A/N: Hey everyone how are you guys doing? Lol 2 more days till the new year like WHATT? It's coming really fast this year I swear. But anyways thanks everyone for the Reviews, Favs, And Follows it means a lot.
Previously:
"And that is?" Tris asked. Four grins and tightens his hands around her waist.
"Kiss me." Four says. Tris smiles and leans in when she hears a familiar voice screaming her name. Four and Tris groan before turning their heads to see and angry Zeke standing right in front of them.
"So Tris is there anything you want to tell me?" Zeke asked through his clenched teeth. Tris was going to responds but Zeke wasn't finished. "Or you Four...Anything you want to tell me about?" Zeke asked with venom dripping from each word. Tris slides off of Fours lap and gives a nervous smile.
"It's not what it looks like?" Tris rhetorically asked still smiling nervously. Four snorts at her attempt to lighten the mood causing Zeke to give them both a death stare. Tris sighs and begins to do her nervous slouch and puts her hands on her head. "Aye Dios Mios…" Tris says rolling her eyes. Zeke sits down across from Tris and Four and continues glare at them. "Can you stop glaring at us?!" Tris snaps causing Four and Zeke to flinch.
"I'll stop glaring when my best friend and little sister tell me what's going on!" Zeke says with a sarcastic smile. Tris groans and bangs her head on the table.
"Look Zeke it's not even that deep…" Tris says with her head down on the table. "Like I don't even like Four like that, He's not even my type." Tris says trying not to laugh at the inside joke. "The reason why you saw me on his lap is because this boy kept flirting with me and Four came in saved the day and "Pretended" like he was my boyfriend, so the boy would leave me alone." Tris says picking up her head, telling half of the truth. Four nods his head in agreement. Zeke looks at them both suspiciously and raises an eyebrow.
"Yea I'd believe that but when I walked into the cafeteria and I saw the boy leave then I saw you get up and then Four pulled you into his lap. Then I saw you move your foreheads move close together. So I walked over to the table to see you guys about to kiss." Zeke says with anger filling his voice and face. "So we got the bullshit answer out of the way what REALLY happened?!" Zeke asked eyeing both Four and Tris. Tris mentally kicks herself.
"Well after the boy left me and Four started talking a one thing lead to another and I ended up on his lap and we were about to kiss…It could happen to anyone." Tris says shrugging and takes a sip of Four's lemonade. Four raises an eyebrow at her and he shakes his head at her trying to hide his smile. Zeke looks at the two of them.
"Do you two like each other and or have an attraction towards each other?" Zeke asked with a blank face. Tris doesn't answer trying to decide if she tells the truth or if she lies. Zeke senses her dilemma and crosses his arms and eyes her. "Don't lie to me Tris." Zeke says. Tris looks at her brother and decides to tell the truth.
"Yea…I do like him…" Tris says not meeting Zeke's eyes. Four looks at her and shock and looks at Zeke and nods his head in agreement. Zeke gives Four and Tris a look that Tris can't quite put her finger on.
"Hey Four can I talk to my sister alone." Zeke says calmly. Four nods his head and walks away. Tris flinches a bit waiting for Zeke to yell at her like Uriah does but Zeke sits there with the same look he had before. Tris and Zeke stare at each other and Zeke finally breaks the silence.
"You could have anyone…Anyone…Why him? Why my best friend?" Zeke asked her with a bit of disappointment. "It's like you live for drama…It's like you want everyone to feel bad or feel bad for you. Why?" Zeke asked with no emotion. Tris feels like she's been hit with a ton of bricks for the second time again and nods her head.
"I wasn't trying to start arguments or trying to hurt people's feelings or make people feel bad for me! I'm sorry for having feelings! I'm sorry for having my first crush like EVER!" Tris says sincerely. "I'll stop liking Four and I'm sorry for lying to you earlier and everything I've done to you in the 2 years." Tris says crying a little bit. Zeke looks at her and nods his head.
"I still love you Tris and I'm not mad at you…" Tris listens to the last part but doesn't sound as genuine as the "I Love You" Part.
