To Love Again

Chapter 7

Elena sighed as she concentrated on her wine glass very hard. She was tempted to have a drink or two, but she knew it would just send her down on a spiral of depression, so she decided to do the only thing she knew how to do. She called Damon to see if he wanted to hang out. She knew this wasn't good for her, but she knew she just couldn't get enough. Being close to Damon was like being close to Stefan all over again and she didn't want to lose that feeling.

After Damon had agreed to come and hang out, Elena ran to the mirror and tried to fix her hair a little bit. Usually she didn't care what Damon thought about her appearance, but she actually wanted to look good today. She sighed at her outfit and went upstairs to change. She had to have something better than over sized tee shirts and mom jeans. She wanted to feel sexy for one. She needed to feel sexy for once.

She picked out a nice sun dress and a pair of sandals that would have to do just as the doorbell rang and she rushed downstaris to open it. She was just glad her kids were with their grandparents today or else she didn't know how she would explain spending this kind of time with their uncle Damon. She threw open the door and gave him a hug. She didn't know why she was so excited to see him.

"Hey. What's wrong?"

"I miss Stefan a lot today. It's not as bad when the kids are here, but their with their grandparents today."

"Say no more. Come with me I have an idea."

Elena nodded as she grabbed her keys and a light jacket and followed Damon to his car. She just wondered where he was taking her. She expected a lot of places. What she didn't expect was Damon taking her to a playground.

"Why are we at a playground?" she said turning to him.

"This is the playground me and Stefan used to go to when we were kids. I thought you would appreciate being in a place where Stefan and I used to go together."

"There are just so many things I don't know about you and him as brothers."

"Some things are better left unsaid Elena. Now come on. Let's have a little fun."

Elena laughed, but wondered what exactly had happened to tear both Stefan and Damon apart like this. She decided to drop the subject for now, but he couldn't avoid telling her forever.

Elena got out of the car as she looked around the playground.

"So how are two full grown adults going to have fun at a playground without looking like total weirdos?"

Damon got closer to her which made her breath catch. Why did his eyes have to be so blue?

"Easy."

He slapped her on the arm and she cried out.

"Ow what was that for?"

"Tag, you're it. Try to catch me if you can."

"Are you serious?" she asked laughing.

"What are you scared?"

"Not a chance." she said tagging him back.

They chased each other around until her foot caught on something and they fell together with her on her back and him on top of her. After her intial shock she looked up into his blue eyes that's when her senses came cack to her. Damon was on top of her and his hand had landed on one of her breast. She felt herself getting suddenly turned on as she felt him do the same she should have rolled away right there and then but she just couldn't stop herself.

She tilted her chin so that their lips were almost touching. It was time for Damon to do the rest. His head lowed and his lips were almost on hers when she felt the water splash both of them. They both got up so fast that the sexual tension was now gone. What the hell had she been thinking?

"Are you okay?" he asked suddenly aware of his surroundings.

"Yeah i'm fine. Sorry I dragged you down with me."

"It's fine. I can take it. Here let me take you home so you can relax and get out of those wet clothes."

If they were on a date Elena probably would have asked if he was volunteering to help with that, but she bit on her lip and followed him to his car. Obviously this hang out was officially over. Why had she done something so stupid? She should feel ashamed of herself, but it still shocked her how much she wanted to kiss Damon. She would just have to see where it went when they got back to her house.

When that happened he turned off the car and walked her to her door.

"Thanks for today. I had fun. I'm sorry though." she said.

"For what?" he asked

"For almost kissing you."

Damon shrugged. " I wouldn't worry Elena. We were just caught up in a moment."

Elena inhaled and exhaled. " Yeah. Yeah. You're right. I mean what were we thinking."

"Yeah I mean Stefan was my brother and you're his wife. I mean we couldn't."

"Yeah."

And before she knew it her lips were on his and her back was pressed against her door. She knew she was drowning in her self grief right now but she didn't care. She wanted Damon. She wanted him. His hands cupped her boobs as she moaned into his mouth. That's what broke him. He pulled away as if she burned him and walked backwards towards his car.

"I'm sorry Elena. I-I should go."

Elena inhaled and exhaled as Damon got into his car and drove away. She went into her house quickly and slid down to the floor crying. What had she just done?