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Chapter 23 Hard choices
Hikaru's POV
Our sultry convergence causes my body to almost lose control, forcing myself to look away from her enticing parted lips. When my lustful half lidded eyes fall to the other side of the room to see …..
A door slowly swinging open, revealing shocked, hurt golden eyes. …Before they quickly turn away.
With the sight of my devastated brother, my head begrudgingly drops against the woman of my dream's soft, tantalizing shoulder, while quietly cursing between clenched teeth. "Damn it Kao, of all times, why now?"
After seeing his face, I knew what needed to be done, although knowing, and actually following through is entirely a different scale of difficulty altogether. It seemed unthinkable, to finally have the seemingly unobtainable woman entangled beneath me, on the verge of our long denied bodies being engulfed in a shared impassioned fire ….to just, let her go? The mere thought is not only physically excruciating, but mentally as well. My fingers unconsciously clench tightly to the rumpled sheets beneath me as
I begin to pull away, and lift my head ….After all, it's my twin.
"Hika?" My name rings from her confused, yet impassioned lips, forcing my eyes to only look upon her beautiful face. With a mere look my physical parched body screams out for the tiniest touch of her skin.
Gently reaching up with my hand, cupping her cheek, allowing my searing golden eyes to melt into hers. "Haru, I can't explain at the moment," My eyes drop to her alluring lips, immediately falling into them, tasting her heated sweetness for a painfully bitter sweet, short moment, before driving my hands into the warmed mattress, pushing up with my arms, reluctantly pulling my body away from her, "but, I need to go."
The beautiful brunette suddenly sits up, yanking a rumpled sheet to her chest. Her confused chocolate eyes grew from my abrupt words. "Wait, you have to go? But Hika, you're not making any sense we were just -."
Quickly cutting her off, I knew I wouldn't be able to make myself pull away, if she had finished. "Trust me, I'll be back." The moment those first two words slipped from my lips I could see her hands visually clench tightly around the sheet. The sight caused my shoulders to tense the second I said it. My hands immediately reached back to Haru's sad incredulous face to gently lift her chin. Gazing down with the most serious expression I could convey. "Hey, I told you, I'm coming back." Being sure to speak with a soft honest tone, in an attempt to tenderly smooth away her doubts.
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Her uncertain chocolate eyes peered up into mine, without saying another word she hesitantly nodded her head. After that, I physically force myself to turn away from the brunet's rather addicting temptations. Almost sprinting towards the adjoining suite, not bothering to grab a pair of pants on my way out. My brother was just going to have to deal with my practically naked appearance. Hell, it's nothing he hasn't seen plenty of times…..Although he's never seen me like this, after being caught with Haru. It's too late now to rethink my scant attire, what's important is to get to my twin, as quickly as possible and straighten this mess out.
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Extending my fingers to the polished handle, before roughly swinging the door open, causing it to harshly crash against the wall, before I hastily rush through it. Arriving in the middle of an elegantly furnished sitting area in nothing but a pair of blue silk boxers, as I anxiously call out for my twin. "Kao?"
Catching sight of various brightly colored orange, yellow silks accenting the richly stained mahogany chairs and upholstered cream colored settees. Walking through the stylish room as I roll my eyes at my twin's predictable choice of rooms. With no answer coming from the deserted room, I quickly walk into his bedroom, seeing a myriad of vivid Indian influenced silk pillows impeccably placed at the top of a pristine cream duvet. Noticing, the empty, immaculately made king sized bed, I continue to the bathroom. "Come on Kao, please answer me, we need to talk."
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Stepping through the bathroom door, seeing an elaborate gilded tub standing in the middle of the room. A set of rolled fluffy cream towels, tied in a Burnt orange silk sash, rest on the wide edge of the tub, ready for my twin's evening bubble bath. Walking further in the room my pasty bare feet stop, in front of a massive glass enclosed shower. Encircling the outer glass walls of the shower are dozens and dozens of various sized solar candles. A mischievous smile slowly curls on my lips, just thinking of the numerous titillating possibilities that could be availed to me. An erotic image dances in my newly distracted head with the intoxicating thought of three sultry bodies intertwined in stifling, inducing pleasure. Surrounded by a warm glow, flickering against our glistening drenched skin. "If only it was that simple." The unconscious words quietly slipped from my woeful lips as I stared at the intriguing feature.
