Sasuke held my hand, his grasp was firm and authoritative, his skin soft. He lead the way to my apartment along my usual route that would pass by the library.
"I can't go this way, I'm supposed to be working...and how do you know where my place is anyway?" We paused by the large building and he guided me to the window, still grasping my hand.
"It's fine. Look inside." He replied casually, neglecting to answer my question. I peeked inside the remarkably transparent window that I had cleaned yesterday and could barely believe my eyes. There I was, a huge smile on my face, at the counter checking out books to a mob of elderly people. He seemed pleased that I was so visibly shocked when for him it was something so ordinary.
"Wh-what the…?" I couldn't stop looking at her…at me. All of the regular readers that found their second home amongst dusty old novels seemed equally fooled and how could they not be, she was my double.
There were two possible explanations- either I was going insane or he was a shinobi…how I wished I was going insane. My frown reflected in the window, it couldn't escape Sasuke's perception, he had seen such a look many times before in the mirror. Anger. Hurt. Loss.
My legs were whisked out from underneath me and he carried me like a husband would a wife, with the exuse that I'm too slow, all the way to my cosy home and over the threshold.
We sat together on the sofa like two ordinary people who hadn't hadn't sex the first time they met, more like old friends. I knew what he was going to ask me and usually I wouldn't have answered but I appreciated his direct approach, it let me know how things between us would always work- honestly.
"Why do you hate Shinobi?" It was one simple question that had so many answers, many of which had the possibility of offending him but his softened eyes encouraged me to tell the truth.
"They only bring trouble to the village, that's why it's in such a state. You've seen it, right? But it used to be a lovely, thriving village. Everyone works hard to rebuild the things they destroy but another group will come through again and wreck everything." Because Udon village sits on the border between the sound and fire countries renegade ninja, missing-nin, often pass through. Some for supplies or a place to rest, others for trouble. Sasuke was without a forehead protector just like them.
Sasuke nodded, to confirm that he had been listening but there were no sympathetic words or condolences for the people we had lost because of his kind. Instead he poured himself a glass of water from my bright pink pitcher on the coffee table, took a sip, handed the rest to me and said matter of factly, "It won't happen anymore." And I took his word for it and his drink.
Before my own questioning began be repositioned me onto his lap so that I was loosely straddling him, maybe it would help to keep his interest in any conversations he didn't really want to have.
"Can you tell me what that…umm…me was? Not that I don't appreciate a paid day off by the way." I grinned at him but he didn't return my toothy smile, he was mesmerised with my twinkling eyes. He had discovered a kindness in them that reminded him of the same unconditional love that his mother had given him every single day when he was a child. They were only very distant memories now.
"It's simple Ninjutsu, just like that snake on your leg the other day." His hand mimicked the trail the serpent had taken, squeezing my thigh and trailing my the tender inside of my leg towards my concealed warmth. I squirmed at his ticklish touch and giggled, he had scared me so badly with that little trick! Why had he done it? Had there been anyone else that he'd touched with his snake?
He caught the uncertainty lingering in my eyes, our whirlwind of passion had cooled to a gentle breeze long enough to make us both realise the awkwardness in the room, especially coming from Sasuke. He didn't want a relationship, just a little stress relief from training all day long but here he was clutching hold of me, a girl he didn't know, reluctant to let go. It was the same for me, he made everything else in my life seem pointless like I had been drifting aimlessly through up until meeting him, I had no intention of letting such an addictive passion I hadn't experienced before slip away. I was ready to devote myself to him as long as I knew exactly who I was going to be living for.
"Sasuke?" he was in my arms and yet he seemed so far away, his eyes were so distant. I wondered who or what he was looking back on, he had turned his back on something important, something that he didn't want to share. I had to respect that, we all have painful things in our past that hurt too badly to talk about.
"C'mon, interrogation's over." He got up and followed me to my bed obediently. Every inch of him was so cold, I let it overcome me- it froze my body, my bones, even the blood in my veins until we were entwined within the darkness that constantly surrounded him. It was only then that I could see how alone he had been living, floating in an eternal abyss of black.
He clutched me so tightly that his nails dug into my skin, he had discovered a way to appease the loneliness- me. Life burst back into his eyes and in the same moment he pressed me against my bed- our bed, stretching his body over mine. He rested his forehead on mine staring deeply into my eyes, he knew that nobody could ever understand his brokenness and flaws or the road of darkness he had chosen to walk down but he could see that I was willing to hold his hand through it.
"My name is Uchiha Sasuke, I'm from Konoha and I'm the survivor of the Uchiha clan, massacred by my brother- the man I'm training to kill. I can't promise you anything. I don't want a relationship. This is… just is what it is...Ok?" His words were harsh but his touch was tender, his fingers caressed my cheek whilst he spoke almost affectionately.
"Fine by me." I agreed decisively. He didn't have to tell me anything but he had chosen to which meant something at least. Then a thought suddenly popped into mind, my body tensing underneath him was irritating, it would make what he had in mind next a little difficult.
"What?" he sighed, his fingers now delicately tracing the love bites that he had marked me with earlier, it made him feel proud that the rest of the world would be able to see that I belonged to him even when he wasn't around.
"Am I the only one?" He looked at me like I had just asked the most stupid question in the world.
"Obviously. My first and last." I stared at him in disbelief, of course I understood the words but they were making no sense. He had been a virgin? With the way I, a complete stranger, had melted so easily infront of him it didn't seem possible. And his skills- he was like a sex master!
My silence didn't faze him, he was already undoing the last button on my shirt and kissing the bare flesh it had revealed.
Anthologylover- We all love a kinky Sasuke! ;) Thanks for reading! x
Ruby720- He does like her deep down but he won't admit it because he wants to focus on avenging his clan. Next chapter there will be a date ;) Thanks for reading! x