I do not own the fosters. I wish I did because it is an amazing show and is very inspiring.
IMPORTANT DETAILS for this story:
Callie got Adopted the same day as Jude, her biological father is Donald.
Callie did go through the ordeal with Liam but she kept a few things hidden from everyone.
LENA got the principals position and lost the baby.
I don't know where Sharon, Dana and Stuart live. So Im saying that Sharon lives in the California area. While Dana and Stuart live in Florida.
AN: I HOPE YOU LIKE THIS CHAPTER, IT TOOK ME A WHILE TO WRITE IT AND IM STILL NOT 100% HAPPY WITH IT, ANYWAY LIFE GOES ON.
Previously:
"Right now I wish the kids were all out of the house." Lena breathed out, placing her hands around her wifes neck and pulling her lips to her own.
"I love you." Stef whispered, pulling away from the kiss to rest her fore head on her wifes. They knew they couldn't do much more with the kids still awake and Rylan still sleeping in their bed until she was well.
"I love you too."
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Lena woke when she felt a kick to her back. It was a regular occurrence that Rylan would wiggle and kick when she was tossing and turning to find a comfortable position. Lena sighed and closed her eyes again, trying to drift back off. She had just closed her eyes and found a comfortable position when her eyes shot open to the sound of a whimper. Rolling over, Lena caught sight of Rylan frowning in her sleep, whimpering and struggling against the blankets.
"Not again. My poor baby." Lena whispered before she tried to wake the little girl up from her apparent nightmare.
"Rylan baby wake up. Come on wake up for mama." Lena stoked Rylans cheek and whispered soothing words into her ear.
"Love?" Stef mumbled in her sleep filled haze after hearing talking and movement from the other side of the bed. Lena looked over to her wife and sighed before speaking.
"Rylan, nightmare." Was all the Lena whispered as she continued to try and wake the little girl.
"Mommy, dont go." Rylan whimpered out, a tear falling from the corner of her closed eye, making Lenas heart break at the sight.
"Rylan wake up for mama, come on." Lena said as Stef scooped the little girl into her arms and brought Rylan to her chest so the little girls ear rested on her chest as Lena rubbed the little girls back.
"Thats it baby, good girl." Lena whispered as Rylan slowly began to wake from her nightmare.
"Mama, Mommy." Rylan mumbled out through her sobs, as her hands began rubbing her eyes and wiping away her tears.
"Yeah baby its us." Stef whispered gently, leaning down to place kisses on the top of Rylans head. Rylan breathed in a large breath of air through a sob before releasing it with a sigh. Looking up at Stefs face, made Rylan lose it. Her tears flowed heavier and her sobs became louder, her whole body shook from the force of her crying. Lena and Stef shared a concerned look over the little girls head.
Rylan buried her face into her moms neck as she cried. Her dream had really scared her and she didn't want to go back to sleep now and relive that same dream.
"Hey its alright mommy and mama have you. You are alright." Stef whispered but Rylan just cried harder. Lena used her head and gestured to the rocking chair next to the window that they had used last time. Hoping it would work this time.
Stef stood from the bed, Rylan still in her arms. She took a seat on the rocking chair as Lena draped a blanket over the two of them before kneeling on the ground in front of the two, resting her elbows on Stefs thighs as her left had ran through Rylan hair and down her back and back up again.
Stef slowly rocked Rylan and whispered soothing words to the little girl.
"Rylan baby, tell mommy what your dream was about." Stef tried to get the little girl to talk but she was just as stubborn as most of her kids and herself. Rylan shook her head against her moms neck as she sobbed. She didn't want to talk, she didn't like to talk about her dreams. They were just too scary.
"Come on baby, it will make you feel better to release it. I tell mama my bad dreams and I feel a lot better after it. She cuddles me and makes me feel better after I tell her." Stef explained, trying her best to coax the girl into talking to one of them or even both.
"It is true sweetie. Everyone has bad dreams, but it helps to talk about them." Lena added. Rylans tears and sobs had slowed and with a sniff she pulled her head away from her Moms neck to look at her Mama.
"Really?" Rylan whispered, looking for any doubt on what her Mama and Mommy had just said. Lena smiled and placed a hand on the little girls cheek.
"Really." Lena said as she leant over and placed a kiss to the little blondes cheek. Rylan sniffled and wrapped her arms around Lenas neck, stopping her from moving. A mama sandwich ensued.
"My dreams are scary." Rylan eventually whispered. Both moms let out a breath of air and a sigh of relief when Rylan started to speak.
