Hey Sorry for the long wait, life get in the way sometimes but I'll never abandon my stories. I had a hard time writing this chapter, got a little emotional but I was able to finish it. I know a lot of you are waiting for the chapter when Rick confronts Michonne about the baby but I just want to give you a few flash backs so you can understand the pain Michonne went through and the truth behind Ricks and Jessie relationship. Be Patient with me thanks for all the support.

The next morning Michonne woke up to an empty bedroom feeling very sore. She stretched her hand searching for the body that lied beside her the night before and found no one. She sighed with disappointment and slowly opened her eyes taking in her surroundings with a stifle yawn. She was still in Rick's bedroom with a sheet draping over her naked body. She tightened her hold on the sheet and searched the room for any sign of Rick. She didn't hear the shower running so she knew Rick wasn't here. She didn't like the feeling of being left alone. She could feel herself becoming vulnerable. She wonder where Rick could be, it was still early and she hope he wasn't getting into any more trouble. She shook her heading removing those thoughts from her mind. She stood up with the blanket covering her body and slowly moved around the room picking up her discarded cloths from her night with Rick. She put on her clothing and slowly cracked the door open to see if anyone was walking down the hall way. After seeing it was clear she dashed to her bedroom and quickly closed the door behind her. She leaned her head back against the door and thought about the night before, the night she felt her world changed. After picking up Carl and Judith from Carol, Rick wanted her to spend the night in his room. She didn't realize that spending the night with Rick would entail getting very little sleep. She touched the bruise on her neck remembering the struggle for power and the conquering of her body. Every couple of hours she would wake up to Rick wanting more of her body. She was exhausted but she knew he couldn't sleep and giving herself to him put his mind at ease. He was getting rougher with each time he took her, with every thrust she felt like he was trying to bury his guilt or anger deep inside of her. Now she was feeling the aftermath of their night together. Her body hurt from top to bottom but it didn't matter. For him, she would do whatever it takes to help him get through this. She would always be by his side and that's a promise she intends to keep. She needed to go take a shower before Judith woke up. She gathered up fresh clothing and headed straight to the shower.

Thirty minutes later, Michonne exit the bathroom and felt a small body grab her leg in a tight hug. She looked down and smiled at Judith. "Morning sweetie" She lifted Judith up and buried her face into Judith belly causing her to squeal with delight. "Where's your brother? It's not like him to leave you here by yourself." She asked as she ran her fingers through Judith hair.

"I'm right here" Carl chuckled from behind Michonne catching her off guard. She turned around to find Carl sitting on the floor smiling up at her with a comic book on his lap.

"Morning Carl, How long have you been up?"

"Not long, an hour or so." Carl replied with a look of exhaustion on his face.

"Why are you up so early? Couldn't sleep?" Michonne asked with concern. She bends down and touched his forehead checking to see if he had a fever.

"No, Dad woke me up before he left and I couldn't go back to sleep."

"Where did your dad go?" Michonne asked while looking down the hall way hoping Rick would show up any minute.

"He went to go check on Glenn at the infirmary" Carl mumbled and turned his attention back to the comic on his lap. He was tired of it all. He wanted his family to be safe but in a number of days since they came to Alexandria everything seem to be going wrong. He knew from the moment Noah didn't come back from the run that this place wasn't going to be his safe heaven. He wanted a fresh start so he tried putting Noah death behind him and being optimistic but with each day that passed it was becoming more difficult to be hopeful especially with the change he saw in Glenn. Every day he visited the infirmary hoping Tara would wake up from her head injury and brings back the light that diminished inside of Glenn but now Glenn was in infirmary suffering right alongside Tara. The one thing that Noah death and Glenn and Tara injuries had in common was Alexandria specifically Nicholas. He was tired of always being on guard, he just wanted to enjoy life in Alexandria and do what regular teens do for once.

"Why is Glenn in the infirmary?" Michonne asked with a look of distress.

"Dad said he got shot yesterday by Nicholas but he's going to be okay." Carl answered with a long sigh.

"Did he tell you why Nicholas shot him?" Michonne grip on Judith stiffen causing Judith to squirm against the pressure. Judith could feel the tension running through Michonne body and started whimpering. Michonne sensing Judith discomfort spread a few kisses on her cheeks and lessens her grip around Judith.

"No, he was in a hurry to leave, he just told me to relay the message to you." Carl said with a shake of his head. "Every day it's something, it's like we are never going to get a break. I just wanted us to be happy here but how can we when we always have to fight"

"I know things are not going the way we want it to right now but we're going to be fine. We just have to make this place stronger before we can relax and enjoy ourselves but with your father by our side it won't take long before everything falls into place."

"I know but I think you meant to say with you by our side things are going to fall into place. You the one that keeps my father sane which in turn help him to make the right decisions for our family as a whole." Carl smiled at Michonne.

Michonne return his smile and pulled Carl into a tight hug "I think we all keep each other sane and you all give me a reason to keep fighting" Judith grab one of Michonne dreadlocks and place it in her mouth. "I think someone is hungry" Michonne said with a chuckle. "Let's go have some breakfast and then we can all head over to see Glenn.

Rick visit with Glenn left him feeling more irritated and guilt-ridden. Everything that took place within the last few days had Rick feeling disoriented. He believed he was to blame for everything that happened to the members of his group which he considers his family. He felt like he was always bringing his family into dangerous situations because of his irrational thinking and his actions last night, killing the only doctor Alexandria had wasn't one of his best moments. He killed a father and a husband in a blink of a second because of some blinded obsession for a past love that was abandon and broken. What he and Lori had was long gone the moment she fell in love with Shane and even though at the end she choose him, he knew deep down she did it for Carl.

