Gray heavy clouds began to roll in overhead, blocking the sun for the rest of the day. Ready to rain, but before it came a cold wind blew through. A strong one but not to strong, enough for people to hurry to find cover or get home. Some though still wanted to enjoy their day, not wanting a thing called weather to ruin their day or at least the rest of it. Without the sun out, it was hard to tell the time of day, which was alright. About an hour or so after the clouds rolled in, droplets began to fall lightly first. Nothing really but sprinkles. It didn't stop the wind that seem to pick up just a bit, rattling windows and chimes.
Because of such weather, the nurse makes her way down to M-1 to close the windows. No doubt the patient still kept them open, something she just loved to do. Enjoyed the lovely breeze and sight. Even when she slept she liked to leave them open, though someone would come in later to shut them and open them up in the morning before her eyes meet the light. Reaching the room, the nurse opens the door announcing themselves. They step in with a friendly smile, that quickly dropped and look of horror struck their face. Gasping in shock their clipboard drops from their grasp and their eyes couldn't believe this! Their mind trying to figure out how this could have happened. It didn't matter, this was a matter of the utmost urgency. Turning heel they dart out to alarm the others of what they just discovered. Along with the Hokage.
The rain began to pour down harsher, the winds kicked up an extra level. Blustering and on top of it lighting flashed in the sky as thunder rumbled it. Conditions like these many would not be out. But once the word reached others, they dropped everything and rushed right over drenched in water from head to toe. Reaching M-1 they saw the horrified truth that befell their eyes. There should have been a body there, resting in the bed. Asleep. Safe and warm. Not empty.
The bed was empty, there was no sigh of a body resting there. No sign in the room of anyone at all for that matter, all eyes searched every tight corner, and nothing. The room was a good size. Why wasn't their body there? The nurse who discovered this, informed Tsunade who checked with the last nurse on that shift. Who informed the woman, the patient was there before their shift ended and was fast asleep. They where sure of it, while being afraid under the heated gaze of the Hokage.
"Grandma Tsunade?!"
Naruto's voice booms through the halls of the hospital, getting everyone's attention to the loud mouth running over. Reaching them, Naruto stops heaving heavily each breath a mix of concern, confusion and anger. But more so concerned. Before Tsunade could say anything, he races inside, to see for his self what everyone had. And he saw it. The empty room. The flash of lighting in the back only casting his shadow and he objects in the room, but no other. Grinding his and clenching his fist, his eyes furrow deep.
His mind was too, trying to understand how they could just simply get up and walk out. It didn't make sense. Where they faking walk all this time? What in the hell compelled them? Maybe it was just some sort of trick? Joke? There was just no way they could get up and walk out? Darting his eyes around the room for any sort of clue, he found none. The rain pounding on the window, demanding to be let in. The weather mirrored Naruto's feelings at the moment. Lighting flashed again outside as the the thunder boomed louder. Only increasing his anger and worry. Walking over to the bed, looking at the thrown back sheets he noticed spectacles of blood. Not to much just a little, it looked like something was dragged off. The way the blood smeared a bit on the sheets. This was his blood, well his contribute to them one of the three whom Tsuande needed for the operation. To help bring life back to the patient.
His hand reaches out to touch the fabric when he overhears words that put relief to everyone and himself. But brought up more question, they found them. They managed to find them and where they did, Naruto dropped everything and rushed out the room.
The winds picked up again, causing a bit of damage but nothing to heavy. Though the planets where receiving the most damage out everything and hanging signs. Thrashing them around, doors and windows remained closed. No one would be caught out in something like this now, taking refuge in the safety of their homes. Not a single body, except for one. Who struggled to walk, using the walls as support with each little step they took. Their legs screaming in pain for them to stop, the bandages around their legs and torso began to loosen. But that didn't stop them. No. They just pushed even more, with each step taken made them closer. They could feel it. Shorten of breath, they stop for a second to catch their breath. Only for a second before starting back up again. Pushing themselves beyond their limit, there, right before their eyes, the door. The only obstacle in their way. Feeling their leg bones and muscles on fire, they moved inch by inch, almost falling if not for the wall. Catching themselves as they stagger. If not for their own frustrations and thirst for answers as to why, then they wouldn't mind staying here. But because secrets where kept and tried to remain hidden from them. What choose did they have? Not to mention the burden they felt themselves as. Though the others wouldn't say it, they could feel it.
