A/N: I don't own TMNT. They belong to Nickelodeon. The song "I'll Try" belongs to Disney's movie Peter Pan in Return to Neverland. That is all.
I remember
I remember what I'm not supposed to remember.
Dragons. Superpowers. Two souls living within one body.
I am not a child now.
I can take care of myself.
I mustn't let them down now.
Mustn't let them see me cry.
I'm fine
I'm fine.
This isn't real.
This can't be real.
None of this should exist and yet it does.
I'm too tired to listen.
I'm too old to believe
All these childish stories.
There is no such
Thing as faith and trust and pixie dust.
I try
I'm just dreaming. Yup. That's it. I'm dreaming.
And when I wake up, I'll get ready for school. After school, I'll get beat up by the boys. I'll go home and wish the guys were there to help me. I'll wish I had their number. I'll wish that my older bro actually cared more about me. I'll end up crying myself to sleep over these things.
I'll wake up in the middle of the night and go through my scrapbook.
I'll cry again and go back to sleep and I'll repeat this whole process again tomorrow.
I have no family. Dragons aren't real. My Dad isn't of royal blood to Aurelea. He isn't a crowned prince that married a human. He isn't a dragon. I'm not a princess. I'm not half-dragon. The Red Dragon isn't real. I'm not a Dragon. I'm not a host nor a tamer. None of this is real. None of it!
But it's so hard to believe.
I try
But I can't see what you see.
I try
I try
I try