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Be my baby chapter 2. Papa don't preach by Madonna.
Leah
'fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck'. The she wolf beauty kept repeating to herself as she got closer and closer to her house. 'okay so all I need to do is avoid the mind freak for the rest of my life and never phase….. yep…. Seems doable…oh who am I kidding. I can't do either of those things. Phasing is my job so I won't be able to ever get out of that, so that's my pack knowing. And my stupid Alfa had to go and stupid imprint on a stupid hybrid. Who's even stupider parents are the stupid mind reader and shield. And then you have their stupid god damn bloodsucking family, who wouldn't take this well either because ya just know that once Edward finds out their gonna tell them. and to top it all off, of course… out of every man that my mum could of decided to date… a little too soon after my dad's death if you ask me. Charlie fucking swan…. Charlie…..fucking…. swan. Chief… Charlie swan….. Bella's father…. Charlie swan. So from now on we're all gonna be at family gatherings together and that would mean the minder reader would be there, so his kid would be there. So then my Alfa Jacob and my brother Seth. Then everyone would know…. that I Leah clearwater. Shape shifting wolf, hating of all things bloodsucker, epic bitch harpy, Leah clearwater…gave it up to a vampire'.
At some point while driving she had pulled over to the side of the road. She needed to think about what she was gonna do once she got back to the Rez. 'shit the Rez…. The Rez….. the Rez where my Ex-boyfriend is…. The Ex-boyfriend who's living with my cousin slash former best friend Emily. Of whom he's happily engaged to. fuck… he's gonna find out and when he does he's gonna hit the fucking roof. I don't even have to ask how he'd reacted to the news. Lets face it, he'd never be happy for me that I moved on…. I mean I'm not saying I've moved on with that leech from this morning. Just in general. Because weirdly…. Ever since waking up this morning next to Demetri or whatever the fleas name was. I hadn't even thought about Sam in an bad way… nor Emily. I don't have a clue why I just haven't. and if I'm really being honest… I..I.. strangely don't feel angry…I don't know it's more then likely just because of I lost it to a vampire last night and am still in shock. But I can't lie…. it is a freeing feeling. This has been the first morning where I've gotten up and my first thought wasn't should I call up Sam and yell at him for being a man whore'.
She sat back in her seat and slightly smiled to herself. " holy shit….. am I over Sam?". She said out loud. "shit….. I think I am". She stared straight ahead then started to laugh. "fuck… crap…good job vampire freak". She felt like she had to give a tiny teeny little bit of credit to Demetri. 'as much as I hate to admit it the cold skinned son of a bitch may have actually helped me'. She laughed out loud again then started the car back up.
She spend most of the time on the drive back talking and laughing to herself. But that all stopped when she pulled up in her drive way. she sat in the car watching the house, dreading having to go in there. 'it's mid-day, everyone's gonna be wondering where I was. Would they all be in there… shit… I hope not. What's gonna happen are my mum and Seth freaking out?. What do I tell them. 'oh yeah hey mum I was just out having sex with a vampire whom I'm never gonna see again because of well…. He's a vampire. Oh no don't worry Seth, he was gentle… or so I was told he was. I don't actually remembered any of it because I was blind drunk. Why was I blind drunk you asked?. Well because I wanted to forget that everything has been taken away from me in the last couple of years. Including my virginity last night. But it's all good because I'm over Sam now'. she took in an deep breath.
"well….. good enough". She jumped out of the car and shut the car door quietly. If everyone was in the house she didn't want to alert them that she was out the front. 'the last thing I need is for them running out here like headless chickens. yelling that I'm home and frantically asking where I had been'.
She tip toes up to the porch but needed to be careful of the creaking steps. She managed to make her way up them without making a sound. She gripped the door nob and paused. 'well… here goes nothing'. She opened the door and slowly stepped inside. She turned to close the door but froze when she heard feet running into the front room.
"LEAH!".
