also please note that I do have dyslexia. I'm not ashamed of it because it is something I cannot control but I am self-conscious about it. so a lot of my words are miss pelt and many, many of the sentience's are a little back to front. I can't tell you the amount of time I've gone to reread something that I have wrote but couldn't even understand what I was trying to say.

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Be my baby chapter 3. Cry baby by Janis Joplin.

Leah spend the better half of the day walking around her bedroom trying to figure out what she wanted to do. 'well I'm keeping it, I have to keep it this could be my only chance. How could I not. But it's how I'm going to keep it that getting to me. What do I tell the others?. how do I tell my mum?. How do I tell my brother?. And Jacob…. He's the one I'm most worried about. he's the one who's gonna be taking this the hardest. Well under me. I'm the one who's gonna be taking this the hardest. I'm the one who's pregnant, I'm the one who's with child. I'll be the one going through all the morning sickness and the back pain and the delivery. But that's only if I don't die before hand. Because I have to be honest here….. this baby may kill me. Because there's no way in hell I'm drinking blood like some whiny idiot who shall reline nameless'.

For a moment she felt guilty…. not about Bella, she didn't care about her. about her baby.

'well if I had to…. I would. I'd drink blood for my baby. but only if I absolutely had to. cos if not I'm not going anywhere near it'. she went over to her bed and sat down on it was her hands on her face in defeat. 'what am I gonna do'.

'you could call him'. her inner monologue began to speak to her again.

'oh you'. she shut her eyes tightly. Wanting that stupid voice to piss off.

"yes oh me… I'm back'.'

'what do you want?'.

'to help'.

'why?'.

'because I'm you stupid. And this is happening to me just as much as it's happening to you'.

"fine then…. Then what do you suggest?.'

'calling him up'.

'no'.

'why not?'.

'because you know why. He's a vampire. Come on you know that you were there'.

'well he did give you his number….. he wants you to call him'.

'yeah that's right, he wants me to call him. he wants me to call him for sex. He doesn't want me to call him up telling him that I'm having a baby….. his baby. he isn't gonna want it anyway the asshole'. She scoffed.

'oh really'.

'oh yeah'.

'and you don't care that he isn't gonna want it then?'.

'what no I don't care what he thinks I don't care about him'.

'then why are you getting so upset?. If he doesn't want to be in our baby's life then why are you getting so worked up over it…. I mean… it isn't like you care'.

'no I'm getting worked up because father's should want to be in their child's life's. And I know this one isn't gonna want to be. I mean you met the bloodsucker. Do you honestly think that he'd want to be in our kids life….. my kids life?.'

'I think that there's no harm in calling him'.

'well I think there is'.

'well I think your being selfish'.

'how?... how am I being selfish?. I'm being selfish because I want my baby to be safe?. I'm being selfish because I care about my child?. i'm being selfish because I don't want my baby growing in Italy..'. she stopped again. coming to an scary realization. 'oh my god…. oh my god…. Oh my god….oh my god, oh my god, oh my god'.

'WHAT, SAY IT, SPIT IT OUT ALREADY'. The voice yelled.

'he's…. gonna want it'.

'see that's the spirit. Baby's needs fathers, even if his father is an bloodsucker he still deserves to know about his kid. People can surprise you'. Leah could hare the grin in the voices voice.

"no…. other him. that king guy Aro he's gonna want the baby… my baby…. he's gonna want my baby. he already wants me, just think of what's gonna happen when he finds out that I'm pregnant, with a hybrid just like Renesmee. Just more powerful because of it's father being a vampire and it's mother being a shape shitter…. And what makes it all so mush worse is that the father of our baby… my baby damn it. is one of the guys who works for him. and he isn't just another vampire who is there just to be a part of his army either. He's one of the top dogs. He's one of the head guards in that mass murdering family. He's important'. Leah clapped her hands over her face and fell backwards on to her bed.

'is that the worst thing'.

She shot up. 'of course that's the worst thing. Why wouldn't that be the worst thing?. In what planet is that not the worst thing. I don't want our ba…. My baby growing up around vampires… wolf. Remember'.

'you wanna know what I remember from leaning about the volturi?'.

'no because I really don't care what you know or about what you think'.

'well since you asked so nicely'. It said.

Leah huffed and fell back on her bed.

'I remember being told that they live in an castle'.

'no they don't'.