Picking up their pace, it took didn't take them long to reach the doors that would release them. Grasping onto the handles of the door, with all the strength they could muster push open the doors, against the harshness of the wind and rain. Almost knocked over from the door slamming back, they catch themselves, holding in their pain they endured. And push again, with every fiber in their body, causing them to start coughing violently. Which did not stop them, only made them want to keep going and going they did. The rain came down on them like madness, soaking their hair and clothes. With the door just a bit open, the wind helped them a strong gust of wind slammed it open causing them to loose their support and fall down onto the ground. Covering themselves in mud, being attacked by nature. From all over. This would not stop them, they wanted to go back home. Home so badly. They wanted reasoning. Answers. No more lies. Slowly they began to pick themselves back up, their arms did their best to offer them the strength they asked for. Only half way off the ground, now for their legs. Signalling their brain to get their legs to work, pushing pass its stubbornness and pain. Another violent cough escapes them, this time worse than the last. No doubt from the water and low health with their body. Shaking like a leaf from the weather, they discard their cough and push back up.
"MAY!"
Naruto's voice rang and pireced through the howling winds, whipping your head around looking back at the open doors. You hear him yell your name from the building. You don't know why your heart skipped a beat and you suddenly became afraid. But then, realizing he was apart of it this too. You force yourself to get up, but you legs didn't want too. So you start to pull yourself through the ground. Focusing on moving and the fast hard footsteps of Naruto approaching. With each one your heart skipped a beat, and it hurt. You try your best to block out Naruto completely. To just ignore him and maybe he would go away. He would go away.
Naruto reaches the wide open doors the others not to far behind, what he saw right before him. Angered him. Seeing you struggling and trying to crawl away, he was sure you heard him or maybe not. The winds did seem to cancel out anything, so he yells no roars your name.
"May! STOP!"
This time, this time it had an affect on you. You stop, he sees this and hurries over to you.
"Hold on! I'm coming!"he tells you, fighting against nature to get to you. The others reach the door way seconds after you snap back at Naruto. Which surprised everyone. They never heard this from you.
"GO AWAY!"you snap."DON'T TOUCH ME!"
Naruto stops dead in his tracks, shocked by this sudden outburst from you. He looks at you confused a bit, assuming you might be joking takes a step forward to almost get hit with one of your energy spheres. Shocking not just him but the others too. You nearly almost knocked his head off if he didn't dodge. He shoots his eyes back at you demanding some explanation to receive a warning glare from you. Your eyes glowing, hand out in his direction trying to remain as steady as possible. Glaring at him hard. He just looks at you lost for words.
"...Come on May, you have to ge-"he starts.
"I said leave me ALONE!"you tell him charging up for another blast, for to stop as your cough prevented you. This time it was rather bad, your hand comes down as you hack again and again.
"May!"the others hurry over to you, Ino leading with Hinata.
"Hurry and get her in!"Tsunade tells them.
Naruto who stood there thinking about what he saw, snaps out of it when your violent cough reaches him. He rushes over to you scooping your little fragile body in his arms. Holding you close, fighting back against the weather which he slightly struggled with. Luckily though Kakashi came to help him, Naruto passes you off over to the man, who takes you inside the lobby. Tsunade tells him to put you down quickly, so she could go over you. Yoshino stood right by yourself holding your hand in her's. Ino and Sakura and Shizune tell the others to give Tsunade some room and you too. Your cough had not stopped. It seem to get worse, worse enough for blood to come up, thinking quickly Tsunade sits you up quickly but carefully, so you could cough it all out. She then turns you onto your stomach, as you spit up more. She then pulls out a syringe, biting off the cap, seeing this you try prevent her. Your refusal took her off guard for a second.
She tires to restrain you, so she could administer the sedative but with you trying to fight her off made it difficult. Plus she didn't want to hurt you beyond your injuries already."May. May, you have...Someone restrain her."
Doing as the Hokage said, Shizune along with Sakura hold you down carefully. Calmly trying to calm you down, but you didn't want too, you kept trying to resit. If you had your full strength you would have been able to throw them off you. But you didn't and was overpowered, next thing you felt a quick pinch and everything went dark. Though not before your eyes gazed over to Naruto. And all he could do was watch you call out to him, he saw something in your eyes before they closed. That filled with grief and guilt. He couldn't look at you fully.