'carp'. She turned to see her brother standing in the doorway. Heavy breathing like he had been punch in the chest. His face was one of shock and relief… she actually felt a bit bad for not calling and letting him knew that she was okay. but her phone went dead and a part of her was glad about that. knowing that she didn't have a phone she wouldn't be able to talk to anyone. And that gave her time to come up with a story for last night…. Which she didn't have. "hey little brother". She said with a fake smile.
He ran up to her and hugged her. "where the hell have you been?".
"I just went for a drive that's all". She said like it was no big deal.
He pulled away from for her. "that's all…. That's all. You were gone for like twenty hours".
"Seth it wasn't twenty hours…".
"I don't care… the fact is we came home and you were gone".
'we…. Oh no'.
"now where the hell where you we've been waiting all night we started freaking out thinking that something had happen to you". his words were coming out frantic
"we?".
"yeah we". Just as he said that her mother and pack come around the corner and in to the from room.
'shit'. She thought. Jacob stormed up to her. looking pissed.
"WHERE THE HELL WHERE YOU". he yelled.
"no me first". Sue said walking passed him and over to her daughter. "LEAH CLAREWATER WHEN I GET A CALL AT THREE A CLOCK IN THE MORNING TELLING ME THAT MY ELDEST CHILD IS MISSING YOU PICK UP YOUR GOD DAMN PHONE. I HAD TO COME UP WITH SOMETHING TO TELL CHARLIE AS TO WHY WE HAD TO COME HOME EARLY FROM HIS FISHING TRIP. NOW COME ON… TELL ME.. WHERE THE HELL WHERE YOU?". sue clearwater wasn't the slightest bit happy about his turn of events. She didn't really care about the fishing trip with Charlie… no she didn't care at all. But getting that call saying that Leah was missing nearly sent her in to a meltdown. The very thought of anything happening to her child… her baby girl would of killed her. "WELL". She tapped her foot waiting for Leah to responded.
"I'm sorry". Was all she could say. Mainly because of the intense pain in her head kicking her ass at the moment. "I just.. I went for a drive".
"you went for a drive… damn it Leah". Jacob through his hands in the air. "why?".
"because I just felt like it, that's all. Look I'm sorry… my phone went dead and I hadn't realized until it was a bit later…".
"so what you just didn't come home..". her Alfa interpreted.
"no it wasn't like that… I just decided to get a motel because I didn't feel like driving anymore..".
"you wanted to go for a drive but then decided get an motel because you didn't want to?... Leah…that doesn't make any sense". Her alfa said angrily.
"well when you say it out loud…".
"no even when you don't say it out loud it still doesn't make sense. See I'll think it right now…..yep still doesn't make sense. I'll try it one more time…. nope still the same. As crazy sounding as the first time". Jacob crossed his arms with a frown.
"look…. I messed up…. I'm sorry. But I really did just feel like going for a drive and lost track of time…".
"Leah honey…. You should of at least found a phone box…. Or at the very lest ask to borrow somebody's phone…".
"I know". the she wolf looked down.
There was a stillness in the room.
Quil and Embry hadn't said anything. They'd spent the entire time looking down at the ground. Not wanting to take part in this more of a family thing the a wolf pack thing.
"Leah… are you keeping something from us?. did one of those fancy leeches get to you and you just don't want to tell us. because if one of them touch you I swear to god I'm gonna…".
"no it's okay puppy". Leah tried to calm her younger brother down. "I didn't even run in to a vampire…. At all". 'shit they better be believing this. I didn't even run in to a vampire….. what is that?. who says that?. and more importantly who would believe that?. why am I even bothering to lie, their all gonna find out anyway. But I guess I'd rather not have it come out like this. Not when your all mad at me. How the bloody hell is Jacob gonna react to this… no forget that I know exactly how he's gonna react. he's gonna be pissed that I had sex with one of the vampires who were on the other side of that snow land. And how could i blame him?... how could I blame him. the last thing I want to do is hurt this feeling. He doesn't need that right now. "look… I'm fine".
"Leah we were all worried about you". sue said sadly.
"I didn't mean to worry any one… I really didn't….. I left a note".
