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The clock read 12:57 AM. The game and the fact that they were all half naked completely abandoned. Each sat in their spot full of thoughts. It was supposed to be a fun night at school. But it turned into something completely different. The atmosphere was as cold and hard as the blue tiled floor they sat on.

(Newt's POV)

I shifted awkwardly in my spot, all eyes were now on me. "Well, what's your story?" Sophie questioned. I knew I couldn't back out of this one now.

"Oh boy. I don't know where to begin. I just… When I tell you my story I don't want any of you to see me differently. You have to promise me you won't act differently. Promise?" I nervously stated. This got their attention alright. Good job, Newt.

"…Newt? Are you ok? Why are you saying that?" Bella asked concerned.

"Do you promise?" I repeated.

"Pinky promise" Sophie said sincerely. Her reassurance was all I needed.

"My step-mom, Brenda, is quite an interesting person. You all know her. I live with her because my dad is never really home due to his business trips.

When she first moved in I absolutely hated her. Here is this white woman in her late thirties trying to be cool dressing in 90s clothes. I'm talking baggy sweats with matching zip up hoodie, a gaudy jewelry, and ridiculous hair styles. She just looked completely irresponsible. She wasn't and still isn't mother material. Anyway, I don't understand what my dad saw in her. Of all of the women he could have picked it was Brenda.

She moved in and got comfortable within days. She acted like it was normal, like she has always lived with us. She was very open and outgoing, trying to get on my good side. But she had her moments. She would sometimes act out of character. I couldn't quite place it at the time. She would also act very secretive sometimes too. Usually when she was acting out. It kind of went hand in hand."

I picked at the skin on my hand and fidgeted. My mouth was dry but I still managed to swallow and take a deep breath.

"Well one day, a few months in, my dad was home for a brief break before heading out to his next trip. At this point Brenda was better. I still wasn't very fond of her but she wasn't completely bad. It was a Saturday and they decided to go out for dinner, just the two of them. I didn't care. That meant I finally had the house to myself and I could eat whatever I wanted. That night was nothing out of the ordinary.

They left for the night and shortly after I called for some pizza. I went over to the living room to watch some TV but I couldn't find the remote."

Again I paused. I was now rubbing my neck and could feel my face was burning. No one said anything. Their eyes were curious but comforting.

"I searched the counter tops and the couch cushions but came up empty handed. That was really odd. It didn't make sense for it to be anywhere else except… Brenda. She was watching TV earlier, she probably brought it to her room by accident, again. I made my way to her room, which I usually try to avoid. Pushing the door open, I head to her night table. Still nothing. I check under the bed and between her pillows. The last place to look was the drawer of the night stand. I hesitated because I felt like I was invading her privacy but realized I had already came in and looked around anyway. I opened it and was disappointed to find the remote wasn't there either. I was so frustrated I slammed the drawer shut so hard the lamp fell over. That's when I saw it.

Taped to the lamp were pills. I later figured out that they were Adderall. I was so shocked in the moment I backed into her closet door. Something on the other side fell. I opened the door and on the ground was a box, whose contents were spilt. The box contained pills, lots of pills. All different colors, sizes, and shapes. It was all so overwhelming I shoved everything in the box and put it back where I assumed it went and put the Adderall back on the lamp and fixed it. I ran out of her room and slammed her door. I leaned against her door to catch my breath and calm my heart. Nearly calm the doorbell goes off and I realize it's the pizza guy. I made my way to the door and opened it.

"Hello, that'll be $16" He said.

"Here's $20" I handed the money to him.

"Thanks… Are you okay? You seem a little pale" He asked.

"Yeah I'm fine. Have a goodnight" I answered and went inside, not giving him a chance to question me further. I set the pizza on the kitchen table and ironically found the remote sitting there. I turned the TV on to cut the silence. I grabbed a slice of pizza and sat down. My mind was distracted by the meaningless program that was on but quickly slipped back to the pills.

I decided to go back to Brenda's room and take a pill from the bag on her lamp. I brought it back to my room. I sat on my bed and stared at the pill at first. I wasn't quite sure what I was doing or why I was doing it. Having that pill felt so wrong but so right.

So I took it.

At first I felt nothing. I thought it was a waste. But then everything changed. Almost as if I became a better Newt. An improved Newt. The Adderall helped me focus. With the focus came a new found confidence. And to this day I still take them anytime I feel hyped, anxious, upset, nervous, you name it."

I pulled my backpack over and pulled out the bottle.

"You don't need the pills to make you feel better, Newt. It's what we're here for. We are here for your support and wellbeing. We love you, Newt and in no way am I condemning you." Sophie spoke softly while everyone else nodded in agreement.

At this point I broke down. The hot tears rolled down my face. I had never felt so broken and loved at the same time. I only calmed when an arm came around me in embrace. It was Sophie's arm. And in that moment, I knew it was going to be ok.

Ok. So I know a lot of you want this to get dirty again but I hadn't planned on doing so. I want it to end sweetly. However, if I ever finish this and my other story I might just do another one where it is complete smut and nastiness for all you wonderful freaks ;p I do apologize for not updating, I hate people like me but I've had a lot going on in the last few months. Adulting is hard. Anyway, until I'm back, peace.