A Portrait for Caroline

Chapter 6

Caroline smiled as she entered the rave. There were a lot of cute and attractive boys there and they were all fighting for her attention. The Rave was in full swing when Caroline decided to let loose and dance with this jock boy. That's when she felt a pair of eyes on her. She knew for a fact that it was one of her friends checking up on her. Why couldn't they just let her let loose and have fun for the night.

After all she didn't need a baby sitter and she was in control of herself. She was more in control of herself than Stefan and Elena had been when they had switched it off. At least she wasn't going on a killing spree just yet, but that would change if any of her friends dared to cross her.

Caroline continued dancing not caring that one of her friends was obviously watching her. They could watch all they wanted it wasn't like she gave a flying fuck anymore. That's when she spotted Elena watching her.

Of course it would be Elena trying to watch her. Nice, sweet, poor, innocent Elena, who could do no wrong. Please Elena had screwed over both the Salvatore brothers without a second thought and she was the innocent one. Caroline would just have to find a way to get her off her back.

She got closer to the Boy's neck as she smiled at Elena. She let control of her blood lust for a single second letting Elena see the monster she could become. Elena looked about ready to stake Caroline herself until Caroline gained her control back and smiled at Elena.

"I'm fine." She whispered to Elena so she would receive the message as she gave her friend a wink and continued dancing with the boy.

Once Caroline got tired of dancing she went to the bar to order a shot or two. Unfortunately Stefan was also there probably waiting to flip her switch on just like everyone else. Ha. She would like to see him try.

She looked at Stefan with narrowed eyes as he lifted one of the two shot glasses he had just placed on the bar. She grabbed the shot and humored him by taking it. She took another shot and looked around for anything to distract her from Stefan. She found it in a girl who was wearing a ridiculous outfit.

"Well that's sure a look." She said.

"Don't be jealous." He said as she laughed.

As if anyone could look as good as her. Maybe this no humanity thing wasn't bad. For instance she could flirt with Stefan or Klaus or Enzo as much as she wanted to and not feel bad about it.

"You know you should smile more. You're hot."

"Oh thank you."

Now that she was done flirting it was time to get in further to his plan. She wouldn't let anyone flip her switch back on.

"Well obviously you're here to babysit me, but I've had less attractive babysitters. Granted they were old women and I was eight."

"I'm not to babysit you Caroline."

"Yes you are. You, Elena, Bonnie. You don't think I can live a normal Humanity less existence without killing anyone. And you feel guilty about being such a royal ass at my mom's funeral."

"You're right.I was and then when I came to apologize and tell you how I really felt you were gone."

She felt a sliver of something inside her, but she was forced to shove it back down. There was no way she would let Stefan get to her.

"And now I don't care" she said with a smile.

"But I do, so let me tell you how I really feel."

No. He couldn't do this to her. She knew if he told her how he really felt she would let it rush all back in. God, she hated this feeling.

"I said I don't care." She said with a little more edge to her voice.

She was breaking and he knew it.

"I like you Caroline."

"Stop-"

"I don't know when it became more than friendship, but it did. And it scared me so I pushed it away, but here we are."

She shook her head as the emotions tried to bubble their way back up. She didn't want this. If she let them come in then the reality of her mother's death would crash up on her and she couldn't let that unbearable pain come back. She wouldn't.

She shook her head at him and laughed. Maybe if she hurt his pride he would go the fuck away and leave her alone.

"Wow. See that wasn't so hard was it? Only took a couple of years. Cancer to devour my mom. Me to flip my humanity off, but you finally spit it out."

She could feel the anger pour through her. All he was trying to do was get her to be the poor defenseless Caroline he knew. Well that wouldn't work. She wasn't Elena.

"That's good. Anger. That means You want to feel."

Damn. He was on to her. She didn't want to feel anything!

"No Stefan. It just means that I'm pissed so leave me alone." She said trying to walk away.

She had to call Klaus. She had to get these urges to flip her humanity back on under control, but unfortunately Stefan wouldn't let her and pulled her back to him.

"Hey. Hey. Let it in. It will hurt. And you'll want to die, but I will be here. I will help you through this. But you have to give me a chance."

She looked at him. She didn't want to feel but all her emotions were trying to consume her at once. Maybe it would just be easier to give this up and turn it back on again. Everyone would be there to help her and maybe just maybe it wouldn't be as bad as she thought.

That's when Stefan did something that totally snapped her out of it. He reached out and grabbed her face gently stroking it.

"Please. Come back."

That's when she snapped out of it. How dare he do this when he didn't have the balls to do it when she was having a mental break down. He only did this when It benefited everyone else. It wasn't like he really liked her. Not like Klaus did. Klaus would have never tried to get her to flip the switch back on using her feelings for him. He would have waited patiently and respected her wishes unlike the people here who were claiming to be her friends.

That's what she had to do. She had to call Klaus and ask him for advice. She had to before she lost all of her self-control.

"You shouldn't have done that." She said slapping his hand away and now they all would pay.

Every last one of them.