"yeah I got it". Seth shrugged. "I didn't do anything for the first few hours because I thought you'd be back. but when you weren't…". he looked down. "I got scared that maybe…. Maybe one of them came back for you. ya know what Jacob said…. about king creep wanting you for his collection".
Leah looked down as well. Feeling guilty about what she'd put her brother through. Along with her mother and pack. 'damn I really, really did make an mistake didn't I. I shouldn't of even gone out, I mean look at what happened when I did. I broke a mirror, I let a vampire buy me drinks, lost my virginity and I don't even remember doing it. I worried the hell out of everyone and hurt them…. without meaning to but I did. And now on top of all of this I'm probably be gonna hurting them even more once they all find out…. Why am I such a shit all the time'. "oh puppy I'm sorry". She flung an arm around him and pulled him close to her. he looped his arm around her waist.
"so when it got even later I called everybody, we look for you for ages. Before you walked in the door we were talking about calling Charlie".
She rubbed his arm. "Seth…. What did you mean when you said you called everyone?". Just as she asked that right on cue Sam and the uley pack came into the living room.
"Sue we couldn't fine any….". Sam stopped talking when he saw Leah. "thing".
"well look who finally decided to show up". Jared said glaring at the she wolf.
"Jared". Sam said turning his head to look at his beta.
"do you know how long we're all been searching for you". Paul hissed at her. "because of you I missed my night with Rachel".
"Paul". Sam now hissing at Paul.
"well Paul..". Leah snared. "I'm so sorry you missed your date with your girlfriend. How will you go on…".
"hey because of you she had to spend all night alone in that house possibly with vampires running around". He angrily pointed at her.
"of course Paul that's so sad she had to go one night without you there all alone".
"yeah that's right alone just like you".
The room froze.
Sam glared at his pack brother like he wanted to punch him. Paul had realized what he has just said and quieted down. It wasn't that he completely felt bad for what he said to her because of his dislike for the she wolf. But he had to admit that even for him that was a little harsh.
Leah just stood there, not knowing how to respond to that. she wouldn't dare look up to embarrassed to catch somebody's eye. So instead she untangled herself from her brother and walked away from the door. she walked passed the uley pack and up the stairs. She hadn't mean to but she began to tear up walking to her room. She didn't slam the door like they all expected her to do. she softly closed it and lent her back against it. she slid down on to the floor and quietly wept. 'yeah….. alone like me'. She sadly thought.
Later
After a long time…. a long, long time of Leah sitting on her bedroom floor. She decided to get up and have another shower. When Seth had told her how worried he was she began to feel dirty. She'd taken off her clothes and turned on the shower. At first she had it on cold because she was warm blooded and was always hot. So most of the time she'd take cool showers. The coolness of the water never bothered her. in fact she kind of like it.
But this time it actually began to get to her. Leah didn't care at first but then she actually began to get chilly. So the she wolf turned on the hot nob all so slightly. It hadn't made much of a difference but she didn't give a damn. She slid down on to the bath tub floor and tired to relax. She couldn't get her brothers words out of her head.
Then there was the look on Sam's face.
'Sam'. She thought. 'why did they have to get him and his pack involved?. And after what Paul had said to me Sam's gonna wanna talk about that. perfect…. That's one more person I have to try and avoid. Why can't I stop seeing his face when Paul said that thing about me being alone. That guilty Sam look he has. Like a puppy had just been kicked. It was the same look I'd seen from him and Emily for the past two years. That expression of guilt and defeat. Then they'd put on those fake smiles and try an pretend that none of it ever happened and that we were all the best of friends. Hoping that I wouldn't of noticed'.
She'd gotten out of the shower and dressed in her P.J's. it was still day light outside but she shut her blinds. Not wanting any sun light making it's way in to her room. She just wanted to sit in the dark and cry.
Two weeks later.
It had been tense at first. The guys had tired to talk her Leah in the past two weeks but weren't able to get anything out of her. it wasn't as if she'd shut down. She just wasn't as talkative as she was before.