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Shaking the heated images from my head, I continue to search for my twin .With every elegantly decorated room found empty, the cracks in my heavy heart widen. With my brother's evident absence my mind begins to blur with possible locations of where my distraught twin might seek solace. Until my fractured chest begins to radically beat with a single thought. A single realization of my twin's desperate needs. Snapping my head up with wide golden eyes. "Damn it Kaoru, you wouldn't, not now, not because of this!" Vocally cursing my twin as my panicked body sprints for Haru's suite.
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Hastily arriving in the middle of the robin's blue bedroom, franticly scanning the clothing scattered floor, before reaching down and snatching my carelessly discarded pants. Holding them out, hopping on one poorly balanced foot, as I attempt to thread my leg into the wrinkled garment. Just before roughly sliding my boxer covered butt into the rest. My golden eyes search the floor once more, swinging my arm down, picking up my button up shirt, before giving it a good hard snap.
I rarely wear a garment once it's been discarded, but it couldn't be helped. I wasn't about to squander precious minutes on a new outfit. For the time being, I'm just going to have to ignore the thought of filth touching my sensitive skin. Swinging the shirt over my shoulders, as I gracefully lace my arms through the sleeves. Beginning to close my shirt, until a soft voice causes my jumbled fingers to freeze over my buttons. "Hika?"
With my head clouded in concern for my twin, I almost foolishly forgot about the amazing night, I've been sharing with the woman of my dreams. After years, of agonizing deception and disappearance, she finally allowed the truth to touch my ears. The thought caused my half-dressed body to abruptly whip around, facing the chocolate eyed woman, sitting up in the freshly tangled sheets. With the alluring sight, my golden lustful eyes slowly linger over her teasing curves, now, scarcely covered by a fitted t-shirt. My feet begin to be unconsciously pulled, in the direction of the scantily dressed woman.
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I've heard from various sources, you never leave your potential lover, until long after the intimate ritual is completed. One nightstands, girlfriend for a weekend, sure, but never for someone you truly care about. I'm sure, many budding relationships withered and died from this action. The only professions I would think such an act is acceptable, are the ones involving life threatening emergencies on frequent basis. CEO, of a world renowned fashion company, didn't exactly fit the aforementioned criteria of the exceptions mentioned.
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Of course, that hasn't discouraged me in the past, to be perfectly honest, when I did leave for various reasons, I didn't care in the slightest if the woman left. In fact, doing so might have peeked my interest. However in the end, I knew there was always another pretty face waiting …..And with me avoiding anything more than a meaningless fling, I let them.
However, now I find myself in a far different situation, with my only experience coming from the relationship I share with my twin. Knowing Kaoru would be extremely hurt if I even considered such a thoughtless action. I have a strong feeling it would be no different with Haru. In fact, with the casually thrown words, "trust me" tossed about mere moments ago, I visually saw how unsure she really feels…..and how long of a road, the three of us, have yet to travel.
But, now I'm stuck in a hard place, I knew with absolute certainty I needed to find my distraught twin, and had very little time to do so. I was convinced he would do something extremely stupid. Then there's the woman of my dreams, waiting for…uh …well, she's waiting for…. me. Then there's me, and what I want. Well, besides the obvious, that I pretty much knew there wasn't a chance in hell of happening, at least tonight, despite my burning body's relentless begging. Is to fulfill what both people needed from me, without causing any irreparable harm to either relationship.
"Hika?" The intoxicating sound of my name softly lingers on her pink pouty skin.
After weighing my options, I knew what needed to be done. Silently praying to myself I wasn't about to choose the wrong path, as I slowly approach the bed. My needful body hovers over the beautiful woman, resting my knee on the edge of the mattress, extending a hand out to gently cup her cheek…..and finally, slowly savor her sweet lips.