"Im right here baby, ill protect you. All you have to do is talk baby." Rylan sighed and wiped away a few more tears as she looked from her Moms eyes and then to her Mamas eyes before looking at her hands sitting in her lap.
"My other mommy...she put me in the box and I didn't know why." Rylan whispered, a tear falling as she remembered her mother, her birth mother. Lena rubbed the little girls back while Stef placed a kiss to Rylans temple. They knew now that this nightmare was of when she saw her mother die. They both hated and dreaded to hear more but they needed to.
"I...I...I could hear my mom and a man talking and when I peaked out... I...I saw him. He was laughing and waving a gun around." Rylan sniffled and let out a sob. Both moms stayed quiet, knowing that Rylan needed to get all of it out.
"He...He...h...he shot her and he just laughed and left her there. I got out of the box and ran to her but when I got to her, it wasn't moms face, it was you." Once Rylan had finished telling them her dream she broke down and buried her face back into Stefs neck. Stef and Lena both had tears flowing from their eyes.
The little blonde had witnessed her moms death and was having nightmares about it, now she was dreaming that Stef was shot instead of her mom. One hell of a nightmare for a child to have, one hell of a past event to have.
"There was so much blood mommy. So much blood." Stef blinked back a tear.
"It was just a dream baby girl. Im alive. It was just a dream." Stef whispered, rocking the chair back and forth to calm the girl in her arms.
"It wasn't all a dream." Rylan whispered through her sobs. Stef and Lena shared another look. They would talk more when they had free time, what mattered right now was to get the little blonde calm and back to sleep.
Lena stood up and leant in to place a kiss on her wifes lips and one kiss on the top of Rylans head before going into the bathroom and coming back a minute later with a wash cloth.
"Rylan baby, look at mama." Lena asked kneeling back down in her original position. Rylan moved her head from her moms neck to look at her Mama.
"Im going to clean your face to get rid of the stickiness your tears left ok." Rylan nodded and let Lena clean her face. She was glad because her face did feel all crusty and sticky from the snot and tears that had fallen.
"There you go baby girl." Lena said, standing u and going back to the bathroom as Rylan buried her face back into her moms neck. Rylan let out a sigh of content as she closed her eyes.
"Will you be here if I have another dream mommy?" Rylan whispered, Stef struggled to hear but she got the gist of what the little blonde had said.
"Mama and I will be here. Whenever you have a dream you can always come to Mama and Me ok?" Rylan nodded from her spot in her moms neck.
Lena came out from the bathroom and took a seat on the bed and looked at the two sitting in the rocking chair.
"Mommy, im tired." Rylan whispered and yawned into her moms neck. Lena and Stef smiled at that.
"Go to sleep baby, Mommy and Mama will be here when you wake up, ok?" Stef whispered to the little girl.
"Ok...love you." Rylan managed to mumble out and then not even a minute or so later the soft snores could be heard. Both moms let out a sigh of relief and relaxed a little.
"Go back to sleep love. Ill carry her to the bed when shes in a deeper sleep ok?" Lena nodded and slid into bed, knowing that arguing with her wife would be pointless, Stef had a point though. Lena slid into the bed and closed her eyes.
Stef looked to her wife laying in bed, to the little girl in her arms. She didnt know what the future would hold but she knew one thing for sure.
Stef knew that she was now closer to finding Rylans biological family, her identity. Now she knew that the mother was in an alley when she was shot. That ruled out two of the women and left that one woman, Jane doe number 2.
"Ill find your identity baby girl." Stef whispered to the little girl, knowing that the little girls unconscious mind would pick it up and store it.
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The week had flown by so fast and now Friday afternoon had come around and the kids were so happy that the weekend was now here. Friday also meant that Sharon was heading home as she had stayed long enough, she also had her own house to maintain as well.
"Alright my darlings. Give me kisses." Sharon stood in the kitchen with her grand kids, daughter and daughter in law saying goodbye.
One by one everyone hugged and kissed Sharon goodbye.
"Take care of my grand babies." Sharon whispered into Stefs ear making Stef roll her eyes but nods with a smile.
"Thanks for staying here mom. You have been a great help. I love you." Stef says back as she continues to hug her mom. Releasing from the embrace, Stef steps back and wraps and arm around Lenas waist as Sharon gives a few more kisses to her grand kids before she departs from the house. The boys had already helped put her suitcases in the car before hand.
"Its gonna be different with your mom gone. Its been great having her here." Lena says, planting a kiss on Stefs cheek as Stef hugs Lena tightly.
"Grandma gone now." Rylan looks up from where she was currently standing between her sisters, holding Callies hand.
