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Gently tracing patterns on her shoulder, Mercury still felt the rush of rage beneath his skin just waiting to find a target. It was her fucking team that made her cry herself to sleep and he hated them for it. He wanted them to burn when Beacon fell. They deserved it, but he didn't know if that was what she wanted; while he might not kill them, he would enjoy tearing whichever one of them hit her apart. Cinder must've been right when she felt worried about him changing sides. He was getting attached to this woman. The worse thing an assassin could do was get attached to anyone much less a woman.
His father, the horrible man that he was, had never gotten attached to anyone, not even his own child. It was a wonder the man had even held off on being crazy long enough to have a child. He got his faunus traits from his mother, a one-night stand. She would've been better off if she'd never tracked down his father but she had a horrible sense of misplaced loyalty to the truth. Now she was dead; if she hadn't died in childbirth than his father might've killed her anyway. But things worked out for his father who got both a student and pawn in one move. His father had never cared for anyone other than himself. So, his instincts toward the woman in his bed must've come from his mother.
He wanted her safe, but he didn't know if it was a faunus instinct or not. He'd never learned anything about his faunus side, no one had ever taught him, so he had no idea why he'd gotten attached to this woman so quickly. What he did know was that if anyone tried to harm her, even Cinder, he would rip them apart. That was the problem. Even having her in Neo's clothes was making him anxious; he was beginning to hate the other assassin. The woman was really pushing her luck and to make things worse she was enjoying herself while doing so.
Cinder was starting to get worried about his loyalties, much to his annoyance, and she had good reason to be worried. He...cared about Ruby. Even thinking about that fact made him feel strange. For one he shouldn't care about her or anyone else; he was an assassin. For another, he didn't exactly hate how he felt about Ruby. He even liked her as a person. She was quiet enough that she didn't disturb him and hardworking enough not to be lazy. The sex was good to. Very good. Not that he was going to admit that to his leader; he did want to live after all.
Her skin was soft under his fingers maybe that was why he noticed her shift closer to him almost instantly. The cute mumble that she made as she started to wake up caused him to chuckle however the tiny flinch she gave once she realized he was there chased away all his amusement. He'd been around her long enough to know that she wasn't afraid of him so having her suddenly react to his presence meant she was most likely just wary of being vulnerable. It was just a tiny bit annoying, but he did offer her a small smile when she glanced at him anxiously.
Feeling her relax again, he mentally congratulated himself for not being an idiot, then she was curling against him like a puppy. Cinder would be okay with him bringing Ruby with him when they left wouldn't she; probably not. Moving his fingers over her skin slowly, he knew he'd done something right when she sighed. The content sound was accompanied by her aura brushing against his own with a tentative hope that caused his own to settle. Yes, he was here and no he wasn't going anywhere for the next few hours.
"I never wanted to be a Huntress," she admitted. Catching him by surprise of all the things he'd expected her to say it wasn't that.
The words felt like more of a relief than anything else; after all the time she spent trying to please her family, it was nice to finally get to put her own feelings into words. The fingers on her back stilled at the admission before he hummed softly to show that he was listening. He was warm and that was the only thing keeping her from burying her head under the covers and forgetting that the outside world existed. She'd spent so long, thinking about other people.
It was an honor to serve as a Huntress. Those memorialized in time had legends and myths afforded to their name; they would never be forgotten. Summer Rose was strong enough that the grimm feared her, but she was also a kind woman who could do no wrong. The White Reaper was a saint that lived on in the hearts of those she saved, and she never ran from battle. Summer was more of an Idol than a person so she would never be allowed to rest when the world still needed her. Even if it was only her memory that lived on. Everyone loved her and she had no flaws to speak of. They'd wanted their Summer back so much that they'd pressed that image on her without asking if she even wanted it. They'd never asked.
"Yang was the one who brought it up. She'd mentioned that we could be Huntresses together and dad just lit up for the first time in years... it was the first time since mom died that he actually seemed happy. So, I went along with it," she said her voice sounding far more tired than it should have for a fifteen-year-old girl, which she had no idea if he knew about. Should she tell him that she was fifteen? Shivering when his aura bristled at her sister's name, she allowed a small smile to form on her face. She wasn't very happy with Yang either at the moment. Sighing softly, she said, "my uncle trained me, and by the time I entered Signal I was at the level of a second-year Signal student. For a while, it was nice getting praised for my skill..."