'actually yeah… they do. they live in this big clock tower that as big as a castle. Right in the middle of Italy, and you've always wanted to go to Italy'.

'well I guess that true'.

'they have servants who wait on their every need. And because of how bad the king vamp would want you no one…. and I mean no one… would be able to lay a finger on you. you and…our….. baby will be completely safe. Then to top it all off the father will be in….. our….. baby's life'.

'but what kind of a life?'.

'a life were it's safe. And a life that can promise that. that Aro man will see this baby as a gift from god. You are the only female shape shifter slash were wolf in history. the guard is the best tracker in the world…'.

'how do you know that?'.'

'he told us that night remember?. Actually you know what….. you won't remember'.

'yeah that's not the only thing I don't remember'.

'so anyway… you the only women shape shifter. He's the only best tracker in the world. That mean…. Our….. baby will be very powerful. Not to mention one of a kind. and that's just what the doctor ordered'.

There was a long silence.

'ha… I'm getting to you aren't I…. aren't I?'.

'you're not making… absolutely terrible points'.

'HA'.

'but'.

'but what'.

'but that doesn't change the fact that they are still vampires'.

'honey'.

'what'.

'… our baby is a vampire…. Or at least half'.

'shit'. She felt like she wanted to cry. 'I'm meant to hate them… and now I'm about to have one. how am I meant to raise a vampire baby when the only things I know about vampire is that I that them?. what am I meant to do when he wants to know why he's or she's craving blood?. Or when I have to explain to him or her why nobody wants anything to do with us because mummy slept with vampire. Where gonna be all alone'.

'but you know who will have something to do with you. you know who won't let you be alone'.

'… my family…'.

'Demetri'.

'are you really still on that'.

'after everything you just said you still don't want anything to do with him'.

Knock, knock, knock.

Leah shot up.

"Leah honey…. Can I come in?".

"yeah sure mum". She called.

Sue come in and smiled at her daughter. She went over to her and sat next to Leah on the bed. "how are you feeling today sweetheart?.

"fine". Was all she said.

Sue watched her for a moment. 'Leah did you need anything?. I.. I can get you a drink if you'd like?".

"mum…. That's so nice". She began to tear up. 'oh god please don't cry….. not now'. she said to herself. 'please don't notice'.

But Sue did. "honey".

"I'm sorry… I just…. I..".

Sue put her arms around her. 'please tell me what's wrong?".

"I'm just….. I'm just…. I'm just..". 'knocked up'. "…. I'm just feeling sick". Leah's eyes widen as she realized that she had to throw up again. she leaped off of the bed and bolted to the bathroom. She fell on her kneels and grabbed the toilet bowl.

After she's finished being sick she steadied herself. She carefully moved herself away from the toilet and lent against the wall. She shut her eyes and breathed. Sue came in and sat down on the opposite side of the smell bathroom.

The two sat in silence for a long time.

"honey I wanted you to know that there's gonna be a bon fire tonight".

Leah looked up at her.

"you don't have to come if that's something you don't want to do. I'd just thought I'd asked you. I know that you kinda like don fires before'.

It was true. One of the only things Leah actually enjoyed doing was going to the bon fires that were hosted on La push. Leah didn't know if it was the night time or the general feel of it but it was something that she didn't hate all together like most things. She didn't like all the people there but she mainly just hung around her with brother or with her mum. And the smell…. she loved the smell of the burning fire against the smell of the night air. It remind her of when she'd go camping with her dad. they'd sit in front of the camp fire all night. All the Clearwater family would stay up sitting in front of it. Seth would normally fall asleep first and, Sue and Leah would dose off on Harry as their parents would tell them story's.

"the fresh air might do you some good". Sue gave her a tiny smile.

'what the hell'. "yeah mum I think that I might".

"really?". Sue was shocked to the bone. "Leah I want you to know that you don't have to. the truth was I didn't really think you'd want to because of how you've been feeling".

"would you prefer if I stayed home?". The she wolf asked confused. 'she just said she wanted me there. What is this women playing at?'.

"no, no I do honey. I was just a little taken aback. But yes I'd love if you were to come along. you wouldn't have to walk around or socialize with anyone. You could just stay with me and Seth". Sue reached over to her and grabbed her hand. "or… if you decided that you didn't want to go me and you could just stay here and watch some movies". The mother smiled.

"mum…".

