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WARNING: This chapter will be very very very sad so, I suggest you have a tissue box next to you when reading this!
Chapter 16: It hurts more than I want it too
Adam's POV
I stood in my capsule looking around the room. Bree was gone. She left an hour ago with a tissue box and her phone which had a lot of pictures of her and Chase. I had stopped crying. It actually hurt to make the tears come out but, the pain and emotion was too much too handle. My little Chasey was gone. I felt like a disgusting jerk. All I ever did was insult him and beat him up. I never even told him I loved him. And I do, oh I do. I loved Chase soo much. I guess I just made fun of him because, it was my way of showing I cared about him or at least paid attention to him. But, now he was gone. No someone who is gone is just not here right now. Chase was dead. A lifeless pale human with no pulse. His eyes closed with a darkness that would last forever. My heart ached in pain. I had never told Chase I loved him ever, and that hurt me the most! That he was dead and I didn't tell him in time. That's what hurt the most because, those are the most important words you can say to a person. Sure, you can care about them but, love...love is what holds you together. I regret every minute of my life now. I'm such a horrible brother. If I could change the way I acted to my brother before he died, I would, in a heartbeat! There are times when you wish you could have done things differently. In my case, I wish I treated Chase differently. I wish I didn't insult him and tease him about his height. I wish I was there for him more! I wish I never wished...I never had a brother. I actually did wish this one day because, Chase made me so mad. I actually thought I was going to really hurt him this time so , I locked myself in my capsule until my anger cooled down. That was a day I wish had never happened now and I never felt bad about what I said until now. It takes something like this for me to realize what a horrible brother I was.
Adam's Flashback
I was in the lab sitting on one of the chairs looking over my test I had just gotten from school. Another big fat F! And I studied this time! Well I tried to study but, still I tried. I made an effort and this is what it gets me! Wow I feel like a huge failure! I guess I never will be as smart as Chase. Suddenly the lab elevator doors opened. An ecstatic Chase came out with a smile that was way too big for his own face. He gripped his paper tightly while grinning brightly. He looked at me and pointed at his paper.
"Guess who got another A"? He asked braggingly. He always did this. I guess it was his way of getting back at me since, he had nothing else but, his smarts to keep him going. This annoyed me so much! He always thought he was better than me when it came to school which, technically he was! But, he doesn't need to be a jerk about it! Anyway I was really not in the mood for this right now! I was already bummed out over my grade but, Chase obviously didn't care.
"Uh huh that's great Chase"! I said with fake enthusiasm trying to get him a hint that I wasn't in the mood and I wanted him to leave but, of course Chase wanted to be Chase.
"This would be my third A for this week! Another A for my book! You know what they say another day, another A" He said with a smile still bragging. Man if Chase bragged about how he looked, he could be Mr Davenport's twin.
"Gotcha Chase"! I said slowly getting angrier at him by the minute. But, of course Chase pushed it a bit further. I guess I really did deserve this since, this was all he had against me.
"So, what did you get"? He asked casually to me. I looked at him and gave a confident smile.
"I got a pretty good grade myself". I said lying right through my teeth. He gave me a disbelieving look and tried to grab the paper out of my hands. I held onto it tightly. He grunted as he tried to pull it out of my hands. Once again I had my advantage against him. I used my super strength and the paper ripped in half. My super strength pushed Chase and the shred of paper he had in his hand against the elevators. I pushed him so hard that I could actually hear the slamming sound Chase's back made against the elevators. He groaned loudly. I smiled happily and he slowly got up. I didn't feel bad at all. Then he fluttered his eyes to get them back into focus and looked at the shred of paper he had in his hand.
"HAHA I KNEW IT! YOU GOT AN F! PRETTY GOOD GRADE YEAH RIGHT! But, that's ok Adam I don't expect anything better from you anyway"! He yelled at me pointing at the big red F on the shred of paper he had in his hand. He mocked me as he always did. I looked down at the paper I had in my hand. It was just a bunch of questions with big fat red X's all over them. And of course Chase got the part of the paper that had my grade on it. I looked up at Chase who was now waving the paper around gesturing to the F the whole time. I could feel my heat vision kicking in . And I tried to warn Chase before, it was too late.
"Chase leave me alone about it ok! I tried my best" I said defending myself.
"Oh yeah Adam, in your case this would be your best". He said laughing at me. My eyes started turning red. He didn't seem to notice.
