Finn held the lightsaber in his hands as he sat waiting in the chair by her bedside. He had not left her side the second resistance soldiers brought her in after what had happened. It was the next day, early in the morning.
Poe had brought him food whenever it was time for everyone to eat, yet he barely ate anything. It was his fault she was unconscious and hurt. He couldn't help but remember how she stepped in front of his blaster shot.
He looked up at Rey, she was covered up with blankets and was receiving fluids for food and water so she wouldn't dehydrate while sleeping. Rey was positioned on her stomach because most of the damage had been done to the back of her should, on her shoulder blade. It was all bandaged up with gauze and wrap, after it was cleaned to make sure no infection would start up.
He never should've shot that powerful weapon when she was near his target, he knew there was a risk of hurting her, but never actually thought of it.
The fire fight after was quick but painful for Finn. After he shot Rey, he saw the rage in Kylo Ren's eyes. He was force choked and then sent through a crowd of resistance soldiers. It wasn't fun he was unconcious for two hours before waking up to the resistance cleaning up the mess that had been made.
Turns out after that, Kylo had order all troops to fall back and head back to their star destroyer, mainly because he was gunned down by nearly every opppsing soldier in the vicinity.
"You know sitting here won't make anything better Finn, she will find out what happened sooner or later." Leia's voice came from the doorway. Finn's didn't bother looking up, he didn't feel like being thrown under the bus and being told what he did was wrong.
"I don't understand what happened there, all I know is that I was aiming straight for Kylo Ren." Finn knew he was a good shot, when using a blaster, so how did he hit the wrong person?
Leia watched as the young man put the lightsaber on Rey's side table which was next to where her staff was sitting up against the wall.
"It was like she purposely got in the way," He gritted his teeth," Why would she put her life on the line for a murderous snake like Kylo Ren? It doesn't make sense."
To Leia it made sense, so far she was the only one who knew about the force bond between Rey and her son, Kylo. She had no business telling Rey's secrets to Finn, even if he is one of her closest friends.
"To you it might not." Leia said with a sigh, knowing he would never understand the bond between the two, let alone allow it to happen." You know how she is, questioning her actions should be for when she is ready to answer."
Finn looked up at the former princess. He couldn't help but give her a weak smile."I just don't understand, I am not the only one who saw it happen."
"I know," Leia gestured for him to exit the room." Let her be she will be fine, Rose wants to spend time with you, you need it." The ex stormtrooper smiled after realizing Rose had sent Leia down here to talk to Finn, yet it always works with Leia.
"When she wakes I will be the first to be notified and I will most certainly tell you and Poe when she does." The two left the room and headed down the hall. Finn would get his chance to apologize for the pain he caused her, right now he needed to rest himself.
XX
"Supreme Leader I do not understand the need for the-" Kylo spun around and forced General Hux into the wall behind him. They were currently in the empty meeting room.
"Did I hesitate or stutter?" He asked harshly. He stared into Hux's soul, he wished inside his head that his leader would put his helmet back on, he did not wish to look into the eyes of Kylo Ren at a time like this.
"No sir." Hux recovered himself, not daring to look back into those eyes." I just want to know the reason for summoning the Knights of Ren."
"I obviously can't trust one of my highly trusted Generals with commanding the First Orders operations." Kylo stood up straight with his hand on his saber hilt."The Knights of Ren would gladly take up the position of commanding the operations of the stormtroopers, acting as warlords to them."
Hux stood with his hands at his side, trying to avoid another force attack from his Supreme Leader."You have made it painfully clear that you wish to have operations and attacks ran through your authority before they are given the okay."
"And?"
"I will be sure to no disobey your orders again," Hux hid his scowl behind a blanket expression. He wasn't going to be replaced, not while he was still alive and breathing."But, may I ask you an honest and sincere question."
Kylo walked forward, towering over the man by a few inches." And what would that be?"
Hux prepared himself both mentally and physically for the result of his question."Why is the girl so important to you?" He looked away, waiting to be forced backwards into the wall again or force choked.
Kylo couldn't answer, if he did he knew it would be the end of him." You have seen how powerful she is, even if she chooses to believe that she is the light, I will make sure that the darkside will take her, she will be a great fighter with her on our side." He lied. In fact he wasn't entirely sure if that made any sense, it just slipped out.
"I see, do you still want the Knights of Ren to be summoned?" Hux asked.
Kylo nodded, "I need them anyway, if they are off doing their missions then let them finish whatever they are up to, after that have them aboard this ship. Do you understand?"
Hux nodded."Understood and I presume that you will want to be notified as soon as they are on board?"
"Yes, also you need to have your crew assess the damages done to my command shuttle." Kylo started for the door to the meeting room."And Hux, this is your last warning, no harm shall come to the girl." With that he left the general standing alone.
He must've zoned out while walking back to his quarters because for some reason he found himself in his refresher. Looking at himself in his new mirror, last night after returning he smashed it with his fist because of what happened.
Hux is lucky enough to get off with a warning, next time Kylo is sure to make it so he is no longer breathing.
