A/N: Hey everyone! Thanks for all the Follows, Favorites, and Reviews. Also thanks for helping me with the ideas it really helped. So I plan to update the story more frequently when I'm out of school which is next week Thursday…So I should start updating every 3 days during the summer so I hope you will continue to read my story. I'll try to make chapters longer because I'll have more time to write and won't be so stressed about finals. WARNING: (This chapter deals with Suicidal thoughts. I am in no way trying to make fun of anyone with depression or anything. I am sorry if I offend any of you that are reading it is not my intention. I am writing this based what has happened to someone close to me and they were okay with my sharing it in the story through my story.)

Fourtrisudamnsexy: Awe thanksJ and that's pretty cool that you can relate to this story. Also yes I do have a brother and we are twins and we have an older sister and 2 younger sisters so my brother and i are really really close.

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Previously:

"Pansycake of a brother? You didn't have to be so mean and talk about Zeke when he's not even here." Uriah says shaking his head in fake disappointment. Tris punches her twin in the arm playfully. "Ow Tris that hurt!" Uriah says as he starts to fake cry and wine like a 2 year old.

"Lol you're a Pansycake and weak…Wow how are we even twins?" Tris says smiling and feeling a lot better about her relationship with Uriah. 1 down 1 more to go.

Tris's Pov:

"Well Tris when a girl and a bo-…" Uriah is cut off by Tris punching him in the arm again but this time a bit harder. Uriah laughs and looks at his twin. "Hey you asked I'm just trying to answer your question there's no need to get all feisty." Uriah says smirking while he rubs his arms. Tris shakes her head and lays down on Uriah's bed staring up at the ceiling.

"Well you didn't have to be such a smart ass I wouldn't have to punch you…Anyways I'm bored we should do something." Tris says as she moves on to her side facing Uriah. Tris starts thinking of things they should do. Tris snaps her fingers and sits up. "We should rent a movie and eat dauntless cake as a family." Tris says hinting at Zeke to see if Uriah knows where he is.

"Yea that sounds great, how about I go get the cake and movie because you might get some lame girly movie and you can find Zeke." Uriah says smirking slightly. Tris notices it and rises and eyebrow at him before responding.

"Sounds like a plan lets meet back here in like 1 hour? And hey no I wouldn't, I would pick like big hero 6 or Home since I haven't seen them yet." Tris says confidently while she open's Uriah's bedroom door and starts walking down the stairs.

"See what I mean girly…And yea see you in an hour…..love you Tris!" Uriah yells out to me as he starts heading toward the cafeteria. Before he's completely out of ear shot she yells back that she "Loves him to". Tris starts to look for her brother in the dauntless born bunks and in the Transfer room. Tris looks everywhere she can think off a looks but still can't find Zeke. Tris's heart starts beating faster be Tris runs toward the lunch table where Lynn and Shauna are sitting.

As Tris nears the table she notices that Shauna is reading a piece of paper and tears are streaming down her face. Lynn moves closer and starts to read it too and tears flow down her eyes as well. Tris slowly walks to the table and looks at them in confusion.

"Hey guys have you seen Zeke I've been looking for him for about 30 minutes straight!" Tris practically yells as she shifts impatiently on her leg. Lynn looks up at her and more tears cloud her eye as she hands Tris an envelope with Zeke's handwriting. Tris nods her head and walks to a different table and sits down and starts reading the letter.

Tris,

I'm sorry I haven't been the best brother lately and I'm sorry I made you feel like you weren't wanted because you're always wanted and always needed. I failed Mom, Dad, Uriah and most of all you! And I'm sorry for that…I want you to make up with Uriah because you guys need each other! Your each other's whole world please don't ever forget that.

I can't do this anymore Tris, there's nothing here for me as long as you're mad at me. I didn't want to hurt you and I didn't mean to hurt you. I don't think I can go on… Please believe me when I say I love you and with all my heart because it's the truth. I just don't want to hurt you anymore…This way I can't' hurt you anymore.

-Zeke Pedrad

Tris finishes the letter and she's already crying her eyes out. Tris rereads this 4 times over and over again. Tris rereads it for a 5th time but one line sticks to her like glue.

"I just don't want to hurt you anymore…This way I can't hurt you anymore"

Tris finally gets what this letter means and almost instantly drops to the floor and cries for a good 5 minutes. After 5 minutes Tris starts coming to her senses and starts trying to think where would her try to hurt himself at when its hits her like a ton of bricks.

