Authors Note: Well. You know, I'll take this as a lesson to write out the whole story before posting so I don't do this again. You all have waited way too long. I'm so sorry. I know those are just words and all of you probably forgot about this story by now. I can practically feel the pitch forks and torches from not updating. I own nothing. And have no idea when I will update again.
Bella's POV"Well I guess it leaves just me" I spoke up. With a deep sigh and a shift in posture, I began. "You all know I had a thing for Zach and we dated but you guys don't know the true story of why we broke up or why he isn't around anymore". I gulped. I dreaded this. I had hoped to never tell this story.
"You see Zach and I were doing well. In fact, we were perfect. We went on dates every week and hung out any chance we could get. Before we knew it things became really serious between us and we started to take our relationship to the next level. We started getting intimate". I paused to throw a glance at Troy, who had coughed at my last statement. I could feel my cheeks burning but continued. "One night we went on a date like any other time but it turned out to be the most memorable night of my life. We had gone out to dinner like usual but instead of going back to one of our houses like usual he surprised me by driving elsewhere. He drove us to a cliff overlooking the town. It was very private and very romantic. Since he had a truck he filled it with pillows and blankets for us to lay in and gaze at the stars. I honestly did not expect it at all. It was all so sweet… So very bitter sweet" my tone of voice shifted and I had to pause to recollect myself.
"Well as you can probably guess, we had sex that night. It was the most passionate thing I'd ever experienced. And it was also kind of awkward but from that night on for the next couple of weeks were filled with love making nights… Until one morning I woke up, well more like bolted out of Zach's arms only to puke in the toilet. At first I thought it may have been the flu I was coming down with, but when it occurred longer than a week without any signs of getting better, I assumed the worst. And I was right. After all three tests I had taken said the same thing, my world just seemed to stop and crash down on me" With a shaky breath I finally told them, "It turned out I was pregnant. So many things ran through my mind, so many emotions. I didn't know what to tell Zach. I didn't know how to tell him. The following day he came over to check on me and make sure I was holding up alright. As you guys could imagine I was nervous. I mean I was 16 at the time. I was so scared that I just blabbed it out. He stared at me. Gosh the way he looked at me is so hard to describe. It was a mix of confusion, anger, fear, joy, and something else that to this day I still don't know. Eventually he spoke to me. Told me he'd be there for me every step of the way and that we should book a doctor's visit for an ultra sound. He told me we'd get through it. That no matter what we could get through anything." I laugh, "Hmph, of only it were true.
"Another month had gone by, Zach was the only one who knew I was pregnant. We planned to tell our parents soon since I knew I couldn't hide the growing bump within me. We had gone to the first doctor visit and it went well. The second one was coming up when I started having thoughts. I told Zach that I was thinking of an abortion and that's when the fights broke out and the downward spiral of our relationship started. We fought for days. I even mentioned an alternative, that I'd give up the baby for adoption and that we were simply too young. But he was persistent. And he had convinced me that keeping the baby was the best thing to do and that we would make it through. I don't know how but he was the only one to ever keep me level headed and to see the other perspective. Our second appointment came up finally. I was getting ready and was excited because we were going to hear our little baby's heart beat." I took a sharp breath and with sadness continued, "Just before we were going to get ready an unbearable pain shot through my stomach. I began to bleed. It was all happening so fast it was a blur. I remember Zach rushing to my side and bringing me to the hospital before blacking out. When I woke up I was met with sad faces and that's when I knew the worst had happened. The doctor spoke 'There was a complication with your pregnancy…You lost the baby…I'm so sorry.' And in an instant I felt the world coming down on me and filled with anger and sorrow and pain. Zach and I knew there was no way we could work this out. We had been through too much. When we were out of the hospital it was a silent ride home. Tears down my face. I knew this was it.
"Bella" he said "I can't do this. After everything we went through. I don't know if we could ever possibly get past this. I love you but there's just too much pain now. I think it's best if we just go our separate ways." With that he hugged me and looked into my eyes with that same expression I couldn't describe. "I'm so sorry… Goodbye, Bella." And with that he drove away leaving me crying. I cried myself to sleep for weeks before finding myself again. I haven't seen him since then. But his words still resonate within me." I finished. Silent tears rolling down my cheeks. I didn't know I was even crying. In this moment I had never felt so free and safe telling them everything I just had.
One by one they all came closer to me and wrapped their arms around me, forming a group hug. This night turned out nothing like I had expected.
Alright well. I still want to add some more chapters to this. My Bella story was thought of over a year ago and I wanted to save it for last because I thought it was the best. Again thank you all for being the most patient readers ever. You all deserve boxes of cookies. Peace til next time.