"no really we could have an movie night I wouldn't mind at all. It be like an girls night. We could order a pizza if you'd like. I know that you've had some trouble eating meat lately so we could get an Hawaiian".

"mum really that sounds great. But I'll be okay to go to the bon fire. It might end up being nice".

"oh honey I'm so happy to hear that".

"are you both alright?". they both looked up to see Seth standing in the middle of the bathroom's doorway.

"yes Seth where fine". She looked back at her daughter. "Leah had decided that she would like to come to the bon fire with us tonight".

The young wolf paused. "I'm sorry what?". He almost looked angry.

"Seth what's wrong?". Sue asked her son.

"what's wrong….. mum look at her". he gestured to his sister. "she can hardly walk and you want her to go to an bon fire. She's sick".

"Seth I'll be with her the whole time and the fresh air will do her some good".

"mum..".

"Seth really… I'll be alright". He looked at his sister. "it feels like I've been in this house for so long I need to get out of it for a while. Plus I'll be sitting down the whole time okay". she got up. Sue did the same. "it's one night and if I feel like shit you'll be the first to know okay". she held on to his shift sleeve. "I'll be fine… I'm a big girl".

"fine…. But I want you with me most of the time okay".

"Seth you don't have to stay me with the….".

"okay". he said a little slower.

"okay". she repeated.

Arriving at the bon fire.

"this wasn't a good idea". Seth suddenly said from the back seat.

"Seth we've been over this..".

"no mum I think Seth has a point".

"see mum even Leah agrees with me".

"both of you hush. Were already here". she parked on car then turned to her kids. "Leah if you really feel bad we can go home…. But where already here. so how about we give it ten minutes and if you still feel sick then we can go home".

"okay". the she wolf nodded.

"Leah… are you sure. Cos say the word and I'll take you home right now. okay I can carry you again". Seth asked her.

"that's nice Seth but mum's right we're already here. might as well just hang out for a while. And when was the last time you were out of the house?. You've been taking much good care of me…. And you to mum. It's time you both have a night off from me so come on". she opened her care door and hoped out. But before she could take an step Seth was already out of his seat and had a hold of her so she wouldn't fall.

"Seth".

"Leah". he shot back at her.

She gave in and lent on to him.

"all ready you two?". Their mother asked the pair.

They both nodded. "good then let's go". They went on their way.

A few minutes later.

They made it to the bon fire, Sue went over to say hello to Billy and the first thing Seth did was help Leah sit down. "Seth thank you but really you don't have to do this. I am more than capable of sitting down on my own". She gave her brother a small smile.

"well I wanna help you". he next down decide her.

"Seth if you wanted to go and see the guys you can. I'll be fine here".

"well maybe later okay. I'd rather just sit down here with you". he grinned back at her. "do you want something to eat?. I know that your not great with meat lately but they have fruit and veggies… and rolls. I could get you some potato sailed if you'd like. You could make an potato sailed roll".

She was feeling kind of peckish. Well to be fair she always feeling peckish now. because of all her morning sickness she was constantly throwing up so there wasn't anything in her stomach. But every time she would want to eat something she'd go to get something from out of the frigid and the moment she'd smell the food she was done. It was like she was hungry but the second she remembered what food was she was sick all over again.

"maybe later puppy okay…. but thank you". she could feel her hormones began to kick in. 'no please not here. the last thing I need is for any of these jackassas here on the beach needed to see me cry. Their all just gonna think it's because Sam and Emily are here then that's just gonna add fuel to the fire. More and more people are just gonna assume that I'm still pining over Sam and that he's the reason I ran away. Pa stupid Paul, going around telling everyone that I ran away when he bloody well knows that isn't true. Seth had told me when he had gotten back from patrolling that it had been Paul telling everybody that I'd ran off. He was here when I told them all that I just went for a dive. And even if I didn't run away why would I come back the next day?. that doesn't make any sense. The jerk'. She quickly turned away form her brother to wipe her eyes. Trying to come up with a way to distract from the fact that it was getting harder and harder to control her emotions. 'what to do, what to do. come on you don't want anyone seeing you upset'. Then she had an idea. she grabbed him by the shirt and roughly pulled him to her. she planted a kiss on his head knowing that he hated when she did that.

"Leah". he whined.