After a long shared passionate kiss I force myself to pull away. With my hand still touching her alabaster cheek, gazing down with melted remorseful eyes, my soft words slowly slip from my lips. "Haru, I'm sorry, but I have to leave."
Turing away from my gaze, feeling her jaw tense underneath my cupped fingers. "I see."
Hastily plopping down next to her, after witnessing her doubting demeanor. Extending out a hand to tenderly guide her face towards me, catching her pained chocolate eyes with mine. "Wait, Haru, this isn't a decision I've made lightly," Haru just sadly nudged her head away, sadly sliding her eyes away from mine. Dropping my hand from her face before taking her hand and softly squeezing it. Letting out a heavy sigh, speaking in my most sincere tone. "Haru, leaving you now, like this …..Is simply agonizing for me."
"It's alright, I understand." Her tone hardens to my honest words, as she refuses to turn her head and look at me in the eyes.
"Haru, please, don't do this," Pulling her captured hand up to my forehead, shaking my head. "I can tell you're angry with me, but I'm telling you the painfully honest truth." Nothing but silence emerges from the room, as I wait for any kind of response.
Hearing nothing, but silence my irritation grows for the stubborn woman, sitting before me. Dropping our hands from my head, lifting my head as my words begin to come out sharp. "Do you actually think after finally convincing you to admit the truth, about me….about us," Extending a hand, with a slight firm touch, pulling her chin to look at me. Abruptly softening my tone when her damn chocolate eyes take mine as a prisoner. "…. That it would be anything but excruciating to leave you, for not only this night, but the rest. I told you my decision didn't come lightly." Letting out a frustrated breath.
"Kao, needs me."
Her eyes went wide as she suddenly jumbled over her words in somewhat of a concerned panic. "Kaoru, what's wrong with him? Is he hurt?" Hearing her mood completely change, with the mere mention of my twin caused my chest to tighten with a sharp pain.
"Haru, I can't get into it, at the moment, there's not much time." The white rumpled cover flares out into the air, revealing the stunning brunet only wearing a pair of panties and fitted t-shirt as she hastily leaps out of bed.
The sight caused a familiar feeling in my lower region, forcing me to stand, distancing myself from the overly tempting bed. My hand reaches out, grabbing her wrist, pulling her back to me. Asking, in a rough, teasing voice. "And where do you think you're going?" The feeling of our burning body's together, causes my resolve to falter.
"I'm going with you," Bluntly speaking, while reaching down, attempting to pry my clenching fingers from her body. "Where else would I go? I need to help him." Her adamant words caused my head to clear…..with the realization, time is rapidly ticking by for my twin.
Without another word my hands wrap tightly around her waist and the back of her head, gently, but firmly leading her back to our rumpled sheets. "Haru, I'm sorry, but you can't go." Knowing the impending conversation would have everything to do with the woman, that lies underneath me…..and the strong feelings my twin and I share for her….. I wasn't about to invite her along.
"But I-"Lifting my hand, barely placing a finger on her stumbling lips.
"Shhh, Haru listen." Ignoring the frustrated woman roll her chocolate eyes at me. "It's a twin thing, you just can't, alright." Pulling the stark white comforter over Haru, lightly tucking it into her sides. "Just let me take care of things," Giving her a warm smile. "I'll be back before you know it."
Stubbornly shoving the blanket away, sitting up. "But Hika, it's Koa, I can help him."
"No, you can't." Gently pushing her back, firmly speaking, and pulling the thick cover over her body, once more. "Not this time."
"But –"
Quickly cutting her off, speaking in a sincere manner. "Haru, you have no idea how good it feels to have someone truly care for us, but this is a twin matter." Firmly pressing the blanket over her, while leaning down, allowing my lips to press lightly on her soft pink cheek, before slowly pulling away, revealing my pleading eyes. "I need you to stay here."
Begrudgingly nodding her turned head and willfully crossing her arm at her chest. "Fine, I understand."
