Alex to get into her makeup kit and play with sparkly eye shadows and lip glosses, foundation and blush. This, of course, was their little secret.

Aubrey was the resident broadway guru. She was always getting Alex tickets to new shows and what was even more exciting was the time when Aubrey was able to score backstage passes. Alex's squeals alone were more than 'thank you' enough.

Amy was all about teaching Alex to "Kick ass and take names." She often reminded her that she was a special little girl, and not to let anyone push her around.

Ashley, the school teacher, was always on hand to color with Alex and work with her on her letters and numbers. With Ashley's help, Alex would be on her way to advanced classes as well as the gifted and talented program at the local elementary school. Alex was special, and picked up on things very quickly. She was smart as a whip, and just as quick too.

Cynthia Rose bestowed upon Alex a strong sense feminism and killer dance moves while Jessica worked with her on singing. Last, but most certainly not least, came Lily, who was more than happy to share with her her love of yoga and meditation.

Each woman had a purpose in her life, and each woman was loved intensely and admired by Alex. With these women in her life and in her corner, Alex was sure to be a force to be reckoned with. Beca and Jesse often said that they weren't sure the world was ready for the tiny, whirling, dervish.

"Hey Becs, did Mark call you?" Stacie asked as everyone made their way into the house.

"Yeah? I have to be in LA next week for some new talent they want to sign." Beca answered as she sat their bags down on the counter.

Stacie smiled. "That makes two of us. They wanna shoot a music video, so they need me for hair and makeup. You and me girl, were flying first class to LA. I told Mark to save some money and just book us a room together."

Beca was thrilled at the news. She hadn't been looking forward to spending most of the week alone. Her days were spent producing music and running after her very active four year old, so the idea of a quiet trip to LA was a little more than she could handle especially since she wasn't entirely sure that she wanted to be away from Alex for an entire week. Her mind immediately wandered to all of the things she was going to miss. Yes, Beca Mitchell-Swanson had turned into that mom.

She and Stacie quickly began talking excitedly about all the things they were going to do. Beca's one request was that they make at least one trip to In N Out Burger. She wanted one of those juicy bacon cheeseburgers so bad that she could already smell the grease. Stacie took her iPhone out of her pocket and made a list of all the different things they wanted to see and do. They were going to make the best of the time away.

Jesse and Scott looked at each other nervously. "Our girls, together, in Los Angeles. Well this is gonna be great." Jesse mused as he took a sip of his beer.

"No shit dude!" Scott said. "Whose turn is it to have bail money ready?"

Stacie and Beca both rolled their eyes. Stacie was quick to remind the guys that she had calmed down quite a bit since leaving college, and was a mature, grown woman, months away from becoming a wife.

After catching the bouqet at Beca and Jesse's wedding, Stacie hadn't been the next to get married. As a matter of fact, she hadn't even been the second or third. Weddings seemed to be a constant theme since Beca and Jesse had gotten married.

In June 2014, Aubrey married Unicyle in a lavish full Catholic Mass ceremony in a historic Manhattan Church before they and their guests set sail through the Hudson river for an all night reception. In September 2014, Chloe wed Luke in a garden ceremony as the beautiful fall foliage set in through Connecticut. In August of 2015, Ashley married Michael in front of two hundred people. Beca's days seemed to constantly be filled with planning for someone's wedding. With Stacie and Scott set to marry in October, and Cynthia Rose having a commitment ceremony with her girlfriend, Callie, in July, that left Lily and Jessica, both of whom had recently gotten engaged, and were just sorting through dates. Yes, they were almost through with wedding fever, but that meant that they were onto the next stage in everyone's lives, babies.

As Beca and Stacie began setting things up outside for the barbecue, the sliding glass door opened and closed and Aubrey Wilken, 7 months pregnant, with twins, walked out onto the deck in a Lily Pulitzer maternity dress, with a covered dish in her hand.

"That better be store bought!" Stacie shouted as she opened umbrellas and set up food.

"I believe the phrase you're looking for is Thank you, Aubrey!"

Stacie smiled brightly. "You're seven months pregnant with twins Aubrey, you should be relaxing with your feet up." She reminded her as she took the dish and set it up on the table.