"Yeah baby shes gone now, but not forever. We will see her again, I promise." Rylan nodded at Callies words.
"Mama, Im hungry." Rylan broke the silence causing everyone to burst out laughing.
"Yeah me too." Both moms shook their heads and looked at their kids.
"Alright, lets make dinner together then, shall we." Stef announced looking at all of her kids.
"Best idea ever." Jesus said going to the fridge, making everyone laugh.
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"This was the best idea ever Jude." Jesus said giving his brother a high five.
Jude had suggested camping in the living room on mattresses and watching movies. They had gotten 4 mattresses on the floor of the living room after pushing the furniture out of the way.
Rylan was super excited. She gets to sleep out on the mattresses with her family tonight, plus tomorrow her Mom was taking her to the park.
"Alright, Everyone pyjamas on and then come settle down here." Stef orders and all the kids obliged. Callie and Mariana taking Rylan with them to get her changed.
"Miss Rylan is looking better today." Lena commented as she got the blankets set up on the mattresses while Stef put in the movie they had chosen to watch first.
"Yeah she has. No fevers since the last one and shes eating normally. I am hoping that on monday we will be told shes in the clear and that we can let her go to school. Im ready to go back to work on monday. Its been too long." Stef chuckled, she had really missed work, she was not a home body but spending time with Rylan made it all worth it.
"Alright, lets get this party started." Jesus called as he entered the living room first followed by the others. Both moms chuckling.
"Alright, go get the snacks and drinks and find a spot while Mama and I go get changed." Stef said telling the kids as she walked up the stairs with Lena following.
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Around 8pm Rylan had fallen asleep after watching transformers 1 and then monsters inc. Mariana and Jude followed Rylan into slumber not long after and then about 11pm the other three fell asleep leaving the moms to drift off on their own after making sure the kids were comfortable and sleeping peacefully.
Not even two hours after Stef and Lena had fallen asleep, Stefs phone rang. Scrambling awake to reach the phone before it woke the kids. She was too late as a bunch of groans coming from the kids alerted the moms that the phone had woke the kids.
"Sorry Guys...yes this is Officer Adams foster...yes ma'am...ok …...no problem...ill be there as soon as possible...bye captain." Stef sighed as she hung up her phone and looked around the room at all of her awake kids, feeling guilty that her phone had woken them. They were all watching her, waiting for her to explain.
"There is an Emergency, all off duty officers have been called in. I should be home around lunch tomorrow." Stef explained as she stood from the mattress, giving Lena a kiss as she passed her and headed up the stairs.
"Alright, go back to sleep kids." Lena whispered looking at the children. All of them nodded and lay back down.
Jesus and Mariana on one mattress, Jude and Brandon on another mattress, Callie and Rylan on the other, leaving the last mattress for the moms.
Rylan was still sitting up as her brothers and sisters all lay down. She was looking at the stiars where her mom had just headed before looking at her Mama laying on the mattress on her own. Pushing the blankets back down her body, Rylan crawled over Callie and made her way over to her Mama.
Lena felt the mattress dip, so she opened her arms up and her eyes to see the little girl scoot in beside her. Rylan snuggled into her Mama and sighed at the comfort she felt, like always.
"Go to sleep baby, we will see Mommy tomorrow." Lena whispered before kissing Rylans temple. She heard the little girls breathing change, indicating she was asleep, so she allowed herself to fall asleep snuggled with her baby girl.
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When Rylan woke up she was alone in the living room but she could movement in the kitchen. Scrubbing her hands over her eyes to wake herself up more, Rylan pushes the blankets off of her body and heads towards the kitchen.
"Morning baby girl. Are you hungry?" Lena asks, spotting the little blonde at the entrance of the kitchen.
Rylan looked around and noticed that only her and her Mama were home. Lena noticed Rylan looking around with a frown so she decided to explain, knowing that the little girl was wondering where everyone is.
"Mom is still at work and the kids are out and about with their friends sweetie." Rylan nodded and headed further into the kitchen and over to her Mama who was standing at the kitchen sink doing dishes.
Lena wiped her hands on the hand towel before bending down to scoop the little girl up and settle her on her hip.
"Just you and me until mom gets home in a little while." Rylan nodded resting her head on Lenas shoulder. Rylan was very excited, she was going to the park today with her Moms. She couldn't wait for her mommy to come home, she was hoping it was very soon.
"Alright, French toast for breakfast baby girl?" Lena asked, getting a nod from the small blonde. Lena sighed, kissed the top of Rylans head and sat her on a stool at the table while she set to work on the little girls breakfast.