"Yea love you too… I'm going to Max's house and I might spend the night there or at in the initiates place." Tris says grabbing her tray about to leave when Zeke stops her.
"Why?" Zeke asked. Tris shrugs and gives a sad smile.
"I just want to be alone…I guess." Tris says before walking over to the trash can and throwing her stuff away and walking to the other side of Dauntless to Max's house. Tris continues to walk and cry about everything. Her mom and dad, her brothers, Four, and Her old friends. Tris continues to walk when she hears laughing and stops to see Lynn and Marlene. Tris tries to walk pass them and walk away but they stop's her.
"Hey Tris can we talk?" Marlene asked walking towards her with Lynn right behind her. Tris turns around and crosses her arm over her chest about to protest but Marlene stops her. "Before you decline hear us out." Marlene says and Lynn nods her head in agreement. Tris nods her head hesitantly and they walk to a part of the Chasm. Tris sits down and Lynn and Marlene sit down across from her. There's silence for a couple of minutes but Tris breaks it.
"Are you going to talk or?" Tris says harshly. Marlene flinches and Lynn glares at her a bit but looks at Marlene to start. Marlene takes a deep breath.
"Why have you been avoiding us? Thought we were still friends…You said we weren't friends because we didn't come see you when you came back…But you could have come to us too! It's not fair that you're holding something against us that happened 2 years ago and just because we didn't come see you…" Marlene says sternly. Tris holds in her tears and anger raises in her body.
"Did my brothers and or Peter put you up to this? What is it attack Tris day?" Tris yells at Marlene and Lynn. "Well since everyone wants to be honest with me and tell all of their hidden feelings go for it!" Tris says with frustration evident in her voice.
"We just want to know why you've changed so much…It's like ever since the whole "dare thing" you've been pushing everyone away…Why?" Lynn asked calmly. Tris replays Lynn's words in her mind over and over again. Tris lets some tears fall and shrugs and looks at both of them.
"I don't really know okay?" Tris admits while she starts to stand up. "It's just…" Tris trails off. "Let's talk about this another time okay? I just really need to go talk to my dad- I mean I need to talk to Max." Tris says before sprinting away from Marlene and Lynn, not waiting to hear a response. Tris sprints all the way to Max's office. Tris walks into Max's office when she sees Eric. Eric looks at her and gives her a weird look.
"What are you doing here Tris?" Eric asked seriously. Tris walks closer to the desk and sits down in the chair.
"I need to talk to Max." Tris says in a low voice holding in her tears and feelings. Eric takes a look at her and nods his head understanding but doesn't move from his place.
"Max left to Erudite to talk to Jeanine like two hours ago…He should be back any minute…What you need to talk him about." Eric asked with concerned. Tris was about to say a smart comment but chooses not to answer. "You don't have to tell me but I think it could help you feel better…" Eric says in a low voice. Tris raises eyebrow and smirks.
"Is the brave leader Eric being concerned about someone else other than himself?" Tris asked smirking at Eric who smiles a bit to himself before playfully rolling his eyes.
"Actually I couldn't care less about you BUT my boss wouldn't be too thrilled if I didn't ask his little princess if she was okay." Eric says playfully. Tris crosses her arms and continues to smirk.
"Nah I think its cause you like me but it's okay Eric I won't tell anyone." Tris says winking. Eric to choke on his lemonade and looks at her with wide eyes causing Tris to start laughing. Eric shakes his head and laughs with her.
"But seriously Tris wants wrong?" Eric asked her with seriousness in his voice. Tris looks down and shifts I her chair uncomfortably. Tris takes a deep breath about to talk to Eric when Max walks into the room.
"Hey Tris go the apartment I'll meet you there in a minute okay?" Max says tossing her the keys. Tris nods her head and walks out the office. Tris walks to Max's apartment unlocks the door and walks in. Tris walks over to the couch and sits down thinking of what Uriah, Zeke and Lynn said to her today.