"Relax? I'm sorry, have you met my wife before?" Uni joked as he made his way out onto the deck with a Corona in hand. Laughing, he kissed Stacie on the cheek as the two exchanged pleasantries.

Before long, the music had kicked on, the grill was up and running, and everyone was together once again.


"Gentlemen." Bumper began, as he looked around at his "friends" "I have some news."

"What's that?" Michael asked, "John Mayer wants to sign you to his label?"

The guys laughed at Bumper's expense as he rolled his eyes and scoffed. "No. It's better than that, I, am going to be a father!"

Collectively, the guys groaned and muttered.

"Dude what? How?" Jesse questioned, causing everyone to whip their heads at him. "I mean, I get how, obviously, but no, the world does not need another you running around!"

"I'm going to pretend I didn't hear that, thank you. But yes, these little swimmers did their job! Big mama over there is due in January. It's going to be awesome and he will of course be aptly named, Bumper jr."

Donald took a swig of his beer. "Right, and when she comes out with a vagina?"

Bumper scoffed. "Duh, Bumpah."

"Dude." Scott pointed out, that's the same exact name."

"No, it's not. It's way more feminine. It's all in the accent bro, ahh...say it with me now, Bump-AH!"

For the rest of the day, Jesse could not get the image of Amy and Bumper together out of his head.


Beca deadpanned as Amy held up an ultrasound. "Amy, please tell me that's an echocardiogram."

"Beca! Hello, you of all people should recognize an ultrasound when you see one!"

"Oh God..."

"What kinda sick twisted shit is this?" Cynthia Rose questioned.

Lily glanced over. "I once delivered a baby gorilla in Vietnam, would you like me to be your obstetrician?"

"Oh come on you guys, you certainly didn't react this way when blondie told you she was knocked up!" Amy groaned.

"That's because Aubrey's...Aubrey. She could raise a Duggar size clan with her organization skills." Jessica pointed out. Aubrey's eyes widened as she put her hands on her belly.

"No, no. This is it. Right here. I am two and done, buy one get one free!"

"The way my man shoots his load, I'm hoping for twins myself." Amy said as she winked at Beca.

"And on that note, I'm gonna go grab a water!" Beca anounced as she bounced out of chair.

As she made her way back into the house, Beca nearly bumped into Chloe who was on her way outside.

"Oh, hey, there you are!" Beca exclaimed, as she hugged Chloe.

As the years went on, and as Beca learned to open up and trust, she grew to become more and more loving. Though she still kept herself guarded around strangers, Beca had released her walls around her family and friends, allowing herself to love, and to be loved in return.

Chloe's body was stiff against Beca's, and when the women pulled apart, Beca took notice of Chloe's blotchy face and red eyes. It was evident that she had been crying recently.

"Chlo, are you okay?" Beca asked. Chloe shrugged off her best friend's concern.

"I'm totally fine, it's just these God awful allergies is all. I swear they're going to be the death of me." She explained, faking a smile. Beca wasn't buying it, but didn't want to push her any further.

"Anyway, I'm glad you're here, I wanted to talk to you about possibly watching Alex for Jesse and I this week, I-"

Chloe immediately cut Beca off.

"I can't." She said harshly, looking off to the side. Beca was slightly off put, but she tried her best not to show it.

"Chloe you-"

"Look, Beca, I said I can't, okay! I'm sorry if you and Jesse screwed your schedules up but that's not my fault! We have a million different friends, can you not find someone else?!" Chloe yelled.

Beca was completely unsure of how to react. Chloe had never yelled at her before. Hell, Chloe had never yelled before period. Beca wasn't even sure if she knew how. Apparently, she did. Standing there dumbfounded, Chloe sighed.

"I shouldn't have even come today, this was a mistake. I have to go."

Beca tried to call after her, but it was useless. Chloe was on her heels and back into the house within seconds. Feeling like a complete idiot, she stood on the lawn, staring at the back of Stacie's house unable to move.

Ashley put her hand on Beca's back, forcing the brunette to finally turn around.

"Hey, not to evesdrop or anything, but I kind of overheard. Mike and I can take Alex if you need us to Bec." She offered, not bothering to mention Chloe's outburst. Beca sighed.