"Chase stop it right now"! I warned angrily. But, Chase just kept going on.
"It's funny that you think you could get a good grade, being you! You know you being the most stupidest person in the world. Me, I have never experienced that feeling since, well I am the smartest person in the world. Ah don't you just feel STUPID"?! He bragged and then yelled at the end. And that was all it took. I shot my heat vision right at Chase's chest and he flew back against the wall with another painful groan. He shook it off though after a few seconds and walked towards me igniting his bow staff.
"Aww that's cute! You think your bow staff is a match for my super strength! Who's the stupid one now"? I asked braggingly. Suddenly Chase's eyes widened and he withdrew his bow staff. Then he just looked at me.
"Go ahead Adam! I don't care anymore! If this is the way you want to treat me then fine. Go ahead! I'm so used to you beating me up all the time and insulting me. It's not even worth trying to fight against you. This is the brother you want to be to me then go ahead beat me up"! He said in a serious voice not even trying to run away. Then I looked at him and got out of my fighting stance for a minute.
"Do you think it's easy being your older brother? You're so much smarter than me Chase! I mean when it comes to school your amazing and I'm just in the background! People expect you to get good grades since, you're smart. But, instead of you understanding from my point of view, you make fun of me"! I said trying to defend myself. He looked shocked at me.
"Are you seriously mad at me for doing this? Adam you beat me up all the time! You insult me everyday! I have to do something to get back at you. Or else you won't ever stop! All the things you do to me, they hurt but, you don't care. So, yeah I am doing this cause, I'm sick of the way you treat me! You're a horrible brother"! He said very upset at me.
"I'm a horrible brother really? Chase you're so full of yourself you don't even realize that you deserve to be beaten up"!
"Yep I deserve to be beaten up! I can't help that I'm smarter than you so, oh well Adam go ahead and beat me up already so, you can feel better about yourself". He said in a casual voice but, I just stood there. I didn't want to beat Chase up. He started this! I was so angry right now that I thought I was going to seriously mess up Chase. I could see the fear in his eyes as he stared up at me but, I decided to leave him alone. I was afraid that if I pushed him down, he wasn't going to get back up.
"You know what! I'm not going to beat you up because, then you will just prove that you are right which you love doing! You love making everyone else feel like nothing since, you're so smart. Yet you're still not smart enough to realize that"! I said and immediately saw Chase's expression drop. I didn't feel the slightest bit of pity for him. And then I said something that I knew I would regret saying for the rest of my life.
"You know what Chase"?
"What"? He asked looking back up at me.
"I wish I never had a brother". I said and I never saw such a hurt look on Chase's face. After that I made fists with my hands and walked away mostly because, I couldn't stand the way Chase looked right now. It made me feel horrible inside. But, I just walked away but, I could still see the hurt look on his face even though, my back was turned.
End of flashback
I felt worse now than ever remembering that day. I could still see the pained look on Chase's face when I said that. I wish I could have been happier for Chase that day. I wish I loved his smile more that day. I wish I was a better brother that day. I wish I didn't hurt him that day. I wish I wish I wish but, I never changed. I wish my little brother wasn't dead. Then I fell apart again. I started crying so hard that the noises that came out of me were new to me as well. I fell down to my knees in my capsule crying. I put my hands over my face as I continued to cry. I thought about how life would be now. How when I wake up in my capsule in the morning, I won't see a annoyed Chase staring at me because, I slept in too late. Or when I have breakfast in the morning and I reach out to hold his hand while Mr Davenport gives thanks. There will be nothing there but, empty air. The whole family held hands when we gave thanks but, I wouldn't have a hand to hold. When we go on missions I won't get to hear his voice telling me what to do. I never thought I would miss that until now. But, what I think I will miss the most was the way Chase got when he was just being Chase. His big smile he got whenever he got a A on his test that just showed he was truly happy with himself. His goofy laugh when he would try to pull a prank on me. His annoyed look at me when I would say something stupid which, was often. The tears started to slow down. I started to think about the memories and I even laughed at some of them. Especially the one when I first came up with a nickname for Chase which was, "Chasey".
Adam's Flashback
Chase and I were playing video games in the living room. We were the only ones at the house. Mr Davenport had to go to an important meeting and Leo was grocery shopping with Tasha. Bree just decided to go to the mall since, she said and I quote
"I don't want to be anywhere near you two weirdos so, I'm leaving! Bye losers"
Anyway I was winning at the video game and decided to tease Chase about it.
