Chapter 8: Monster

Edward's POV

Ever since Alice had her vision I'd been eagerly anticipating the day I would come face to face with the thing that killed Bella. I'd spent the days plotting how I would murder it. I'd considered killing it on the spot but that seemed to easy. I'd lure it somewhere private. Somewhere where nobody would witness what I was going to do.

For the first time in years I felt true happiness. I would get the revenge that I had been longing for. The way I saw it I would be doing the world a favor. it was probably out there just killing people for fun. Slaughtering innocent humans the way it slaughtered Bella from the inside out.

The sound of the doorbell ringing drew me out of my thoughts. It was very strange because nobody ever came to our house. Especially since we'd only moved in a few weeks ago and hardly knew anybody. I had to get up and go answer the door. Right after work Carlisle was going to go hunting. Esme, Alice, and Rosalie had gone to the mall. Emmett and Jasper were gone as well. Some sporting event I think. So I was here by myself.

When the doorbell rang a second time I got out of bed and went downstairs to open the door. What I saw on the other side shocked me to my core. It was a girl that looked a lot like Bella. So much like Bella that at first I thought it had been her. There was a boy with her as well.

Then an odd scent hit my nose. It was neither vampire nor human but a mixture of both. It radiated out of both of them strongly. These two were different. Unlike any creature I had ever seen at first.

"Hi," she said. "I'm Renesmee and this is my friend Ryan. I ran into Carlisle either and he told me to come here later. Said he knew my mother and needed to talk to me. Is he here?"

I was frozen to the spot. To shocked too move. Now it all made sense. She looked like Bella Bella because she was Bella's daughter. Her scent was mixed because she was my...daughter.

Never, in all these years, have I ever once wondered if I had a son or a daughter. Never did Carlisle or Esme once wonder if they had a granddaughter or a grandson. Never did Emmett, Jasper, or Alice wonder if they had a niece or nephew. We'd always referred to that thing that Bella had been carrying as just that. A thing. A monster. An it. It had never been a person in our eyes.

"Well are you going to let us in?" I had to admit I loved her fearless attitude. I tried to read her mind and suddenly realized that, like her mother, I couldn't hear what she was thinking. The girl's heart was beating fast. Much faster than a human's. Her heart was beating. Her mother's wasn't. The thought alone filled me with anger once again. It, the monster, she was tbe reason that Bella was did.

For years I wanted nothing more than for the creature in front of me to be dead and for Bella to be alive again. So why was I suddenly hesitating? I could end her and this boy and nobody, except for my family, would be none the wiser about it.

"So what is your name?" she asked me.

I decided to humor the girl. "Sorry," I mumbled. "I'm Edward,"

"Well Edward are you going to let us in or not?"

"Sure. Come in," I said.

"Thanks," she said. "So where is Carlisle?"

"He should be home soon," Not that it mattered because she would be dead before he arrived. I wondered why Carlisle would send this girl over here.

"So your name is Renesmee?" Why was I even bothering to interact with her when I was just going to kill her soon.

"Yeah I know it's really unsual. You can just call me Nessie. Most people call me that instead because it's so much less of a mouthful,"

Nessie? It had a name. It even had a nickname. I shook my head.

"So Carlisle said that he knew my mother. Did you know my mother to?"

Anger suddenly rose up inside of me. She looked scared when I looked at her. I knew that my eyes must have been pitch black. How dare she mention her mother when she was the reason that her mother was dead! Even worse was that she called Bella her mother. She didn't have the right to call Bella her mother as far as I was concerned.

My lips started to pull back and reveal my teeth. I had entertained it for far to long. I should've killed it the second I laid eyee on it. Just like always said that I would. But before I did anything I looked into her eyes and again I hesitated. I couldn't read her mind but I didn't need to in order to know what she was thinking. She was scared.

It was not the emotionless monster that I had always envisioned. She was not a monster. She was a young girl. Only seven years old although she looked closer to seventeen. She was a girl. She was a person who had feelings. I could see from the tears that were forming in her eyes. She was a girl who didn't have her mother. Maybe it was true what Bella said all along. She was just an innocent baby that had no idea what she was doing. She couldn't control what was happening to her mother as a result of the pregnancy. I'd just been too stupid to believe otherwise.

It was not Renesmee's fault that her mother was dead. I wanted to somebody to blame even when there was no one to blame. No, if anything it was my fault. I drove Bella away. Maybe I could have saved her if she stayed. I could have transformed her myself. Even if I hadn't I would've still had my daughter.

My daughter was not the monster here. I was. In that moment I knew I'd spend the rest of my eternal life trying to make up everything I'd ever done and ever thought about doing. But I would always be the true monster.

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