Leah had gone back to patrolling with her pack. But her mind was always, always focused on something else. She in the last two weeks had become an expert at hiding her thoughts. If it wasn't for the fact that Sue was dating Charlie swan. Leah may have been able to get away with having no one ever find out about her one night lover. But she knew that at some point she'd have a run in with the mind reader.
one would say she was impressed with herself though. Being able to keep something like that completely to yourself wasn't an easy thing. It took all her willpower to be able to achieve it.
Leah, Seth, and Jacob had been on petrol when it happened. They'd been walking though the woodland when all of a sudden Leah began to feel sick.
"hey do you guys mind if I took a few minutes". She asked them.
"why is something wrong?". Seth asked.
"yeah… no…I just feel kind a sick".
"alright we can stay for a few minutes but then we get back to patrolling". Jakob told her.
"it's okay you guys go ahead I just wanna…I just wanna whoa". Leah began to get dizzy. "sit down".
"Leah". Seth was over by her in seconds. she started to sway from side to side trying to balance herself on her four legs. Seth tried to help her by trying to get her to lean against him but she couldn't stop moving. She wasn't trying to move around like she saw but the dizziness kept becoming worse. Until she finally lost her balance all together and landed on the hard ground with a thud.
"shit". Jacob had now come over to were the siblings were. "Leah are you alright?".
She couldn't talk, it was like she was gonna pass out. Her head started to spine so badly that for a moment she thought her body was the thing moving and not her mind. Then seconds later Leah was back in her human form. Breathing heavily on the ground.
Immediately after she phased Seth and Jacob did as well. "shit Leah are you okay". Jacob knelt down to get closer to her, Seth did as well. Either of them directly looked at her respecting her privacy.
She started to cough.
"Leah come on say something". Jacob slightly took a hold of her arm.
"I'm… I'm fine… I'm just… I'm just…". She didn't finish. She spun away from them as fast as she could. she lent back and without warning vomited up what she had eaten in the past few hours.
While she was throwing up Seth had put his shorts back on and once again without looking directly at her, untied her clothes from her leg. He passed them to Jacob then sat down next to Leah were she was throwing up and held her hair back for her. there wasn't much to hold back but he still wanted to do it….. because he didn't know another way to help her. after she had finish both boys helped her up. Jacob gave her, her clothes back then got dressed.
"Leah we're gonna take you home okay. Seth". He said. the younger wolf nodded and picked her up bridle style.
"no this isn't necessarily….".
"yeah it is…. Is hasn't happened to you before while out on guard. so until we figure what just happened your gonna take it easy". Her Alfa said.
She wasn't gonna say it out loud…. But she was kind of touch.
At the house.
Seth had carried her all the way home with Jacob right beside them. at some point the dizziness had taken over her again and she had passed out of it. Seth gave Jake his keys and he opened the front door instead so Seth wouldn't of had to move Leah. he opened the door and they stepped inside. Sue was on the couch and when they walked in she spotted them. but the first thing she saw was her daughter limp in her sons arms. She all but jumped off of the couch.
At this point Leah was still pretty much knocked out by feeling like shit so she only got bits and pieces of what happened next.
But the next thing she knew was she saw being carried up at stairs and placed on her bed. She could hear muffled talking.
"…is she….".
"….. on patrol…. In woods…"
"…down…".
"…said… dizzy….".
"…throw up…gross…."
"…carried her back….."
"…..doctor….".
"….. yes Carlisle…..".
At the mention of the vampire doctor Leah's eyes sprung open. She tired to sit up but couldn't. Seth was the first to noticed.
"Leah". he sat down next to her immediately. "Leah how do you feel". He asked his sister softly.
"no…no…no doc….". her eyes widen and she with all her strength pushed her brother away. She using the rest of what she had in her, sat up and lent over the side of the bed. 'well it turns out that last bit of strength I had wasn't the only thing inside of me'. She thought as she vomited all over the side of her bed. Sue and Jacob had to step out of the way and Seth just pulled his legs up off from the bedroom floor. Avoiding his sister vomit. She sat up for a moment but another wave of dizziness got to her. "no doctor flea". Was the last thing she said before she black out again.