"I'm not sorry for hurting your feeling two years ago." Uriah says with a voice full of honesty. "I'm not going to apologize for something I meant. You need to understand that I'm not going to run after you every time I hurt your feelings and apologize just to make you happy."
"You could have anyone…Anyone…Why him? Why my best friend?" Zeke asked her with a bit of disappointment. "It's like you live for drama…It's like you want everyone to feel bad or feel bad for you. Why?" Zeke asked with no emotion.
"We just want to know why you've changed so much…It's like ever since the whole dare thing you've been pushing everyone away…Why?" Lynn asked calmly.
FLASH BACK: To Tris and Uriah's 8th birthday
(Ambers POV)
"Boys where is your sister?" Amber asked her sons sternly. Zeke and Uriah shrug and continue to talk to Marlene, Lynn, and Shauna. Amber crosses her arms and walks to the kids. "Marlene and Lynn where is Tris?" Amber asked with anger filling her body. Marlene and Lynn shrug. Amber is about to leave but turns around and shakes her head at everyone in the playroom. "It's Tris's birthday too you know…So why is it that her guest are in the playroom with the boys instead of being with their friend?" Amber asked with disappointment dripping from every word. Amber shuts the door walking down the stair. "Honey have you seen Tris?" Amber says walking into the kitchen.
"No I haven't seen her since the party started…Aren't Lynn and Marlene with her?" Nick asked her decorating a cake with pink flowers. Amber crosses her arms and holds in her anger.
"No there in the playroom with the boys!" Amber says with anger dripping through every word. Nick looks at her in shock. "Yes exactly their not even with her on her birthday even though she invited them." Amber says with frustration evident in her voice.
"Babe did you check in our room in out closet? That's where she likes to hide but don't tell the boys okay?" Nick says calmly with disappointment evident in his voice directed towards his sons. Amber walks upstairs into her room and she walks into her walk in closet to see a little Tris sitting at her play table with 3 of her stuff animals and fake tea and fake cake on the plates and in the tea cups.
"Hey Tris I've been looking for you everywhere…What are you doing sweetie?" Amber asked her daughter while she sits in the empty seat next to Tris. Tris turns her head to look at her mother to see tears are in her eyes. Amber's heart breaks into a tiny pieces.
"I'm having a tea party with my animals." Tris says pouring the tea in the cups. "Would you like some tea momma?" Amber nods her head and smiles sadly at her daughter.
"So why aren't you with your friends honey?" Amber asked pretending to take a sip of tea. Tris begins to cry a little but tells her mom anyway.
"They said that they wanted to hang out with Uriah and Zeke…" Tris says with a voice full of hurt. Tris goes to the other table and puts the tea pot down and grabs a small little play cake and puts it on her mother plate. "You came just in time mommy we were about to sing happy birthday to me." Tris says giving her my a little smile that doesn't reach her eyes. Amber lets a little tears fall down her face as she sees her little girl hurt on her birthday.
"Why didn't you ask them to come play with you honey?" Amber asked her daughter. Tris looks at her and shrugs.
"They didn't really seem like they came here for me…" Tris travels off. "Everyone came here for a reason mommy and that reason wasn't me. Lynn came for Tyler, Marlene came for Uriah and Shauna came for Zeke. I don't think they ever wanted to be my friend momma" Tris says before looking down and crying. Amber shakes her head and starts feeling her daughter's pain.
"Honey if you thought they weren't really your friends why did you invite them?" Amber asked looking at Tris. Tris pretends to take a sip of tea.
"Because I want everyone to be happy and I don't want Zeke and bubba mad at me. And it's okay mommy I like being alone…Sometimes I cry but it's okay I just don't want anyone to feel the way I feel." Tris says with a smile that doesn't reach her eyes.
(Tris's Pov)
"Sweetheart don't hold in what you're feelings, because one day you'll explode and another day you'll break down. Tris if somethings bothering say it before it's too late. Don't avoid and or run away from your problems and what your feeling baby girl. It doesn't help it only makes it worse." Amber says walking pulling Tris out of her chair and carrying her out of the room and down stairs. "Tris want to help your dad frost your cake?" Amber asked Tris. Tris nods her head and they walk into the kitchen. Tris sees her dad and hops down from her mom and runs to her dad.