She laughed and lightly punched him on the shoulder. They both laughed in that sibling way they do. the continued to next side by side when the she wolf looked up at the beach. "Seth everyone is looking at me". It was true. Not every single person at the bon fire but a lot of them would keep glancing at her then turning away. Thinking that she couldn't see them.

"Lee just ignore them. they'll get bored soon, I'm sure they'll all find somebody else to stare at".

The she wolf laughed. "thank you Seth I'm sure they would". just as she finished speaking her stomach began to quickly growl. "Aw". She said grabbing at it. "shit that hurt". Lately when her stomach would began to crawl it would be a bit painful. It wasn't like that before she got pregnant. She didn't know what was causing it but whatever it was she didn't think it was good.

"Lee what's wrong are you okay?. do I need to get mum?. I'll get mum". Right before he could get up the she wolf grabbed his shirt. "Leah….".

"Seth I'm fine… my ba….. my stomach's just hungry". She cursed herself she coming so close to slipping. 'this is not the place or the time for him to find out I'm with child. You idiot'. "I think I might go for that potato roll". 'come on, come on, come on, come on please don't ask me about my slip. Please don't ask me why I almost started the word stomach with a B. and if he does figure it out…. Don't make an scene. Don't start to shout please, please, please. Not here. not her with the packs and the imprints and all the other people living on the Rez'. The she wolf crossed her fingers.

"yeah sure Lee". He said without a second thought.

'yes'. She mentality high fived herself.

"is there anything else you'd like?. "drink of water?... drink of soft drink?".

"a banana".

"a banana?".

"yeah…. Two of them".

"umm okay". he got up and turned to her. "you know you've been eating a lot of banana's lately". He shrugged not caring and running off to go get them some food.

The she wolf pulled her kneels up to her chest and rested her head on them. she looked straight ahead and stared at the ocean. She didn't want to make eye contact with anyone. She didn't want anybody to think that her making eyes contact with someone was her giving them an invitations to come over to her and want to talk. So she sat on the beach looking at the waves in the sea. A gust of air blow towards to making her get a strong whiff of sea water and fire.

She froze.

'no, no, no please not now. I can't be sick now. I wouldn't be able to hide that here". she throw her hand over her mouth. 'fuck this can't be happening. I should of just stay home. Mum did give me an out. But know… I just had to decided to come'.

Seth came back holding two plants of food. He plopped down next to her like before. "there you go. I got you your two banana's. they were the only two left". He looked up to see that she looked worried. "Leah what do you need me to do?".

"Seth I'm gonna be sick again".

Without hesitant the young wolf jumped up from the sand and help her up. "you're gonna be okay I'm gonna take you to the tree line". He grabbed her arm so he could hold her up. He asked if she wanted him to carry her but she refused. Because of not wanting anyone to see he like that. they almost made it there when they head a voice from behind them.

"Seth, Leah". they turned to see Jacob running over to them. "what's going on".

"nothing". The she wolf answered.

"she said she was feeling sick again so I'm being her over to the tree line. She didn't want anyone to see her".

"okay I'll go get Sue".

"no don't do that". the she wolf rubbed her head. "I don't need her to be here I just feel kinds sickly okay. it isn't something that she needs to worry about. I just need a few minutes okay". just as she was about to turn they all heard another voice.

"well look who it is". They looked over to see Paul standing here with a smirk. "it's been awhile".

"Paul". Jacob started but the other wolf didn't give him a chance.

"so…. how are you feeling?".

"fine bye Paul". She went to turn but he wasn't done.

"so… when are you gonna stop?". He crossed his arms.

She signed. Both boys clenched their jaws at their former pack mate. "Paul". Seth growled.

"no really…. I wanna know how long until she stops this shit".

She turned back to him. "I'm not faking".

"oh really?".

"oh yeah".

"oh really?... because if you are a swear to god that….".

"what Paul?.. what…. What are you gonna do?. why would you even care if I was or not?".

"because I don't want to keep picking up the slack. The slack that you coursing. I don't want to keep missing my time with Rachel all because you can't get over Sam leaving you for Emily. Lee this shit is getting real old".

How Seth wanted to punch him at that moment. 'how dear he speak to her like that. can't he see that I have to hold her up because she's to weak to stand on her own. Has he really always been this selfish?... this stupid?'. "PAUL". Seth yelled. Drawing a little attention from the beach, but not to much. "leave my sister alone". He said in an low voice. "don't you ever talk to her like that just because your annoyed that you had to pick up two extras shifts of patrolling. I mean that is your job isn't it. and what do you and her even talk about….. really?". Leah rubbed her brothers arm.

