"Baby I don't understand this, you're changing—I can't stand it. My heart can't take this damage and the way I feel—can't stand it…" —Changes by XXXtentacion

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Chapter 36:

Mikage felt terrible with the outcome with his brother and how it left Ayanami feeling. What a disaster, he thought. He wanted their family to get along with his lover. Sure, it wasn't the easiest thing to acknowledge but they had no right to judge after all the hardships the two went to.

"Don't wear such an expression." A cold voice called out to him from the other passenger seat. The blond turned his attention towards Ayanami.

"B-but… that wasn't how I was expecting things to turn out…"

"What did you expect?" The silverette spat which made the other feel even worse.

"…Sorry."

"I didn't mean it like that." Ayanami softened his tone and patted the blond's head.

"Ayanami-san, I know my brother said some insensitive things, but he really isn't a bad person…please don't hate him." The elder was silent at that. He didn't care about others or their opinions, so he didn't exactly feel hate or like towards anyone.

As soon as they entered the house, Ayanami swerved Mikage around and kissed him passionately to pick up from where they left off. The blond got the message and tumbled backwards towards the living room couch. The silverette wasted no time and instantly striped him. The teen didn't mind, and lay soundly on the sofa, heartbeat rising but mind somewhere else. While Ayanami worked on his chest and stroked his length, it became apparent to the blond that his mind wasn't even focused on the present.

"Ah! Mh…" His body was responding automatically on its own, but he wasn't feeling the usual heat of the moment at all.

The chief rolled Mikage on his side and hardly poked a finger in his back when he heard a loud sniff.

"Mikage-kun?" Perplexed, the elder stopped everything and cupped his lover's face with both his hands. "I didn't do anything yet…"

"No, I'm sorry it's not that…" The teen collected himself.

"What's the matter?"

Mikage let out a breath in an attempt to stabilize himself and began rambling. "I don't know… just, all the events from today were finally catching up to me. It was going so well and then…" Ayanami quietly listened, full attention and gaze on the younger. "Ayanami-san, I really didn't like the way I left Kokuyou-nii—his face that time…I really want to set things straight with him. We never fought like that before—it hurts me a lot—"

The silverette couldn't hold back clicking his tongue too noticeably. He couldn't have this—Mikage thinking about someone else non-stop while he was with him. He needed to take care of this predicament immediately, but clearly getting rid of Kokuyou wasn't an option here. "What would you like to do then?" Ayanami posed instead. "Do you want me to invite your brother here?"

"…actually…" Mikage threw his eyes away for a brief moment. He was almost certain the elder wasn't going to agree with this.

"What is it?"

"…I was wondering if I could go back home to resolve things…" Well, he did it. Now to look at Ayanami's face…

"What?" The elder's face was just as stunned as the other foresaw it to be.

"He needs time and I need time to make him understand. Please,"

The silverette couldn't believe what his ears were registering. He exuded a sigh. "You want me to believe that?"

"Yes!" The teen convinced with continuous nods. "Just give me some time, I can make him come around—I swear, Kokuyou-nii isn't stubborn. I'm only asking to stay for a few days." Ayanami physically turned away, legs now hanging from the side of the couch, not exactly willing to compromise but not denying it either. "Ayanami-san, please…" The blond leaned his face on the other's pale back. "It'll only continue to bother me…"

"Tsk." He had a point. If this was the only solution to turn things back to the way they were…then he didn't have an option but to approve of the blond's request. "…Three days. That's all I'm giving you. I'll personally come pick you up the third day—whether the matter has been resolved or not."

Mikage was shocked and speechless. "Ayanami-san thank you so much! I promise I'll work it out by then!" The teen impulsively hugged the other from behind. The silverette wasn't all that content –as spending even a day without his beloved was torture, but he wanted to trust him. He resorted to swinging the younger forward on his lap and kissed him once more.

"In that case, we don't have time to waste." The elder smirked, biting his neck. He only had the rest of today and tonight to love him as much as possible before Mikage departed the next morning. And that he did. The silverette didn't stop the entire night, loving, savoring and worshipping every inch of the blond.

