Chapter 2 I Am You. You Are Me.
Over the next two weeks or so Shan Yu began to heal, Shang tending him faithfully as they got to know each other in that small cave.
But with that healing also came problems, as Shan Yu began to touch Shang now.
Nothing inappropriate. Not exactly.
Touches on his shoulders, his hands, his hair and occasionally his lower back.
At first, though it was not easy, Shang was able to ignore it.
But when Shan Yu began to speak as well, ignoring him became impossible.
"Your hair is so dark and soft, Shang," he growled, his hand lifting to caress and then entwine his fingers within the long strands. "I wish to feel it's silk unbound and sliding over my bare chest."
Shang's full lips parted on a soft gasp, and he was unable to hide the hard shudder that his words caused to travel outward from his heart and into his flesh.
"S-Shan Yu! ..Please, I can not.." Shang whispered, his body quivering visibly as moisture filled his eyes, though it did not spill over. "This, us, can not.."
"Why not?" Shan Yu inquired, his expression curious rather then dark and angry as Shang had half expected that it might be. "You are attracted to me, Shang. I can tell this."
"Yes. I am, but what you are asking of me, the cost.. To give up my home, my culture and way of life, my family. All that I have ever known. I- I love you, Shan Yu, I do. I just- I do not know if I am strong enough for that."
"You love me?" the large Hun growled, his eyes filling with something that sent rapid, multiple quivers of physical awareness up Shang's spine from his tailbone.
"Yes," Shang admitted a second time as they looked at each other. "I do. And I want to be with you, but, my family. How can I do that to them, Shan Yu? They will hate me forever."
"When you tell them, you are likely right about that, Shang. And I am sorry for it. Only you can make this choice before you, no one else. But think on this. I would love you, always. You would be my one and only. My people take fidelity very seriously. There would be no one else, for either of us."
"Shan Yu. I.."
Shang's throat seemed to close up for a moment, cutting off his words as he stared helplessly at Shan Yu. His eyes welled up with moisture once again in response to his strong emotion, and a soft noise of clearly intense anguish finally escaped him.
Shan Yu inwardly flinched at the sound, but he was surprised, though pleased, when his arms were suddenly full of a shaking, clearly needy Shang who had been pushed to his physical and emotional limits by the Hun.
Shan Yu did feel some guilt over his emotional manipulation as his large hands moved up to slide over Shang's quivering shoulders and his back to soothe the other man.
But he would feel worse then he did now if he let Shang go without a fight to return to a place where he was clearly deeply unhappy.
Where he could never be happy.
"Shan Yu.."
"Shang. Will you travel back to my homeland with me? Will you let me love you? Will you join with me, live with me, always?"
"I- I will."
Shan Yu was shocked when Shang's mouth was suddenly on his, the slender man's tears wetting both their faces as his lips parted over Shan Yu's slightly.
Shang clung to Shan Yu with a desperation clearly born of pain, loneliness and repressed desire, his arms going around the Hun's muscular neck and his fingers burying themselves deeply within his thick black hair.
Shan Yu took the invitation of Shang's needy body, placing his big hands around his slim waist.
Shang gasped and squirmed atop the larger man, moaning softly as Shan Yu took him in his strong arms, holding him in return and claiming Shang's mouth with the strong, damp muscle of his tongue.
"S-Shan Yu!" Shang gasped when he ended their kiss to allow the pretty, kind-hearted Chinaman to breathe deeply. "Ohhh.."
The Hun growled, very pleased by the other man's breathy reaction, clutching him closer still, his dark eyes gleaming with want. "Let down your hair for me, Shang!"
Shang whimpered and nodded, reaching up obediently to untie the band in his hair, setting it aside as his raven locks fell loose and unbound around his slender alabaster shoulders.
Shan Yu's big hands were instantly buried fingers deep in that alluring midnight silk, a deep groan coming from his broad chest at the feel of those soft strands sliding against his palms.
"Mmm. Throw more wood on the fire, would you? Then we will get naked."
Shang gulped audibly, his eyes going wide and round in reaction to his suggestion, but he nodded silently in agreement. He left Shan Yu's arms with obvious reluctance to toss more scraggly wood logs on the fire, causing comforting heat to flood the chilly cave as Shang returned eagerly to his lover's embrace.
Shan Yu enfolded him back into his arms once more, though loosely, giving him enough maneuver room to begin undressing himself.
Shang blushed rosy over his cheeks, biting his own lower lip with embarrassment while he slowly removed his clothing and set it aside.
"S-Shan Yu.."
"Yes, Shang?"
"I want this, you, I do, but.. please, be careful?"
"I promise. I will be gentle."
Shang shivered, his naked form trembling with nervousness and anticipation as he began to remove Shan Yu's clothing, baring his large, hairy body to his eager, though also slightly wary gaze.