"Paul… just go annoye someone else will ya". Jacob brushed him off and stood on the other side oh Leah ready to help her if she needed it.

Paul went to walk off when Leah stopped him. "wait". She took a few steps ford, frowning that her former pack mate. "I'm gonna need you to stop it".

"stop what". He laughed not knowing what she was talking about.

"stop telling people that I ran away when you damn well know I didn't".

"Leah… come on. that story…".

"was true…. I went for a drive…. I got lost. I decided to spend the night at a motel. That's all. There's nothing left to talk about but that's seems to be the only thing you're talking about".

"Leah….. we all know the truth".

"and what would that be?". It was Leah's turn to cross her arms.

"we all know that you can't stand Sam and Emily together. We all see the way you look at him. we've all been inside your head. You still love him and because of that we all have to be miserably. You hate seeing how much Sam loves her. you hate knowing that if he had the choice he more than likely wouldn't of changed a thing. The love he had for you couldn't compare, doesn't even come close to comparing to the love he now has for her. you can keep telling yourself that he was happier with you but you'd just be lying to yourself. you can't stand to see them so you ran off and not because you wanted to go. No… it was because you just wanted attention. And the reason you came back was because you finally realized that no one was gonna come looking for you… and you wanna know why Leah?...".

"PAUL SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH YOU DUMB SHIT". Seth yelled.

"because no one can love you".

Smack.

Within seconds he was on the ground. Seth had come up and punched him right in the face. Leah would of wanted to do it but she wasn't as strong as she was before… and she wanted to hurt him. and without arm strength she knew that she wouldn't be able to do that.

"what the fuck Seth". Paul said holding his nose.

"I did tell you to not talk to my sister like that".

Jacob smirked from behind them. enjoying the way Seth was defending his sister. "Seth". The she wolf suddenly said.

"Leah what is it?".

She paused. 'oh no'. she tried to turn away but wasn't fast enough and vomited… all over Paul. She covered her mouth and stared at what she had done. 'whoops'. She said to herself.

The other wofd laid there in horror. "what did you do". but he she wolf didn't get to respond because of all the laughter erupting behind her. she turned around to see her brother and Alfa almost on the floor.

"FUCK YOU ALL". Paul stood up and ran off. The only thing on his mind was having a long, long shower.

Leah placed her hands on her face. "shit I didn't mean to do that". she felt an arm around her. she looked up to see Jacob.

"hey won't worry about it Lee. He had it coming". Jacob gave her a sort smile.

"yeah Lee don't feel bad. Not after the way he spoke to you". he grinned back.

"did anyone else see that?". the two boys looked around.

"no Lee I think you good".

"good". She breathed in. then Leah had to grabbed on to her brother again because she stared to get dizzy. "hey guy… why don't to two go enjoy the bon fire and I'll just sit up here. away from the crowed".

"what no Leah where not just gonna leave you up here all alone". Jacob frown at her.

"yeah Lee why'd you think that we'd be okay with leaving you alone. With you being how you are?. Look did you want me to take you home?. Because I will?". He went to pick her up but her stopped him.

"no, no look. I am more then happy just to sit up here by myself. I honestly don't mind. You two go and have fun and if I need help I have my phone with me okay". she picked it out of her pocket and held it up to them. "see".

"Leah..".

"Seth really….. I'll be fine".

"Leah is this about what Paul said?. or it is because you don't want people seeing how sick you really are. Because if so either of those things matter. Fuck Paul and fuck everybody else. Who cares if any of the dip shits knows if your unwell or not. They don't matter".

"Jacob that's sweet it really is but I'm telling you….. I'm fine. Look I even brought a book with me". She seemingly out of nowhere pulled a book out from thin air. "you both shouldn't have to worry about me when you want to have fun..".

"but Leah…". Seth hated the idea of leaving his sister all alone. Though he knew that nothing would happen to her he still felt worried. The younger wolf knew that the other wolfs…. The other pack weren't gonna do anything to Leah. and that a vampire wouldn't have the balls to step foot on their land and snatch her. 'the Cullen's would have told us if the fancy vamps had come back. or if that Aro dude would have made the choice to take her or not. So I guess there really isn't anything for me to worry about'.