I couldn't help, but chuckle at her stubborn behavior, "Good, now get some rest," quickly grabbing my shoes, before heading for the door. Once at the door I briefly turn with a serious expression. "Because once I return," raising an expectant eyebrow over dark smoldering eyes.
"You're definitely, going to need it."
…And with that one provocative thought lingering in the room, I turned around and left.
A Little Later…
Every few seconds a strip of light rolls across the rain speckled window. My extended arm rests along the chilled glass, while impatiently strumming my fingers. I didn't want to waste any more time tracking down Jason or Derek, whatever my brother's current driver's name is. Besides, I wasn't exactly sure if my brother had already called for his services. So after forcing myself away from the Brunet Beauty's side, I stepped out of hotel's main entrance, somewhat dressed. I mean at least I had a few buttons fastened on my wrinkled shirt. Okay, okay if you include my bruised face I basically looked like I was just mugged when I signaled the passing cab.
Letting out a frustrated sigh, as I press my back into the black vinyl seat, sitting in the back of a somewhat clean cab. Purposely turning my eyes away from a clear unidentified substance, dried on the far side of my shared seat.
"Hey buddy, we're here." A rough voice comes from the front seat.
"Thanks, I'll get out here." Reaching out, slapping several pounds in the drivers held out hand.
"Good evening, govner, pleasure of doing business with you." Tipping his grey wool Stetson with a flick of his finger, before turning back around, facing the front of the car.
"Yeah, evening." Speaking in a distracted tone, stepping out of the cab, while I gaze up at the towering glass building Kao had chosen for the companies use. No longer paying attention to the taxi, as it slowly rolls away. Lifting a hand to my black bottom up shirt, giving it a firm tug as I make an attempt to straighten the practically nonexistent pleated lines of the garment, thus improving my current appearance. Hastily walking through the glass enclosed entrance, as I'm extremely eager to finally find my distraught twin.
A few minutes later…
Arriving just outside of our company's prep room with a rapid beating heart. "So, what do you think, about making a deal?"
Hearing the muffled voice causes my arms to suddenly lash out, in front of my chest, bursting through the double doors. "Kao, what the hell do you think you're doing?" A surprised topless brunette, trapped between my brother and his desk, reach out in panic to hastily cover her exposed chest.
My passion dazed twin stands against the model, with his shirt completely open. Abruptly dropping his head in defeat, on the statuesque model's boney shoulder, cursing himself. "Damn, I should have locked the door!"
Walking further into the room, as I casually shrug my shoulders, with my hands stuffed in my pockets. "Yeah, well, get used to it little brother, it's seems to be going around, tonight." Giving Kao a meaningful look as I gradually walk towards him.
The brunette model starts to fumble with her top, while nervously speaking. "Ah, maybe I should- "
Flashing my golden eyes in the woman's direction, speaking in a sarcastic tone. "Yeah, that seems like a wise choice."
"Stop, don't leave," My bother swiftly catches the model's long arm, keeping her from fumbling with her top. "My brother is just leaving."
Letting out a humorless chuckle, shaking my head. "Not likely."
Kao lifts his head, revealing hurt, adamant eyes. "Hika, what the hell are you doing here, why aren't you with Haru?" Letting out a defeated sigh, with a dejected tone. "Where you belong?"
"You know why I'm here!" Swinging out a dramatic arm towards the model. "You're about to do something really stupid!"
My eyes glance over to the outraged model, shrugging my shoulders, bluntly speaking. "Hey, you were warned."
Lifting my hand, anxiously rubbing the back of my head. "Look Kao, this isn't like before, this is something you'll never forgive yourself for." Letting out a long frustrated breath as my arms drop, while cautiously walking towards my twin. "Kao, she's finally back in our lives, and you're risking it all," placing a hand on my brother's shoulder, "for what? One of your guilty pleasures….it's time to stop."
