"Kiss me, Kylo Ren."

The air was thick, its as if time stopped. He leaned down and captured her lips in his. This kiss felt different to both of them. The way her lips moved slowly against his and the feeling of his face in her hand. The pieces were falling into place, but she wouldn't admit it. Everything felt so right in that moment. He was kissing her so gently, not with passion but with something softer. Rey was the first to pull away and Kylo rested his forehead on hers breathing heavy.

"Kylo?" she was still stroking his cheek.

"Hmm?" he turned his head and kissed her palm.

"Will you take off your shirt?" he stiffened at the request. Rey stood up on her toes to kiss his forehead and brushed her other hand through his hair. Her touch comforting him. "I just want to see you. You are not the monster you think you are."

He sighed and stepped back, unbuttoning his shirt. He knew she was wrong. He had so much blood on his hands he could still see it. Not to mention the dirty work he did for the family business. Maybe she was denying herself the truth, or maybe she was just truly innocent and didn't understand. Kylo didn't want her to understand. He wanted everything to stay like this, blind to reality.

His shirt fell to the floor and Rey reached out taking his hands on hers. "You know what I see?"

Her tender touch stole his breath. "What do you see, Rey?"

"You. Not what you have done, just you."

He yanked her hands pulling her into him. His lips descended upon hers, this time with a hunger. Rey was the cure to his misery. Her touch a drug; her words became the blood in his veins. Everything he ever wanted and needed was here.

Rey returned the kiss with a soft fire, letting her hands roam over his torso. Every dip and line becoming a map for her fingers to discover. A soft sigh left her lips as his own moved down her jaw to her neck. Together still entwined they moved back into the bedroom, kissing and touching whatever skin was available. The bed was pressed against the back of her thighs and Kylo was pulling his shirt over her head. Once it was gone, he took in the sight of her. As if it was the first time seeing her, naked in the moonlight. With careful hands he pushed her hair away from her face. "You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen." She blushed and bit her lip. Rey still wasn't used to the praise, compliments and cute names he gave her. She moved her hands to his belt and undid it.

"And you are the most beautiful man I have ever seen." She wasn't lying. She started placing wet kisses across his heaving chest as she pushed his pants and boxers down. This was the first time she had seen him naked. Even his legs had scars.

"Still think I'm not a monster?" his voice was a low rumble.

"Not at all. Just a man." She grabbed his arm and pulled him onto the bed on top of her. He rested on his hands above her taking in the sight. This was it, its over for him and he knew that for sure now. The way she was smiling at him. No one else existed. His lips came crashing down on hers. Her lips parted for him and his tongue explored her. Her fingers dug into his back pulling him closer till their bodies were flush against each other. Balancing on one elbow he moved a hand to her breast, massaging it as he continued to kiss her. Her hips rose, grinding against his thigh. He groaned feeling her wetness on his skin. She only moaned and moved her lips to his ear. "Kylo, don't make me wait another night." The seduction in her voice was enough. He had been waiting because he wanted it to be special, well right now felt like a good time.

"Anything for you." he smiled and nipped her shoulder before reaching over. He grabbed a condom from the bedside table and leaned back on his knees. Rey was watching him with hooded eyes as her hands pawed at her own breasts. Fuck. Watching her touch herself like that was something else. He tore the condom open with his teeth watching Rey lick her lips. Her eyes followed his hands as he slid it on. Then he crawled back up to her watching her parted swollen lips. A hand snaked around her knee yanking her leg up around his waist. Rey leaned up stealing a kiss as she moved her other leg. The tip was poking at her entrance, she could scream from how desperate she was. But Kylo needed to do it his way, this was for him more so than her. Slowly his hips shifted, and he started sinking into her. Reys eyes widened and she moaned with each inch.

"Jesus, fuck Rey." She was tight and warm, felt so good. He buried his head in her neck as he sank ever so slowly. He didn't want to outright pound her, risk ruining the moment or hurting her. He grunted when he bottomed out, his shoulder shaking from the effort. Reys nails dragged down his back, her soft breaths warm in his ear. He stayed still for a moment letting her relax a bit before he started moving again. Each movement elicited some kind of heavenly sound from her. His thrusts were slow, filling her up. The way she whispered his name over and over. Her open-mouthed kisses on his cheek and jaw. This wasn't fucking. This wasn't sex. This was love making.

"You are perfect." He moaned bucking his hips a little harder. "So good to me." Once again, his lips were on hers, eating every sigh and whimper she gave him. He slid a hand between them and rubbed at her clit. He was a gentleman after all and wanted her to cum first.

"Kylo!" she cried out throwing her head back, exposing her neck. He bowed his head down and licked and sucked at her smooth skin. He could taste her arousal. Her hands were pulling and grabbing at him, she wanted more and more. To be one with his skin. This was too much. She could feel the stars in her eyes as he continued to move in her and rub her clit.

Rey. He whispered her name and that was enough she was Cuming and hard. The world kept spinning as so many emotions left her in that moment. The bliss was so good she felt like crying.

A second after her, Kylo was Cumming too, bottoming out and deep inside her. He watched her eyes, the colors of her irises drowning him through his own orgasm. As she came down her eyes fluttered close and he brushed his lips over her face, stroking her hair. She sighed peacefully, running her hands up and down his back. She wished she could stay with him forever like this, post orgasm glow. Forever wasn't very long because he shifted off her to go get a towel. He cleaned her up first and then himself before sliding into bed, pulling her into him. No words were said as she laid there slowly falling asleep to his caress.

Kylo smiled as he watched her sleeping face. This is what it feels like, to be in love.

AN: i literally only write hard core kinky sex. i think for my first time writing love making i did okay! btw i listened to Cellophane by FKA twigs on repeat writing this chapter