"Seth". She waved her phone around again. "I'll be alright".

"…. Fine. But I'm gonna cheek on you every few minutes okay.".

"fine, fine, that's fine". She kissed his forehead.

"we'll be back in a little while okay". Leah nodded at her Alfa.

"Leah did you want me to go get you another plat of food?. I think they got more banana's there?".

"no Seth I think I'll be okay". both boys nodded then walked off. Jacob to go talk to Quil and Embry. While Seth want off to find his mum and let her know what happened.

'well that felt good didn't it. we've been wanting to do that for a long time haven't we. Well maybe not the throwing up part but pissing off Paul in some other way…that was pretty great don't you think?'.

'oh no not you again".

'what do you mean oh no not me again?. we've already been over this we are the same person. besides….. you can't disagree with me…. Doing that to him felt pretty damn good..'.

'no it….'.

'it….. felt… pretty… damn….. good'.

Leah finally smiled at the voice in side her head. "fine…. It felt pretty good'.

'how good?'.

'damn good'.

'there you go….. now'.

'now what?'.

'…call him'.

'no, no way… not gonna happen'.

'your being unreasonable….'.

'no way not doing this again'.

'then when?... when will we do this?. Because that little baby in our belly isn't gonna stay in there forever. You will get bigger and you will need other people…. You will need your family. But you need to be honest with them'.

Leah was silenced.

'what he said wasn't true ya know…..'.

'who…..".

'don't who me you know who'.

The she wolf rolled her eyes at the voice.

'Paul…. What he said. people do love you and people do care'.

'I know that'. Leah looked down. '…. But..'.

'but what, no, no there are no buts. Your family will be there for you…. but only if you let them'.

Leah smiled. 'I haven't done that in along time. I remember when mum and me would talk about things all the time. it was almost like a hobby for us…you know what… I think you're right.

'hallelujah. She's seen the light. So….. when are you gonna do it?".

"do what?".

"tell them about Demetri?".

"WHAT?".

"what?".

"I am not telling them about that bloodsucker or anyone else for that matter'.

'but after everything you just said'.

'I meant I'd tell them about me being pregnant not about the father!'.

'but you'll have to at some point. The kid will more than likely be here in like what?. Three, four months. I mean that's how long Bella was with child for wasn't she?'.

'oh shit'. She felt like she was gonna pass out. 'I didn't even think of that. when I thought about being pregnant I thought about a normal pregnancy…..'.

'why?'.

'because to think about a freak pregnancy. I'd have to think about Bella and I don't like thinking about Bella. So I didnt'.

'okay. I get that. fair enough'.

'I thought that I'd have more time. more time to figure something out. But I don't have time. I don't have time at all. I can't tell my family anything, they wouldn't be able to understand this'. She felt like she was gonna have an melt down.

'no don't turn away from them because your scared of what they might think'.

'their gonna know that my baby daddy's a vampire. And then because we don't have any doctors who know about hour world. I'll have to go to Dr leech to deliver my baby. and Edwards gonna be there and he's gonna tell everyone about Demetri'. Leah stuck her hand to her forehead.

'it's none of their business..'.

'oh come on you've met them. they'll make it their business.'.

'none of this is good for the baby, you need to calm down'.

'why should I?...'.

'Because at the end of the day were still Leah. were still a daughter and a sister… this.. in here. is still a baby that needs a family…. Our family. Because who better'.

She lightly placed her hands on her stomach.

'Leah…..our baby needs a father… call him…'.

"Leah!". a voice called. Leah whipped her head up with a jump. Actually forgetting that the voice in her head wasn't a real person. And that real people were actually around her now. she looked up to see Sam. He come up to her. he was alone.

"hey Leah…. how are you?". he asked.

"hey Sam I'm okay". he was a little shocked that she hadn't given him some bitchy remake. He was so used to it that it by now that hearing her tell him to fuck off was more of a greeting.

"hey can I talk to you for a moment?."

"umm sure". She nodded at him.

He sat down next her to her on the sand. "how are you feeling".

"I'm fine… just kinda sickly".

"yeah, yeah I heard".

They sat in an uncomfortable quickness.

"Leah can I asked you something?".

"you just did".

"those few weeks ago…. When you..".

"Jesus Christ…. I did not run away". She said through clenched teeth. "I'm so sick of having this talk with everyone". She went to jump us but just as she was she got another wave of dizziness. And fell back down landing on her ass. "wow".

