Thinking out loud
Pairing: McRoll

Chapter - 4
Part of the Wind of change, One for Sorrow series..
24 hours in the life of McRoll - Valentines Day edition.

8:00pm
Rollins-McGarrett Family Home

It was nearly eight in the evening when they got home from the cemetery and the shrimp truck. Walking into the house, Catherine took her shoes off at the time and closed the door, locking it once Steve had come in after her. "The weather seems to have improved if you want to have dinner out on the lanai". It was still a bit cloudy and overcast, but the rain had stopped and there was a nice breeze outside.

"I'm up for that", Steve answered smiling softly as he patted Eddie on his way past.. "Hey there boy, you been good while Mom and Dad have been out.. Of course you have haven't you boy". He made his way out side while Catherine got two beers from the fridge and brought a couple of paper plates and forks out for them.. He chuckled softly, "I see you didn't want to have to mess around with cleaning I see, is that so we can spend more time on other things?'

Leaning in as she sat down, she kissed him, putting down one of the beers near him, "Something like that". There were a million other things she had her mind on and they all revolved around the same thing.. Opening the containers the two shared the meals they had purchased, and once the dishes were put onto their paper plates, and Steve had opened their beers, he held his up to Catherine, and she smiled, taking hers in her hand, "This has been an amazing day, I'm not sure how you are going to top it next yet, but as long as I'm with you, it can be a low key or as big as you want, cheers Sailor".

Keeping his drink held up, he smiled listening to her words, "I'll echo that… It's been a perfect day.. I think it's the first Valentines Day we have spent together without being interrupted at some point or another.. and the best part is.. We're engaged.. I know we took the long road to get here, but we are here finally. I can't wait for the next chapter in our lives, and to finally be able to be your husband, cheers Lieutenant.. the best is yet to come".

It had taken them many years to end up here and he did occasionally wonder what could have been if they had not waited and gotten married earlier, but he tried not to think too much of that because that was the past and this was their present and future they were celebrating.. He could never imagine having this day with anyone else except Catherine, she was the only one that made sense to him, the only one he could see growing old with.

The way that he smiled at her, the seductive looks he always seemed to give her even when they were working just made her body shiver with a desire that she had never felt with anyone else.. It was Steve and Steve alone that set her heart on fire and made her want things with him that she would never consider with anyone else. Marrying him was an honour, and she knew she would break so many hearts on the island when word got around they were engaged to be married but she never worried about them.. The only person that concerned her was her and Steve.

He clinked his beer bottle against hers and smiled softly, both of them pulling their bottles away at the same time to take a sip.. "Now, Commander", Catherine said rubbing her hands together, "let's eat because I'm starving".

After dinner, Steve had a surprise set up for her… He had managed to get a hold of some fireworks and so he lit them and the two of them watched them go off in the sky, laying on a blanket near the water, just content to watch and snuggle with each other.

9:30pm
Rollins-McGarrett Family Home.

An hour and a half later and they were inside, rubbish disposed off and Steve took out the trash to the bin outside while Catherine made sure that Eddie's food and water bowl was topped up. Eddie reminded her of one of the military dogs she had worked with before and the dog she had in her own youth, she was called Lady from the movie lady and a tramp. "Go on Eddie", Cath encouraged, seeing that he was eyeing off the water bowl. "Good boy", she patted him as he began drinking from the bowl, and then she stood up, washing her hands when she felt a body behind her.

"I'm a good boy am I?", he smirked chuckling as he used the hand sanitiser to clean his own hands after taking the trash out. Shaking her head with a grin on her face, she laughed.. "Well, I was talking to Eddie, but yes Steve.. you are a good boy too for doing your chores". Turning the tap off, she reached for some paper towels to dry her hands off and then put them in the bin that resides in the kitchen.

"Mmm and what do I get as a reward for being such a good boy", he had a smirk on his face, knowing what she already had in mind, but wanting her to say it. There was never any issues with sexual chemistry between the two of them, the first time they ever made love back in Washington was a night he would never forget.

Turning to face him, she wrapped her arms around him, getting up on her toes a little and kissing him deeply, smiling softly when she pulled away, her hands moving to her zipper, keeping her eyes on him when she pulled the zipper down and then unbuttoned the button, "I think you know exactly what your reward is Commander McGarrett". She wriggled out of her shorts, manoeuvring herself around so she had her back against the bench in the middle of the kitchen, her lacy white underwear staying in place as the jean shorts fell to the ground.