"Daddy, Mommy said that I can help decorate my cake can I? Can I daddy?! Can I really?" Tris says hopping up and down. Tris turns around to see her mom smiling at the both of them.
"Of course Princess!" Nick picks Tris up and sits her on the counter. Tris, Amber and Nick continued to frost the cake and have fun. 30 minutes later the hamburgers are finished and Nick calls all the kids down to eat. Uriah, Tyler, Marlene, Lynn, Zeke and Shauna all run down the stair. Amber tells all the kids to sit down at the table. Nick passes out all of the hamburgers. Tris eats her Hamburger on the counter next to Amber and Nick. After everyone's done eating they sing happy birthday and open presents. Soon after Tris goes to her room and puts her know black bear in her room. Tris is about to close the door when two people stop her.
"Hey Trissy can we talk?" Lynn says giving her a small smile. Tris looks at Marlene whos nodding and agreement. Tris nods and sits down on the floor bushing her dolls hair. "Sorry for leaving you during the party…We didn't mean to make you feel bad." Lynn says with guiltiness evident in her voice.
"Yea Tris we didn't mean to hurt your feelings." Marlene says giving Tris a sad smile. Tris nods her head and gives them a small smile.
"Its okay…I forgive you." Tris says.
Tris snaps out of her thinking when Max walks into the apartment. Tris turns to him and smiles as he sits in the chair a cross from her.
"So what's wrong Tris?" Max asked with curiously. Tris starts thinking of everything In the past two years and everything that happened when she was little. Tris takes a deep breath and talks away.
"Do you think I'm a coward?" Tris asked Max while tears flow out of her eyes. Max looks at her and raises an eyebrow.
"In what way Tris?" Max asked Tris. Tris sits back for a second thinking of what she means.
"Everyone or almost everyone thinks that it was very cowardly for me to leave Dauntless two years ago…Was it? I just wanted to know more about my family and I wanted to separate myself from my brothers because I needed to get away." Tris says sorting out her thoughts. Tris finally looks at Max.
"In some ways you leaving yes it was very cowardly BUT you leaving helped you better understand your family and gave you a break. The only reason people think that you're a coward is because they don't know and understand why you left. Tris it doesn't matter what other people think about you." Max says in a fatherly. "What matters is what you think of yourself." Max says giving her a sad smile. Tris nods her head.
"Uriah doesn't want to have any type of bond with me and or wants to be my brother." Tris blurts out. Max is about to respond but Tris doesn't stop. "Zeke's mad at me because I have a crush on his best friend, Lynn and Marlene came to talk to me today as well and they told me about how I was acting different ever since the "Dare Thing". " Tris says with no emotion in her voice. Max looks at her a nods sinking in every word she's told him.
"Forgiveness is by far one of the hardest things to do. Forgiveness isn't only just for the other person but sometimes it's for you too. But Tris everyone makes mistakes and if you can't forgive others…How can you expect them to forgive you?" Max asked rhetorically. Tris lets realization hit her hard. "Tris when I came in you seemed to be pondering something really hard…What were you thinking about?" Max asked almost as if he knew what she was thinking.
"I was thinking about my last birthday with my mom and dad…And how Lynn and Marlene left me on my birthday to hang out with my brothers instead of me." Tris says wiping a couple of tears. "That was the first that I felt alone." Tris says to Max. Max looks at her in sympathy.
"Maybe you still haven't forgiven them from when you were little and that's why it hurt so much when they made the dare." Max concludes. Tris starts thinking of what her mom said.
"Sweetheart don't hold in what you're feelings, because one day you'll explode and another day you'll break down. Tris if somethings bothering say before it's too late. Don't avoid and or run away from your problems and what your feeling baby girl. It doesn't help it only makes it worse."