Before Seth carried her upstairs.
They walked into the living room to see Sue laying down on the couch. As soon as she saw that Seth saw holding an looked to be passed out Leah, she jumped up and went over to them.
"Seth what's happened is she alright? Was she attack". Sue asked her son frantically.
"no mum we were out on guard duty when she said she felt sick. Next thing we knew she was son the ground". He told her with worry in his voice.
"Sue has she none this before?. Just….. passed out?. I know she hasn't really been herself for the past couple of weeks….".
Sue cut him off. "no she's never done this before". She stopped talking no knowing what else to say.
"why don't we take her upstairs". Jacob said.
"already on it". the younger wolf was already walking to the hallway. The threesome were up there in seconds then in her room. Seth placed her on the bed.
"now tell me what had happened to her leave nothing out". Her mother demanded.
"we really don't know mum, when we left the house she was fine. She didn't say she felt sick at all. And if she was she didn't say anything. Nothing happened until we were already deep in the forest".
"so she wasn't showing any signs of anything until later on. she has been acting a little strange lately. Has she said anything to either of you?. have one of you at least seen something in her mind?. If so is she alright?". sue clutched she own sleeve shirt in worry.
"sorry Sue like we said one minute we were on patrol everything was going fine. Nothing was wrong we hadn't come across any vampires everything was fine. We were in the middle of the woods then…".
"she just went down". The younger wolf cut the older wolf off. "no warming, nothing. Just one minute Jacob and I were talking about the new star wars and the next she was asking if we could stop for a few moments so she could sit down".
"she asked to sit down?".
"yeah Sue she said she was feeling dizzy. We stopped for her but it just got worse pretty soon after that. Seth had to help her stand up right because of how much she was flopping around. But that only helped her for so long. She went down really soon after that". Jacob looked down for a moment.
"then what?". She looked at the younger man. "well come on then, then what".
"it was like she couldn't control it any longer. She went back into her human form. And from what it looked like she was just as taken aback as we we're. it seemed she hadn't meant to turn back, she just….. lost control I guess". He rubbed his forehead.
"yeah and then she throw up everywhere. Like everywhere mum….. it got real gross real fast".
"so then straight after that we helped her stand up and gave her back her clothes. And once she was dressed Seth carried her back here. I decided with her in this start it was best she came back home and get some rest. She passed back out on the way back here".
"what do you guys think…. Does she need to a doctor?. Could a doctor even help her with what she is?. Would one even know how to help her. what if she can't be helped. It's not every day a shape shifters gets sick".
"I can talk to Carlisle ". Jacob said with his hand on his chin.
"yes Carlisle….. he would help us right?".
"yeah sue he'd help us. I'm not sure how much…".
"Leah". Seth walked past both Sue and Jacob to get to his sister he sat down next to her on her bed. "Leah how do you feel?".
"no… no…. no doc". He noticed her eyes widen, then without warming pushed past him and up chucked all over her bedroom floor. Seth lifted his feet up from the floor and Sue and Jacob steeped back.
Once she was done she stayed sitting up for a moment. But it looked like she was gonna pass out again. but before she did she said. no doctor flea". Then she was out.
They all just watched her as she lay dead to the world on her bed.
"I'll call Carlisle". The Alfa said. "I'll asked him to come there instead of her going there. It isn't a good idea to move her….. and I don't think she'd be happy to wake up in an house filled with vampires".
"okay you do that. Seth". His mother turned to him. "you go fill up a bucket of water and get me an rag. I'll clean this mess up.
They all went off to do what they were gonna do.
About an hour later.
The she wolf slowly opened up her eyes. 'nooooo, why do I feel so much like shit'. She tried to sit up only to come face to face with her brother.
"hey Lee".
"hey Seth what happened?".
"you passed out again".
"of course I did". She rubbed her hands over her face then looked at Seth. "Seth I'm fine you know that right. This… this is just an episode that's all".
"I don't know Lee. Seeing you that way really freak us out. Sooooo…..".
"sooooo what". 'oh no….. what's he done now'.