Eddie could sense his owners needed time alone and went into the living room and curled up in the bed that Steve had brought for him not long after he came to stay with Steve.. Steve's eyes never left Catherine however when she pulled off the flannelette shirt she had, followed by the white tank top she had worn under it, leaving her in a matching bra and panties set. His mouth watered like a man dying of thirst and in desperate need of water and almost immediately, he could feel himself growing harder..

"Ohh my, well Lieutenant Rollins, I think I'm a little overdressed her all of a sudden". He chuckled, watching her as she lifted herself up onto the counter, letting her legs rest on either side of the sink, "Now that I can agree with Commander". As she continued to watch to see his reaction, she slowly began to slide one of her hands sensually down her body till she reached her panties, her hand sliding inside, fingers rubbing her clit, moaning softly, her breathing getting heavier..

"You gonna join me or just watch this evening Sailor".

She liked teasing him, and they both liked teasing each other.. It was part of their special connection, that bond that allowed them to be playful with one another. Taking a breath, he began to unbutton his shirt, and let it fall to the floor, moving the few steps closer to her, smirking with the knowledge that she had boxed him in with her legs.. His hands sensually running up her legs from her knees gripping her at the waist and pulling her forward an inch, "Mmmm, I'm really enjoying the show Ma'am but if it's at all possible, I really hope there is audience participation", he whispered softly, licking her lips with his tongue.

As he said that, he kissed her deeply, his body pressing against her chest, one of his hands coming around to her back, his fingers unhooking her bra strap, his lips slowly moving to her neck, her head tilting to the side to give him better access, his other hand sliding down her hips and to her thigh. Her breathing hitched at the soft wetness of his tongue moving down her sweet spot on her neck, "If this is what the audience participation is going to be like, then bring it on Sailor".

Her fingers continued to move around her clit, only pulling away for a moment to let the bra slide off her shoulder and down her arm, the moment the offending garment was off, her hand was back in her panties, leaving a wet patch on the satin. He chuckled, his lips staying on her lips, but dragging their way down her neck and to the front of her throat, his arousal growing, feeling a little uncomfortable in his pants, but wanting to take care of his fiancé first before doing anything else.

"Mmm I'll bring it on Cat, don't you worry about that". He rarely used that name for her, it was either Cath, Catherine or Lieutenant, it was usually only during sex that he called her that name, and it was always a huge turn on for her, the way he said it, voice low, soft.. His fingers hooking into her panties and slowly pulling them down, Catherine lifting herself up a little to allow them to slide off, her legs moving off the edge of the counter to let them fall completely off her and onto the floor, his hand spreading her legs apart, as his head moved further down, kissing and sucking on her breasts, taking his time to give them both attention.

"Ohh Steve, god, stop teasing", he smirked at there words and let a chuckle out, his tongue trailing down her belly button, his body moving down further into a crouch, his lips pressed to her thighs, kissing and sucking, his fingers sliding inside her entrance, her upper body leaning back, her hands supporting her on the bench. "So wet for me", he whispered, in part to himself but he knew that she could hear that.

Finally his lips and tongue had finally found her entrance, his tongue edging it's way over her swollen clit, her body trembling as he sucked and licked his way around her wet tightness.. One of her hands moved to his head, gripping his hair gently, her hips bucking up.. No other man's mouth or fingers had ever managed to find their way this far south, so she never had any other comparisons, but she couldn't fault Steve's technique, he was flawless and always made her feel so wanted and loved whenever he went down on her.

"Mmm Steve, god, yess, don't stop". Catherine's eyes closed, her head falling back a little, her body shaking a little, his fingers sliding inside her, thrusting in and out, his tongue and lips sucking and licking her, his own eyes closing, a soft moan escaping his own throat, fingers gripping onto her thigh tighter, her breathing increasing, panting a little, hips bucking up against his mouth.

Starting to move his tongue a little quicker against her clit, his fingers thrust into her harder, her breasts bouncing a little, her hand still gripping his hair tight, "Ohh shit, Steve, ohh god, I'm close, please baby". At that moment, he sucked on her clit harder, finding her g spot with his tongue and her whole body trembled, using her hand that was holding her up to grip the table, her orgasm taking over hard, shaking, her breathing coming in short pants, moaning his name over and over as he lapped up her juices, swallowing her down, her body still trembling as she came down from her orgasm.

As he withdrew his fingers, his tongue moved to lick up the juices from her thighs and then he slowly sensually kissed his way back up to her lips, his hand already working on his belt, unbuckling it, Catherine's lips kissing back, her own hand moving to unzip his pants, "Need you inside me Steve, please now". Though she had just experienced an orgasm, she was most definitely not ready to stop, she always had the stamina to keep up with her man.

