Hello all, thank you for the feedback and love. I decided to delve into Inuyasha's past a little for the previous chapter and am hoping this chapter gives insight and depth to his character. I hope this helps you draw a better picture as to why he is the way he is.
This chapter contains sensitive content such as sexual assault/abuse. Please be advised to treat this carefully and not comment anything that will ultimately be offensive to CSA survivors.
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10 years earlier...
"Come forth half breed." He hated this part of the day, if he could choose between getting his ass kicked every day opposed to this he would gladly take the beating.
"On your knees filfth." Inuyasha bent down to his scabbed over knees into a pile of grits. He tried to clench his teeth so the pain wouldn't get to him. Anyway that Sesshomaru could find to give him pain he would do it. He was a sadist to say the least and found new ways to torture him whenever he could.
He never understood why Sesshomaru hated him so much, perhaps it was the fact that he was the bastard child of their father and the end to his once thought of happy family. Or maybe it had to do with the blatant favoritism. Before Inutashio's passing he clearly favored and loved the boy very much, so much so that Sesshomaru's mother decided to regain custody of her son.
But could you blame him really? Inuyasha's mother passed during child birth, in hindsight it caused Inutashio to almost coddle the boy to the point of making him weak. Inutashio passed because of the loss of his mate. The heartbreak was unbearable and in the realm of demon mating it was known that once a mate had passed their significant other would shortly.
Surprisingly Inutashio was able to care for Inuyasha until his fifth birthday, which was the least to say remarkable due to the fact that most mates died a few days to even months after their partner had passed. The courts had decided Sesshomaru's mother Inukimi would gain custody until his 18th birthday. Although Inuyasha's mother's coupling with Inutashio brought great pain and hatred to her heart, she hadn't really mistreated the boy. Inukimi had met an untimely demise as well, which then lead Inuyasha to be passed to house to house. It was unfortunate and caused a disconnect between Inuyasha and the rest of the world.
Being a half-demon in the foster care system had been harsh and unwelcoming. There had only been one couple who deeply cared for him, but they were elderly and could barely walk. Inuyasha made sure to care for Totosai and his wife until their final days, then he was unfortunately placed in his brother's home for his last two years of high school.
The first night was hell on Earth to say the least, he then knew his brother was repaying him for the years of misery he endured because of his birth. He had tried many times to show his brother that he loved him and was appreciative of his "kindness". He didn't need to take him in yet he did and even if his reasoning was crooked and wrong, he at least had a roof over his head and clothes to wear.
"Open your mouth wide you disgusting cur." Inuyasha opened his mouth and slammed his eyes shut knowing what was going to happen. Sesshomaru shoved his member into Inuyasha's mouth, and laughed when his gag reflex came into affect.
His continued his assault until he ejaculated into Inuyasha's mouth forcing him to swallow his seed. Inuyasha sat there quietly and waited patiently until he was dismissed.
"You are truly worthless, and used up half breed. No one will ever love someone who let's themselves be dominated such as you do." Inuyasha nodded with his head down and waited for his dismissal.
"Go clean yourself up half breed. You truly make me sick." Inuyasha stood and walked quickly to the bathroom, he turned the shower on and sobbed into his hands. It had to get better didn't it?
The delusions began when he started living with Sesshomaru, he started to hear voices. At first they were harmless and told him ways of avoiding Sesshomaru's wrath, but then they began to whisper thoughts of death and promise. Promises of happiness once Sesshomaru met his demise and he inherited the remainder of his father's fortune.
He was going to be turning eighteen soon, he would need to act fast so he could start out his plans, but a part of him the more logical and human part caused him to reconsider his plans. He was in a constant internal battle and felt as if he couldn't ask anyone if it was normal to hear the voices. If it was normal to want to cause harm to his brother or worse kill him?
It is normal, he has harmed you.
He is trying to make you feel guilty for his past transgressions. Kill him.
Kill him.
Kill him.
KILL KILL KILL.
KILL KILL KILL.