"The Chasm"

As the words leave her mouth she instantly gets up and sprints all the way to the Chasm where she finds Zeke standing at the edge of the chasm with blood shot red eyes and tears running down his face. Tris slowly walks over to Zeke.

"Zeke please! Please don't leave me….You told me that you could never…Please!" Tris says with tears clouding her vision and a scared expression on her face as she stares at Zeke. Zeke turns around and looks shocked to see his little sister. Tris walks slowly moves towards him and grabs his arm and leads him over to safety.

"Tris what are you doin-…" Tris cuts him off and slightly squeezes his hand. She looks at him and tears begin to slow down but don't completely go away.

"The real question is why you are here?" Tris asked as she looks at Zeke in the eye and scoots closer to him. Zeke stays quite for a while they sit there in tension filled silence. Zeke final breaks the silence with a sigh and Zeke looks her in the eyes.

"I failed everyone and I hurt the most important girl in my life right now, all because I made a mistake that coasted me 14 years of a relationship with my baby sister." Zeke says looking down in disappointment in himself and starts to laugh bitterly. "But as much as I wanted to leave this world…. I couldn't because all I kept thinking about was if you and Uriah." Zeke says starting to bring his knees to his chest and tears come out of his eyes. "I'm sorry Tris for trying to leave you and for not being the big brother that I was supposed to be for you. I love you so much…" Zeke tells Tris while he wipes his tears from his face. Tris is silent before responding.

"I love you too Ezekiel Marcus Pedrad and no matter what you do ill always love you! You never once failed me. You never once made me feel like you haven't done your job as my big brother. When I read your letter the only thing that was going through my mind was that my big brother isn't okay and I need to find him..." Tris starts crying harder and takes a deep breath before continuing. "I didn't care about that argument or nothing I only cared about you! I forgive you for everything…But I want you to promise me something." Tris says before kissing her brothers cheek and giving him the biggest hug. Zeke smiles and automatically hugged her back.

"Thanks for forgiving me… and um what's the promise?" Zeke asked while he pulls her onto his lap. Tris smiles a real smile and leans her head on her brother's shoulder.

"Promise me that before you make the decision to leave this world or have any suicidal thoughts that you will let me know so we can work them out together as a family." Tris looks up at Zeke and grabs his hand. Zeke smiles and nods his head.

"I promise that if I'm feeling depressed or if I'm having suicidal thoughts that we will talk and work them out as a family." Zeke promises Tris. Tris sighs in relief for a while before she starts to think of what could have triggered him being so depressed.

"Hey Zeke is one of the reasons you were depressed was because you were thinking about our parents or…" Trails off trying to see where else he was feeling depressed about.

"Um yea and I also felt like I wasn't growing up to be the young man that they wanted me to be." Zeke say calmly trying not to get upset and too deep into the depressing thought. Tris nods her head and tries to think of ways to help her brother. Tris is brought out of her thoughts when Zeke asked her a question.

"Did you hear me?" Zeke asked Tris with an eyebrow raised. Tris shakes her head and waits for Zeke to tell her what he said. "Well I wanted to know how Shauna looked before you came to look for me." Zeke tells Tris as if it was nothing to him when it clearly means a lot to him. Tris tries to think back to what she looked like. But all Tris remembered were tears.

"I don't remember because I was too busy crying my eyes out….Why?" Tris asked curiously looking at her brother who is looking nervous. Tris hops off her brother's lap and offers her hand which he takes and the both start walking.

"Oh well if um you don't mind… I kind of want to talk to Shauna so she doesn't think I'm dead." Zeke says in a begging tone and worry filling his eyes. Tris smiles and nods before giving Zeke a big hug and a kiss on the cheek.

"Go…I'm kind of late to a movie and cake with our lame pansycake of a brother." Tris says before parting ways with her brother who is taking off for Shauna and Lynn's house. Tris starts walking to her house to only find Uriah sleeping on the couch watching big hero 6. Tris smiles and grabs a blanket and puts it on top of him. As she was about to go upstairs she hears Uriah say something to her.

"Stay down here with me please Trissy…." Uriah says softly while patting the spot next to him. Tris takes a second to decide and walks up stairs and puts on her dark maroon shorts and her black tank top and walks back down stairs and lays down next to Uriah.

"Ugh finally you took forever." Uriah says in a sleepy voice as he pulls Tris closer and gives her some cover. Tris laughs and kisses Uriah's cheek and turns around and faces the other way. "I Love you Uri" Tris says before heading into a dreamless sleep.

"I love you to Trissy."