Rey got hurt because of him, she got hurt because of that foolish traitor, and because of him. He sensed the traitors presence and him pulling the trigger of the wookie's weapon. Yet he did nothing about it, Rey stepped in front to protect him, why?
He looked at his scars, not only the mark left by the girl he wished so much to be beside, but all the various scars along his body. Some from early training, most from being punished by Snoke.
His body had not been given peace for years, he even had bruises from the battle from yesterday when a rogue resistance soldier threw their weapon into his side to cause as much damage as they could before meeting their end.
He remembered Rey's agonizing scream when she was force back after being hit, he even heard the sizzling of her skin being burnt upon contact with the blast. All he wanted to do was kneel down to see if she was okay, to tend to her wound but that dammed anger swallowed him up.
He can't control himself when that anger and hatred decides to go to his head. Kylo hadn't been able to connect with her through their force bond, assuming she was still unconscious from the day before.
All he wished to see was her face, to know she was okay, to ask her what she was thinking when she became a shield for him. This couldn't be good, how was the resistance going to see her now? There had been a large amount of soldiers who had seen Rey's act.
Its fine, she is fine. You are the Supreme Leader, you do not have to worry about this.
He shook his head as he growled at himself. This had gone to far for him, ever time he denies his feelings things always take a turn for the worst. If he could he would open up to Rey, but he can't he isn't strong enough, which is what he tried to explain to her. He didn't even get an answer from her because of the disruption.
XX
Rey's eyes fluttered open from the sunshine peering through the window cover, it lit up a small portion of her soft and beautiful face. She was tired and most definitely sore, her shoulder stung when she tried to lift her head.
She released a groan as a series of painful stings erupted through her burned wound. She quickly turned her head so she could try to see the damage done to her. From what Rey could see, her arm was wrapped down to her elbow, while the majority of her right shoulder blade was also wrapped tightly. It was the same arm Kylo's blade had barely cut, but it was still bandaged.
It took her a few minutes to recollect her thoughts to remember what happened. Finn, Kylo, and her, everything came back within those minutes.
"We have been waiting for you to wake." A soft and gentle voice said from the door. Rey couldn't exactly see who it was but she knew that sweat voice from anywhere. Leia." Everyone has been worried sick, mainly Finn, Poe, Chewie, BB-8 and me."
Rey smiled painfully, but it faded when Finn came to mind."Where is Finn?"
"He is okay, the majority of the resistance is a little shaken from what erupted after you were shot accidentally."
Rey watched as Leia pulled up a chair and sat down next to the young woman. She brushed the hair out of Rey's face in a comforting manner."He is really sorry, Finn doesn't understand why you did what you did."
Rey thought for a short moment,"I-I don't know either and I am sure that I can't come up with answer for anyone any time soon."
Leia smiled softly again, hers smile is soon warming and comforting."Lets deal with it later. How are you feeling?"
"Sore and it burns still even with the bandage touching the open wound, how bad is it?" Rey asked as if she didn't even want an answer to the question. It was painfully obvious how bad it was, if she was forced to be in a medical bed.
Leia sighed and looked at Rey's eyes." Its classified as a fourth degree burn, it went all the way down to the muscle tissue, but it did not go through which is a goos thing. The medical droids are working on your medicine right now, they know how important you are to the resistance. You will be healed enough in a couple days for you to get up and move, but for now you need to stay in bed and rest."
Rey smiled, but it faded when she thought about Kylo." Did anything happen to Finn?"
The old general nodded with a frown, Rey figured something did happen to her friend."He received a force beating from Ben."
"No, he didn't get it from Ben, he got it from Kylo Ren, not Ben Solo." Rey clarified. They may be one physical person but she knows they are two different personalities entirely."Ben would never do that."
Leia nodded in agreement, it was a very touchy subject for her son to be called two different names and characterized in such a way. She didn't speak with words only her nod for a response to Rey.
"He's being torn apart." Rey stated with a shakey voice. If anyone needed to know, it would be his own mother. Keeping it to herself made her feel guilty, she also had no clue on how to help him. Kylo refused to let her pull him to her side to get him out of the torment he suffering from."I can feel it whenever our force bond kicks in."
Leia looked into the young womans eyes, she saw the tears forming. It wasn't just thinking what he was going through she actually felt what pain he was feeling.
"He needs help but I don't know what to do, he calls out for help with our dyad yet he refuses to let me help him."
"My soldiers told me about yesterday, how calm he seemed to be with you infront of him physically." Leia began, she looked away and out the window." They were dumbfounded, I think we both know what needs to be done."
Rey watched at the old general turned back to her and smiled softly." Its dangerous for both of you, a scheduled encounter could mean another fight between the resistance and First Order, we cannot take another hit with what damage was dealt to us yesterday."
Leia wiped away a tear from Rey's soft cheek." Its all up to you."
"I don't...I don't think I would be able to reach him."
"I know," She sighed." Lets talk more about this in a few days when you are capable of standing, you already have been through so much you need rest."