"Ohh gods, Shan Yu.. I want!"
"Tell me, Shang. What do you want?"
"I want- I have to touch you!" Shang gasped out, hunger burning fiercely in his eyes and lower belly.
Shan Yu nodded his assent, lying still and silent, and Shang's mouth was suddenly at his throat, pressing tender kisses over the warm flesh, his Chinaman's lips trailing a path down to his broad right shoulder.
From there Shang's mouth continued downward to brush over his nipples, his hot, wet tongue darting out from between his lips to lap at the tight peaks ringed in jet black hair.
As his tongue caressed him there so needily Shang's shaking hands clasped his thickly muscled hips, clinging to Shan Yu with a low, desperate moan and lifting his head to stare into his eyes.
Shan Yu growled softly, his large right hand lifting from his side, the Hun's heavy palm covering the back of his neck to draw him down into a deep kiss.
After that their hands were all over each other, stroking heated flesh and dark silky hair as their lips met again and again, soft skin clinging to soft skin and finally letting go only reluctantly to breathe heavily.
"Shan Yu," Shang managed to gasp through shallow, panting breaths, "I need you inside me, please!"
Shan Yu nodded silently, and Shang gasped as he abruptly found himself positioned on his hands and knees below the larger man.
He heard Shan Yu spit into his hand, crying out loudly as his buttocks were parted and the hot saliva was spread over and around his tight hole abruptly.
"Haugahhh! Ohhh, Sh-Shan Yu!"
"Mmmm," Shan Yu grunted, adding more saliva before beginning to push a thick finger deep inside of his wet, glistening opening. "How does it feel, my raven-haired beauty?"
"It feels- Ohh gods!" Shang choked out in reply, his lower abdomen quivering as the finger probed and stretched him gently and Shan Yu carefully added a second digit. "It feels wonderful! Please, Shan Yu! Do not stop!"
"Never!" the large man growled in his ear, causing him to shudder harder still. "You are mine, Shang! My Chinaman!"
"Yes!" Shang agreed breathlessly, his pale, muscular legs shaking visibly, though still holding him up somehow. "Yours! Always yours! I love you, Shan Yu!"
"I love you, too, Shang!"
Shan Yu added a third finger then, stretching him open more before withdrawing them all and lining up his heavy arousal with Shang's back portal, causing Shang to go instantly still beneath his large body.
"Are you ready?" Shan Yu inquired, stilling as well in reaction.
"No. I am scared.." Shang admitted with yet another full-body shudder. "But I want it. So much! Please, love me, Shan Yu!"
"I already do, Shang!"
Shan Yu covered his cock with yet more saliva, grunting instinctively as he began to push finally into his lover's beautiful body.
Shang echoed his noise, though it then morphed into a strangled sound when he went deeper inside slowly, stilling when he could go no further.
"Mmm, Shang.. You are so hot! Tight! Are you alright, my pretty one?"
"Yes! It hurts, but, ohh, it feels.. You are a part of me. You are me!"
"And you are me!" Shan Yu groaned, his right hand burying itself within the dark strands of Shang's long hair as he began to slowly withdraw from him.
Then he pushed back in, his other hand curling over Shang's left hip, beginning to smoothly thrust and retreat in a continuous rhythm of emotional love and physical desire.
Shang moaned helplessly, gasping as his body was repeatedly pierced by Shan Yu's considerable length of hard and thick flesh. Shang closed his eyes and just felt the pleasure, the joy, that accompanied their joining.
"Shang?" Shan Yu spoke after a while, still moving his hips leisurely. "Are you alright?"
"Yes. Yes! I am just.. feeling you. It is wonderful!"
"Mmm, yes," Shan Yu growled, tugging lightly on the other man's hair. "You feel wonderful, too. Brace yourself, Shang!"
That was all the warning he gave Shang before he began to move faster, loving him harder, his hips nearly blurring with his speed.
He was surprised, though immensely pleased, when this seemed to flip a switch in his lover as Shang cried out loudly with Shan Yu's movements and came hard over their blankets after only five strokes.
"Shan Yu! Aahhhhh!"
"Yes, Shang! Holding me tight inside you! Going to come! Unghhhh!"
Shang gasped and quivered when he felt Shan Yu release inside him, trembling as he fell limply to the blanketed stone floor of the cave with slick thighs and buttocks.
He flinched when Shan Yu softened and slipped free of his body, and unconscious noise of displeasure coming from the back of his throat in response.
"Shhhh," Shan Yu soothed him, placing a big, hot palm at the small of his lower back before joining him beneath the blankets and drawing him into his strong arms to hold onto him tightly. "I have you, Shang. Always. We have lingered here long enough, pleasant though it has been. Tomorrow we will depart for my homeland."