AN: Chooo chooo! Smutt and feels ahead!

"You know you don't have to go home. We can go anywhere you want." Kylo mumbled his chin resting on top of Reys head as they started their decent. "Your spring break starts Monday; we could go to Florida like other college kids."

"Not really in the partying mood, Kylo." Her voice was monotone.

"Right, of course, I'm sorry." He cleared his threat and placed a kiss on the spot his chin had been. Fucking idiot! He could kick himself for being so insensitive.

Finally, the plane touched down, but they didn't move. It was really snowing now, which in March was not uncommon. For a moment they laid there just watching it out the jet window. If she wanted to stay here all night, he would be okay with that. This vulnerable woman in his arms had been through so much because of him. He wondered if what happened with her dad back home would have even happened if he wasn't in her life. But then again, an addict is an addict and will always put their habit first.

The pilot came through the cabin door, disturbing the firm silence, "I'm sorry Sir but we can't sit her, we have to put all planes away due to the weather."

"We will be going then, thank you for the last-minute flight." With Rey still snuggled into him, he shifted to pull out his wallet and handed him the black card to tip the crew. Rey sighed watching the exchange before getting up and stretching. Kylo quickly got up too, his arm was sore from her resting on it for hours. Before Rey could grab her one bag, he snatched it up. Reys eyes flickered up to his and she smiled softly as if to say thank you. He was always such a gentleman. Carefully they walked off the plane. Kylo clutched her small frame to him so she wouldn't fall. And as expected he opened her door letting her slide it.

Rey sat there alone for a moment while he threw the bag in the trunk. As soon as she was alone, bad thoughts came creeping in, even though it had only been a few seconds. Those few seconds where over when he climbed into the warm, preheated car. Instantly she reached for his hand and was comforted when he gave it to her. "Kylo?"

"Hmm?" he squeezed her hand as he started driving off the tarmac to the road.

"You said we can go anywhere I want right?"

"Well yes but the plane is already-"

"Can we go to your place?" she blurted out, cutting him off.

"Of course, darling." He raised her hand and kissed her knuckles. Just those three reassuring words and her shoulders relaxed. Rey was the walking definition of daddy issues. From her crippling anxiety about men to her severe early on attachment issues, Kylo was an insatiable man pulling out the worst in her. It wasn't her fault; it was her fathers and the life he engrained in her head from a young age. She tried so hard to be independent, not to cling to Kylo Ren. But twice now she had asked him to come save her ass and after the events of today she didn't want to be alone. Maybe because she was officially all alone with no family. You mean nothing to me, she winced at the words she had said to her father. She didn't regret them, but those words made it official, she was alone in the world. Not like her dad was ever there for her in the first place, but the thought of having someone else out there had been comforting. Now she was spiraling.

Ill do anything for you, Rey. His voice was in her head even though he wasn't speaking. She had already memorized his voice and way to often did she imagine it. she didn't like admitting it but, he had done more for her in the last month than anyone had in her entire life.

Suddenly her car door opened. She blinked staring up at Kylo and his open hand, lost in trance she hadn't realized they had arrived. She took his hand like usual and exited the car. He wrapped an arm around her waist and guided her to the elevator but instead of going to his floor she saw he pressed for the lobby.

"Why aren't we going to your room?" she looked at him confused.

"I have something at the front desk for you." he could barley hide his smile.

She narrowed her eyes, "Kylo, I really hope you didn't get me a present."

He swopped down and captured her lips in a gentle kiss till the anger left her face. "You'll see." He murmured against her lips. She could argue with him when he kissed her like that.

The elevator dinged and they walked up to the desk where a beefy security guard sat. without saying a word he handed over a small box with a bow on top. Rey was very confused when he handed it to her. "Wait till we are in my place to open it." he gave her another quick kiss before pulling her into the elevator. Whatever was in the box Kylo was very proud of. It was way to light to be jewelry. She eyed him quizzically till the door dinged for his floor. Still smiling ear to ear he pulled her in and sat her bad on the counter. "Okay, open!" he stood before her arms folded with a smirk.