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The morning flew by fast. Rylan was becoming impatient, just waiting around for her mom to come home wasn't fun at all. She had eaten the breakfast her Mama had made her and they she had gone upstairs to brush her teeth and change her clothes.
Time was going too slow in Rylan mind. Lena could see the little girl was missing her mommy, the way that Rylan would look to the front door or when she heard a noise she would run to the front window to see if Stef was home.
Lenas heart broke to see the little girl looking sad about Stef now being home. She knew that she had to distract the little girl from the time. Stef hadn't called to say she was going to be staying longer so that was a good sign. Stef would always call if something was going on so Lena didn't panic.
"Rylan baby, do you want to watch a movie with me?" Lena asked walking to to the little girl who was sitting on the sofa facing the blank screen, her bee toy in her arms. Lena knelt infront of the little girl and put a hand on her leg to get the little blondes attention. Rylan looked up into her Mamas eyes as she nodded.
Lena smiled, kissed Rylans cheek before moving to get the transformers movie. Rylan loved the movie and would never say no to it.
"Mama...will you cuddle me?" Rylan whispered after a few minuted of silence as she watched her Mama put the movie on. Rylan needed a cuddle, she needed the comfort. Stef wasn't here because she was at work and she was glad she could spend some time alone with her Mama. She just wished Stef would hurry up so they could go to the park.
Lena looked over from her current task. The small soft voice piercing her ears, the voice sounded broken, sounded sad, sounded needy. One look into Rylans eyes and Lena knew the little girl needed a cuddle. She was definitely a mommys girl but Rylan loveed her Mama just as much.
Pressing play on the movie and getting a blanket out. Lena walked over to the little girl, scooped her up and then sat on the sofa, cradling Rylan in her arms like a baby. Lena tucked the blanket around Rylan, making sure she was covered and comfortable.
"No need to ask for a cuddle babby girl. I will always cuddle you. You are my daughter and I love you." Lena bent down and rubbed her nose against Rylans making the little girl giggle.
"Do you love me to the moon and back?" Rylan said looking into her Mamas eyes. Lena smiled and stroked a finger down Rylans cheek before she answered.
"I love you to the moon and back. I also love you to infinity and beyond." Rylan looked at her mama with wide eye making Lena chuckle.
"Thats what buzz says in toy story." Lena chuckled and nodded. The movie somehow forgotten for the moment. Lena loved to spend quality time with her little girl and she was going to make the most of it.
"That he did sweetie and its true." Rylan smiled as she reached up and curled her finger in her mamas hair, letting the soft hair run through her fingers making her relax a lot.
"Thats a lot of love mama." Lena nodded, a big smile on her face. Stroking a finger over Rylan cheek, the little girls eyes fluttering and the the little girl yawned.
"I have a lot of love to give." It was true, Lena knew it was true. She had 6 children and a wife that she will love forever and so she had a lot of love to give. Lena continued to stroke the little girls cheek, hoping to let the little girl have a nap.
They had said they didn't want the little girl napping because she couldn't when she went to school, but she was sick now and it was vital for her to rest so she could get better. They would just have to practice with the little girl to get her to stay awake during the day before she goes to school.
Lena looked down at the girls face and saw that her eyes were closed. She stopped rubbing the little girls cheek and bent down to place a kiss on the tip of Rylans nose and then each of her cheeks.
"Im glad you are my daughter." Lena whispered as she continued to cradle the little girl in her arms.
"Im glad you are my mama." Rylan whispered sleepily before taking a big sigh and burring her face into Lenas chest more. Lena smiled, she thought the little girl was asleep, that sentence Rylan whispered was joy to her ears and she was glad she got to hear them.
"Mama loves you baby girl."
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Rylan had woken from her nap in her moms arms. She was expecting to see Stef home now but she sighed and held back her tears when Stef wasnt home.
Lena made the little girl some lunch after she had woken up, she knew that the little girl was waiting for Stef to come home and it hurt to see her little girl sad. Stef hadn't even called to say she was staying back, she couldn't even give Rylan a time now. It was a waiting game.
Rylan picked at her food, not really hungry but she ate a little to keep her Mama happy. She knew that her Mommy was running late, she just wished she knew how late she would be.
"Come on baby, eat a bit more for me please." Lena said looking at her daughter. Rylan nodded slowly, picking up a piece of apple and nibbling on it.
"Can I be done now Mama?" Rylan whispered twenty or so minutes later. Lena looked at the little girls plate and nodded. She had eaten her slices of apple and half a sandwich, so that was something. Rylan slid off of the chair and went back to the living room to stare out the window, looking for any sigh of her Mom.