Sliding his jeans down his legs, he stepped out of them and let them poole at his feet, he pressed his body closer to hers, his arm wrapping around her body, holding her close to him, his free hand guiding his erection to her entrance, biting her lower lip gently, "I love you Catherine", he whispered in a low voice, slowly sliding inside her, inch by inch, "I love you too Steve", her arms wrapped around his neck, her legs moving from where she had them resting to wrap around his body, her breathing increasing a little, throbbing at the feeling of him entering her.

Once he was fully inside her, he began to move slowly, his breath even and deep, kissing her sensually, and passionately, his muscles clenching with each thrust he made, though they weren't in a bed, he wanted to slow things down and make love to her, wanting to take his time and just revel in these emotions. Catherine's hand slid up to his hair fingers tangled in his hair, one hand remaining around his neck, Steve pulling away from her lips to gaze into their eyes, the only sound was from the table creaking, the sound of skin slapping against each other and their soft moans and heavy breathing, noses touching, their warm breathes mingling together.

"Hmm, Cath, ohh you feel so good baby", his words were soft, filled with passion and arousal, his breathing getting heavier, instinctively beginning to speed the movements up a little, one arm supporting her back, the other gripping her hip as he rolled his hips, Catherine pressing closer, her own hips rocking against his, matching his speed, her body still high from her first climax, she knew she wouldn't last much longer, her body aching for him to fill her up, "Ohh god Steve, yess ohh god yess".

Their bodies began to rock together, moving harder and faster, their breathing getting heavier, both moaning loudly, Catherine's heels nearly digging into Steve's back, his lips moving back to her neck, licking and sucking, being sure to not give her a hickey there though, and then moving back to her lips, her moans being swallowed by his tongue sliding in her mouth, panting hard, her eyes closed tight and gripping onto Steve's shoulders as she held on tight, feeling an explosion inside her, Steve pounding in, hitting her cervix, both of them cumming at the same time, Steve groaning, pulling her closer into his arms, Catherine's low moan, making her shudder when he ejaculated inside her, her own fluids spilling out, slowing their movements, Steve purposefully making slow short jarring movements, gazing into each others eyes, and tried to catch their breaths.

"In all the places we have ever had sex, this is a first.. First time we have ever had sex in our kitchen", Steve couldn't help but mention to her.. They had sex in a few different places in the house, but he was right, never before had they had sex in the kitchen because usually there was always someone else home and never the two of them. "Mmm you are right, first time for everything Sailor", She leaned in and wrapped her other hand back around his neck and kissed him deeply, moaning softly, feeling him slowly pull out of her.

It was now nearly eleven in the evening, and they were both sated, tired but really happy.. It had been one of the happiest and most memorable Valentines days they both had ever had.. Kissing her softly, closing his eyes, he sat her up and held her closer, "Let's get cleaned up and head to bed, It's big a big day for us and I'm looking forward to falling asleep with you in my arms, and then being able to tell the team tomorrow that we are finally engaged".

Smiling softly, she kissed back, and cuddled into him, "I know I've said it so many times, but thank you for making this day so perfect Steve". He chuckled, and pulled away, letting her slowly stand, still holding onto her knowing she would be a bit dizzy afterwards. "Thank you for letting me make it so perfect Cath". He leant down and picked up their clothes, letting Cath put on his shirt while he put on his briefs and nothing else, then made sure the house was locked up, the alarm was turned on before heading upstairs to get ready for bed.

12:00am - Midnight
Rollins-McGarrett Family Home.

The two of them had showered together, not being able to help having another round in the shower and were now tucked into bed together. "I want a nice quiet wedding, with just our families and closest friends, maybe either here at home", Catherine was laying on the bed, her hair dried and was leaning on her elbow, her hand resting on her cheek as she talked to Steve, her eyes blinking a few times in succession, Steve chuckling at how sleepy she looked, and how much he adored seeing her this way.

"So you don't want a huge wedding? Don't most women want a big fancy wedding?", He knew most little girls dreamed of their wedding day as a child and he was surprised that she didn't have a huge big wedding she wanted to plan on the island. "A lot of women do, but honestly Steve.. when have I or you for that matter done what /most/ people do.. Our wedding day is to join together as one, to become a family of our own, you, me and Eddie and one day, our children and to celebrate with our Ohana".

Her fingers were splayed out on his chest, over his heart and it made her feel at peace being able to feel his heart beating, "I don't need to prove anything to anyone, and sometimes I think that any woman or man who wants a big flashy wedding is trying to prove something or compensate for something".

