I was shocked to say the least. A week in the mafia and I had my car sold, my job quit and was living in luxury. A month into the Mafia, I was brought to meetings, moved from hide out to hide out, exposed to people's darkest secrets, and trained how to use a gun by Mello. When we did it was hard to concentrate on the gun in my hand when he put his hands over mine. A few months and I became a leader of my own team. The girls were all perfect for Intel. With my girls, my brains and Mello's brains we rose to the top of the mafias.
I woke up again. My eyes had been crying. I then looked and saw he was gone again. I knew that he wouldn't be there long. I then got up and showered in cold water to wake myself up despite wanting to sleep and try for a good dream. I was sick of the nightmares. I had to come clean soon. I was suffocating with these lies. It had been a year. I was not sure how to tell him and if the two should be told together or separate but I knew I couldn't keep those a secret forever. It was killing me to keep it this long. However I had to tell him as I kne what was going to happen. October was when he kidnapped Sayu and Takimora, November would have his life risked, and January he would die due to his name being exposed in November.
I went over to my notebook and picked it up. I watched as more and more names were written on it. I walked out and bumped into Mello my notebook dropping. He picked it up and looked at it. At first he looked skeptical but something caught his eye. He saw names being written down. He dropped it as if it bit him. "wh-whats going on?" he asked and I picked it up because obviously this death note was something he hadn't heard of or even seen anything like it.
"Mello there is something you need to know" I said cupping his face. I felt bad holding all this back when he and I had smoothly progressed in our relationship. Sure we had little fights like me needing to calm down and not over work myself, and him not over doing it himself but our relationship was us against the world. Usually we backed down and rested in bed after the argument because we were running ourselves ragged. "Promise me you won't be mad" I said with a trembling voice.
"I can't promise I won't be mad. That being said, unless it's something unforgivable, I won't leave you" He said and pet my head. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I hesitated for a bit but eventually I gathered up the courage.
"I'm from a different world one where you are fictional and die. I fell in love with you in that world but when I met you for real, it felt much more intense and real." I started and looked into his eyes. His silent gaze urges me to continue. "I came into the death note world in Kira's early reign and met with the second kira. I knew exactly what was going to happen but I knew if I tried to ask him it would stop nothing. L already knew who was Kira he just had no proof and was conflicted. I came with two others who are Japanese models now like Misa. I killed like Kira once because I didn't know my copy held the same power as the real one. It constantly updates so i know who Kira's killed in his notebook. I killed by mistake I was about to be raped in a bathroom and wrote his name down. He died and I felt like I should be arrested or charged for man slaughter at least. All I wanted to do was prevent your death" I said crying and finished talking. He held me surprising me.
"Did you tell L any of this?" I shook my head but instead of him being angry, he just whispered "You didn't mean to and you were scared" I clung to him afterwards and shown him the note book. "You didn't need to hide this for so long I'm disappointed you didn't trust me I mean maybe in the beginning you shouldn't have but crying out loud when you been here for six months that's enough time you didn't need to hold that secret then" He said before looking at me very upset and hurt. "anything else?"
"My true name is Ashley" I then told him my full name. He seemed interested and awed that I gave him that. In Wammy language, that was the equivalent of the ultimate trust. Nothing was more valuable than your name and identity.
"My name is.."
"Mihael Keehl I know I saw it" I interrupt him.
"I think your first name goes good with my last name don't you think" He said winking and smiling now. I couldn't help blushing and he kissed me hotly eyes closed, sliding his tongue in my mouth.