"Get out of my head!" He screamed and crushed his ears to his skull, he needed to start his plans or else the voices would be angry.
They wouldn't be quiet, they had to be quiet or else he couldn't be happy. Yes, kill him. Kill Sesshomaru when he least expects it. Tonight. Tonight would be the night.
He nodded his head and went to prepare dinner for them. He would no longer suffer at the hands of Sesshomaru, he would make him suffer and pay for his abuse for the past two years and he would finally be happy. He would finally start out his life with Kagome...
Kagome. He smiled, her scent was rolling around his mind and made him feel at ease. He imagined them married with pups and growing old together. They would love one another until death due them part.
She was beautiful and they were meant to be. She was the only person that was kind to him beside his parents and Totosai, and she didn't have to be nice and love him! She chose too. Kagome saved him, she was his angel.
She was dating that boy though. He growled just thinking about it, he didn't deserve her and he would make her see that he wasn't any good for her soon enough. But that was another plan for another day.
He walked to the kitchen and began preparing Sesshomaru's favorite, after all... It was going to be his last meal and all. He was a considerate brother. He prepared Sesshomaru's steak rare and began making side dishes to accompany them. He had purchased enough poison to kill a hoard of youkai. It took a lot of his savings to finally purchase it, but he had finally gotten his hands on it. He hope he didn't get ripped off, he needed to start his plans with Kagome after all.
They had finally sat down to eat, Sesshomaru ate his meal without a hitch and told Inuyasha he was feeling generous enough to not give him his daily beating. Inuyasha smirked, if only he knew. He walked to his room and waited patiently, time progressed and all he could hear was silence throughout the large house.
He grew impatient and decided to creep out of his room, being cautious. He crossed his finger and prayed to the Kami that his plan had worked because if not, Sesshomaru would live to torment him everyday.
He stood outside his brother's door and placed an ear to see if he could hear anything. He heard a loud thud and almost hightailed it to his room, but decided to see this through. He jiggled the knob of the door hoping it wasn't locked. It gave way as he nervously opened the door. It was pitch dark but due to this abnormal hearing and sight he could see his brother on the floor foaming at the mouth. At first it hadn't registered what was happening before his eyes, but he finally got a grasp on the situation and took control.
Inuyasha smirked and knelt down next to him. Oh how the tables had turned.
"Well what do we have here?" Sesshomaru was convulsing on the ground trying to grasp for his life that was so easily slipping away. He grunted loudly while more foam seemed to compile in his mouth. Inuyasha deeply laughed and couldn't help but to wipe his tears as they collected around his eyes.
"All these years, you made me think you were invincible. Like no one but the Kami themselves could make you crumble, but look at you now. Tch, pathetic." Sesshomaru finally understood what was happening and tried to reach out for Inuyasha, but failed due to his impaired state.
Inuyasha watched intently while Sesshomaru seized and died on the floor, he wanted to ultimately make sure that the job was done and Sesshomaru was dead and gone, he didn't need his brother as a roadblock in his plans. What seemed like it stretched on for eons ended within a few minutes.
Sesshomaru's lifeless body laid puddled around his saliva and vomit, Inuyasha checked his pulse and hoped for his respiration to be obsolete. Finally with a few more tests it was confirmed, Sesshomaru was dead. Inuyasha hopped up and almost rolled side to side with satisfaction. He did it! He finally did it!
He went back to his bedroom and locked the door if he was going to do this, he had to do it right. So with that being said he had to wait until the morning to call the cops. Rigamortis would probably step in by then, but his alibi would be more believable as to him finding him there in the morning rather then at this exact moment. He locked his door and laid his head.
Six more weeks. Six more weeks and it will be graduation. He wrung his hands in anticipation, he could just hear it now. Kagome's moans and whispers of love and adoration of him. She loved him for being him, what more could he ask for?
She will love us.
She will kiss the ground we walk upon.
LOVE. LOVE.
LOVE. LOVE.
He nodded his head in agreement. Yes, that's right... Love.