"we brought in the big guns". He turned around just a the blond doctor entered her bedroom.
"miss Clearwater…. It lovely to see you again". he gave her a friendly smile.
Later that day.
The doctor didn't stay long. He had been on his was back from the hospital when he got the call about Leah. so instead of going straight home he stopped off at the Clearwater's to see the she wolf.
He talked to her for a while and cheeked her eyes and ears, along with cheeking her throat. But because of him being on his way home from work he didn't have any of his stuff with him. so he said he come back another day and just for now make sure Leah stayed in bed. And if she got worse call him and he's be over in minutes.
And that's what she did. For six days she spend lying down doing nothing. She did end up feeling better for a little while but it didn't last long. Not with all the throwing up, dizzy spells and cold fleshes.
her family had been there a lot to. Seth would get so worried that he'd actually come into her room while she was laying down and play on his phone, or read. Just to make sure that she was okay. just in case she woke up and needed anything… he was there for her.
but on this day everybody was out of the house. Her mother was at the hospital working her shift and Jacob and Seth were on petrol. 'god how I want to get out of this bed and go for a walk'.
'well you know you can't'.
The voice in her head told her.
'why don't you shut up I can do what I want'.
'yeah okay sure you can. Your lying in your bed at two thirty in the afternoon doing fuck all. Come on don't be such a girl'.
'I'm not'.
'Actually ya you are…. Look at yourself you can't even sit up'.
'I can too sit up'. Leah pulled herself up and sat up in her bed. 'ha see and I can do you one better'. She told her inner monologue. She then pulled herself up off the bed and on to her own feet. For a moment she just stood there, Relishing in the feeling of standing up. 'what do you have to say now bitch'. she smirked. 'how do you like me now?".
Nothing.
She smiled to herself again.
She walked around the house for a while becoming more used to it then decided what would really make her feel better. 'you know what….. I'm walking to the store'.
At the store.
Leah slowly walked up and down the isles looking at all the products. Picking up things she needed as she went along.
It had taken her longer then she had expected to get to the store. She knew that she was sickly but didn't think she'd get that tired so soon. 'I'm a wolf for gods sake's and I'm finding it difficult walking to a little store and back'. she shook her head at herself.
She had a little bag fall of things that she needed. She grabbed herself a new magazine, some tick tack… the orange ones. Tissues, a new tooth brush. Hers was getting old. A pack of up and goes, she'd been craving banana lately. 'yeah I'm not sure what that's about. I like banana but I've always been more of a mango girl myself'. The she wolf didn't want to get to many things because she knew she's have to carry them back with her. and though she was a strong girl, didn't want to put any more pressure on her body in her state. The last thing she grabbed was a banana scented candle then was on her way.
She made her way to the check out and began placing her items on the on the counter.
"Leah".
The she wolf looked up to see one of the chick behind the cash register, who she recognized as one of the girls who lived on the Rez. "oh hey". 'oh hey random girl who's name I never brother to lean'.
"hey how are you?".
"Swell". She really didn't won't to stay and talk. all Leah wanted to do was go home and read her magazine, while smelling an banana candle.
"that's good….. because I heard".
That she the she wolf pause. "heard what?". She asked with an clenched Jew. 'Look at myself your already getting irritated'.
"heard about….. what happened". Lizzy cocked her head to the side and gave Leah an tight smile.
"what happened?".
"about you….. running away".
"excuse me?". The shape shifter was taken aback. "when?... when did I run off?. Who told you that". she stared at the girl like she was a idiot.
"no, no…. it's okay I'm not judging you…".
Leah cut her off. "why would you be judging me….. I never ran off. Who told you I…".
"hey…. I get it". Lizzy smiled at her.
'oh no…. what fresh hell is this. What does this idiot get. Why is she smiling at me like that. oh no….no, no, no, no….. she thinks we're gonna have a heart to heart'. Leah started to feel sickly again.
"when my boyfriend left me for this girl I kinda knew I my broke too. I mean I would of ran away… god knows I wanted to. so I completely understand what you're going through. But believe me..". she reached over and placed her hand on Leah's shoulder. "it gets better".