Three days after your little thing, Tsunade had around the clock watch with you. You had someone watching you even when others came to visit you, once you awoke and when they did come. They showed their concerns through scolding and berating you, well mostly everyone. Minus Hinata, Kurenai, and Guy sensei's team who was not present during the whole thing. Hinata and Kuerani just wanted to know what was wrong, you had stopped and refused to talk to anyone afterwords. Not even showing acknowledgement when they came to visit you or check up on you. You just stared up at the ceiling, out the window soulless like. Many thought it was just you feeling guilty for what you did, causing everyone to worry beyond belief giving everyone a heart attack almost. But, they where far from the actual fact of it all. All but one. They walk down to your room, hearing you being scolded gently as they could by none other than Ino and Sakura. While being fussed over as well. Peering around the corner of your door, their blue eyes land upon you. They saw the lifeless look you had on, the emptiness in your eyes. No one seem to notice but themselves. Having enough of hearing the two coming down on you, they step up and walk straight into the room over to you. Their eyes only focused on you, they knew what they where abut to say was wrong and would definitely in trouble with Tsunade but, it was worth it, because what everyone was doing was wrong. Though it was to spare you, so you wouldn't be hurt anymore.
But from what he's seen, Naruto. You've been hurt already. More times than he could count. You had pain inside you since day one, from the memories he's seen and from what Splinter shared with everyone. The life you had he couldn't imagine, though it was a good one back in your home world. To a certain extent, what you where played a huge factor. He remembered the good memories he saw that you had. They where nice and lovely, and he saw the bad ones. Ones that he understood a certain extent. Seeing a memory of you starting at a reflection in a broken mirror. The way you looked in your science class, when it came to dissecting, or anything involving a test tube. How you felt towards it, it made you sick and sad. That isolated look you felt among your peers, that feeling of not belonging despite the love around you. You knew what you where and seem so confused about yourself. Why you existed. Why you where not made like others. All this and so much more laid inside you, causing you pain. And to add more to it, you treated badly as it was. Though the others didn't understand who acted that way to you, you had to endure it. Again adding to your pain, which lead you to lie to your family and friends. Even when you came here, Naruto saw the same look you had of feeling indifferent from everyone else. Sure he was treated like that as a child because of what he was and had inside him. So he understood that part, the only difference they didn't know just like back in your world. You became treated just the same, even Naruto had to admit to himself he kind had those eyes as Shikamaru pointed out to everyone. Naruto never meant too, which he quickly apologized for.
And here in this world you where treated rather rudely, because of what you could do. He didn't know. He wished he had, he would have put a stop to it, yet because you smiled all the time and rarely spoke up. He nor the others didn't know, you did not want to let them know, remembering the many thoughts you had for your reasoning.
You didn't want them to worry. Everyone was to kind. You where not of their world, so why does it matter. Their life was more important and what they went through. You had to be there for them. You had to just deal with it, be a good girl. Like papa said. You didn't belong. Such deep hurtful words, Naruto didn't realize could exist in someone like you, someone with a sunny, cheerful and sweet demeanor. Could suddenly become so melancholy inside. Of course you didn't know what it was, how could you describe it to anyone, because no one every asked. They went about their business like nothing, just like you wanted. He wondered if that smile was fake. You had it one so much, even when they found you after going through the darkest part of your mind. Curled up on the cold ground, freezing and shivering. You where so small and meek in that fetal position. Wasting away, right then Naruto was able to see the surface of your pain. And after bringing you back, you had to go through such Hell alone, without anyone. As you did for everyone. Went through Hell and was content to stay there, you wanted to die. Because of the pain you felt and to hopefully be reunited with your family.
Naruto thought you being dragged through Hell would stop, but it didn't. Your pain hadn't stopped, no. Gaara left you to stay here in Konoha. A choice that angered Naruto, he wanted some reasoning why, and the reason Gaara gave him just made no sense in anyway. Because he recalled what he told you, after you became a genin what it meant. The village was your home. And Gaara was happy to have a genin, he saw something in you. A taste of regret lingered in his mouth, the words he said to you broke. Those words meant a great deal to you, Naruto remember the light that went of in your eyes. The delight you had, like a child. And now that light was gone, after Gaara signed off for you to stay in Konoha. To add to it, Tsunade told everyone they could not tell you a single thing about what happened to you or about Gaara. To act like everything was alright, everything was okay. To help recover better.
Naruto knew the Hokage's heart was in the right place, she just wanted to make your life much better. Much happier. Everyone actually wanted to make life better for you, since it was still new. To make up for everything you had been through. An order that everyone carried out, coming with smiles and gifts for you. Never to bring up anything about your life or life back in your world. Nor the horrible thing you did. That no doubt tainted your innocents. Which worked, it was working well. Very well, up until you decided to try and leave the hospital on your own. Some how you managed to pull up whatever strength you had, ignore your pain and walk out. In direction no one really knew where. But Naruto did, he remember hearing you mumble it. And once he heard it, he knew, that you knew. The pain and harsh truth everyone was trying to keep hidden from you.