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Time flew by and one by one all her siblings arrived home, all wondering why there mom wasn't home. Callie and Mariana tried to coax Rylan into playing a game with them but the little girl ha shook her head and stayed where she was. Both girls knew that Rylan and Stef had a special bond, knew that Rylan was standing there for a reason and so they let her be. Rylan stayed at the window, staring out at the front yard, no once moving the whole afternoon and that worried Lena a lot, she had tried to get the little girl to come over and talk to her but Rylan had shook her head and stayed where she was. Lena knew she needed to call Stef and so she did.
"Hey my love, sorry I havent had a chance to call its been hectic here. Im sorry." Stef said one she had answered the phone. Lena could hear how tired her wife was and it made her less mad. She was glad that nothing was seriously wrong with her wife.
"Hey Honey, you could have sent a text. You said you would be home around lunch time." Lena was talking in her normal voice, she was less mad but she couldn't really be mad at her wife it was her job after all. Lena looked at her little girl still standing at the window waiting for Stef to come home. There was know way she was going to tell Stef that Rylan was sad and waiting around her. She didn't need her wife to be feeling guilty while she was workng, it could be dangerous.
"I know love im sorry, I finished my shift and then I got told to do a double. I want to be home with you and the kids." Lena was about to reply when a siren blared through the line on Stefs side. She knew Stef would have to go.
"Im sorry love I really have to go, I will definitely be home for dinner." Stef said in a rushed voice.
"Ok by love you." Lena knew that her wife would be home at dinner time. Her captain wasn't that mean.
"Love you" Lena heard Stef say before the line went dead. Lena sighed and tucked her phone in her pants. She looked up to see Rylan was no longer at the window, she frowned and went to look for her.
Lena didn't have to look much because she found the little girl sitting on Callies lap at the dining table. Both girls colouring in a colouring book. All the kids were around the dining table doing homework or something with paper.
"Alright lets get started on dinner shall we."
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When Stef arrived home it was dinner time. The kids were serving themselves when Stef walked into the kitchen.
"Hey my babies, smells really good in here." Stef greeted going around to kiss each of the kids heads, she frowned when Rylan ducked her head out of the way from Stefs kiss. Usually the little girl loved Stefs kisses and would usally greet her a lot happier and tha worried both Lena and Stef. Lena knew she would have to tell Stef what Rylan did all day.
"Hey my love. " Stef greeted her wife giving her a quick kiss on the lips. Stef headed upstairs to put her gun away and when she disappeared Lena looked at Rylan. She sighed, the little girl had unshed tears in her eyes and she was picking at her food and avoiding eye contact with everyone.
Stef came back down in her uniform but her belt was gone and her hair was out of its bun. She took a seat at her normal position in between Rylan and Lena, she picked her fork up and dug into the plate Lena had obviously served her.
"So how was your day?" Stef asked looking around the table.
"Umm, the band and I think we are ready to start performing in public now. We are just getting flyers and stuff done to get our name out there, you know." Stef smiled at Brandon.
"Wow finally, I thought we would have to wait till im old and grey before we heard your band play." Stef chuckled after her own sentence along with the kids minus Rylan which didn't go unnoticed by either of the moms.
"You are already old mom, the grey bit just hasn't come." Jesus said before shoving a forkful of dinner into his mouth. Stef looked at her son with a fake gasp and wide eyes and then looked at Lena before she did a fake sniffle and wiped a pretend tear away from her eyes.
"I am not old." Stef glared playfully at her kids, pointing her fork at them with raised eyebrows. The kids chuckled and Lena rolled her eyes but a smile was on her face. She was amused.
"Dont worry mom, if you go grey there is hair dye." Mariana piped in causing a round of laughter to erupt around the table.
"What is it, gang up on mom night?" Stef raised her eyebrow and looked around at her kids, all smiling at their mom knowing she was playng with them.
"You're just and easy target mom." Brandon piped in letting her know what they were all thinking. All the kids nodding, well again except Rylan.
"Gee thanks." Stef sarcastically said scooping some food onto her fork and shoving it into her mouth, her eyes on the little girl next to her as the kids bantered between them.
Stef was becoming worried. The little girl hadn't said a thing, hadn't laughed, hadn't even looked at anyone and hadn't really eaten her food. Stef was really worried when she saw a tear fall from the little blondes eyes.
Stef exchanged a glance with Lena, knowing her wife had seen the tear. Lena mouthed out 'later' and Stef nodded, knowing dinner time wasn't the time to go into it.
All that ran through Stefs mind now was 'what had happened since she left home.'
A LITTLE BIT OF MAMA/RYLAN MOMENT
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