"Well looks like I'm going to win again Chase! Do you have any last words before I destroy you"? I asked not even taking my eyes off the game. Chase sighed and didn't say anything. All you could hear in the room was our furious pressing of buttons on our controllers. Suddenly Chase took out my character and won the game.
"I won! I won"!
"No fair, you cheated"! I argued back finally taking my eyes off the screen to look at Chase.
"Yep I cheated Adam. I just played by all the rules and made sure to memorize the rule book but, I cheated"
"Ok ok, fair enough I lost you win, happy now"?
"Eh, I'm hungry". He said standing up and stretching his arms. Then he walked over into the kitchen. He looked around in the fridge and I got up off the couch and walked over there.
"Chicken no, hmm pickles"?
"Yes"! I answered. He looked at me and rolled his eyes and passed by it looking at other items in the fridge.
"How can you refuse pickles! Pickles are amazing Chase".
"Yeah and gross. Did you know they have 7 grams of cholesterol"?
"Chase, you did the impossible! You ruined food"! I said teasing him. He sighed and continued to look through the fridge.
"Oh oh what about cheese"? I said excitedly pointing at the cheese.
"What like on a sandwich"?
"No just the cheese"!
"No thanks"
"HUUUU how dare you! You cheese hater"!
"Cheese hater, Adam really"? He said in a sarcastic voice. I pulled the cheese out of the fridge and set it on the counter.
"How could you not like Cheese! Its practically your name".
"What do you mean"?
"Think about it, cheese and chase. They sound the same. I think there even spelled the same too".
"Yep Adam there spelled the same even though, they sound completely different".
"They don't sound different at all! You're just one of those cheese haters! Even though, you deny it, you are Cheese! You are Cheesy"!
"I'm Cheesy? Ok, Adam today is officially the day you have lost it! But, it's ok we knew this day was coming. I was expecting it a lot sooner but, today works too".
"I have not lost it! HUUUUUUU I have the perfect nickname for you. Since you don't like being called Cheesey I will call you...Chasey"! I said happily. He rolled his eyes.
"Chasey really? Adam don't call me that"!
"Alright I won't, Chasey".
"Stop that! It is not going to stay! No one is going to call me that"!
"Whatever you say Chasey" I said laughing. He groaned and started walking away. Later that day I told Bree about Chase's new nickname. So, later that day Chase walked into the lab. Bree was sitting on the counter and I stood beside her. Chase came over to Bree.
"Hey Bree how was your day at the mall"? He said casually. She gave me a big grin before, turning back to face Chase.
"Oh it was fun! Me and Kaitlyn went shopping everywhere and well...I'm sure you don't want to hear about my boring day. So, how was yours...Chasey"?
Chase immediately looked up since, he kinda zoned out when Bree was talking. Bree and I started laughing. He looked angry at me.
"Oh don't be upset Chasey, it's a cute nickname for you"! Bree said in between laughs.
"No don't call me that! My name is Chase not Chasey"! He said defending his pride but, we all know he lost that a long time ago.
"Do you prefer Cheesy"? I asked making Chase groan and roll his eyes.
"No I prefer my name. My name is Chase! How would like it if I called you Adamy, Adam"?
"Umm that is not a nickname. All you did was add a Y to the end of my name...I think". I said stupidly and scratched the back of my head confused.
"Well all you did was add a Y to the end of my name"! He said gesturing to himself.
"Yeah but, it fits you so well"! Bree argued and I nodded my head along with Bree.
"Oh really ok Bree I think I have a nickname for you and I think it will fit YOU well". He said sarcastically. Bree crossed her arms and listened.
"Your nickname will be Breesy but instead of just adding a Y at the end I am also going to replace the S in your name with a Z so, it will be Breezy"! He said teasing her. Bree looked shocked and moved her head slowly from left to right.
"Oh yeah! I'll go there"! He said with a serious voice. Bree looked angry now and it was on.
"Whatever Chasey"!
"Hey Breezy what's the weather going to be like today"? Chase teased innocently. I kept laughing at their petty argument until Chase looked over at me and said
"What are you laughing about, Adamy"? That shut me up as I continued to listen to them argue.
"CHASEY"!
"BREEZY"!
"CHEESY CHASEY"!
"BREEZY BREEZE"!