He did not like where this was going. Her voice was so soft, but he could hear her pain in her tone. She was hurting far more than she was willing to show even to him. But her words also caused him to feel conflicted on what he felt; he was worried and angry about where this story was going. When he was around the age of a Signal student, he was already performing jobs with his father. Feeling her tense as he brushed over the scar that he knew was on her back he was starting to dread where she'd gotten it.
"What happened," he asked although he wanted to do anything else. Maybe he could tell her about his childhood to keep her from explaining her own.
"My combat instructor pitted me against a third year to test my combat level. I lost of course but he wasn't expecting it, so the fight wasn't called until it was too late," she said as if stating a fact rather than telling him something horrifying. Her fucking teacher had been stupid enough to pit her against a third-year simply because he'd heard rumors. Why was he not even a little bit shocked?
"Your scar," he said barely resisting the urge to growl. The mumble caught her attention as his fingers stilled. His touch was still warm despite the shirt she was wearing; she could feel the heat of his touch and it relaxed her just a bit.
"I got all the blame for the incident, they said I shouldn't have lied about my combat skills," she said softly. She'd never forgotten the look of disgust on Yang's face when she lost that match like she was nothing more than a bug in her sister's gaze. His aura fluttered with anger, but she still said, "Dad was so disappointed in me for losing that I... I tried to quit. Yang was the one who dragged me back saying that I needed to make it up to dad. After that, it just became easier to train instead of making friends and to hide who I was rather than get yelled at for being weird."
Dead. Her family was fucking dead. He was going to rip them apart until they begged him to die. That was the only option left after learning they'd hurt what was his. Ruby didn't want to be a huntress that was something Cinder would need to know. It changed everything and nothing at the same time, but to tell his leader he would have to push down his rage at her treatment and that was proving harder than it should be. He wanted nothing more than to show his rage. Taking a shuddering breath, he pushed down his anger, which was harder than dealing with Neo.
"That... that's fucking wrong Ruby," he ground out barely keeping from attacking her family verbally. Shifting so that she could look at him with confused silver eyes, she frowned. The expression made her look adorable.
"Is it? They needed to see Summer again to get past the pain of losing her and by pretending I got treated a lot better," she said making him curse internally.
"You're fine the way you are," he said keeping the anger from his tone. Seeing the doubt in her eyes he decided to bring out the big guns saying, "Noir, little bitch that she is, likes this version of you too. This is the Ruby that belongs to me not that happy idiot mask you put on."
That wasn't expected. He was saying things that no one had ever told her. Part of her thought it was simply because she'd had sex with him, however, he said Noir liked her too. She had no idea why they liked her; wait Mercury liked her. As in liked her as a person, why? After everything she'd just told him, he should be thinking she was insane not liking her. Yet, he liked her. He liked her true personality; no one had ever told her that before. They always wanted her to be more like her mother. No one had ever cared about who she really was until now. The knowledge made her feel warm. Watching his eyes for any sign of a lie she couldn't find any.
"Okay," she whispered softly. The almost blinding, for him, grin he gave her in return made her feel so much better. It was nice to have someone who cared about her; the real her.
"So, what happened," he asked now that she was relaxed enough to tell him. The brief flash of anger in her eyes was enough to tell him that she wasn't going to simply forgive and forget. He doubted her teammates would ever hear a kind word from her again.
"They were waiting for me when I got back to the dorm, my entire team plus Sun," she said her voice breaking for a moment. The only thing that kept her from shattering was the gentle hand Mercury was running through her hair. "Yang called me a whore."
He was going to strangle the blonde with her own hair. There was an old rumor that assassin's used cords of human hair to kill their victims; he was ready to test that rumor. Sun however was going to suffer; he would tear the faunus to pieces. If the boy had a brain, he would've followed the warning and stayed away from Ruby instead he'd been the cause of her getting hurt. He would enjoy breaking the boy. Honestly calling his Ruby a whore, who the fuck would be stupid enough to believe that. Ruby had definitely been a virgin when they'd had sex the first time. Even now she'd only slept with him no matter how much Neo wanted to change that fact.
"I doubt that bimbo is a virgin," he said coldly. The temperature in the room dropped with his words and she felt his aura brush against her skin with a wave of chaotic anger. Shivering at the sudden change in temperature, she hid a smile.