Kokuyou was finishing his duties for the night, but for the first time ever, his brain wasn't in sync with his tasks. He walked around in a daze, reflecting on the day and his conversation with his younger brother. 'Perhaps he acted a bit hard on Mikage? But he couldn't understand why or how Mikage could fall in love with Ayanami, or vice versa.' The elder didn't realize where he was walking until a hand tugged the clothing on his back.

"Hey! You almost ran into that table. Where are you looking?" Shuri's familiar voice ran in his ears.

"Ah, Shuri-sama. My apologies."

"You okay? You're not acting like yourself." The younger blond expressed concerned.

"I'm fine. Sorry for worrying you." The butler smiled.

The next morning, as per usual, Ayanami was up and awake early. Mikage was aching all over and could hardly shift his hips in a position to sit up. He nearly called the whole thing off—which Ayanami wouldn't have minded—however he forced himself up for a shower.

"Need help?"

"Mh…" Mikage sulked, not sure to accept the offer or decline it. Nonetheless, Ayanami assisted him and lifted him up, carrying him to the bathtub. "Thanks."

"Don't take too long, my prince." The silverette pecked the other right under his jawline and exited the bathroom. The blond relaxed into the hot tub which relieved all his sore muscles. Eventually they were all set, Ayanami in his uniform while Mikage dressed in casual clothing. They drove to the Oak manor first.

The silevrette squeezed the younger's hand. He didn't want to let go. Why must he constantly part with his love? Mikage noticed that and offered a heart-warming smile. "I'll be back."

"You have to call me every hour, understood? I won't take any excuses." The elder demanded.

"Haha got it..." Mikage almost didn't believe him at first. "Thanks for the days off. Well see you then." The blond planted a chaste kiss on the other's lips before exiting the car with his bag.

"Take care of yourself." Ayanami called from behind him.

"Mn. You too—please don't give anyone a hard time. Be sure to eat and sleep properly too—even if I'm not there. And I'll be sure to call you—you won't even feel like I'm not around."

"Go on, I'll leave after I see you walk into the house." The younger nodded and shut the limo door, ringing the gate bells and getting past security. He turned around and waved one last time before the car drove off.

The moment he walked into the manor, he ran into Kokuyou, who was beyond astonished.

Mikage awkwardly smiled. "...hey."

"Mikage…? Hey, um, that is—is everything alright? Did you forget something?"

"Your blessings." The teen smiled. "Actually, Ayanami-san gave me a few days off just to resolve our argument because it was bothering me so much."

"I see. That's nice… Have you had breakfast?" Nevertheless, the elder blond was grateful to see his younger brother again and given a second chance. The younger nodded. "That was early—but then again, you are in the army, I suppose."

"Yeah and Ayanami-san just has a habit of waking extra early all the time."

"You live together?" The question was a direct one.

"Ah—yeah…" 'Crap, he wanted to take things slow.'

"I see."

Mikage didn't expect that to be the other's only response. 'Maybe he was willing to accept him?'

While Kokuyou was cleaning up and carrying out his morning tasks, Mikage tailed him like an apprentice. "Need help?"

"It's alright, I was just assuring the tasks were done."

"Got it."

"...So how long have you two been dating?" His elder brother asked after a pause.

"Ayanami-san? Um... two years, I believe." Kokuyou was marked speechless once again.

"That's an awful lot of time..."

"I hope that reassures you that he isn't just 'playing around.' You haven't seen the way Ayanami-san acts sometimes. He's obsessive."

That bit puzzled Kokuyou for a moment. "But I thought you were the one to confess to him?"

"Actually, he confessed first. To me."

"Is that true?"

"Yup."

This was beginning to get more confusing for the elder. Ayanami falling for his little brother? "How did you two meet? I mean of course you're in the army but I'm sure Ayanami-sama has better things to do than personally checking up on the students."