The more he thought about it, a wedding here.. in their own backyard.. It was where their lives became intwined, the first time he ever chose to live with a woman besides his mother and sister was right here with Catherine, in the house that he was brought him from the hospital too, the house his mother and father made a home..

Steve had made a life for himself when he came back to the island ten years ago, he choose to stay and from nothing, he built a family for himself with people he cared for and trusted with his life.

It made him feel safe and loved knowing that Catherine was now apart of that, and he wanted to make her happy, and he had been willing to give her the most extravagant wedding she could possibly want, but it warmed he is heart knowing she really just wanted a day here in their home with their family.

His arms were wrapped around her, hands rubbing her shoulder, laying on his back and looking at the ceiling as he spoke, "I'm happy if you are happy Cath, and I'd be honoured you want to use our beautiful family home and the amazing backdrop we have out there in the backyard to get married, then I'm all for it.. I couldn't think of anything better suited for us, low key and beautiful".

Turning to face her, he chuckled at the sight before him.. As he had been speaking, she had finally drifted off to sleep, her hands still resting on his chest.. He reached over and turned the lamp off and kissed her forehead, "Goodnight Catherine, I love you", he whispered softly before he settled down and found himself quickly dozing off as well.

5:00am
February 15th 2020
Rollins-McGarrett Family Home

The alarm went off promptly at five am in the morning.. Usually he wasn't one to dawdle or fall back asleep, but his morning, he reached over, not bothering to open his eyes and just going off memory slammed his hand down on the snooze button. The two of them were tangled in the sheets, legs entwined, hands laced, and he couldn't help but smile softly even in his half-asleep mind, and with his eyes closed, he could sense her there..

The nightmares seemed to have faded a little.. The more he slept beside her, the better he got over time with the nightmares.. He always had the same reoccurring ones, Freddie and his father's deaths, Joe's death and now his mother's death, but Catherine always seemed to pull him out of it, even if she was still half asleep, he could sense her kiss on his forehead, or her hand taking his and squeezing gently till he came out of it..

She never tried to wake him, she had read a bunch of research about PTSD, and how people that suffered from it often had nightmares.. It spoke about how you should never wake someone having a nightmare even if you thought you were rescuing them because of the fact it would take a few moments for the dreamer to adjust to the waking world and they might not be able to get back to sleep, so she had read techniques on how to calm Steve through his nightmares so he wouldn't wake, but he knew she was there.

He did the same thing for Catherine, and it always felt like they were both attuned completely with the other, it was as if they were made specifically for each other, like god had always intended for these two souls to meet.

Turning onto his side, he smiled softly, blinking slowly awake to let his eyes adjust to the dim light in the room from the sun slowly rising in the east, as his eyes fulled adjusted, he couldn't help but spot a gleam of light, and when looking down, he noticed Catherine's hand where her ring was now beautifully displayed on was resting on his arm..

Looking down to gaze upon it, he couldn't believe this ring, the one he had brought all those years ago, the one that sat in the box for what felt like forever, hidden in the safe was now on her finger.. She was no longer just his girlfriend, she was his fiancé, his future wife, and future mother of his children.

Ten years ago, in the weeks leading up to his arrival back to his island home, he didn't think he could have this, he never felt deserving, and never envisioned this is where he could, or would be ten years down the track, but now that he had it all, he knew he was going to hold on tight and never let her go. "Mm want me to swim with you this morning?", came her sleepy tired voice, a yawn breaking through her words. He chuckled, and again thanked his lucky stars that he had found love and happiness in his life, "No, I think for once, I'm going to skip my swim and sleep in with you". Nodding her head, she was back asleep before she could even respond, "I'm right here where I belong", he whispered softly, kissing her lips softly, continuing to just watch her sleep peacefully.

Author Notes:
Thank you one and all for the amazing support and love I keep getting. I feel this is one of the sweetest, cutest, sappiest and romantic stories I have ever done, but I love love love it.. I've truly loved doing this story, it's been a joy and a pleasure to give you guys as much lovin from McRoll as I can. I really really hope you enjoy this extra long chapter four, I've got chapter 5 to do which is the five-o reactions and then I was thinking I might do a reaction post from all the Hawaii five-o kids as well, like Grace, Charlie, Sammie, Will, Sara, even if it's in the form of a text or something like that.

SteveMcGarrettLover:
I am sooo happy you enjoyed this chapter, I thought that would go over well with you, telling both sets of parents.. We all know Steve has visited John a lot and now John and Doris, so it's plausible he would go them for that kind of news. I will be writing the teams reactions and I might do a chapter 6 where the Hawaii five-o kids react as well.. I really hope you enjoyed the evening chapter as well.