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"Stop it, Hika!" My twin roughly pulls his shoulder away from my hand. "I'm a grown man, capable of making my own decisions." His voice turns somewhat defeated, "I'm just moving on, like you wanted me to. Now, if you don't mind." He turns his head and begins to passionately ravage the model's neck, coaxing her arms to drop away from her perky breasts. I watch the model quickly become submerged in his inflicting passion, allowing her yellow blouse to roll off her limp fingers, and on to the floor.
"Moving on with who, with her?" Asking in an incredulous tone.
Koa's pleasure dazed eyes slowly roll open, peeking out from behind the model's glossy chestnut locks. "Hika, just go back to hotel… can't you see…. I'm busy." Speaking between hungry nibbles, and distracting kisses.
Ignoring the heated couple as I see an open bottle of my twin's chosen drink, Feeling a bit parched I stroll over to my brother's occupied desk. Lifting the already opened bottle with the black label as I roll my eyes at the woman's over theatrical noises. Encouraging the smooth golden liquid to slowly pour into a glass tumbler. Pausing only when the liquid in my glass begins to slosh around, causing my head to snap at my little brother for shaking the desk, giving him a sharp glare. However my brother just slides his eyes closed and ignores me as he erotically grinds the half-naked model into the side of his desk.
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With no intelligent response coming from my twin I rest the open bottle back on his desk, being careful not to place it down anywhere near the woman's flailing arms. Tilting my head back, allowing the golden liquid to rush pass my lips, before pulling the glass away. With my drink casually held by my fingers I coolly fold my arms across my chest. Carelessly crossing one foot in front of the other, while leaning on a free edge of my brother's desk. "You know Kao, I bet if you asked her she couldn't even name the twin she's being seduced by."
My brother snaps his head in my direction. "Damn it, Hika! I'm sure she can. Now go the fuck away!"
Lifting the glass, taking a quick taste. "Well, then prove it and I'll go away."
"Whatever, you're really being an ass tonight." My brother roughly pulls the woman upright as his hands slowly linger over her exposed curves.
"Hey, you spoiled my plans, let's just call it somewhat even."
Drawing my attention to the boisterous, seemly pleasure submerged model. "Go ahead, what's his given name?" Motioning my half empty glass towards my irritated twin. Knowing if the woman actually payed any kind of attention to our conversation, the question would be simple to answer.
With my question the woman immediately dropped her passion engulfed act, glaring at me with ugly dark eyes. "Ah sure, it's Hikaru-sama." Snidely answering the question.
Letting out an amused chuckle. "Uh, Sorry to tell you this sweetheart, but your wrong. Let me introduce you to my little brother, Kaoru." Motioning my glass to my occupied brother. "Kao, say hello to the nice woman you were about to make a massive mistake with."
"Uh, I can explain." My twin quickly steps away from the woman, while stumbling over his words.
That's when I see something swiftly blur pass my eyes, just before a loud "slap" slices through the room. "No, thank you, we've already met." The fuming brunette smugly lifts her head, before sharply turning her back towards my twin. Firmly clicking her heels against the tiled floor while proudly walking out door…topless.
"Ow, damn it Hika that hurt!" Tenderly rubbing his glowing red cheek, as he refills his drink. "I was actually pretending to be you, she was a previous guilty pleasure." Lifting his glass to his lips and taking a long taste of his freshly poured drink. "She wasn't exactly happy being Kaoru's returning playdate."
"Well, try warning me, next time!" snapping back at my twin.
Kaoru's hand quickly finds his temple, tenderly rubbing circles in the throbbing area. Letting out a frustrated sigh "Hika, she was in the same room. How the hell, could I have managed that?"
"I don't know, she didn't seem to notice our names being repeatedly bounced around the room. It probably wouldn't have made a difference. I mean at moment were not exactly identical, now are me. " Motioning to my brother's bruised chest and my healing busted up face, before taking another drink from my glass tumbler.
My brother pulled the golden liquid from his lips, while rolling his eyes towards me.
"I'm sure, when we look back at this, we'll have a good," awkwardly clearing my throat, "laugh."