"shit Leah…". he got a little closer to her in concern. "would….. you like me to get Seth for you?".

"no…. I'm fine". She looked down, not wanting to look at him.

"Leah I'm sorry I didn't mean to piss you off. I just….fuck it. I'm an idiot I let Paul get to me". She froze. "look I know that none of this is about me okay. I know that. and I also know that I'm the last person who you want around. But I just wanted you to know that I'm here. I'm here for you, for everywhere you need…. If you let me?".

"no…".

He looked down. "that's okay I understand". He got up to go.

"your not the last person I'd want around".

He froze then he whipped around to her. because hearing that was the last thing he's ever expect her to say to him. 'ohhhhh no….. she's gonna say Emily isn't. I'd much rather have her mad at me then at Emily'. He braced himself for the worst.

"that would be Paul". Leah gazed up at her ex and softy smiled. "thank Sam…. That's really kind of you. but really….. I'm gonna be okay".

He so never so blind sided in his life... well maybe when he imprinted. he didn't see that coming.

"Leah… that's…. that's…". he really didn't know what to say.

"actually yeah Sam yeah there is something that you could do for me". Leah said.

"yeah Lee anything". 'she's gonna say get out of my life isn't she. Well it's my fault really. I walked in to it'.

"could you shut Paul up. He's been going around saying some shit that isn't true and I'm pretty damn close to killing him at this point". They both chuckled.

"yeah Lee… sure thing". He smiled at her. "this is nice". She didn't need to ask what he meant by that.

"yeah it is".

They didn't talk or look at each other. They just sat there.

Sat there until a gust of wind blow past them. the moment Sam's scent hit Leah, she left sick. He noticed. "Leah….. you good?".

"no". She shook her head and got up. Feeling a little dizzy but needed to get away from that smell. she got up and back from him.

"Leah talk to me what's wrong?".

"Sam do not take this the wrong way because the moment we just had was a really nice one. But if you come near me I'm gonna be sick". She held her hand out to stop him from coming any closer.

"wait Leah". she continued to try and move away from him.

"Sam I'm really trying not to be a bitch to you. but don't come near me".

"hey what happening?".

The she wolf looked up to see Seth and Jacob coming towards them.

'oh shit'. "nothing Jacob everything's fine".

"Leah are you okay?. did he do something to you?. SAM DID YOU DO SOMETHING TO HER?".

The older wolf put his hands up and stepped away from her. trying to show the younger wolf that he wasn't a threat.

"chill out Puppy. He didn't do anything. I started to feel.. wow". Leah then had to take a few steps away from her Alfa as he came close to her. she began to cough. "oh god Jacob get the hell away from me". She told him as she turned around to throw up. Jacob turned to Sam.

"what happened?". He throw his hands up.

"I don't know Jacob. One moment we were just sitting down talking. Everything was good. Then the next she got up and told me not to come near her because she was gonna be sick". Both of the older boys turned to the she wolf. Who was currently bent over a log. She then fell on to her kneels, looking like shit. Seth went over to her and knelt down next to her. he paused for a moment though. Worried the he'd make her sick as well.

"umm Leah…".

"what Seth?". She sounded defeated.

"do I smell….. okay?. just so I….. don't make you sick?".

She smelt him. "yeah… no. you do still smell like shit but still better then them two". She gestured with her head over to Sam and Jacob.

"I'll take that". Seth shrugged and got down to help her.

"Seth".

"yeah Lee?".

"I wanna go home now".

At home

Seth had been true to his word. The moment Leah said she wanted to go home he took her home.

And like he said…he carried her all the way.

Sam and Jacob had gone to let sue know that her son was taking Leah back to the house.

he made it her their home. He walked in and made his way up the stairs and to her room. He carefully placed her on her bed and throw a blanket over her. he walked out in to the bathroom in the hall to grab her a bucket. He wanted to put it next to the bed for her, so in the middle of the night if she needed to get sick, she could. 'I'd rather have her be sick in to a bucket instead of on the floor. So when the next time she gets up she doesn't have to worry about standing in her own puke. And so we don't have to step in it either. Plus the smell. what if the smell were to it in to the carpet. Then she'd be in an room all day that smells like vomit. And we'd have to be in an house all day that smelled like vomit….no one wins'. He placed it down next to the bed then left the room. He walked down to the kitchen and opened the fridge. 'I better get her a glass of water. Just in case'. He got her, her water and went back up to her room.