Just to draw it out she slowly undid the ribbon, then slid off the box lid and ripped the tissue paper only to fish out a white key card. Rey gasped and looked at it eyes wide.

"It's a key to my apartment." He looked like a kid on Christmas.

"What?" her voice was breathless as she stared at it.

"I thought since we are dating-" his confidence was shrinking the longer she stood there shocked.

"I am not moving in with you." she was curt.

he paused and then burst into laughter, "Rey I have learned not to wound your pride. I'm not asking you to move it. its just a key so you can come and go as you please."

Rey could feel her checks turning to fire. Of course, silly girl. "Wait you trust me with this?"

He leaned against the counter still smirking. "Of course, I do. Why shouldn't I?"

A wave of emotion consumed her, the urge to kiss him in that moment was too strong. She threw the box aside and slammed the key on the counter, closing the space between him and pressed her lips firmly to his. Her fingers dove into his hair as she pulled his head down to her level. The confidence took both her and Kylo by surprise, but he wasn't complaining. He grabbed her hips and pulled her flush against his body as he licked at her lips asking for more. She would give him more; she would give him whatever he wanted because he had given her the best gift possible. His trust.

Her lips parted for him and he tasted her. The kiss was deep, and Rey felt like her soul was on fire. She was on her tippy toes trying to be as close to him as possible. Their teeth clashed and his fingers dug into her hips. She nipped at how lower lip, withdrawing a growl from his chest. He was turning her into something wild. Her kisses left his mouth and moved down to his jaw.

"Rey." The way he said her name in a low rumble only spurred her on as she left trails of kisses down to his neck. Her fingers left his mop of hair to make work of his buttons on his shirt. Rey latched onto his neck leaving marks as he rubbed her ass. "Rey, lets go to the bedroom."

"No." she whispered in his ear; her breath warm. "Right here and its my turn to taste you I think." She placed another kiss to his neck. This Rey was new and good lord it turned him on. to see her breaking her shell and taking the lead. Even though he wanted to be in charge, he also wanted her to have this moment.

He grabbed her face with one hand and smacked her ass with the other causing her to jump but he saw her eyes only got darker. "You're the boss." He gave her one last kiss before she finished undoing his shirt. Using her tongue, she licked a trail down his body, leaving small hickies on his abs. he leaned against the counter and watched her sink to her knees before him. He could cum from the sight. Her small fingers undid his belt as her beautiful hungry eyes stared up at him. He rubbed his knuckles over her check as she pulled the zipper and pulled his pants down his hips.

"Fuck, you are so beautiful."

She winked and pulled his boxers down, "I know- Oh my Jesus!"

He chuckled taking in her reaction to his rock-hard dick. She had never seen it up until this point.

"Still want to do this?"

She swallowed nervously, her confidence wavering.

"It's okay Rey we can-" just like that her lips were wrapped around the head. "Fuck!" he sank his fingers into her hair holding tight. He wasn't one to brag but his cock was huge, by far the biggest Rey had ever seen. Slowly she moved her head forward taking him deeper, she was only halfway down and her mouth was full. She looked up and saw his head back shoulders shuddering. Rey hollowed her checks and sucked hard watching as he gritted his teeth. "God, Rey!"

She pulled off and took him in her hands, a string of saliva connecting her lips to his dick. The sight alone sent Kylo into a frenzy, but her words did the most damage. She smirked up at him as she pumped his erection. "Say my name. God has nothing to do with this remember?"

"Oh you want to go there?" he snarled and grabbed her chin forcing her mouth open and shoving his thumb in. "Suck. Rey." He drawled out her name on purpose just to egg her on. She did as asked and sucked his thumb as she kept moving her hands, pre cum dripping out. He withdrew his thumb and replaced it with his cock shoving it in, his hand pushing the back of her head. Rey gaged and her eye lids fluttered. He stilled letting her relax around him. He knew he wouldn't be able to hold out long with the way she was looking at him and the way her lips felt. She started again bobbing her head on his length. It took everything in him not to hold her face and fuck her senseless. He would warm her up to that, didn't want to scare her.