"I might've outed her for sleeping around since she was fourteen," she admitted. The way he blinked in shock was more than worth it. Especially when she said, "Then implied Blake needed to be careful if she didn't want flees."
Breaking into wild laughter, Mercury didn't notice the way her eyes lit up at his action. Staring at the man whose fingers were tangled in her hair, she traced the lines of his jaw with her eyes while his wicked laughter filled the room. She wanted to kiss him. Was that an okay thing that she could do. Before she could find out if kissing him was alright, he stopped laughing. Running his hand down her back he grinned at her reminding her of a wolf.
"Shit, that's hilarious," he said brightly.
Smiling softly, she shifted closer to him if that was possible. Nuzzling his neck as he was overcome by chuckles again, she hummed softly and closed her eyes. Part of her wished that this was how she could start every day. It was nice to feel warm and safe in his arms. There was no way this could last, nothing perfect ever lasted. He would be returning to Haven after the Vytal festival and she still needed to figure out what she was going to do with her life. She knew that she didn't want to be a huntress or to even stay on her team but just dropping out wasn't an option.
The best time to leave would be between the school years. All she would have to do is not come back once classes resumed. Sure, her father would get mad, but Qrow would probably help her. He'd always, well mostly, been on her side. She had no desire to stay here after what Yang had said either. There was also the fact that when she fought Roman, she'd hated every single moment of it. Fighting him just wasn't worth it when nothing would change. She knew that Ozpin had used her team to scout Mt. Glenn; why else would he let a first-year team go there? With how many faunus died in those tunnels, she already regretted her choice in coming to Beacon. Right now, the only thing she wanted was to stay with Mercury.
"Gods you're perfect."
If it hadn't been for how loudly he'd said the words she would've thought she wasn't supposed to hear them. Sitting up quickly as his hand rested on her hip, she stared at him in complete shock. There was no possible way that was true. She was a broken little girl who had no one who truly loved her. The look in his eyes showed that he wasn't lying, he genuinely thought she was perfect, and she had no idea why. Not even the way his hand cupped her cheek could draw her from the steadily growing spiral she was sinking into. There was no way he could even begin to think she was perfect, yet he wasn't lying.
He had to be lying.
"I'm not lying," he stated. The words caused her eyes to widen for a moment before her face began to turn scarlet. If he wasn't lying then...
Squeaking, she dove back under the covers as for the first time she reacted like a genuine teenager. How could he say something so embarrassing with a straight face? Curling against him as he chuckled, she whined at the teasing tone to his voice when he tried to coax her from under the blanket. She wasn't coming out for the next few hours; she was perfectly fine under here where he couldn't tease her like that. Still, those words made her feel like she was flying. The feeling got worse when he asked her to move into his room.
(Weiss)
It was hard to stare down at the scroll in her hand and not want to throw it across the room. Ruby wasn't answering, not that she blamed the younger girl; she couldn't even fully blame Yang and Blake for everything. If she'd said something sooner, then maybe Ruby wouldn't have run away. Instead, she'd been too far in her own issues to think about defending her partner. She had no idea how to even begin to make things up to the younger girl. Ruby had every right to hate her for doing nothing. She'd failed as a partner.
Sliding her scroll in her pocket she wanted to do anything other than admit that she had no idea what to do. Ruby wasn't stupid, if the girl wanted a relationship with Mercury then that was her business. She wasn't going to do anything to stop her partner because even if Ruby got hurt it was her choice. After spending her entire life having choices made for her, she wouldn't dream of doing that to her partner. It was bad enough she had no idea how to break the news to her teammates about her current situation, but having Ruby hate her would hurt far more than what her father had decided to do. She just hoped the girl would give her a chance to explain.
That was why she nearly leaped at her leader the second Ruby entered the room. Stopping herself when she noticed Ruby flinch, she couldn't help but clench the fabric of her skirt tightly. It was obvious that the shorter, by only a little, girl didn't want anything to do with her. Shifting on her toes she bit her lip wondering just what she could do to make things up to her partner. Running her eyes over the girl's body it was easy to see from the tension almost emanating from her partner that the girl had no desire to be here.
"You didn't answer your scroll," she said and almost kicked herself at the guarded look Ruby sent her. She hated the expression on her leader's face if for no other reason than because she helped cause this.