"Well…it all started from Teito—the friend I used to tell you about. He escaped the army and...I kinda helped him… From there I became a target of Ayanami-san. He wanted me to choose but I chose Teito. I ...almost attacked him and thinking back, he could've killed me then and there for betrayal, but his right-hand man was impressed with my audacity and convinced otherwise. From there out, Ayanami-san put me on strict house calls and had me join the Black Hawks to keep an eye on me. I don't know when it all started but gradually, I started seeing some dedicated praise-worthy sides of him... and you won't believe it but sometimes he has such a hard time expressing his feelings haha. I guess Ayanami-san also got to know me better." Mikage had a peaceful countenance as he continued talking. "I still don't understand what I did but he really wanted me and confessed to me. He doesn't hold back on stuff on like that." Kokuyou silently listened and studied the other as they walked down the hall.

"I see..." He uttered. "Are you really happy though?"

The blond nodded. "I won't lie, Ayanami-san thinks on a completely different level, so we've had some really tough times understanding each other. Sometimes I felt like I couldn't keep up anymore, but I'm beginning to believe that he's coming around. I still think it was a huge step for Ayanami-san to trust me and have me come stay here—wait what time is it?"

"Huh? It's 2:02 PM."

"Ah! I have to call him!" the teen panicked as he rummaged his pockets for his phone.

"Hm? Wouldn't he be busy around this time?"

"He said every hour—no exception!" The younger hit dial and excused himself. Kokuyou scoffed in amusement. 'Unbelievable. Mikage wasn't joking, he was obsessive.'

Kokuyou wore a serious expression again. While he didn't fully agree with the age difference between them, he did want Mikage to find someone that would be loyal to him, love him and would make him smile everyday of his life. So far, it would seem Ayanami had proven to be more than that. The other appeared to be thoroughly fixated and serious about the teen, provided for him, cherished him and was overly protective of him…

His elder brother watched Mikage return to the living space after fifteen minutes. "How was it?" He asked after Mikage made his tenth call of the day.

"Good, he just asked what I was going to do, and that he wishes I was there."

"Is that so? Tough for Ayanami-sama then." Mikage chuckled in response to that. "Have you taken a bath yet?"

"No why?"

"I was headed over to the open bath in the manor. Care to join me?"

"Oh! I haven't been there in ages—sure! Lemme grab my stuff first." With that Mikage dashed away into his room. Shuri had just arrived home and was walking down the hall when he happened to notice the two brothers holding small wooden buckets containing their towels, shampoos and the like.

"Are you guys headed to the bath? Hold on there, I'm coming too." The young master demanded.

"Yeah, invite yourself over, why not." Mikage joked.

Mikage and Kokuyou made small talk about the old times and just this and that as they soaked in the large steamy pool. Shuri washed his body and silently joined them as well, picking a spot right next to the elder blond. Without warning, the teen dumped his head on the other's shoulder, as if it was completely normal.

Miakge was amazed that 'the Shuri-sama' was leaning on someone else like that or acting vulnerable. The blond was so intrigued that he communicated with Kokuyou with his eyes and pointed a finger towards Shuri.

Kokuyou merely smiled in return. "He's like that somedays when he's had a long day."

"Hey, don't talk about me like I'm not here." An irritated but exhausted voice came out from the master.

"Kokuyou, do my back."

"Yes Shuri-sama." The elder stood up and sat on the edge of the pool right behind the teen who leaned his back in between the other's legs. Kokuyou poured some gel on his hands and began massaging the other's shoulders. Unbeknownst to him, Shuri's expression changed almost immediately. He was fighting a blush and closed his eyes to enjoy the treatment.

"More..." Shuri inaudibly murmured. Mikage awkwardly averted his eyes, with a feeling that he was missing something crucial in that moment but couldn't lay a finger on what.

To Be Continued…

Ayanami is so funny lol, love him. Go Mikage! That was a sweet move, saying "it'll only bother me…" He's finally using Aya's love to his advantage—about time. Oh well, let them have their fun (Aya's probably suffering at home alone with only picture frames of his blond—we'll see a bit of his side maybe next chapter). And lastly, we have another ship ready to sail…?