She was sucking and twisting and moaning her sweet mouth on his cock. Even though she was the one on her knees she felt like she had control over him. She tilted her head and drove him to the hilt watching him stiffen and groan. "Rey I'm going to cum very fucking quick if you do that again." And to spite him she did it again and again. "Rey! Fuck!" her tongue licked up and down his length accepting the taste of his precum before swallowing him whole again. Two more pumps into her throat and he grabbed her hair so tight, "IM going to fucking cum in your throat if you don't stop!" she didn't stop. She wanted to prove it to him. He came with a shout and grunt unloading into her mouth and she swallowed every drop only chocking a little bit. When he pulled out and saw the slobber on her chin, he could have done another round. Instead he quickly fixed his pants and hauled her off the ground and into his arms.

She blinked at him bashfully unaware of how disheveled and sexy she looked.

He searched her face for any regret and when he found none, he kissed her again, replacing the taste of his cum with his mouth. He pulled her bottom lip between his teeth as he withdrew. "You devil woman." His voice was low.

She giggled and hid her face in his bare chest. "Had enough sin for one night?"

"Not nearly." He hauled her up over his shoulder and slapped her ass. Causing her to shriek.

"Hey I can walk!"

"Not after what I'm about to do to you." he smacked her behind again as he carried her up to his room.

Xxx

The light was coming through the window falling across their naked bodies and the black sheets. Rey stirred first and slowly opened her eyes looking at the naked beast of a man beside her. Last night he had eaten her and fingered her to high heaven more times then she could count. And he was right, her knees were so wobbly she could barley walk. She blushed as she looked him over. He was laying on his back, hand resting on his stomach and sheets at his hips. That's when Rey noticed the markings covering his body. She had seen him shirtless before but only at night or dim lighting. Now with the bright morning sun she saw every missed scar.

Attentively she reached out to touch the biggest one going down his side. Suddenly his hand shot up grabbing her wrist stopping her. His face was void of emotion as he looked at her.

She looked away, like she had been caught hand in the cookie jar. "Sorry…"

He sighed and pulled her hand to his side placing it on his scar. "Not many people get to see these." She studied his face carefully watching his eyes close as she spread her fingers over the rigid scar. He really trusted her, this was the most vulnerable she had seen him.

"Whys that?" Rey was treading dark water.

"Because they each have a bad story behind them."

His body was stiff under her hand. "If you ever want to tell me ill listen."

He finally opened his eyes and stared her dead in the eyes. "You asked me if I killed people in the army."

Her breath hitched and she tried to pull her hand away but his was still around her wrist keeping her there. "I got this scar the day we ambushed a house. That day alone I killed three people."

Again she tried to pull away but he moved her hand to another scar, "Kylo-"

"This one was from a war prisoner fighting me, I killed him, slit his throat." His face was void. Rey realized he wasn't looking at her, he was looking through her at something from his past.

"This is where I got shot, when I returned fire, I put a bullet in his skull."

Rey started to feel sick. She wasn't ready for this conversation. "Kylo, please let go of me."

His grip only tightened, and he moved her fingers over another. "Kylo!" she shouted tears welling in her eyes. She didn't want to hear another one. She said she would listen, but she didn't expect him to be this static and it was soul crushing. She was glad he trusted her, but she could tell his mind wasn't in the present.

Her shouting his name brought him back and he instantly let go seeing his red fingerprint, shock him to the core. While Rey had a troubled past, so did he. Kylo slid out of bed and walked backward to the bathroom. "Rey I'm sorry… I need to shower."

"O-okay."

The sight of her in his bed holding her wrist to her chest, sadness in her eyes nearly crushed him. He didn't see fear, just sadness. He retreated into his bathroom and showered replaying what had just happened. He needed to tell her; it was only fair considering what she has told him. He just couldn't right now.

Rey hadn't left she bed she was waiting for him to come out so they could have a calm conversation. She was worried about him; she did not fear him but feared what hold his past had over him. Instead when he came out fully clothed, he gave her a quick kiss on the forehead saying something about needing to go to the office. He couldn't even make eye contact with her. And just like that he was gone, leaving her alone with her troubled mind and now her worries over him.