And because of this, you shut yourself off to everyone around you. Refusing to talk, to do anything. Except sit there and stare out into nothingness. This was the only way you could show the pain you where, as you lacked the resource to let it flow out. To release the water from your eyes, of the pain inside, like the rest of them. Could produce tears without a thought, you lack such a thing. Another thing that made you feel less of a life. Your eyes remained dry while your heart poured out and no one saw this, Gaara, Tsunade, just no one. He didn't even have to connect with you to feel it. As Ino and Sakura still kept going at it, Naruto slips right through them pulling with him a chair.
Which of course gets the girls's attention, they turn around to him. But he pays them no mind, his attention solely on you and you alone. Tears began to well up in his eyes, confusing and worrying the girls.
"Naruto..."Sakura looks at him."Are you okay?"
He didn't respond to her concern, looking at you. This was not the May he knew and grew to value and care for deeply. The one who smiled at him, would agree to do his stupid antics with him. Treat him to his favorite food, come over to have dinner, laugh at his simple things. Embrace him in a hug. The May who wouldn't think twice on helping someone, offer up her last food. Be in her own world. Put herself on the line, treasure every moment with everyone. Act strange in a good way. Curious about many things, easily pleased. One who went to the beat of her own drum. Eager to learn. Eyes that shimmered in the right light, beaming with joy and happiness. A smile that matched the sun's. Who had a habit for floating a few inches off the ground instead of walking. Who's heart was bigger than any he had seen. One who swallowed her own fears despite being afraid of them. One who wanted the best for everyone. That was the May he knew. Not this May before his eyes, broken, in pain, sick, lost...This wasn't May. This just couldn't be.
It was because of the choice he and the others agreed on that caused this. By trying to spare her pain, they only caused her more. He had tired to fight his own tears on all this, flattering images of May flashed in his mind. Those of her health to battered and broken to lifeless. They filled his mind causing his tears to just pour out. All of this she went though and never once, did she scream out the pain. What words could he say to her? To you? Where there any words he could say right now to make up for it all?
Just what could he do?
You seem to have picked up on how Naruto felt, because you turned to look at him. You see the tears you wish you could cry yourself, pouring out. Seeing them, you suddenly felt horrible. You didn't want to see him crying, that was the last thing you wanted. Was it because of how you just shut yourself off from everyone? Opening your mouth to say something.
Naruto lunges at you, pulling you into a tight embrace."I'm so sorry."he cries to you."I'm so sorry May. For everything. Everything you've been through. I know you've been hurting inside. I'm sorry you feel alone. I'm sorry you lost your Master. I'm-"
Realizing what he was doing, Sakura and Ino try to stop him from speaking anymore, but he didn't he kept going."I'm sorry you lost your sister. That you felt you had to handle everything yourself. You had been afraid all this time. You put yourself through Hell. I didn't come to help you."With each sorry his grip on you tightens."I'm sorry you felt everything was your fault. I'm sorry you feel that Gaara left you. Please don't, don't feel weak. Because your not. Please don't feel you, you're unloved. Because your not. I'm sorry your confused about so much in life. I'm sorry if you feel you can't express how you feel. I'm just sorry. I'm sooo sorry...May."He releases you and places his forehead on your's. A gesture you cherished. Naruto's hot tears began to roll and drop on you. Everything he said was what you felt inside.
Everything you had bottled up inside, just came out. You cried. Dry tears, breaking down. It was a meek noise at first but soon the volume rose higher and higher. Like a child you scream on the top of your lungs, so loud it scared quite a few. Sakura and Ino stood there wide eyes, which quickly dropped to sorrow. They began to feel your pain, your pain that exploded from you. Sending out an outburst of energy from you blasting everything back and damaging it. You almost knocked over the girls. With each outburst your energy just exploded from you. And Naruto held on tighter, ignoring the pain he felt from your backlash. He told you to let it out.
And it out you did. All throughout the hospital everyone heard your broken heart cries, even outside. Those passing by stopped to look at the building, those coming in and out stopped to see. But those, who knew you felt it. They cried tears for you, that you couldn't. They weep for you, for your Master, for your sister, for just everything. Each one saying their apologizes to you to themselves. At the front gate, Guy and his team arrived and the second they stepped back into the village, became overwhelmed by it too. Lee's eyes cried the most, Tenten dropped her head mourning for you, Guy stood silent, while Neji looked in the direction. He didn't need his eyes to see.
Tsunade in her office, locked her door not allowing anyone in and shed a few tears for you. Shizune on the other side of the door shed a few. Everyone grieving. Hinata held onto Natsuki in the lobby of the building, the two of them cried together.
Back with you and Naruto, he still didn't let go. He waited for you finish, and he would keep waiting. Until every bit of your pain was gone. He would wait.
His hold on you tightens more."...I'm so sorry. May."