"Yeah, that would be great, Ashley, thank you. I was supposed to stay home with her this week, but my boss needs me in LA. I would drop her off Tuesday night, and Jesse would pick her up Friday night."

"Not a problem at all, we'll have a great time."

Beca and Ashley talked more about the week's plans as Amy made her way over with Alex.

"Uhh, Shawshank, little butt here isn't doing so well." Amy cut in. In her arms, Alex was pale and lethargic. Quickly, Beca took her daughter into her arms.

"Baby whats wrong, are you okay?" She asked. Alex shook her head.

"Mommy, I don't feel so good, Aunt Amy gave me too much." She explained. Trying to say more, she gave up and instead began to whimper and cry softly before throwing up all over Beca.

"Oh my God!" Beca yelled, startled by the sudden spewing of vomit.

Horrified, Beca stood still as she tried not to make any sudden moves. Alex was devestated, and began crying out her apologies.

"I throwed up on you Mommy, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." She softly cried. Beca whispered soothing words as she ran her fingers through her hair.

"Somebody help, please, that would be fantastic."

Running over to her side, Jesse gently lifted Alex out of Beca's arms as Beca stood there, covered in vomit. It was in her hair, down her chest, down her back, and all across her clothes. Stacie came over to her side and helped her inside to get cleaned up.

Putting an arm around Amy's shoulder, Cynthia Rose smiled. "Welcome to motherhood Ames, this is only the beginning."


Beca stood at the doorframe, and watched as Alex slept. After a bath at Stacie's, fifteen hundred apologies, a fresh set of pajamas, and a stern lecture to Aunt Amy for allowing her to have five cupcakes, Alex was feeling much better.

And as Beca stood at the door, watching her child sleep, her heart was heavy.

Four years had seemingly passed in the blink of an eye. Beca thought back to the beginning. She thought back to how it felt to almost lose her, the feeling tugging at her heart strings. Always, in the back of her mind, was the thought that at any given moment, she could lose her. She thought about those first flutters of movement, and her first kicks. Beca remembered the breastfeeding, the sleepless nights, the first time Alex ever smiled at her. Beca had never before been a sentimental person, but motherhood had changed all of that in an instant. Alex was in her every waking thoughts. All Beca wanted was for her to be happy and healthy.

Beca remembered fondly her baby's firsts steps, her first word, and the surreal feeling she gets every time Alex looks up at her and tells her how much she loves her.

Beca would miss her daughter more than anything this week, and as she watched her sleep, she knew without a doubt in her mind, there was no one in this world who could possibly love Alex more than she did, no matter how many times she threw up on her.

Walking over to her bed, Beca pulled the covers up around her and kissed her forehead.

"Mommy loves you Alexandra, always."


Climbing into bed, Beca laid still, staring up at the ceiling, arms crossed and lips pursed together. Jesse knew she wasn't ready to let this go. Sighing, he put his book down and looked over at her.

"Bec..."

"Why couldn't she agree to keep Alex for ue?" Beca asked, her voice heavy with frustration.

"Babe, I don't know. Maybe she had something come up, maybe she's got something going on that she can't talk to you about." Jesse suggested, trying his hardest to be sympathetic. Beca flipped over onto her side and faced him.

"Chloe tells me everything! She's way more likely to overshare than undershare. For Gods sake, one of the first times I met her was when she barged in on me, naked, in the shower!" Beca huffed. "Jesse, I know what I saw today. Chloe was crying when she got to Stacie's. It wasn't allergies like she tried to get us all to believe. When I asked her to watch Alex while we're out of town, she immediately said no. She never even thought about it. That's unlike her. She usually jumps at the chance to keep Alex for a few days. Something is defintely up." Beca explained.

"I'm sorry she was harsh with you today, I know that's not how she usually is. All I can tell you is to give her some space, she'll come around eventually. Just try and rest Bec, this is not something you should be worrying about. I'm sure Chloe just had a bad day, tomorrow, she'll call and apologize." Jesse said, as he pulled Beca into his arms.

Wrapping her arms around his waist and resting her head on his chest, she sighed. "I hope you're right."

Jesse turned the light out, and kissed her on the forehead. "Sleep Bec, we'll talk about it in the morning."