Roughly grabbing the neck of the bottle, pouring yet another drink for himself. "You know Hika, sometimes I hate you,"
Not taking my brothers words seriously. "Ah, that's not very nice, little brother." While noticing his un-Kaoru like behavior as he pours another drink for himself. "Uh Kao, just how many of those have you already had?" Tilting my glass towards my brother.
Slamming the bottle down on his desk. "I spent weeks with her barely even speaking to me." Jerking his head back quickly taking a swig from his glass. "Meticulously building her trust and you show up out of the blue," Roughly motioning his glass towards me, allowing the golden contents to messily slosh around in the glass tumbler. "With a damn busted up face, no less….and manage to win her affections in the very first freaking day. How the hell is that even fair?"
"Kao, it just happened, one minute we were practically screaming at each other and the next-"Purposely bringing the glass to my lips, hiding my warming cheeks from my twin.
Waving his arms out in front of him, cutting me off as he speaks with irritation. "Yeah I get it, you were all over each other. No need to paint a picture, I've got a pretty good memory." Lifting his glass to the side of his forehead, letting out a long frustrated breath. "Hika, why the hell aren't you with Haru, I left your little activity undisturbed."
"Little activity?! I'll have you know-"Outraged by the applied implication.
"Oh, I see, you already finished, well, that was quick." Raising a knowing eyebrow, teasingly tipping his glass to my nether region. "Well, I guess after all those years, you were bound to have some performance issues….well, you know the old saying if you don't succeed get back on that horse and try, try again." Shrugging his shoulder, taking another sip from his glass.
Quickly turning irate with my blunt twin. "Finished?! Performance issues?! What the hell Kao?! For your information, thanks to you, I left before I could even-"
Quickly cutting me off. "Now, Hika what the hell did you do that for?" Slamming his empty glass on the table, letting out a depressed sigh. "You won Hika, its over." Kao reaches for his bottle.
Tossing out my hand, catching his wrist, stopping him from pouring another drink as my voice turns sincere. "Kao, we don't know that for sure."
"Enough, Hika!" Jerking his arm away from me. Roughly grabbing the bottle's neck. "She was about to freaking sleep with you! What more needs to be said?"
Kaoru's voice turns gloomy, "I'll never be Haru's one," Roughly poking a finger at my chest, while tightly holding on to the opened bottle, speaking in a depressing tone. "She needs you, not me."
Seeing my twin begin to crumble, I gently lace my fingers around his poking finger, tenderly guiding his hand away from my chest. While my other arm swings around his fallen shoulders, pulling him into my chest for a comforting hug. "Kao, how do you know that?" with my soft cautious words my distraught twin suddenly swings out his arms, harshly shoving them into my chest, forcing my foot to fall back and regain my balance.
My irate twin storms towards his desk to fetch another glass. Standing at his desk, silently fuming, until he violently throws out an arm, slamming his tightened fist against the smooth polished surface, while he emotionally yells out,
"Because….I heard, her say it!"
End of Hika's POV
End of chapter.
A/N Hey all, I really hoped to have this out faster, in fact I was aiming for a week ago ….But if you hadn't read on my profile page, (Which I usually update every Monday with my latest writing plans. For those of you who don't already know.)
I had a little mishap with a cup of tea and my power supply. For almost a week I've had no access to my hard drive and I was using a pen and several wired notebooks to release the ideas building in my head. I do have my old computer, but it was just frustrating to use. It's funny I use to love that thing and had no problem with it, but now it drove me to actually use pen and paper. Needless to say not one, but two power supplies arrived in the mail (Learned my lesson about having a backup.)
Anyway back to the story….This chapter was bit difficult to write because of all the information it's leading up to, so lucky you I had to start the next chapter in order to keep the chapter flowing properly…which means, I only have one more scene to write, before it too is finished! So look for yet another update in the upcoming days.
Leerai, I'm sorry I didn't let them finish, I really wanted then to, but it's coming, just not yet.
InuYoukaiKagome Sorry, I really wanted to get this out when I told you, I hope the early upcoming chapter will help.
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