Leah wanted to punch her. 'oh great….. she thinks this is about Sam'. She wanted to rip that girls hair out.
"thanks but you don't..".
Leah placed her hand on Lizzy and tapped it. "ya don't". she grabbed her bag and stormed out of the store. 'the nerve….. the nerve'. She shook her head.
She was about halfway home when she had to stop because of another fit of dizziness. Luckily there was a tree for her to lean on. 'breathe in…. breathe out…..breathe in…..breathe out. Look your almost home. Just move your feet. Just one in front of the other. She began to walked again.
Taking small steps she eventually made it home.
She walked in the door and placed her bag on the counter. Then had a feeling of Déjà vu.
"Leah".
She straighten up and turned to her brother. "Seth…. When did you get home?".
"we got here twenty minutes ago.". Jacob and Sue then appeared.
"here we go again. look everyone I just went to the store I needed to few things okay". she already felt tried.
"we thought you ran away again".
She wanted to lose it. "I never ran away!. Have you been the ones going around telling people that because it's really starting to piss me off. All I did was go to the store I'm fine. Being in bed all day was making me feel even more like shit, I just needed to get up and walk around for a while. And you know what…. It made me feel great. It was good to breath in fresh air …. And I needed it".
"Leah honey…. Please".
"no mum….". Jacob cut Leah off.
"Leah". Jacob said looking at her not impressed. "try to stand up without leaning on the counter". His arms were crossed.
She stared at him. 'shit'. "fine… yeah….. I can do that". the moment she moved away from where she was leaning she had to re hold it again. to stop herself my falling on the hard kitchen floor. She breathed out hard. 'wow that's a head rush'.
"see you can't…. Seth". The Alfa gestured with his head to the younger wolf.
"on it". Seth went over to his sister and picked her up in his arms.
"no not this again. really I'm fine". She rubbed her hands over her face.
"take her upstairs". Sue said pointing up to the hallway. Her son nodded and her began to walked off when Leah spoke.
"wait hold on I need my bag". She reached for the counter.
"kay fine". He walked back so she could grab it then walked off to her bedroom.
Leaving Jacob and Sue down stairs.
He turned to Sue. "I'll talk to my pack and Sam pack about Leah. make sure everyone knows what's going on. I'll tell everyone to pick up the slack until we figure out what wrong with her".
She nodded and sat down on a chair in the kitchen. Her head hung down and she looked defected. He noticed that she seemed sad.
"Sue….".
She looked up at him.
"she's gonna be okay….. I'm gonna make sure she's okay".
The next day.
"so why are we doing this again. picking up the slack for Leah".
Seth looked at Embry pointedly, without saying anything.
"no it's okay…. I'm not complaining. I'm just…".
"we just don't ya know… understand…. What's". Quil tired to explain what his pack mate was trying to say. But couldn't find the right words.
"hey guys….. it's fine alright. we don't know what's wrong with her either". Jacob looked back at them. they were all in their wolfs forms out on patrol, they had just taken over from the uley pack.
"so she is really sick?. Isn't like just….. in a bed mood?". Embry wanted to picke his words carefully. He didn't want to upset his pack mate.
"yeah…. Cos well… Paul kinda said that".
"Paul doesn't know shit".
"Seth it's okay". Jacob tried to calm him down.
"it's just he's kinda been going around telling people that she'd ran off and has been faking just so she doesn't have to see anyone…..".
Embry cut of Quil, knowing that with Seth here it wasn't a good idea to bring Paul in to this telling everybody that.
"well she didn't… now come on focus on guarding". The Alfa tried to move this alone.
"well it's just that story she told us about just wanting to go for a drive then staying at a motel it just kinda sounding like she….".
Seth wasn't looking at them a little annoyed at his two packs mates for complaining about his sister. "yeah we get it you both don't like her move on". he said harshly before walked ahead of them.
"wait Seth we're sorry, we weren't trying to…. bitch about her. we just…. We just…".