Once inside he noticed that she was now fast asleep. he placed her water down on the bed side table to left. leaving her bedroom door agar, so he could check on her ever once and awhile.

Later.

"I think we should call Carlisle'. Jacob was leaning on the stairwell talking with Sue and Seth. Sam had also come along. Wanting to know what was going on. he had been told that Leah wasn't feeling great lately. And he was ashamed to say it but he had let Paul get in to his head. He had considered that maybe Leah was acting this way because of the wedding coming up. And she did just want attention, so she could ruin Emily and his's day. he told himself that, that wasn't true though….. and now he wishes he shouldn't of listened to that voice in his head.

"yeah mum I agree with Jake. but…".

"but what Seth?". The Alfa asked.

"I think it should be tomorrow. I wanna let her sleep. Tonight kinda took it out of her".

"okay so it's settled. Jacob you call Dr Cullen tomorrow. I'll take the morning off work so I can be here for him". sue said.

"I wanna be here to mum. If there is something wrong with her I wanna know what it is".

"fine Seth you can be here".

"yeah I wanna be here to". Jacob turned to Sam. "do you think your pack could take over tomorrow for us".

"yeah I'll tell them".

"good thanks".

"do we tell Leah…..".

The foursome continued to talk. not knowing that Leah had woken up just down the hallway.

Leah's bedroom.

The she wolf had woken up to the sound of talking. She could figure out how she got back in her bed until she remembered that her brother had carried her back.

"oh yeah.". she placed her hands on her stomach.

'what are you gonna do now?'.

'….. I don't know…..'.

'yeah you do'.

Leah turned her head to see her phone, blinking away on the bedside table.

'if he doesn't care then you have nothing to worry about do you. him not being in our baby's life… that's what you wanted right?'.

'yep… that's what I wanted. So….. do I dare?'.

She waited for her inner monologue for it's in put but nothing. 'what?... nothing to say now…of course. On my own again'. she slowly sat up. She didn't want the bed to creak so the others wouldn't hare her. Leah reached for her phone. 'shit there did I put his number?'. She looked around to see the jacket she was wearing that night. 'that's right. He put it in my jacket pocket'. She got up and grabbed her jacket and ran back to the bed.

"well here you go…. If you do this there's no turning back…..what's done is done'.

She put the number in her phone and waiting.

Ring, ring, ring.

'come on, come on, come on.

Ring, ring, ring.

'come on, come on, come on.

Ring, ring, ring.

'fuck, fuck, fuck I can't do this. What was I thinking I can't tell him about this…'

"bene ciao amore mio".

'shit'. She coursed herself. 'well too late now'. "Demetri…it's Leah.. the wo…".

He cut her off. "oh I know who you are il mio amore". She could hare the smirk in his voice.

'oh how much I'd like to slap…'.

"sapevo che non potevi tenermi lontano da me..".

"speak English". She told him angrily.

"so cosa dolce…. What can I do for you?".

"are you alone?".

"I'm in an hallway".

"would everyone be able to hear us".

"ohh sex talk". He smirked.

'god'. "no I mean would anyone be able to hare us talking because this is important".

"okay, okay I'll go to my chambers if that makes you feel better.". she heard a whooshing sound then a door close. "okay bel Amico. We're alone now….. all alone.. what to do what to do?".

"oh my god shut up".

The tracker chuckled. "what was it you needed she wolf".

"well first of all I'm only telling you this because we…I think you have the right to know. not because I want you to know…. understand?".

He felt confused. "no… but keep going".

"secondly I'm not asking for anything…..anything at all. Kay?".

"kay". he echoed. He waiting for her to talk but she didn't. "lupo what is this….".

"I'm pregnant".

They spoke at the same time.

"what?". was all he said. "no your not". He said quickly in disbelief.

"well I am so…. look I'm not asking you for anything. I don't want your money I don't you here helping me Because I can do this my own. I just wanted you to know because of you being the father. So…. that's all. I'm fine….. I don't need any help what's so ever. Me and the baby are gonna be fine. Just us. on our own".

There was a thick silence.

"okay…..so now you know….. good bye then". She hung up without another word. Then almost immediately began to cry. 'see I'm fine'. She thought as she was wiping her nose.