"My mom told me this was going to happen…But I was too in to making everyone else around me happy that I haven't been saying what I wanted to say and I blow up. Which led to me leaving and causing me to avoid my problems." Tris says. "My mom was always very wise…Sometimes I think she told me all of this stuff at a young age cause she knew she was going to die or something." Tris says more to herself than to Max.
"Yep your mother and father were great and wise people….But are you understanding what I'm talking about? I think you owe Lynn and Marlene apologies as well as your brothers. You pushed them away because of something that happen a long time ago and you need clarify that." Max says dismaying her parents. Tris raises an eyebrow at him for talking about her parents then nods her head in understanding.
"Why did you act all weird when I talked about my mom and dad?" Tris asked in curiously. Max flinches and smiles weirdly.
"Nothing you need to worry about it…I'll tell you when the time is right alright?" Max says standing up walking to the door. "But if you must know go see Amar…He has something for you and your brothers." Max says opening the door. Tris stands up and walks to Max and gives him a hug before walking to Amar's office. Tris gets there in about 10 minutes then knocks on the door. Amar answers the door with a big smile on his face.
"If it isn't Tris Pedrad!" Amar gushes. "What brings you to my humble home?" Amar says wiggling his eyebrows. Tris laughs and gives him a hug.
"Well Max said you have something from my parents to give me?" Tris states. Amar looks at her and wide eyes and rushes over to the door and closes it. Amar rushes to the back off the office and goes through drawers till he pulls out an envelope.
"Tris before you read just don't shoot the messenger okay? Max and I wanted to tell you but there wasn't a right time and this came a month ago. We were going to tell you and your brother but you guys were arguing and we were told to give it to you guys when we felt it was right." Amar says handing Tris the envelope. Tris nods and wave's goodbye and walks out the office and begins to walk. Tris walks to the cafeteria and Tris sits down at the table and opens the envelope.
To: Zeke, Uriah and Tris Pedrad
Dear Zeke, Uriah and Tris,
My precious children I have to make this quick. I'm sorry that we've lied to you guys but it was for your own good. I know you guys may be upset and angry but we needed to protect you guys from them. The only way we could keep you guys alive and to have them stop searching for us, was to fake our deaths. Max and Natalie wanted to tell you guys but they couldn't tell you till the time was right. If you guys are reading this please remember that we love you! Sorry this doesn't inform you about what's going on but next letter I promise we will fill you guys in. Please my beautiful children don't talk or tell anyone expect for Max, Natalie, and Amar. This is the only way to keep you guys safe… Your Father and I love you very much see you soon.
Love,
Amber and Nick Pedrad
Tris finishes reading the letter and almost rips it up. Tris rereads the note about a dozen time before getting up and sprinting to her house. Tris walks into the house and slams it shut causing her brothers who are watching TV to turn to her and look at her in confusion.
"What crawled up your ass then died?" Uriah asked sarcastically. Tris ignores her brother's comment and walks straight over to them and hands them the letter. Zeke and Uriah give her a confused look. Tris rolls her eyes and crosses her arms over her chest.
"Read it." Tris says with anger dripping from the two words. Uriah gives her a scowl then starts to read it. Uriah's and Zeke's face loses all emotion and they look up at her in disbelief.
"No! No! No! This is fake! I refuse to believe this dumb letter" Uriah says hopping of the couch with anger evident in his face.
"No its real…I reread it 12 times and it fills in all the missing blanks I was feeling for years. Like did you ever notice how mom always gave us advice like she knew she was going to die or something?" Tris asked. Zeke and Uriah think for a couple of minutes before nodding their heads.
"In the letter they said "They" Like we knew who she was talking about." Zeke says calmly.
"It's not even that it's the fact that Natalie, Max and Amar have been lying to us for the past 8 years! Like we could have had parents!" Uriah says angrily. Tris nods and starts thinking of her dad.
"Where do you think they are?" Tris asked in a low voice. Uriah and Zeke shrug.
"Maybe they're still in Dauntless?" Zeke states. Uriah and Tris both look at him like his an idiot.