"I saw no reason to do so," Ruby stated sounding far more robotic than Weiss had ever heard her before causing the heiress to raise an eyebrow. Ruby wasn't angry, not at Weiss, the white-haired girl had made it clear she never wanted to be friends in the first place so being mad at her wouldn't change anything. She'd been the one to push this one-sided friendship, but she couldn't do that anymore. Grabbing her suitcase from the closet, she said, "I simply came to get some clothes."
"So, you're moving in with Mercury."
"It is better than staying here," she said without thinking.
Meeting her teammate's eyes for a moment she tensed expecting to see judgment in her eyes instead there was understanding in her gaze. Tilting her head slightly the heiress considered the situation before nodding slowly. It wouldn't be good for Ruby to encounter their teammates at the moment especially considering the fact Yang was still harping about talking some sense into her sister.
"I see... do you have a moment to talk," she asked knowing that she couldn't just command her teammate to stay and chat with her.
Zipping her suitcase, Ruby frowned for a long moment before sighing in defeat. She was far too soft to simply disregard her teammate, especially considering that Weiss was reaching out to her. If there was one thing, she knew about the heiress, it was that she was too stubborn to simply cast aside her pride so easily. If Weiss wanted to talk then it was about something important and she couldn't turn her back on the white-haired girl.
Nodding slowly, she sat down beside Weiss on the bed. Watching the heiress eye, the amount of space between them, she felt a bit guilty at the bitter smile that crossed her partner's lips. It was easy to shove that feeling down. What use was guilt when no one had ever tried to tell her it was okay to be herself. If Weiss didn't like who she truly was then that was no fault of her own, Mercury liked who she truly was, so it wasn't impossible. She wanted to stop hiding.
"I wanted to apologize for not saying anything when Yang was attacking you. I know it doesn't excuse my actions, but I've been so lost in my own issues this last month that I haven't actually been thinking about you or anyone else," Weiss admitted. After that call from her father she hadn't been able to do much of anything but hide in the library and look at books of Atlassian law in hopes of finding a loophole; she'd found nothing. Tugging at the hem of her dress she said, "So, I'm sorry Ruby. I should've paid more attention to you. I should've stopped Yang and Blake."
Her partner was nervous and guilty, but she was also afraid. Weiss had never been afraid; she'd always had this stubborn air of confidence that Ruby envied. Now Weiss was terrified, it was easy to see in the way she looked down at her shaking hand.
"What happened?"
Snapping her gaze to her partner, Weiss hesitated. Ruby was already dealing with so much, it wasn't right of her to burden her partner with her issues as well, yet she didn't want to be alone in this. Yang had Blake no matter how much the two might deny it. Even Sun would rather die than allow anything to happen to the feline faunus. Part of her hated that they had each other, especially after her father's call. Biting her lip she frowned before reminding herself that this was Ruby. No matter how different she was acting the reaper was still her partner. She trusted Ruby far more than anyone in her life.
"My father got tired of waiting for me to come home. Since the fifth of last month I've been stripped of the title of heiress and engaged to the son of a weapons manufacturing company," she said bluntly. Whitley must be so happy that she was now out of the way. The thought filled her with bitter anger, but she shoved it down. Her brother had always been their father's favorite so probably wasn't a shock to him, in fact, he was most likely celebrating right now. Shock colored Ruby's eyes as she stared at her partner.
"He can do that?"
"Yes," she said. There was no point in fighting the fact she would be marrying a man she'd never even seen before or that her mother hadn't even tried to protect her. The only person she couldn't blame was her father because he'd never pretended to care about her. She would never be a huntress, never carry on her family's legacy. She would become nothing but a trophy wife to an aristocrat who would expect her to give him heirs. Pushing back the rush of fear she felt she said, "I'll be returning home after the Vytal Festival to get married to a man I've never even met."
She didn't want to go back to Atlas, nor did she want to get married. Most of all however she didn't want to be alone again.
All her life she'd tried to be the best to escape this very fate, but now she was doomed to the very thing that terrified her. What if her husband was just like her father? What if he hurt her simply for having different ideals than he did? She didn't want to turn into her mother, but what if she had no choice in the matter. Her father controlled her life and once she returned to Atlas her Husband would do the same. She'd never had a choice in her life. Now she would become nothing but a baby factory to some man who might treat her like she was worthless.