"THATS IT"! Bree yelled and dove after Chase. They fell on the floor tackling each other. It seemed like Chase was winning at one point and then it just fell down hill from there. And this was what made us a family.
End of Flashback
I stopped laughing now. It was a weak laugh that I thought I would never be able to get out. But, it came and it didn't last long. Now that happy memory just turned into a sad one because, I would never be able to call Chase, Chasey again. Why did this have to happen? Chase was a good person! He was an amazing brother that I never appreciated. I always thought of Chase as an annoyance but, now I wanted to be annoyed more than ever before by him right here right now! But, my heart dropped because, I knew he was gone. My little baby brother was gone and I was here. Does that even make sense? I wish I was a better brother to Chase! I wanted to destroy Rebecca because, she did this to him. But, she disappeared and it was odd. Mr Davenport could still not believe that shy innocent girl AKA DEMON MONSTER HORRIBLE PERSON did that to Chase. I had a hard time believing it myself. Ever since, this happened I don't really want to trust anyone anymore! I wish time could go back to when everything was all happy and smiles every morning but, now it's all frowns and mourning. It hurts losing someone you thought you didn't really care about but, then you realize it was the person you cared about the most. You know the one you hope nothing bad happens too or, the one that you secretly protect and deny enjoying it or even doing it. I'm not saying I did this stuff with Chase. I just wish I did. I went inside Chase's capsule and closed the door. I could smell him in here. I could imagine him asleep in here and breathing softly. Breathing...I started to cry again. But, being around Chase's smells seemed to comfort me. I began to fall asleep and I leaned my head against the glass and dreamed about my little brother. The one I always took for granted.
Bree's POV
I had not stopped crying. My eyes were extremely dry and red but, I didn't care. You can't stop pain. I had a huge headache. They were teardrops on my phone screen. I was looking at a picture of me and Chase. We were sitting in the counter in the lab and we made funny faces. I made a big cheesy smile and jutted out my chin and I crossed my eyes and Chase stuck out his tongue and made his eyes huge. I wanted to laugh but, I just kept crying. I looked at the funniest pictures on my phone but, they just made me cry more. I was about to turn off my phone and stuff my head in the pillows and cry when suddenly something caught my eye. I looked at it and saw it was a video with Chase's face on it. It was called "Something to remember me by". I immediately clicked on it and started to cry when I watched it and heard that voice again.
Hey Bree! Look I know you are mad that I took your phone but, this was for something important I promise.
I cried harder and laughed softly as I saw his face alive with emotion. I continued watching.
Anyways, this was something I never thought I would have to do but, the more I thought about it the more I wanted to do it for you. So if your watching this, I'm probably...dead.
In the video you could hear him sigh hard as if that was very hard for him to say but, I just loved hearing his voice again.
Umm I... wanted to do this so you uh have something to remember me by. And uh, I'm sorry if I wasn't the best brother you wanted me to be and I just want you to know I love you Bree.
I put my hand to my face and and sighed harder. The tears kept coming and I shook violently with sobs.
I'm so sorry this happened Bree! I really wish that I was a better person to you and that I would stop hurting people, I care about. So I just wanted to say I'm sorry and I hope that you can forgive me. I love you all so much. You truly cared about me and showed me the way so, thank you.
I guessed that this video was for the whole Davenport and Dooley family but, I continued to watch it.
But Bree, I left this on your phone for a reason.
He started to cry which didn't help me at all as I continued to cry.
I love you...you Bree and I know I w..was hard on y...you and I'm j..just so sorry. He said through sobs and you could see the silent tears stream down his cheeks.
I cried harder than ever before, and felt my heart drop in my chest.
Goodbye Bree, I love you and thank you for being the best sister ever. I love all you guys so, here is something to remember me by.
Then the video ended and I felt like that was my last goodbye with Chase. And it hurt, it hurt soo bad. Chase was dead and that was it. And I would have to live with that.
"Goodbye Chase". I whispered to myself and cried myself to sleep holding my phone in my hand tightly because, my brother was in there. He was alive in there. I could hear his voice and see his smile in there. And that was enough to make me smile a little.
Adam's POV
I woke up crying again. I had a horrible dream and it was about Chase. I told him it was ok to let go but, he refused to let go until I was happy with him. I told him I loved him but, he died right before I could say it. I guess I could call it more of a nightmare. I couldn't sleep at night, I couldn't eat. Chase's death had changed me and it hurts more than I want it too.
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