When he looked at Jessie he saw Lori staring back at him, the same look she give him the night he killed Shane was the same look he pictured on Jessie face. He had to make things right for Jessie now that he was feeling responsible for her and her children. He would be there for them and help them get back on their feet but his heart belongs to Michonne. His fascination with Jessie ended the moment Michonne said she would always be with him and let him buried himself into her. He started feeling sick to his stomach thinking about what he did to Michonne last night. He saw the bruises he left on her body and couldn't bear to be there when she woke up. He used her body repeatedly for his own relief that lasted into the early morning. He remember waking her up every couple of hours to satisfied his needs but what made it unbearable was how roughly he took her. She didn't complain or try to put a stop to his actions and he knew she wouldn't because she knew he needed this. They would do anything for each other but he regretted not thinking about her needs last night. She needed her rest but he was selfish, he just wanted to be buried inside of her and that's all he thought about, it had become an obsession. He remembers her whimpering from soreness when he took her for the final time that morning, he tried to pull out but she held on to him and told him not to stop. As he think of her now, he feel himself becoming hard with arousal. He wanted her again but she didn't deserve this and he didn't deserve her. He was making all the wrong calls and he didn't want to drag her down with him too. She deserves stability in her life and he couldn't give her that. She shouldn't be with someone as dangerous and unstable like him and with the man he had become it would be a matter of time before he hurt her. He loved her too much to put his needs before hers and he needed to end things with Michonne before his thoughts of hurting her become a reality.

Rick was standing the kitchen with his back turned to Michonne. He couldn't look at her, he knew looking at her would make him back out of what he was about to do. He took a deep breath and laid his hands on the counter in front of him trying to contemplate the words he was just about to tell the woman that he loved with all his heart and he knew he was about to break hers. His shoulder slump as his mind race through the conversation he was about to have with her. How could he do this to her especially after she willing give him her body over and over again. He took another deep breath and stared out the window waiting for the right words to come out his mouth, before he could get the words out Michonne touch his shoulder and he felt his body tense up. "Rick, what did you want to talk about?" She could sense something wasn't right with him and knew whatever he was about to say was not going to set well with her.

He moved her hand off his shoulder and took another deep breath. "Michonne, we can't continue like this."

"Continue like what?"

"We have to end whatever this is before it goes any farther." Rick whispered feeling himself about to choke up with emotion.

"What the hell are you talking about Rick? We already had sex, so how farther can it go?" Michonne asked while shaking her head in confusion.

"We have to end this before our emotions get any deeper and one of us gets hurt." Rick replied with his back still facing Michonne.

"You said you love me so how deeper can it get or were you just saying what you thought I wanted to hear so you could continue to fuck me."

"Michonne please don't say that" Rick pleaded

"You can't even fucking look at me" Michonne slammed her hands on the counter causing Rick to slightly jump from the noise. "Look at me and tell me you don't love me!"

"Don't do this Michonne" Rick sighed and rubbed his temple with his hands.

"Are you serious? You telling me not to do this when you're the one pretending what happen last night meant nothing to you." Michonne yelled.

"It was a mistake and am sorry" Rick couldn't believe those words were coming out of his mouth. it wasn't a mistake but he needed to say it so she could move on.

"What? What did you just say to me?" Michonne lowered her voice and felt the tears begin to fall.

"Last night, all of it was a mistake" Rick replied while pinching the bridge of his nose.

Michonne felt like she had been struck by Rick. The hurtful look on her face quickly disappeared and was replace by harden emotionless expression.

"Got it" Michonne turned away from Rick and about to leave the kitchen when Maggie entered with a fussy Judith. Maggie was behind the kitchen door the entire time listening to every hurtful word Rick threw at Michonne. The moment Judith started crying she knew her cover would be blown so she quickly entered the kitchen with the pretense that Judith needed Michonne.

"Hey Michonne I think she's looking for you" she handed Judith over to Michonne "Sorry I couldn't settle her down"

"It's okay, thanks" Michonne replied with a forced smile.

Rick quickly left the kitchen without sparing a second glance at Michonne.

"I know it's not my place to say but he hasn't been himself lately, don't take everything he says to the heart." Maggie said with pitiful look on her face.

Michonne bowed her head in shame knowing that Maggie heard her private conversation with Rick. She didn't know what Rick was doing to her. He was changing her, making her weak, emotional and vulnerable. Her brown eyes glister with unshed tears as she tried to cope with the deep pain she felt in her heart. She felt so stupid for opening up to him. "You heard everything?"

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to listen but I couldn't turn away." Maggie laid her hand on Michonne shoulder. "I know for a fact he loves you but you don't deserve to be treated that way."

"I feel like an idiot. What am I supposed to do, continue to live here with him and take care of his kids like their mine and then have them snatch away from me one day when he decided he find another woman to his liking?"

"I think you should start over. You can have a wonderful like here in Alexandria with us. You can meet someone new here, have your own kids and be happy here. You can start by packing your bags and moving in with me and Glenn."

"I can't" Michonne kissed Judith on the forehead "I can't leave the kids, they need me"

"I understand but your needs are important too. Those kids are just as much as yours as they are his, we can find a way to make this work."

"I'm not ready to leave them" Michonne whispered while stroking Judith face.

"Whenever you're ready, you will have a place to stay with us" Feeling her own tears about to shed, Maggie step forward and embraces Michonne.