A warm hand touched her own dragging her from her thoughts and causing her to meet Ruby's concerned silver eyes. There was an urge to pull away from her partner, but she shoved it down, the reaper wouldn't hurt her.
"Will you be okay?"
"I don't know."
The admission made her feel useless. Watching Ruby close the distance to lean against her shoulder she let a gentle smile cross her face. Just for right now, she could let herself feel safe. This side of Ruby wasn't one that she'd ever thought she would see, but she found herself liking it more and more. For one the girl wasn't jumping around the room like a high puppy.
"I like this personality better," she said taking her partner by surprise. Smirking when Ruby shifted nervously, she said, "you're a lot easier to talk to now."
"Thanks... I think," she mumbled unsure if she was being complimented or not. She'd never thought that two people in one day would say that they liked her personality, but it had happened. The idea that there were people who liked her true self made her feel warm and fuzzy.
(Mercury)
There was a yellow bimbo knocking at his door with enough force to rattle the hinges now she was glaring at him as he held the door open. Honestly, this was the perfect chance for him to make her suffer for hurting his pet, but he couldn't kill her. Lucky for the bitch there was still plenty he could do without killing her. If he couldn't break her body, then he would break her mind. He would twist her until she could do nothing but lash out at him and then the trap would spring. The bimbo wouldn't stand a chance against him and neither would the monkey tailed fool behind her.
"Hello Yang," he said brightly barely keeping the wide grin from his lips. Ignoring Sun completely he allowed the blonde to enter his room although he did nothing to stop her from noticing the fact Ruby's bag and weapon were sitting on his desk. The glee he felt when she twisted to glare at him with scarlet eyes didn't even make a dent in the rage still burning in his blood. He was going to enjoy this.
"What did you do to my sister there's no way she would ever allow a boy like you to touch her," she snapped. The roar of laughter that left his lips was not what she was expecting but it did cause her to bristle.
Yang knew nothing about her sister; there was no doubt in his mind that Ruby had never voiced her opinion to the blonde. The bimbo didn't even deserve to breathe the same air as his pet. Fighting back his anger he shoved his hands into his pockets to keep from punching her in the face. There would be time for that later in the finals. He would drive her insane enough that it looked real when Emerald tricked her into attacking him. Besides, it would look better if there was evidence that she hated him.
"Well first I brought her back to this room," he stated watching her face turn red with rage. It was amusing how her eyes matched her cheeks. The vicious smirk on his face caused Sun to wince as he said, "but the real fun didn't start until I got her clothes off."
"Bastard!"
Stumbling, he groaned raising a hand to touch his bruising jaw. He could've dodged, after all, she had a thousand tells but he wanted to make sure she'd been the one to hit Ruby. Now he knew that she was and that was all the reason he needed to destroy her. Barely keeping himself from growling, his aura flickered over his skin preparing him for any further attacks from the blonde, but he kept the bruise. It would come in handy.
"Your sister did more damage to my bedsheets with her claws!"
The words were far from all that he wanted to say but it did the trick in causing the blonde to howl in rage. Dancing away from her, he chuckled as her fist hit his door leaving a dent. The sound of her gauntlets sliding into place caught his attention, but he wasn't worried. This blonde whore wasn't even worth his time, but he would destroy her anyway. It was true that this was petty of him, the girl couldn't even hope to reach his level in a million years, but she'd hurt his Ruby.
Grinning when she ran into his dresser with a groan, his hand twitched in his pocket. He wanted to rip her hair from her skull and strangle her with it. He wanted to make her suffer for every bit of pain she put his pet through. She deserved it and so much more that he didn't realize he was moving until he'd grabbed her wrist and flipped her over his shoulder. The sound of panic from Sun was the only one to greet his ears as the monkey tried to catch her.
"Damn you can't even punch without your boobs getting in the way; that's why your sisters are better," he stated earning him a growl of rage from the blonde. Turning to see her glance down at her breasts he raised an eyebrow. Part of him wondered if she would form an intelligent response but he didn't have much hope.
"I'm going to kill you!"