"Yea, no…Maybe their factionless. " Uriah says shrugging it off. Tris looks at him with a weird face.
"Why would they go to factionless…What's in factionless?" Tris asked with confusion evident in her voice and face.
"I don't know! I was just brain storming…But maybe this is fake I mean why…Why would Max and Amar randomly give you the letter?" Uriah asked with an eyebrow raised. "Wait….How did you get the letter?" Uriah asked crossing his arms over his chest.
"Yea Tris why did Max and Amar give you the letter?" Zeke asked with curiosity evident in his voice. Both boys look at Tris expectedly and she smiles and sits down on the couch across from them.
"Well I went to Max's to talk to him about everything I've done this year and he gave me some advice. Then I started to realize how I was acting and he told me somethings and then I brought up how mom always gave me advice like she knew she was going to die, and he started acting weird and I was like why…Then he told me to go to Amar's and Amar gave me the letter." Tris said calmly. Uriah and Zeke look at her and nod.
"Oh okay…" Zeke says awkwardly about to walk up the stairs with Uriah when Tris stops them.
"Hey um guys I'm sorry for not forgiving you guys for the "dare thing". I shouldn't have expected you guys to forgive me for everything if done for the past 2 years, if I didn't forgive you guys. I'm sorry…I don't expect things to go back to the way it was but I do want things to be cleared up and out of the way so that way we could all be on good terms." Tris says looking at her brothers. Zeke turns around first and walks over to the couch and sits next to her and sighs.
"Well finally! You've been acting so different and I'm glad you understand now. Of course Trissy I'll always forgive you." Zeke says pinching her cheeks. "You're always going to be my little baby sister." Zeke says as he continues to pinch her cheeks and tickle her. Tris over at where Uriah use to be and notice he's left. Tris gets filled with sadness but drops it for now and continues to play fight with Zeke. Tris and Zeke head to their rooms. Tris takes a shower till all the hot water was gone and then hops out and puts on her black tank top and maroon pajama pants. Tris looks at the time to see its 1:00 and tomorrow there's not training so she can sleep in. Tris moves in all directions trying to get comfortable without thinking Tris walks out of her room into the hall way and goes to the first door and walks in. Tris moves her way through her brother's messy room till finally Tris pushes Uriah's shoulder.
"Uriah! Uriah! Uriah!" Tris shout whispers at her brother. Uriah stirs but doesn't wake up. Tris punches him not hard enough to leave a mark but hard enough to wake him up.
"Ouch! Tris…What do you want?" Uriah says in a sleepy voice. Tris rubs her eyes and stretches.
"I'm tired but I can't sleep!" Tris says yawning. Uriah groans and sits up on his bed. Uriah rubs his eyes before looking around the room.
"Are you up because of the whole thing about our parents being alive?" Uriah asked tiredly. Tris nods and rubs her eyes. "Tris its fine we can talk to Max and Amar tomorrow to work this out." Uriah says laying back down. Tris nods her head a little bit disappointed and starts to walk out when she hears Uriah pat his bed. "Where you going?" Uriah asked tiredly. Tris smiles and walks back on the bed.
"Thought you didn't want me to sleep in here because you're mad at me." Tris says sitting on the bed looking at her brother.
"Yea I was and maybe I am a bit but your sister and my job is to protect you and even if it's in your dreams I'll always be there for you…And I miss you…" Uriah says turning the other way. Tris smiles and lays down next to Uriah.
"I miss you too Uri." Tris says turning so she's facing Uriah. "So does that mean were good?" Tris asked trying to keep her eyes open.
"Yea but sushhhhhhh me tired you talk to muchhhh." Uriah says pulling Tris close in a brotherly why. Tris smiles and drifts off into a dreamless sleep.
A/N: Y'all I'm sooooooo sorry I didn't update like I work at a movie theater…The star wars movie is so popular that it's booked till January and I work every day till 2am. So I'm trying to update guys. But please Fav, Follow, and Review.