"just forget it". he said to them now running further along in to the woodlands away form his pack.
Both buys stared after Seth in shock. It was really, really rare that Seth would lash out. So rare that it was almost unheard of. some people didn't even believe that he could get upset and angry about things. Kind of like the lock Ness monster. You hare about it sometimes but just never see it. but the one difference between Seth occasional lashing out and the lock Ness monster. Is that no one and I mean no one went looking for an angry Seth.
Jacob noticed how shocked both boys looked and turned to them. "hey guys….. don't sweat it okay…. he's just under a lot of stress. Leah is…. We just don't know what to do. she's always throwing up, she's always cold. One of us hast to help her stand up and walk because she's always so tired to do it…. it's just….. it's just real bad. And Seth doesn't know what to do".
"geez we didn't know it was that bad". Embry said with a guilty tone.
"yeah… we knew that she was sick but….. does she really need help walking?". Quil frowned in his wolf form.
"yeah….. she can hold on to the wall and walk but we prefer to be there with her. it's been hard on both Seth and Sue….. ever since Harry…. Ya know…".
Both boys looked down.
"has she gotten any better?... like at all?".
"yeah… have you told Carlisle about her?... maybe he could help. There hast to be something he can do. I mean come on the dudes been a doctor for like four hundred years hasn't he. There must be something".
"yeah I told him".
"and what happened?". Both wolf looked at him.
"well he came over and had a look at her but he was on his way home from work so he didn't have any of his stuff on him. so he just told us that if she gets any worse call him up again and he'll come over".
"why not just take Leah over to the Cullen's?. wouldn't that be easier?. Maybe she could like…. Stay there until she feels better. It may not be a terrible idea. That way she'd have a doctor around here the whole time. plus you guys wouldn't have to help her walking around anymore. It's give you all a bit of a break".
Not it now Jacob's turn to stare at the two both. Embry was staring at Quil as well. 'really?... does he not know Leah?'.
"Quil…. Really think about what you just asked him….. and then really think about Leah".
"yeah Quil…. I mean we've thought about waiting for her to fall asleep then bringing her to the Cullen's before she wakes up, so that Carlisle could really look at her. without needing to stop. But then we remembered who we were talking about and decided that, that would not be the best way to help her. lets face it she wouldn't take likely to waking up in a house fall of vampires. Of whom she doesn't even like….. so we've, made it our last option".
"yeah Leah really doesn't like the Cullen's does she". Embry said.
"yeah especially Bella. Leah never really forgave her for hurting Seth that day when she was trying to hurt you".
"oh yeah I forgot about that. wow Leah still hasn't let that go. I thought she would of by now".
It was Quil turn to stare at Embry. "really…. Leah….. you really believe that Leah was just gonna let Bella hurting her younger brother go?... really…. Leah?".
"well yeah I guess your right….. you got me there". Embry shrugged.
"well now you both see why see we've made going to the Cullen's are last resort. I think it be safer for everyone if we for now we just keep Leah away from them. plus I don't think we'd ever hear the end of it if we did".
Both boys agreed.
"have….. have you guys…. told Sam any of this?". Quil asked.
"yeah does he know how bad she really is?. I know that their not together any more but it's just… he may want to know?". Embry asked.
"yes and know…. he knows that she's sick just not how bad. We didn't want to talk about Leah with anyone because we didn't think she's want anyone to know her business…. Especially Sam".
They kept walking.
"so…. Where's Leah now?".
back at the house.
Leah was sitting on her bathroom floor, staring in to nowhere.
'how…how…..how…how…how…how…how…how could this have happened'.
She looked down at the two little pick lines on the stick she held.
Tissues and tooth brushesweren't the only things she'd gotten at the store that day. she kept glancing down at the stick every few moments not able to take her eyes away from it.
'This wasn't proposed to be possible. I wasn't able to get…. . This wasn't supposed to happen… with a vampire.
She felt tears in her eyes when she looked back down at the stick.
"I can't believe it…. I can't believe it'.
'I'm pregnant'.
'with a vampires baby'.