Nope, not intelligent at all. Watching the girl leap off the faunus and aim yet another punch at his face he froze. Ruby was close, he could smell her. He wasn't about to allow his pet to see him get sucker-punched by a weak blonde bimbo. Besides he already had the proof on his face that she'd started the fight there was no point in letting her get in another hit. Letting go of his aura he saw her eyes widen as he vanished from her sight, but he didn't give her time to realize what was happening. Instead, he tangled his fingers in her hair before yanking her back and sending her crashing into Sun once again.
"Your far too weak to do that," he said coldly as he struggled to rein back in his aura. Both his instincts and aura wanted to rip her to pieces.
"Dude stop!"
Snapping his gaze to the faunus he opened his mouth to curse at the boy when the blonde snarled and leaped off the ground. Her hair was on fire as she roared at him. It was obvious that she'd lost herself to her rage. Stepping back to dodge he relaxed as a red blur rushed past him and slammed into the blonde. The kick she sent at her sister's stomach was almost as hard as when the blonde's head hit the wall.
The twisted expression of rage on Ruby's face was beautiful, mesmerizing, and something that made him want to ravish her right here in this hallway. He'd never seen the shorter woman so enraged before, nor had he felt her aura so dark. Red petals drifted to the ground as she turned slowly to look him over for any injuries allowing him to see the guilt hidden beneath the rage in her eyes. She was about to blame herself for this wasn't she; that had not been his plan when he taunted her sister. Her eyes flickered to the darkening bruise on his cheek causing him to tense for a moment before she was twisting to face her sister.
"R-Ruby..."
If she was in her right mind, she would've realized how small Yang's voice sounded, but that wasn't something she could do right now. Her sister had hurt her... right well she could figure out what she considered Mercury to be later. He'd told her that he liked her personality, the first person to ever say that, and Yang had hurt him. It was alright when her sister treated her like a punching bag, she could take it. She'd dealt with it her entire life, but Mercury shouldn't have to deal with her sister's character flaws.
"How dare you!"
She was trembling her hands unable to stay still as she tried to contain her emotions. It had never been this hard before to push back what she was feeling but right now it felt hard to even breathe. A sharp pain spread through her palms as she dug her nails into her palms. The pain grounded her and kept her from lashing out yet what grounded her more was the warm arms that wrapped around her. It took everything to keep from ripping herself away from him and attacking her sister.
"Easy Love," he whispered while laying his chin on her shoulder. The fact she didn't stop trembling troubled him almost as much as it scared her sister. He didn't like seeing her lose control well outside of the bedroom that is. Still, this reaction made him think that she would kill for him; did she really care for him that much simply because he was kind to her. That was it... Ruby had always been alone without anyone knowing who she truly was, having her sister attack the one person that did, and l- liked her anyway must've been too much. It was just like when she was concerned with him; she cared too much. Tightening his grip so that she couldn't use her semblance to get away he whispered, "I'm not hurt."
From the soft growl, she didn't believe him at all, or she was too angry to think clearly. Oh, his faunus side liked that sound. Nuzzling her cheek, he felt her still in his grip as she took a deep calming breath that vanished as soon as her sister stood. Sneering at the blonde he silently dared her to make a move, he was finished playing around with her.
"Enough, Wukong take Xiao Long back to her dorm."
Fuck, when had Cinder gotten here. Sinking under his leader's cold gaze, he wondered if her anger was pointed at him before shoving back the thought. As long as Cinder was angry at him and not Ruby then he could deal with it. He had no idea when he started putting the little reaper first, but it wasn't a feeling he minded. It helped as well that the monkey faunus decided to cut his losses and drag the struggling blonde away.
"Cin-"
"Both of you in the room now," his leader ordered before shoving open her door. Sighing Mercury herded his Ruby into the room and tried to ignore the wicked smirk on Neo's face when they entered.
So, this chapter is finally out. The next chapter will be Ruby's first real interaction with Cinder. What do you guys think of Weiss's situation? Oh and I think I made Yang an idiot (totally didn't mean too). Moving on what are your thoughts on Mercury and Ruby's relationship. I decided to slow it down and show more of them figuring it all out instead of rushing straight to the Vytal festival so I guess two or three more chapters of this.
-Have a good day.
Also what sounds better reading about a version of Cinder who died and got stuck in the body of the male version of herself right after stealing Amber's abilities or the immortal son of Salem and Ozpin.
ps. I'll be leaving the details of my main profile on my profile page if you want to read something that's not this but still written by me. I literally made a separate profile just because I decided to try writing smut.